
Chain Reaction
8th Wing [2]
Zoe Archer
Carina Press (2012)
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Product Description
Elite 8th Wing pilot Celene Jur was taken captive after a mysterious device temporarily disabled her ship's controls. Three solar months later, when Celene receives intel on the man who built the device, she's ready to get the bastard. Only problem is, the higher-ups think her mission partner should be Nils Calder, a tech-head who can understand the disabling device. The attraction between them is electric, but Celene needs a soldier who can watch her back as she exacts her revenge.
Nils knows his department is nicknamed NerdWorks. Pilots like Celene think the closest tech geeks come to combat is all-night Nifalian chess tournaments. But behind the NerdWorks insignia on his sleeve Nils is an able fighter, ready to prove himself and gain Celene's trust.
The desire between them is unexpected, but with the fate of thousands hanging in the balance, the hotshot pilot and the tech genius must succeed in their mission---no matter the cost.
43,000 words
Chain Reaction
By Zoë Archer
Elite 8th Wing pilot Celene Jur was taken captive after a mysterious device temporarily disabled her ship's controls. Three solar months later, when Celene receives intel on the man who built the device, she's ready to get the bastard. Only problem is, the higher-ups think her mission partner should be Nils Calder, a tech-head who can understand the disabling device. The attraction between them is electric, but Celene needs a soldier who can watch her back as she exacts her revenge.
Nils knows his department is nicknamed NerdWorks. Pilots like Celene think the closest tech geeks come to combat is all-night Nifalian chess tournaments. But behind the NerdWorks insignia on his sleeve Nils is an able fighter, ready to prove himself and gain Celene's trust.
The desire between them is unexpected, but with the fate of thousands hanging in the balance, the hotshot pilot and the tech genius must succeed in their mission---no matter the cost.
43,000 words
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Contents
Lieutenant Celene Jur wanted vengeance. And now she was going to get it.
She strode down the corridors of the 8th Wing Base, adrenaline pumping through her body. As she walked, soldiers and pilots hurried out of her path---they knew when the fire gleamed in her eyes, nothing stood in her way. That's how she'd gotten through the grueling Black Wraith training in only sixteen solar months. Only Commander Kell Frayne had ever surpassed her record. He'd completed training in ten solar months, but her old friend was as determined as a siyahwolf on the hunt. Just like her.
Three solar months. It had been three solar months since she had been tricked by a false distress signal. When she had flown to investigate, someone had used a device to temporarily disable her Black Wraith ship. She'd been helpless, powerless. Taken captive. If Kell and Mara Skiren hadn't rescued her from the auction block, she'd be someone's pleasure slave now, and her ship torn apart, its secrets sold to PRAXIS.
By the Ten Hells, the person responsible would pay.
Striding into the mess hall, she surveyed the rows and rows of crowded tables. Normally she enjoyed the sound of hundreds of 8th Wing servicemen and servicewomen sharing a meal. Laughter and banter was a necessary counterpart to the life-or-death battles they faced every day. Today, the sound was simply noise. A few people saw her standing at the entrance and waved, but she kept scanning faces until she saw the two she wanted. She walked quickly through the mess, her heart pounding.
Kell and Mara sat at a table, and though there were others sitting nearby, they were deep in a private conversation. Usually Celene left them alone when Kell and Mara looked at each other like that, like they were the only two people in the universe. And they looked at each other that way often. But today, nothing could distract her from her purpose. Not even love.
She braced her hands on the edge of their table. It surprised her that the table didn't shake with the amount of energy she exuded.
"We got the bastard."
"Yes, I'd love a refill of kahve, thanks." Kell smiled up at her. Since Mara had joined the 8th Wing, Kell smiled more than Celene had ever seen him smile before. When he saw Celene's face now, though, his smile faded. "The bastard?"
"The one who made the disabling device." She tried to sit, but couldn't relax enough, so she remained standing. "Command says they have a lead, and I'm going to follow it."
"I'd like to use that fuck's head for target practice." Mara might be 8th Wing now, and far along in her training to become a Black Wraith pilot, but she still had the heart---and language---of a scavenger.
"You can't," said Celene. "Because when I find him, I'm going to cut off his face and decorate the cockpit of my ship with it."
"What's the intel?" Kell demanded.
"Don't know yet. Got a meeting at 13:00 to talk details." Celene checked her chronometer. "That's in ten minutes."
In unison, Kell and Mara stood, wearing equally determined expressions. "We'll go with you." Mara swallowed the last of her kahve and slammed her mug on the table.
"I'd like you to," Celene answered, "but if you've got something else scheduled..."
The fierce look on Kell's face showed why he was one of the most decorated pilots in the 8th Wing. He fought hard, and with deadly intent. At the controls of his Black Wraith, or even when he trained in hand-to-hand in the combat simulator---there wasn't a more merciless fighter.
He growled. "Some lowlife makes a device that hamstrings Black Wraith ships, our best weapon against PRAXIS. Endangers all of us, and hurts you." His jaw tightened. "This fight belongs to all of us."
His fighter's spirit had attracted her, once. Years ago, for a few solar months, she and Kell had been lovers. But they soon realized they were better friends than lovers, dedicated more to the war against PRAXIS than each other.
Determination and loyalty gleamed also in Mara's eyes. "And if there's anything left over after you're done with him, I know some parts dealers who'd love to buy his spine and organs. Preferably while he's still using them."
It pleased her that Kell and Mara could find happiness together, unlikely as it had seemed at the beginning. A Black Wraith pilot and a black-market scavenger made an unexpected pairing. But it worked, and well.
"Let's go." She turned and strode back through the mess, with Kell and Mara right behind her.
Her parents had thought her crazy to leave behind a quiet life of ferrying passengers to and from her homeworld's moons. But PRAXIS threatened everything. Joining the war against the corporate giant had gained her a cause and a new family.
As they walked through the base toward Command offices, her thoughts were too focused to join the conversation, though she heard Mara and Kell.
"Stop scratching at it, princess," Kell said.
"It itches."
Celene understood. Yesterday, Mara finally had her biotech implant grafted just beneath the surface of her right palm, a signal that she was well on her way to becoming a Black Wraith pilot. All Wraith pilots had the implants, since the ships would not run without them. The implants were part of the reason Black Wraiths were so effective---and coveted. They allowed the ship's pilot to merge with the craft, creating a seamless integration of thought and action. PRAXIS had tried to reproduce the design, but with limited success. Without an actual Black Wraith to copy, they hadn't gotten far. All that could change, though, with the use of the disabling device. Either PRAXIS would finally get their hands on a Black Wraith and dissect it, or they'd simply knock the paralyzed ships out of the sky.
Neither option was good. She had to make sure neither came to pass.
"Maybe I need to take your mind off of it," murmured Kell. "Scratch another itch."
"Later, flyboy. We've got an organ donor to hunt down." But Mara sounded husky, definitely intrigued by Kell's offer.
Some crewmen whispered to each other as Celene strode by.
"That's Lieutenant Jur."
"Stainless Jur?"
She walked on, avoiding the admiration in their gazes and the moniker she had been given. She'd be a fool to let such idolatry affect her. The moment she believed she was the goddess everyone thought she was, she might as well take a plasma blast to the head. An arrogant pilot was a dead pilot. And she couldn't die. She had too many battles to fight.
A clerical ensign hurried forward when Celene reached Command's offices and pointed her toward one of the briefing chambers. With Kell and Mara accompanying her, she strode on. If given clearance, she'd leave base today.
Her code at the door of the chamber was accepted, and the door slid open to reveal Admiral Elora Gamlyn standing next to a holo display at the far end of the room. Celene, Kell and Mara all saluted.
"Only your presence was requested, Lieutenant." The admiral eyed Mara and Kell.
"I'd like them to stay, ma'am, if possible. This intel concerns all of us."
"What's said cannot leave this chamber. The mission we're proposing must be conducted under strictest security protocols."
"We know the gravity of the situation, ma'am," Kell said.
"So who's the sipkaswine we're after?" asked Mara.
Celene choked down a laugh.
"Mara." Kell placed a hand on her shoulder.
"Sorry. Who's the sipkaswine we're after, ma'am?"
At least the admiral smiled. "Your enthusiasm is heartening, Ensign Skiren. We're waiting for someone to join us, and then the briefing can commence." The alert at the chamber door trilled. "And he's here, now."
Everyone turned to face the newcomer as the door slid open. He stepped inside, then stopped abruptly when he saw everyone staring at him expectantly.
She had an indistinct impression of having met this man before, but she wasn't completely certain. 8th Wing was thousands strong, with hundreds on base at any given time. Black Wraith Squad usually kept to themselves. They were an elite group, and more than a little insane. Adrenaline junkies who lived to fly. No wonder everyone gave them a wide berth.
The man walking into the chamber gazed at her. Alarm and fascination combined in his eyes.
Not a surprise. She was given a wider berth than most. Few people made friends with a legend. And as for having a romantic relationship...by becoming one of the best pilots, she'd inadvertently consigned herself to celibacy. She could never be the flawless paragon her lovers wanted. Stainless Jur---that's who they desired. Tough experience had taught her that it was better to be alone than see the disappointment in her lovers' eyes when they learned she wasn't a goddess, only a woman. A very skilled woman who could fly better than most sentient beings in the galaxy, but a woman, nonetheless.
The newcomer stared at her like she was a tigeren that had escaped its cage.
He wasn't an unpleasant specimen of maleness. He didn't have Kell's height or impressive build. Instead he had a lean muscularity that nicely filled out his uniform without being showy. Sandy hair, deep green eyes that gleamed with intellect, a face more rugged than handsome. His mouth surprised her, with its full lips better suited for a fashion vid model than a soldier.
That mouth...seemed so familiar. As if she knew its taste, warm and masculine. No---she'd remember lips like his.
"I believe you all know Lieutenant Nils Calder," the admiral said.
It took Celene a few moments to place him. "From Engineering." A vague recollection flitted through her mind of her consulting Lieutenant Calder about the navigational controls of her Black Wraith.
"NerdWorks?" blurted Mara.
Kell groaned, Celene choked and even the admiral reddened.
Calder only smiled. "I've also heard Dork Corps, Geek Brigade and Dweeb Patrol." His voice was deep, with a faint rasp. "But NerdWorks is my favorite."
Much as Celene appreciated his sense of humor, she wanted intel right now, not jokes. She turned to Admiral Gamlyn. "The briefing?"
"I have the intel here." Calder held up a digitablet. He walked to the holo display, and everyone shuffled to get out of his way. Their bodies brushed against each other as he moved to the display. His breath caught at the contact, and his cheeks darkened.
Guess NerdWorks doesn't usually mix with actual humans.
This close to him, she realized he was bigger than she'd first thought, over half a foot taller than her. The only other man in the room was Kell, and he had a tendency to make other men seem smaller by comparison. But Lieutenant Nils Calder was long and lean as a swimmer, impressive in his own way.
He turned to address everyone in the chamber. Yet his gaze caught Celene's and held.
Astute, those eyes of his. And aware. Of her.
"The intel, Lieutenant."
Admiral Gamlyn's directive broke the odd spell that had fallen, and Calder looked away as he moved to the holo display.
Mara sent Celene a glance and mouthed, What the hells was that all about?
All she could do was shrug. I have no damned idea. She focused her attention on the holo display.
Calder tapped a few keys on the display, then studied his digitablet. An image came up of the Black Wraith's distinctive sleek lines, and the hologram rotated to display every angle of the unique ship. She flew her Black Wraith every day, but even looking at a holo of the ship filled her with pride. A perfect union of pilot and machine. Beautiful and elegant as a moonrise, but deadly in the right hands.
Or disastrous in the wrong hands. Which was why PRAXIS couldn't obtain a Black Wraith.
Calder cleared his throat. "I've gone over Lieutenant Jur's logs and the debriefing vids, analyzing her description of the effects of the device used on her ship. A total system shutdown that renders the Black Wraith completely inoperative, with only enough emergency capacity to power life support, and even that for only a brief period."
Memories flooded Celene. Acidic currents of remembered anger as she'd floated in space with no means of protecting herself and no way of calling for help. She grasped at her rage, a useful emotion.
"I was there." The words felt taut in her throat. "So tell us something helpful."
Calder's jaw tightened. "I also went through the data and sensor logs in your ship after it was returned to base. Ran diagnostic protocols and did some calculations. I was able to extrapolate the basic construction of the disruptor device."
The holo changed from an image of the Black Wraith to an innocuous collection of circuits and cables. With her not being a tech, it could have been a schematic of a Voaxian self-pleasuring device, but she studied it, trying to make sense of its configuration.
"This is just a theory as to its appearance," Calder went on, "but the operation of it remains the same. In order to create the disruption pulse that's keyed to the Black Wraith's energy profile, the device requires a particular power source. The power source has a distinctive wavelength signature."
"Can we track the wavelength signature?" Kell asked.
"I can tune a ship to trace it."
"Leading us right to the bastard who disabled my ship." Celene could already taste blood, and she welcomed it. "Nicely done, Lieutenant."
Calder accepted her praise with a terse nod, though his eyes gleamed with satisfaction. It was clear he took pride in his work, a sentiment she understood well.
"I've also determined the identity of the bastard in question."
She started, hearing the edge in his voice and the change in his language. Who knew tech-heads could sound so angry?
He entered some information into the holo display and the image of a man appeared.
Everyone cursed, including Admiral Gamlyn. The man wore an 8th Wing uniform.
"He's one of us?" Mara spat.
"Was." Calder's voice glinted with anger. "Lieutenant Commander Torrin Marek. He resigned six solar months ago. Said he'd had enough of working for no profit."
"That's what he put in his withdrawal log?" Celene couldn't believe Marek's arrogance. She scrutinized his image. A perfectly average face looked back with unseeing eyes. Marek had ridges down his cheeks, common for people from the Alua System. Everything about him seemed ordinary. But treachery appeared harmless---she knew that now.
Calder shook his head. "It's what he told me." His lips tightened. "Marek was in Engineering. I used to work with him."
Different as she and Lieutenant Calder were, they shared anger and feelings of betrayal. She saw it in his face, in his eyes.
She wanted to hit something. Wanted to shout herself hoarse. Bad enough knowing there was a device out there that completely hamstrung the 8th Wing's most crucial weapon. But the fact that it had been created by one of their own...
"I'll kill the fucker," Kell said.
"No, you won't, Commander." The admiral stepped between Kell and the holo of Marek. "The traitor will be court-martialed. When we find him."
"This is to be a stealth mission, then," Celene said. "So he can't see us coming and run."
"Correct, Lieutenant. I debated whether or not sending you would be a good idea---"
"I need to do this," she pressed. Vengeance belonged to her.
The admiral raised a brow, and Celene collected herself. She couldn't prove her fitness for the mission by unleashing her anger in front of Admiral Gamlyn.
"Ultimately, Command and I determined that you would be the best pilot for the operation. You'll have a partner, but the mission shall be yours."
"Thank you, ma'am." Celene turned to Calder. "So, a ship can be tuned to track the disruptor's power signature. How long will it take for you to make the necessary adjustments?"
"It'll be ready to fly today."
"Lieutenant Calder is one of Engineering's best," the admiral said.
As someone who never apologized for her skill as a pilot, Celene appreciated that Calder didn't mumble something self-deprecating. He looked well aware of his abilities and confident in them. Another surprise.
The admiral continued, "Which is why he is going to be your partner."
Celene stared at Admiral Gamlyn. That couldn't be right. She had to have misheard. Her gaze drifted to Calder, hoping to see the same expression of disbelief on his face.
He looked calm. Determined. Not surprised at all.
"Ma'am?" She turned to the admiral.
"As I said, Lieutenant Calder is one of Engineering's finest. The technological requirements of the mission demand his presence."
"The power source's wavelength fluctuates," Calder explained. "I'll have to continually adjust the ship's sensors to trace it accurately."
"That doesn't have to be done manually." Celene stepped closer to Calder.
He didn't back down. "Actually," he said, voice and eyes cool, "it does. And when we finally reach Marek he's going to have very complex security systems in place. You don't have the skill to disable them."
The admiral narrowed her eyes. "It sounds like you're questioning my decision, Lieutenant Jur."
Damn, she did not want to piss off her commanding officer. "This mission is extremely important to me, ma'am."
"It's important to all of 8th Wing," came Admiral Gamlyn's level response. "Not just you."
Heat crept into her face. "I'm aware of that, ma'am. But couldn't Commander Frayne be my partner? He's very adept at engineering."
"I've seen him build some convoluted stuff," Mara volunteered, then added, "ma'am."
"Skilled as Commander Frayne is," the admiral said, "he doesn't have the abilities the mission demand. Lieutenant Calder's expertise, as well as his personal knowledge of Marek, make him the ideal candidate."
"I'm sensing some reluctance to partner with me," he said drily.
This was not a conversation Celene wanted to have in front of the admiral, nor her friends. She glanced at Admiral Gamlyn. "Permission to speak with Lieutenant Calder in private, ma'am?"
"Briefly, Lieutenant Jur. This mission needs to commence as quickly as possible."
Celene nodded, then grabbed Calder's forearm to lead him out of the chamber. He was solid and muscled beneath his uniform, and tension spread through him at the contact of her hand on his arm. Pushing these details aside, she guided him to the door and then out into the corridor. She glanced around. No one was nearby.
Looking up at Calder, she hoped to see some of the easy humor he had displayed in the briefing chamber. Instead his expression was remote, and he crossed his arms over his chest. He wasn't going to make this easy. Fine by her. She'd faced tougher obstacles than Lieutenant Calder---like flying through the Qing Meteor Shower with no navigational systems and almost no oxygen in the cockpit.
"Marek's struck at the heart of the 8th Wing. He could cripple the entire resistance movement, letting PRAXIS take whatever they want. Enslave everyone for profit."
Something flared in his eyes before retreating behind cool distance. "That outcome's already occurred to me."
"I want Marek. I want to make him pay for betraying the 8th Wing."
"We want the same things."
"Then let me take someone else. Someone trained for combat." She could name half a dozen Black Wraith pilots she trusted implicitly, and all of them knew their way around a circuit board.
"You think I won't be able to hold up my end of the fight." His voice deepened, took on an edge.
"Face it, Calder. You're NerdWorks. The closest you tech geeks come to combat is all-night Nifalian chess tournaments."
"I won the last three tournaments."
She tossed her hands up. "Exactly. I know you're ranked in Engineering, but no matter what Admiral Gamlyn thinks, eventually this mission is going to boil down to a fight that Marek can't survive."
"Agreed."
She released a breath, relieved. "Good. We'll just tell the admiral that you will provide all the necessary tech info needed for the mission, and then I can pick a more suitable partner." Celene started toward the door of the briefing chamber, but she stopped when she realized Calder wasn't getting out of her way.
He stared down at her, his jaw tight. "The most suitable partner for this mission is me."
"But we just agreed---"
"I agreed that this mission will ultimately culminate in a battle, and that Marek won't return to base for a court-martial. I didn't agree to slink away so you could pick one of your Black Wraith hotshot buddies to take my place."
They glared at one another, neither budging. Apparently she'd underestimated him. She had never backed down from a challenge, and she certainly wouldn't start with Lieutenant Calder. At least he didn't try and lick her boots, the way some other crew members might.
"So you believe yourself perfectly capable of handling yourself in a fight?"
He lifted his chin. "Yes."
She planted her hands on her hips. "All right, Calder. Let's put all that Nifalian chess knowledge to the test. It's based on ancient war games, after all."
He raised a brow. "A tournament?"
"Better than a tournament." She took a step toward him and saw the faintest trace of alarm in his eyes. Perfect. "You and me. One round in the combat simulator."
"I've trained in SimCom," he said, confident.
"Fine. No problem, then. We go in together, fight a round against the generated opponents. If you leave on your own two feet at the end, then you can partner with me on this mission."
He nodded. "I agree to your terms."
She had to give him credit---he seemed undaunted. "Oh," she added, "and the safety protocols will be off." She smiled. "It'll be much better than chess."
"You're out of your mind."
Nils glanced up from strapping on his protective gauntlets to see Commander Frayne standing at the gear room entrance. Frayne was big and could look mean as hells when he wanted to, but right now Nils's mind was on the other side of the SimCom Room door.
"I know how to fight." Satisfied with his thick gauntlets, Nils checked the readings on his plasma blaster. Everything looked optimal. He never expected any less from his equipment, but he couldn't risk any kind of failure. Not for this mission. And not in front of Celene.
Don't think about her. You'll only fuck things up if you let her get into your head.
"Not fighting the SimCom." Frayne stalked further into the gear room and leaned against the storage lockers. "Celene."
"I can handle her." His voice held a lot more confidence than he felt.
Frayne chuckled. "If you think that, you're definitely crazy." He crossed his arms over his chest, and Nils fought the urge to check his own arms for bulging muscles. Sure, Nils trained, and hard, but when it came to sheer physical intimidation factor, Frayne's readings were off the charts. It was rumored that the commander used to be a street brawler on his homeworld. Based on the available evidence, Nils didn't doubt it.
"I've seen Celene in combat," Frayne continued. "Hells, I've even gone a couple of rounds with her in SimCom. She didn't beat me, but damn if she didn't give me a run for my creds."
"You can't discourage me, Commander." Nils replaced his plasma blaster in his thigh holster. He checked the rest of his gear on his belt. Everything was exactly in place, as he knew it would be. He didn't get to the top of the Engineering food chain by being sloppy.
Nils stared hard at Frayne. "Marek betrayed the 8th Wing and he betrayed me. I want on this mission. And neither you nor Lieutenant Jur can dissuade me."
At the mention of the traitor's name, Frayne scowled. If Nils wasn't prepping for another fight, he might have been intimidated by the commander's anger.
"Wish I had your tech skills." Frayne's jaw tightened. "I want to be the one who kills that sipkaswine. Not just for his treachery to the 8th Wing, but because his actions caused Celene to be captured." He leaned closer and lowered his voice. "The Wraith wasn't the only thing that was going to be sold."
Nils's gut clenched. "I'll find Marek. And make him pay."
Satisfied with this answer, Frayne smiled. Actually, it was more of a teeth baring than a smile, but the intent was clear. "If Celene has her way, you've got to survive her and the SimCom first."
Nils moved past him, and they walked out of the gear room together toward the area of the base reserved for the combat simulator chambers. As they walked, they passed 8th Wing soldiers, who all stared at Nils as if he were walking to the neutralizing capsules.
He couldn't let them intimidate him. If he let his concentration waver for a microsecond, everything would spin out into chaos. He liked Engineering because it meant he could harness chaos, tame it. The variables and the parameters were his to control. Science and tech could be relied upon, behaving in precise ways that could be predicted and even subverted if one understood them properly.
Much better than dealing with people. Early in his career with 8th Wing, he'd been given the option to pursue medical training. He preferred the constancy of tech. Besides, if he kept all the equipment running properly, there'd be less need for medical attention. 8th Wing troops could engage the enemy in the best ships and with the best weapons he could construct, keeping losses to a minimum. A fair trade.
They approached the SimCom section of the base. He was minutes away from the biggest physical challenge of his life.
"Any advice, Commander?"
"Just watch your ass." Frayne smiled darkly. "And your balls."
Waiting outside the SimCom were Admiral Gamlyn, Ensign Skiren and Celene. Skiren's pretty face lit up when she saw Frayne nearing. Nils's gaze moved past her to Lieutenant Jur.
She'd changed from her flight suit into PT cargo pants and tank top, divulging in aching detail the strong, sleek lines of her body. Like him, she had a plasma blaster on her thigh. Her long, dark hair was pulled back into a ponytail, revealing the curves of her high cheekbones and the brilliance of her silver eyes. At his approach she raised one brow and her full lips thinned with impatience. She wanted to fight and she wanted to get the mission started, and she looked so damned fierce and beautiful it felt like a sonic blade piercing his chest.
His palms began to sweat. Not precisely the scenario he'd envisioned when he finally claimed her attention. And he had envisioned many, many scenarios.
"Last chance, Calder." She stalked toward him and put her hands on her hips. "Sub someone else. I don't want to see you get hurt."
He didn't want to get hurt, either, but he'd do whatever it took to earn his place on this mission.
"Whenever you're ready, Lieutenant Jur."
She growled in frustration and then stalked to the SimCom chamber door.
"Are you sure about this, Lieutenant Calder?" Admiral Gamlyn asked.
"Absolutely, ma'am. I'm the best person to accompany Lieutenant on this operation and if I have to go through SimCom to prove that to her---" he spread his hands, "---so be it."
"SimCom with the safety protocols off." Ensign Skiren sounded almost gleeful. Given that she used to be part of the galaxy's criminal element, her delight in possible bloodshed was not a surprise.
Nils nodded. "I can do this."
"Your call, Lieutenant Calder." The admiral punched in a combat sequence into the panel beside the chamber door. She keyed in her secure code and performed a genetic scan in order to unlock the safety protocols. Had he wanted to, Nils could've breached the security protocol---he'd been the lead engineer on the SimCom overhaul two years ago. Hardly anything on base didn't wear his fingerprints. Hardly anything tech, anyway.
With a hiss and beep, the door to the SimCom chamber slid open.
Celene strode into the chamber without faltering. She grinned at him over her shoulder. "Time to fight, NerdWorks."
He straightened his shoulders, took a breath and then walked inside.
He strode right into anarchy. Plasma shots burst around him and he lowered into a ready stance to avoid their blasts. The SimCom had been programmed with an insertion mission. He found himself outside a guarded compound on a hill, and as he took shelter behind a low retaining wall, beside Celene, he assessed the situation.
"Armed sentries, two-story structure, one front entrance, back entrance as yet undetermined. The number of sentries indicates the objective is likely located on second story."
Celene ducked as plasma blast shot overhead. She fired back, hitting one of the sentries, then ducked low again. "Who are you talking to?"
"Myself. I need to verbalize the parameters in order to create an appropriate response to the scenario." He edged up and felt the weight of his plasma blaster in his hand. He took a breath, then fired. Two of the mechanized sentries patrolling the exterior went down.
Celene stared at the smoking forms now lying upon the ground. He was uncertain whether to feel flattered or insulted by the look of shock on her face. Clearly, she hadn't anticipated him using his weapon, let alone hitting a target.
More sentinels appeared and he took cover as they opened fire.
His blood raced. The sentries shot live ammo. A shot couldn't kill him, even with the safety protocols off, but getting hit would hurt like a son of a bitch and put him out of commission for several solar weeks. Which had to be Celene's intention.
"You ever operate on instinct?" Celene asked.
"Instinct isn't a substitute for informed action."
She rolled her eyes. "Gods, you really are NerdWorks."
He had no response to that. He had no response to her, especially when, without warning, she bolted from the shelter of the retaining wall and sped toward the building, firing as she ran.
He shouldn't stare. This was about the mission and he needed to pass this test, which meant he needed to focus on getting into the structure and obtaining the objective. But he was a man, and a man with functioning eyes. He couldn't not watch as Lieutenant Celene Jur raced into battle. Her long legs made quick work of the distance. She moved fluidly, yet was deadly and direct, shooting with precision as she ran.
All 8th Wing personnel needed to keep themselves in top form. PT was required of everyone. But Celene was more than fit. She was the faultless alloy of physical capability and unadulterated beauty, lean and elegant as an ancient dueling rapier.
The stories about her are true. She's the best we have. An untouchable legend. And I am partnered with her.
But not yet. First he had to prove himself in combat. Which meant he couldn't waste precious time watching her. Nils took a breath, then launched himself from behind the retaining wall. He blasted into the converging sentries as he sprinted toward the entrance of the building. With his free hand, he pulled a device from a pouch attached to his belt and then lobbed it at the guards still standing.
The device detonated, releasing a wave of energy. The sentries remained standing.
"It didn't work," Celene shouted at him. Stationed by the front entrance, she continued to fire at the sentries.
He took up position and joined her in keeping the guards from advancing. "Give it a microsecond."
"We don't have---" Explosions shook the air. She threw herself down onto the ground, taking cover, then glanced up when she saw the threat wasn't to her or Nils. "The hells?"
The automated sentries had fired on each other and then detonated in small novas of sparks and metal. Only burning piles of scrap remained.
"A device I built," he explained. "It scrambles E-grade circuitry, which the sentries clearly had."
Celene stared up at him, admiration in her silver eyes. It quickly disappeared behind cool efficiency.
He held his hand out to her, and held his breath, waiting for the touch of her skin to his.
She eyed his hand, then stood up on her own. He stifled his disappointment.
"What if we encounter something that isn't E-grade?"
"Modifications can be made in the field."
Her nod was clipped, her expression opaque. What'd he expect? Her arms thrown around him as she showered him with praise? Celene was legendary. She expected not just competence, but excellence---from herself and her squad members. Clearly, he had big boots to fill.
Fortunately, he wore very large boots.
A control panel was embedded in the wall beside the front entrance. A quick visual assessment told him that this wasn't a simple monolevel security system, but a polyplatform defense mechanism. He moved in to hack the computer's security protocol, but stepped back in surprise as she beat him to it.
She stared at the panel in edged concentration and her fingers flew over the keys. A moment later, the thick door slid open.
Seeing his look of amazement, she grinned. "NerdWorks hasn't cornered the market on tech savvy."
Her grin faded when plasma blasts shot through the open doorway. She became the focused soldier once more. Within the chamber were armed human guards. Celene took up position on one side of the door while he took the other side and dropped to one knee. They fired back at the guards, Celene taking the higher targets, Nils aiming for the lower ones.
"The structure's ground floor," he catalogued as he shot. "A single, large chamber. Staircase at the far end, metal cargo crates scattered throughout. Must be a storage facility. Six guards armed with plasma blasters. Five," he amended as Celene took out one of the guards.
"Hey, NerdWorks," she snapped at him, "keep your play-by-play in your head. Can't think with your intel spurting all over me."
How was he was supposed to think when she put images like that in his head?
She jerked her head toward a row of crates inside and they both sped toward the waiting cover. The firefight continued as the guards blocked the path to the second level. He took down one sentry, Celene the other. He allowed himself a moment's confidence. Practice several times a week on the firing sim ensured that he could hit a moving target from a distance of over a hundred meters. All he needed to do was wait the guards out, and between him and Celene, they'd quickly clear the area, leaving the way free to the objective on the second floor.
After ducking to avoid a volley of plasma fire, he leaned up and took aim. Celene did the same. Just then, one of the guards triggered a device on his gauntlet. An invisible pulse of energy swept through the chamber.
Whatever the guard had activated, Nils didn't like it. The most dangerous weapons were often the ones you couldn't see. He aimed and fired.
Or tried to fire. Nothing shot from his blaster, not a plasma burst, not even a spark.
"Fucking escumalhabeast." Celene glared at her now useless blaster. She shoved it back into her thigh holster and crouched down behind the crates.
He hunkered beside her. "I can take the weapons apart, subvert the malfunction."
"No time. Any minute, they're going to rush us."
His mind spun through the many possibilities as he scanned the environment. Though everything within SimCom was computer generated, it still behaved according to the laws of science.
"There's delinium chloride in that flame containment canister. I can combine it with---"
She shook her head. "Again, not enough time."
He scowled. In the absence of a functioning weapon, there had to be something he could do. "Suggestions?"
Celene grinned, and she was once again an intoxicating amalgam of beautiful and dangerous. "We use the best weapons we've got." She tapped her head. "This, and---" she held up her curled fists, "---these."
"I---"
"Guard my back." And then she was gone, vaulting over the crates in a blur of motion.
"Damn it." He wanted more time to think, to prepare, but he holstered his weapon and followed. He ducked behind another row of crates to avoid more blaster fire. The storage containers were staggered throughout the chamber, and he saw Celene diving from one to another, closing in on the guards.
Three of the armed enemy, two of him and Celene, with no weapons. An uneven match, yet she continued to get nearer. He'd have thought her completely out of her mind if he wasn't busy marveling at her sheer bravado.
If he wanted on this mission, he had to match her audacity with his own.
But simply rushing the guards wouldn't get the job done. He looked up, searching for inspiration.
Lighting fixtures suspended from cables lined the ceiling. He scanned for an object to throw, but nothing was in reach. He had to act fast, because the guards were edging closer to him and Celene. A projectile was needed, something big and heavy.
His boots. He remembered the supply officer's comment when he'd come in to replace them. Gods, Calder, you could canoe the damned Light River of Kitara in your boot. Nils had to custom order his gloves too. For a member of Engineering Corps, he had some damned big appendages.
He tore at the straps and buckles of his boots and tugged them off as soon as they were loose enough. Then he leaped up and threw them, one and then the other, at the lighting fixtures.
The boots slammed into the lights. Sparks rained down on the advancing enemy. Celene seized the distraction, just as he'd hoped. She sprinted forward and kicked the gun out of a guard's hand, then spun to ram her elbow into another guard's shoulder, forcing him to drop his weapon.
Nils leaped into the fray, feeling the hard concrete floor beneath his feet and trying not to feel too vulnerable without his boots. He tackled the third guard. They rolled on the floor, fighting for the gun. Blocking the enemy's blows, he shoved his forearm under the guard's chin, forcing his head back and cutting off his air. Choking, enraged, the guard fought hard. Nils pried the gun from his hand. Using the butt of the weapon, he struck the guard across the face. His assailant went limp, unconscious.
Tucking the blaster into his belt, Nils rolled to his feet and saw Celene battling with the other guards. His mouth hung open. She was as ferocious and beautiful as a Samalian lightning wolf, nothing but speed and deadly intent. Though two guards kept charging at her, she held them back with kicks and punches, almost dance-like in her movements.
But this was no solo performance. She had a partner, and he needed to prove that he deserved on the mission. He couldn't shoot, not without risking hitting her, leaving him with just one option.
One of the guards stumbled back, repelled by her kick. Nils launched himself at the enemy. He traded blows with the guard and then fought for breath when the enemy's fist connected with his ribs. He remembered the countless hours he spent training and launched into a combination he had practiced so often it became instinct. A kick, two jabs, an uppercut. The guard dodged some of his strikes, but the others hit home. With a final hit to the jaw, the enemy went down.
He spun when he heard a groan. Celene stood over the prone body of a guard, her hands still raised in a defensive position, her body poised and ready. When the enemy stirred, she dropped to a knee and slammed her fist into his face. He twitched, then went still.
Panting, she glanced up to find Nils watching her. Her gaze slid to the two other guards, also unconscious. When she looked back at him, there was no mistaking the approval in her expression. Approval, and something else. Awareness of him as more than NerdWorks. She actually looked at him as if he were...a man.
Which he most assuredly was. As Celene rose to standing, he became acutely conscious of a very unwanted sensation pulsing through his body. Arousal.
Watching Celene in combat might've been the most alluring thing he had ever seen, and he'd watched more than a few sex vids on late, lonely nights. Seeing her in action, with his own blood high from combat, Nils had the strongest urge to stride to her, haul her against him and kiss them both into antigrav.
A number of reasons why he couldn't do that: they still had to complete SimCom, and she would likely kick him in a very important, very precious place. You didn't kiss a legend without suffering the consequences.
He turned so she couldn't see exactly how intriguing his body had found the demonstration of her combat skills. "One level left."
Holstering the fallen guards' weapons, she nodded. "I'll take point. You watch my ass."
As they slowly edged their way up the stairs, he tried not to watch her ass, but it was a feat even an android couldn't have accomplished.
"Careful, NerdWorks," she said over her shoulder. "You'll get your dick shot off."
But whether the enemy or she would do the shooting, she didn't specify. He kept his gaze focused on anything but the sweet curve of her butt. There had been no time to put his boots back on, so he moved quietly up the stairs.
Two more guards waited for them on the second floor. The enemy stood outside a metal-walled enclosure, with a control panel securing the gate. With their commandeered weapons, Nils took down one of the guards, and Celene made fast work of the other.
He reached the control panel before she did. The code took only microseconds to break. Clanging, the bolts within the enclosure released. He pulled the gate open, revealing their objective sitting on a pedestal.
An antique toy blaster.
Chuckling, she strode forward and picked up the toy. She aimed it at Nils and pulled the trigger.
Zap! read the tiny flag that popped out of the barrel.
"Got you." She smiled and set the toy back down.
As soon as she did, the scene shifted. The storage facility disappeared, as did the fallen guards, the blasters he and Celene had taken from the enemy and everything else. All that remained was him, Celene and his boots lying on the other side of the empty chamber.
She glanced down at his sock-covered feet. "You could crush whole stellar settlements with those things."
He fought to keep from blushing. Gods, of all things to talk about, and now, the last thing he wanted to discuss was the size of his feet.
The door to the SimCom chamber slid open. Admiral Gamlyn, Commander Frayne and Ensign Skiren walked into the room.
"Well done, Lieutenants." The admiral held up her digitablet. "Excellent accuracy and problem-solving stats. Top percentile. You two work well together."
"So, did he pass?" Ensign Skiren directed her question to Celene. "Is he on the mission?"
"The decision is ultimately mine," Admiral Gamlyn noted. "But I do welcome Lieutenant Jur's input."
Celene turned her attention back to Nils. He straightened his shoulders and met her gaze, while his heart beat hard in his throat. The mission to find a traitor was the most important he might ever undertake. He wanted to ensure the safety of the Black Wraith ships, and with them, keep the 8th Wing strong in its fight against PRAXIS. And he wanted Lieutenant Celene Jur's approval. That victory would be for him alone.
Her expression was cool, assessing, as she gazed at him.
"Cargo is limited," she said at last. "Don't pack too much."
He let out a breath. "Just the essentials and my tech gear. I haven't confused this operation with shore leave."
"You've got a damned tough mission coming up," Frayne said. "Not sure if I should envy or pity you."
"Celene should be careful." Ensign Skiren chuckled, and eyed Nils. No one doubted that she and Frayne were a couple, but as she sized Nils up, there was healthy feminine appreciation in her gaze. She looked back at Celene, grinning wickedly. "The quiet ones are always the most dangerous."
Celene glared at the Phantom-class ship in the docking bay. Its lines were sleek, and she'd flown other Phantoms enough to know their engines packed a decent thrust. Calder and Kell were busy making last-minute adjustments to the systems, while she, Admiral Gamlyn and Mara had one last confab before setting off on the mission.
"Engineering has run a protocol," the admiral said. "All the ship's systems are working at peak ability. It's armed with front and rear-facing guns. The shields are at one hundred percent. What seems to be the problem?"
"It's not a bad ship." Celene eyed the Phantom. "But it's not my ship."
"I know how you feel," Mara said. "After I joined 8th Wing, I couldn't get rid of my old tow-ship. I still take the Arcadia out every few solar weeks. Kell says it's a heap of junk, but I think he's got some sentimental attachment to it." The former scavenger's eyes gleamed, and Celene could guess that Mara was reliving the early, combustible days of her relationship with Kell.
"It's not just sentimentality." Celene waved a hand toward the Phantom. "My Black Wraith has superior maneuverability, better weapons."
The admiral answered, "Black Wraiths aren't designed for deep space missions. The Phantom is. Further, if Marek's disruptor is implemented against your Wraith, you and Lieutenant Calder would find yourselves alone and helpless."
Exactly as Celene had been once before. She wouldn't let anyone else in Black Wraith Squad feel that way. If that meant she'd have to fly a Phantom for this mission, she'd do it.
"All right."
Admiral Gamlyn smiled, wry. "Delighted that my decision meets with your approval, Lieutenant."
"Sorry, ma'am."
The admiral walked over to Calder and Kell, and the three of them began discussing the modifications, including the device Calder had installed to track Marek's power signature.
"Hey, look at it this way," said Mara. "Everyone knows you kick ass flying a Wraith. Now you get to show 'em what you're really made of. Prove your skills as the best pilot in the 8th Wing." She paused. "Third best."
Celene raised a brow. "Third?"
"Kell's first. Then me."
"When I get back from this mission, you and I are going to have a little competition. A few races, some obstacle courses. Then we'll see who claims the title."
"Deal." Mara stuck out her hand, and Celene shook.
"Being a legend isn't all free drinks and backslaps."
Mara rolled her eyes. "Right. The naked idol worship is extremely inconvenient."
"Try having a bad day when your lover thinks the Corvalian sun shines out your ass. Break a nail. Stub your toe. Or, hells, maybe you don't want to talk about what an amazing pilot you are. Maybe you simply want to watch dumb comedy vids that night. When he looks at you like you just killed the Solstice Bird, then you and I can talk about the price of being the best."
Mara stared at her. "Fuck. Celene, I---"
With a shake of her head, she refused any sympathy. "The cost of expecting the best of myself. If making sure the 8th Wing can beat PRAXIS means I don't have a date on shore leave---" she shrugged, "---that's a damn small cost."
Still, Mara's gaze held far too much sympathy for her comfort. Mara planted her hands on her hips and directed her attention toward the Phantom.
"Nervous?"
"Hells, no. I just want to get this mission started."
Mara nudged her shoulder. "Can't wait to be alone with Calder? It's a cozy little ship. Room for two. Close quarters."
She snorted. "You've inhaled too much meteor dust, scavenger."
"We watched you two in SimCom on the vid feed. I'd seen you in action, so I know you could fight. But Calder..." Mara lowered her voice. "Holy gods, that was unexpected. I didn't know NerdWorks threw down like that."
"Neither did I," she admitted.
"He looked incredibly hot doing so."
Her mouth curled. "Aren't you Kell's woman?"
"Kell's my man. But just between us..." She leaned closer. "Calder's pretty sexy. The moves on that guy. Not to mention his ass. Nova-level."
"Didn't notice. Too busy fighting off sentries." Untrue. She had noticed, and in addition to being pretty damned impressed by Calder's fighting skills, she hadn't failed to appreciate that he had one fine body. She saw it now as he moved around the Phantom showing the admiral the modifications he had made to the ship.
He was leaner than Kell, but no less potent, his 8th Wing uniform hugging wide shoulders and clinging to tight, muscled arms. He'd moved with power in SimCom, his legs long and strong. And, yes, Celene had seen his ass. Taut and sculpted, it was the kind of behind a woman fantasized about digging her nails into.
"Yeah, I can see how much you aren't noticing," Mara observed.
"So my eyesight works. Doesn't matter. All I need is for him to track the power signature and stay out of my way when I take Marek down." The best she could ever hope for with any man was a quick tumble and an even quicker retreat, before his inevitable disappointment when it was revealed that, yes, she had the same emotional needs as any living being. It would never go that far with Calder. Especially not on a mission.
She strode toward the Phantom. "We ready to go?"
Calder closed a side panel on the ship and dusted off his hands. She tried not to stare at his thighs as he wiped his palms on them. "I ran one final diagnostic protocol. We're good."
"All your gear's aboard?"
The lieutenant crossed his arms over his chest. "I've been on missions before, Lieutenant Jur."
"Good. Because this mission is too important to risk on a nebula newbie's inexperience." She didn't like the sharpness of her tone, but this mission was crucial. Nothing could be left to fate.
"No communication with base unless it's an absolute emergency," the admiral directed. "Stealth is essential---another reason why you need the Phantom. Since it can hold you both for longer journeys, there's no need to compromise security by docking at any stations. It will be just you two on that ship, for as long as it takes."
"Understood." As Calder spoke, his gaze flicked over to Celene, and a flush darkened his cheeks.
She felt an answering heat in her own face. This was ridiculous. She'd been on long missions before, with other men, and felt nothing, only the need to complete the objective. This must be no different. She had to be Stainless Jur, invulnerable, an ace pilot---never a woman.
"We'll depart as soon as the last protocols are run," she said.
"I've run them all," Calder answered. "We can leave immediately."
"Good luck, Lieutenants." The admiral gave them a salute, which they returned. "You've got the 8th Wing depending on you."
"I won't fail, ma'am," she said.
"We won't," Calder added.
She glared at Kell and Mara when they both smirked. But every mission was dangerous, this more so than any other, so she shook hands with her friends, knowing that there was always the possibility that this could be the last time she ever saw them.
Kell glanced over at Calder, who was speaking with the admiral. "You've got a good man in your corner. Don't underestimate him."
Coming from Kell, one of the toughest men she knew, those simple words carried tremendous weight.
"I won't."
"Fly strong." Kell gave her shoulder a squeeze.
She smiled. "I will."
"We'll have that competition when you get back," Mara said.
"Get ready to be humiliated."
"Serve it up, Jur, because I'm hungry." The two women grinned, bound by the need to be better than everyone else---especially each other.
"Shall we, Lieutenant?" Calder stood at the door to the Phantom. If he had any fear about the dangers they were about to face, he didn't show it. He stood light on his toes, his hands loose at his sides, looking ready to put himself in the thick of danger.
She nodded and headed into the ship. Calder was not her first choice for a partner, but at least she could be glad that he wanted retribution just as much as she did.
"How many?"
Calder looked up from the tracking screen. He blinked at her, as if having forgotten that she sat beside him in the Phantom's cockpit. For the past solar hour, they'd been flying without speaking except to adjust their course, moving through the vast darkness toward their objective.
"How many missions have you been on?" Celene asked.
"Ah." He stared down at the tracking screen again and watched the faint pulse of light that indicated the power signature. They were still too far out to determine the actual distance away, but at least Calder had the skill to pick up even the thinnest trace. Still, he hesitated before speaking. "Three."
She kept her hands on the controls, but gaped at him. "What?"
"I said---"
"I heard you." She shook her head. "At least tell me they were combat missions."
His gaze slid away. "Research and discovery."
"Research." She cursed. "They saddled me with a damned cub."
When his gaze met hers again, it flared with anger. "Not a cub. I'm an officer. And I've already proven that I can handle myself."
"In a controlled environment. We don't know what we're going to face at the end of this signal." She tapped the tracking screen. "Whatever comes, I need an experienced fighter at my side, one who can handle anything thrown in his path."
"I'll carry my weight." His voice was tight, his jaw hard. They held each other's gaze, neither willing to budge. Finally she broke the stalemate, turning back to face the window.
"Yes, I'm being a hardass." She stared out at the passing stars, the hundreds of worlds bound together in the galaxy. Some were allies, others weren't, and everything she saw was threatened by PRAXIS. A very long time ago, the 8th Wing had actually been part of PRAXIS, serving as part of its military force. But when the goals of PRAXIS turned from the betterment of the galaxy to its exploitation, the 8th Wing had rebelled. It formed a resistance group, retaining its name as a show of defiance. That same spirit of disobedience and willingness to battle ran through every member of the 8th Wing. Including, it seemed, the engineers.
"And you have shown that you can fight," she continued. "But I need to make sure this mission is a success." Not just for the sake of her reputation, but for the cause for which she fought.
"We all have something at stake." Even though she had been raking him over the plasma coils, his voice held surprising gentleness. "Black Wraiths are the 8th Wing's best weapon. None of us can afford to lose them. The whole resistance is counting on us."
She blew out a breath. "Oh, when you say it like that, I don't know why I should be worried."
His chuckle held low warmth. "No pressure."
She couldn't stop her answering smile, but when she glanced over at him, his laugh faded and he looked...stunned.
"What?"
He shook his head, and returned his attention back to the tracking screen.
"Calder, tell me."
"This is strange," he finally admitted. "Me, sitting here in a Phantom cockpit with the famous hero Lieutenant Celene Jur."
Oh, gods, this again.
"No one can outfly you," he continued, "or best you at shooting. They say you once took out six PRAXIS Wasps on your own."
"Seven, actually. It would've been eight, but the fucker crashed his own ship into an asteroid as he tried to get away."
He shook his head. "You're legendary. Idolized. And here I am, your partner on a maximum-level priority mission." His laugh was rueful. "Never thought that when I finally talked to you, it would be under these circumstances."
"You thought about talking to me?"
He blushed again. Celene had never imagined she'd find a man who blushed attractive, preferring to keep company with men who were just as outspoken and brash as she, fellow hotshot pilots who bragged and liked to show off. Practically everyone in the Black Wraith Squad fit that description. A bunch of loud-mouthed swaggerers. Her included. They boasted to one another about being in command at all times, dominating any situation. At least among her fellow Black Wraith pilots, no one considered her to be a living legend. She was a friend, and they were her friends.
Which didn't translate to satisfying romantic relationships. Kell was proof of that.
She now looked at Lieutenant Nils Calder. There was something endearing about his flushed cheeks, as if he couldn't control his response---to her.
"Perhaps once or twice," he muttered. "I can't remember. It isn't important."
"Seems pretty important to me."
"The tracking device needs further enhancement." He surged to his feet and moved out of the cockpit, into the main body of the ship. Leaving her alone and bewildered at the controls.
Gods, did Calder have a crush on her? If he did, that might explain his blushes, his awkwardness when they came into close contact. She didn't know whether to be amused, flattered or horrified. He wasn't unattractive; far from it. And if he could solve complex engineering conundrums, imagine what he might do if he set his inventive mind toward seduction.
But it was another case of someone wanting Stainless Jur. Not Celene. She was just as fallible as any organic creature.
At some point on this mission, just like all the men with whom she had tried to get close, Calder was going to discover that the hero he venerated was only a woman.
By tacit agreement, neither of them spoke about their earlier conversation. When Calder returned to the cockpit, sliding his long body into the seat beside hers, she made sure not to stare at him---though it was something of a challenge. Something about the way in which he inhabited his physicality, as if learning and testing its limits, captivated her attention. He reminded her of a siyahwolf raised in captivity, finally released into the wild. What might he do, when he learned the full measure of his strength?
Right now, all his energy was focused on tracking the power signature. "It's getting stronger. Still too far away to calculate its exact position, but we are headed in the right direction."
"Distance?"
He shook his head. "Unknown. Could be a matter of a few days, at least."
Terrific. Nervous energy hummed along her body. She didn't realize that she was tapping her hand against the controls until Calder placed his hand over hers. His touch came as a surprise, the feel of his large, warm hand covering her sending a visceral jolt through her.
"Throttle down, Jur," he murmured, "or you'll burn your engines out too soon."
"Tough for me to sit still if I'm not on patrol or in combat. Bad habit."
He raised his brows. "Stainless Jur doesn't have any bad habits."
Damn, it was starting already. Soon he would discover she was not the paragon everyone imagined her to be, and then he'd be another man looking at her in angry disappointment.
"Stainless Jur has none." She tugged her hand free. "I have plenty."
He shifted back, his expression distant, and then he returned his focus to the tracking screen.
They flew on in tense wordlessness. He did not look at her with veneration. He did not look at her at all.
Celene knew silence. She'd flown enough patrols to grow used to it. Chatter between ships had to be kept to a minimum in case the frequencies were monitored. A Wraith usually held a lone pilot, but it could also be configured to accommodate a gunner. Even when her ship contained herself and another, they talked infrequently, for security purposes. It was an easy silence.
So she understood long stretches of utter quiet, when it was only her, her Wraith and the deep, jeweled infinity of space.
This silence, however, between her and Calder... Nothing familiar or comfortable about it. It pulled tightly until she thought she might crack from the strain.
"Tell me what you know about Marek."
The illumination from the display traced the contours of his face. His high cheekbones, the straight line of his nose and fullness of his mouth. Again she felt a strange flicker of memory, a far-flung sun glinting across light years of distance.
"He had almost two decades with the 8th Wing. Career. Or so I thought." Though his voice had been toneless before, now it held a sonic blade's bite. "There were discussions, ongoing debates. If we had a shift together, we'd talk of circuitry arrangements, the best way to make ships faster, more responsive. The whole time he sat drinking kahve in the mess, listening to stories about sweethearts on homeworlds, he was plotting. Planning." His tone hardened with self-recrimination. "None of us in Engineering knew."
"Nobody blames you."
His mouth curved, sardonic. "The fact that you immediately try to absolve me causes me to believe that I do actually shoulder some responsibility."
"I don't shoot down every PRAXIS ship I face. I try, but sometimes even my best effort is not always enough."
She waited, wondering what he might make of this admission of imperfection. Denial, perhaps. It often went that way, when the fissures in the cation armor began to show.
He stared at her. Then, slowly, nodded.
She didn't know who was more surprised: her, from his acceptance, or him, for offering it.
"But Marek did keep himself aloof." He returned to the subject as if eager to put the strange, tenuous moment behind them both. "Didn't take criticism well. Whenever review came around, he'd be sullen for solar weeks. If he thought he wasn't getting enough recognition, he'd get angry."
"Violent?"
Calder shook his head. "He never kept up with his PT. If he wanted to hurt someone, he'd find another way to do it."
"So he might not be a threat."
"Physically? No. But Marek knows his tech. Wherever he is, he'll have systems in place. And the leash will be off."
"Leash?"
He stared out through the front-facing window as planetary systems slid past, and it surprised her now, how such a lean man could fill the cockpit with his presence. Rather than growing less aware of him as time passed, she had somehow developed a new sensitivity to him. She had seen him in combat, so that now, with each shift of his body, she had a precise knowledge of his muscles, and how he moved.
"Marek pushed for making the weaponry more aggressive, stronger."
"We need all the firepower strength we can get."
"Not the way he wanted it. It had elements of...cruelty. Not fast, quick enemy deaths, but a drawing out of their suffering. He wanted their ships to burn around them, giving them time to die slowly, smell their own charred flesh."
Celene cursed. "Someone had to suspect that we had a monster in our ranks."
"When called before a panel, he retracted. Said he was only joking. But, Lieutenant," he said, turning to face her, "there was no jest. I didn't know Marek well, but I knew that he wasn't prone to jokes."
"Then we'll need a strategy to face him."
His brows raised. "Word on base is that the best pilots rely on intuition, not strategy."
She shook her head. "As a Wraith pilot, I've faced so many battles, I can't count them anymore. Some arrive with no warning. I might be on patrol, or escorting a ship of refugees to their new homeworld, and then PRAXIS is there, in small force or large. Always deadly. Years of training and experience taught me to react without thought, to trust instinct and my squad mates not merely to survive, but to prevail."
She gazed at the tracking screen, and its faint flicker showing her the way to find a traitor. "But sometimes, when I'm fortunate, I get a chance to formulate a strategy beforehand. I'm not so faultless that I won't grab any advantage."
Calder studied her for a moment. "Wherever Marek's situated himself," he finally said, "he will be well guarded. Count on very tight security protocols. And cutting-edge tech."
She allowed herself a smile. "Good thing I've got the NerdWorks's best as my partner."
They had been following the tracking signal for three solar days when the com shrilled to life. Nils manned the controls as Celene slept in the single bunk in the sleeping chamber at the rear of the ship. The Phantom came equipped with autopilot, but the safer option meant having a live human at the controls, and he needed to keep readjusting the tracking device.
Now alone in the cockpit, he started when a man's voice crackled through the line. It came in faintly, pops and hisses cutting into words.
"Any ship within range---can you hear me? This is a distress call. Anyone?"
"Reading you," Nils said into the com. "Identify yourself."
"Akash Gabela, Galactic Registry number 473-Beta-Rho-229."
Nils ran the name and registry number through the ship's database.
"Who is he?"
He glanced over his shoulder to see Celene coming into the cockpit, strapping on her plasma pistol. As always, he needed to hide his reaction to her. It didn't matter how many times they changed shifts, seeing her made his pulse accelerate, his breathing quicken. She might have been asleep moments ago, but her silver eyes were alert now as she stood beside him and scanned the readout.
"Smuggler, pilot for hire." Nils focused on the information scrolling on the display rather than Celene's hand braced on the back of his seat. "He has a few outstanding subpoenas for trafficking black market goods."
"Untrustworthy." She narrowed her eyes.
"Not an upstanding citizen, no."
"Hello?" Gabela's voice came fainter now. "Unknown pilot, you still there? Situation critical on this end."
"What is your situation?" Nils asked.
"Ran into a debris storm. Took out propulsion systems, life support on emergency power. I've got maybe four solar hours left. You going to help, or what?"
Nils clicked off his end of the com. "His ship's a standard hauler. I could get him up and running in less than a solar hour."
Tension resonated through Celene's posture. She balanced on the balls of her feet as if ready to fight. "Could be another ambush."
He remembered the debriefing report he had read. She had been on patrol when she responded to another distress signal. And went straight into a trap that nearly cost the 8th Wing a Black Wraith, as well as Celene's freedom. Easy to see why she would be wary of making the same mistake twice.
These past few days had taught him well: Celene Jur had earned her reputation. Nothing had been given to her.
"Mara Skiren used to be a smuggler," he said now. "She would know him."
Celene nodded. "Let's get her on the line." They would be breaking com silence, but 8th Wing never ignored a distress call.
Quickly, Nils patched them through an encrypted line to base. "Trouble already?" Ensign Skiren asked.
"Akash Gabela's giving us a distress signal," Nils said. "Says he's drifting and solar hours away from life support failure."
"Can we trust him?" Celene asked.
"Gabela's a terrible geluk player," Mara said, "and he'll drink all your Lulani rum the second your back is turned. But he doesn't run bait and switch. If he says he's in trouble, he's in trouble. Besides," she added, "that grizzled bastard knows the darker sectors of the galaxy. He could give you some valuable intel."
"Then you vouch for him?" Nils asked.
Ensign Skiren's laugh was rueful. "As much as one former scum can vouch for another." A deeper, masculine voice sounded behind her, and her response was another husky chuckle. "Oh, you get off on having a shady lover. What? Going to give me a spanking?"
"I don't think she's speaking to us," said Nils, dry.
"Save the dirty talk for later," Celene said into the com. "If you say that Gabela's trustworthy---reasonably trustworthy---we've got to help him out."
"Tell that son of a dirtroach that he still owes me for that case of Lulani rum," answered Skiren. "And stay safe."
After signing out, Nils cut the com line. He glanced at Celene, seeing the wariness that tightened her mouth, the nervous energy that made her tap her fingers against the control panel.
"There's a difference between what happened last time and this," he noted.
She raised one neatly arched black brow.
"This time," he said, "you aren't alone."
"By the ten demon lords, I never thought you'd get here." Akash Gabela trundled toward Nils and Celene as they stood in his loading bay. After responding to Gabela's signal, their ships had linked, and, with plasma pistols ready just in case, they had come aboard.
"We didn't know if we could trust you," Celene answered.
Gabela wheezed a laugh. He had the short stature and green skin of a Dejanian, and he hobbled around on a sherica-powered artificial limb. It wasn't the newest in tech, hissing a little with each step, but the smuggler seemed unbothered by it.
"You're 8th Wing." Gabela shuffled closer. "So I know I can trust you. Bunch of galactic do-gooders."
"If you want PRAXIS running the galaxy," Nils said, "controlling every aspect of your life, and death, by all means, we'll gladly step aside. I hear the PRAXIS prison barges are particularly brutal."
"Fine, fine." Despite the smuggler's grumbling, his skin paled. "We going to stand here all day, using up the last of my oxygen, or we going to fix my damn ship?"
"We're fixing your damn ship," Celene answered. "Take us to the damage."
Nils was already striding down the passageway toward the systems room. "I know the way."
"Want some tools?" Gabela shouted after him. "Mine couldn't do shit to fix the damage, but you might have better luck with 'em."
"Brought my own." He hefted the satchel slung over his shoulder.
Celene was at his side, her long legs matching his stride. "You studied the ship's schematics before we linked."
He shook his head. "Haulers usually follow the same configuration. I take what knowledge I already have and extrapolate the rest." He glanced over when he heard her low laugh.
"Most people are either attractive or smart. Seldom both."
He almost stumbled. "You think I'm attractive too?"
"Assuming I already consider you smart."
"That's a given."
They reached the door to the systems room. The control panel wouldn't respond to his fingers on the keypad, so he had to pry the heavy door open. Celene provided assistance, tugging on the thick metal until it opened with a groan.
Inside the systems room, the atmospheric temperature soared, a symptom of the failing life support. Torn wires and ripped-out panels lay on the floor, and a huge gouge ran the length of the external bulkhead. The blackness of space showed through the gouge. Fortunately, the ship had enough power left to generate an electrical shield over the tear, or else everything would have been sucked out into the void.
"Let's get to work." Celene bent to study one of the damaged panels.
He rummaged through his tools until he found the sonic welder he needed, then began his repairs on the life support systems. Gabela had spoken the truth. Only a handful of power remained, and soon the hauler ship would be dead---including anyone who was on it.
The heat in the chamber made it feel like a small sun. But the flush in his cheeks came more from what Celene had said moments earlier. These past two solar days had been extremely strange. His awe of her hadn't lasted more than a few solar hours, for it had become clear to him that, despite her reputation as an utterly untouchable hero, she was no different from any other sentient being in the galaxy.
She left her used kahve cups in the galley without cleaning them, and her clothes were thrown all over the small sleeping chamber in the back of the Phantom. When hungry, she had little patience for anyone and anything, including herself. She liked to eat Qivani sugarcakes, but she only allowed herself half of one, saving the other in a heat-pouch for later. She knew a surprising amount of racy Uilan poems, but she was the one who looked surprised when he joined her in reciting the last stanzas.
And she was lonely.
"Stabilized life support," he said over his shoulder. "We don't need to worry about running out of oxygen."
"Good work, Calder. Now toss me the sonic cutter."
He smiled to himself, knowing he could not expect excessive praise for doing his job. "We've been sharing a tiny Phantom for days now. You can call me Nils."
"Fine. Nils, toss me the sonic cutter."
He lobbed the tool across the small chamber. She caught it with a quick grab, her reflexes precise, then flashed him a smile before returning to her work.
Getting back to his own labors, his mind processed both what circuitry needed repairing, as well as the more complex systems that comprised Celene. Over the past three solar days, with time to fill, they'd had many conversations: about life before joining the 8th Wing, what life meant after joining. She'd recounted dangerous missions, and, at her urging, he'd talked of some particularly difficult engineering challenges. She asked enough questions to let him know that she was actually interested, and it eventually occurred to him that she knew very few people outside of the Black Wraith Squad. Not by choice, but circumstance.
He joined two ruptured circuits. It was far easier to connect wires than people.
A woman with her reputation, idolized by many, possessed elevated status within the 8th Wing. But it also isolated her. She mentioned only a handful of friends. Never a lover. No one truly close to her. Not even Commander Frayne, though it was clear that they did have a friendship.
"Did you ever think about becoming a pilot?" she asked Nils now. "Maybe even Black Wraith. You've got the sharpness for it."
"Gods, no. I'm happiest elbows-deep in a ship's guidance systems, not a ship's cockpit. Recruiting?"
She shrugged. "I always need a good man---the squad needs people, I mean."
"NerdWorks, through and through." He watched her as she deftly spliced power cables. "Perhaps you should consider joining Engineering."
She chuckled. "Pilot, through and through. Flying is what I do, what my parents did and their parents. And it's damn satisfying to blow PRAXIS out of the sky. Besides," she added, "I'm too much of an egotist to work behind the scenes."
"So you do like the attention."
"A little." She shot him a glance. "Am I not supposed to admit that?"
"Engineering isn't all grunt work and crawling through service tubes. We take our share of the bows."
"Even you."
He pointed to the numerous patches on his sleeve. "When they gave me these commendations, I had to stand in front of the whole Engineering Corps on base and listen as my superior read a speech about me and my contributions to the 8th Wing. And I stood there trying not to grin, though gods knew I wanted to."
She smiled. "I won't feel so badly next time I polish my medals."
"You should never feel badly about what you've achieved."
"Believe me, I don't." She turned back to her work, half-burying her next words. "It's other people who have a problem with it."
Was that the cost of prestige? He had his own reputation in Engineering, but no one outside of NerdWorks ever came up to him and slapped him on the back, congratulated him for his incredibly innovative plasma-conversion processor. No one whispered about him in awed tones as he walked down the corridors of the base. No one expected him to be better than everyone else---except himself. He always held himself to a high standard.
Not Celene. She was Stainless Jur. Flawless. Except she wasn't. But rather than disappoint him, it made Nils appreciate what she had accomplished that much more.
Could he even say that to her? And would she want him to?
Yes, Lieutenant Celene Jur was far more complicated than the most arcane computer system. But if he had to choose between simplistic and complex, he would choose complex, every time.
The work in the systems room was not difficult, not for him, in any case. Though he had stabilized the life support, the climate controls required more repairs, keeping the temperature at a blistering level. Soon, he soaked through his uniform. Celene had already peeled off the top of her uniform, so that she wore her tank top and uniform pants. He couldn't help but stare as sweat gleamed on the sleek muscles of her arms and in the valley between her breasts.
"Analyzing my systems?" She turned, putting her hands on her hips. Seeming to dare him to look at her.
He would have blushed if he wasn't already overheated. "I might be a fellow 8th Wing officer and I might be NerdWorks, I'm also a man with perfectly good vision." He turned away to adjust the torque on a valve. "The only way I wouldn't notice you was if I had already crossed to the Starfields of Eternal Bliss."
"You want an inspection? Go ahead."
He studiously avoided glancing at her.
"Come on," she chided. "Consider it a research and discovery mission."
"Mission accepted." He turned back to face her. And swallowed hard.
She stood with arms wide, her chin tilted up, daring him to look. And he did, because once he caught a glimpse of her he couldn't look away. Her dark hair had come loose from its sleek ponytail and damp tendrils clung to her neck and her bare shoulders. Back in SimCom she had also worn a tank top and uniform pants, but he'd been too busy fighting for a place on this mission to truly see the tight, lean wonder of her body. His gaze followed the lines of her collarbones to the hollow of her throat, and lower.
Gods, he couldn't believe he was staring at Lieutenant Celene Jur's breasts, but by the Ten Hells, how could he not? For such a slim woman, her breasts were surprisingly full. His hands were the perfect size to cup them, feeling their silky weight as he lowered his mouth to hers...
"Thorough inspection." Her voice cut through his thoughts, and his gaze snapped back to hers. He expected to see anger or amusement on her face. Instead her dark, wide pupils nearly eclipsed the silver of her irises, and her breaths came shallowly.
Was she...aroused? He certainly was. And, as a pilot, she had excellent vision. She couldn't miss the fact that an erection tented the front of his uniform.
He almost groaned when she ran her tongue over her lips, moistening them. "The Laws of Galactic Equality state that in all transactions, reciprocity must be observed." She eyed his uniform. "So..."
"You want me to disrobe?" He stared at her.
"It's hotter than the two suns of Lamia Zed in here. This way, you can honor the Laws of Galactic Equality and get more comfortable."
Impossible for him to get comfortable in these circumstances. But he saw the gleam of challenge in her eyes, and that goaded him on.
"The 8th Wing is all about equality," he murmured, and began to undo the fastenings to the top of his uniform. He never took his eyes off of her, observing her as she watched him slowly undo the gray material.
He didn't consider himself a prude. Though he hadn't participated in the fertility rites each Green Solstice, which involved sexual acts performed before a crowd of celebrants, he had seen the rites and found them...very enlightening. He might not be the most daring lover, but he had never been given complaints, and, in fact, received a fair number of compliments. An engineer's mind could be very creative, given the proper motivation.
But he'd never undressed in front of anyone---not deliberately, leisurely. Yet he couldn't seem to stop himself from carefully undoing each fastening beneath his collar and then along his shoulder and down his side. Celene's gaze followed his every move.
The front of his uniform gaped open and he pulled his arms free from the sleeves, then let the whole top hang from his waist, as she had done with her uniform. After cleaning himself in the UV stall earlier in the solar day, he'd put his uniform on, but in his haste to get back to the tracking device, he'd neglected to don the tank top he always wore beneath. Which now left his upper body completely bare.
"Great Lady." Celene sounded breathless. "That's not what comes to mind when someone mentions NerdWorks."
Self-conscious, Nils glanced down at himself. He knew what his body looked like, but he tried to see it through her eyes. Though all members of 8th Wing had to do PT, most in Engineering got by with the bare minimum. That wasn't enough. You never knew when PRAXIS might come calling, which meant you had to be ready to fight. When others in Engineering spent their off hours watching vids or playing crypt-marauder games, he was in the training chambers, listening to tech journals on his headset while boxing or practicing H2H combat maneuvers.
"Seems like my time in the training chambers paid off." If the look of pure feminine appreciation in her gaze was any indicator.
"Oh, yes. Yes, it did."
He was a Xalian, which meant the males of his homeworld did not have hair on their chests, as some other species did. So she could see every ridge of musculature on his chest and abdomen. He would never be thickly muscled like Commander Frayne, but Nils could take care of himself. The round he had gone in SimCom showed that.
"Turn around," she said.
"What?"
She made a spinning motion with her finger. He took a breath. Why not? Besides, there was something acutely...exciting...about having Celene command him. He didn't have to obey, yet he chose to. A deliberate handing over of control---something new for him, who liked to be in control of all parameters at any given time. Now he purposefully let go, and a visceral flare of arousal jolted through him.
He turned to face the bulkhead. Her soft, appreciative curse ran like a silk glove down his spine.
"Are those tattoos?"
"No---pigmentation. When people on my homeworld reach sexual maturity, the anahita markings appear."
"Does everyone have the same kind?"
"They're different from person to person. Some anahitas are more numerous and thicker than others."
"You're very sexually...mature."
Even his father had been surprised by the thickness and darkness of the anahitas that had appeared on Nils's back. He then bragged to the neighbors about his son's virility, which had made Nils want to find the nearest ice cave and never come out. He'd been self-conscious about the markings ever since then, despite the 8th Wing's tolerance for all shapes and colors within its forces. When training, he made sure to keep his back covered. Now, hearing the husky excitement in Celene's voice, he wondered if his shyness was truly necessary. Perhaps not.
"Do they go all the way down?"
"Only one way to find out." He couldn't believe he said that. Yet he was rewarded with her husky laugh, and if his cock hadn't been hard before, it surely was now.
He debated for a moment whether or not to turn back around. Even amongst his colleagues in Engineering, he had a reputation for being reserved, focusing more on his work than on socializing or flirting. He wasn't in Engineering now. This ship drifted in deep space, free from expectations or past behavior. If a time existed to remake oneself, that time had arrived.
Straightening his shoulders, Nils turned. Celene's eyes widened as she saw the clear evidence of his arousal. Instead of moving back, however, she took a step closer. Nils did the same, drawn forward by an instinctive pull.
The distance between them narrowed. Dimly, he had awareness of stepping over debris on the floor, the tangles of wires and circuitry, but all he saw was her. She stared back.
Until only a few inches separated them. They were close enough that he could see the tiny scar at the corner of her mouth, like a beacon guiding him to precisely where he wanted to be.
Slowly, she lifted her hand, and he fought a groan as her fingers skimmed the line between his pectorals and drifted down to rest lightly on the flat of his stomach. He twitched beneath her touch.
Gods---need to touch her.
He curved his hands over her shoulders, the sensation of bare flesh to bare flesh a live current of electricity. She was both resilient and soft under his palms, the texture of her skin finer than Hazada silk, but she had a strength of muscle and will that exiled rational thought.
She tilted her face up, another challenge.
I shouldn't do this. He narrowed the distance between their mouths. I have to do this.
In a moment he would taste her, and he wanted nothing more.
"You two gonna play docking bay and cargo in there," Gabela snapped from the door, "or you gonna fix my ship?"
Nils and Celene spun around, releasing each other. They stepped apart.
She scowled at Gabela. "An overflow of gratitude, smuggler."
"Drifting out in this sector makes me nervous," he shot back.
Nils suppressed the urge to put his boot in the smuggler's plentiful stomach. "Your ship will be operational in twenty solar minutes. A patch job, but you'll have enough power to get to a station for comprehensive repairs."
"Setting my chrono now." Gabela lumbered down the corridor, his artificial limb making almost as much noise as the smuggler's grumbling.
Several moments passed as Nils and Celene stared at one another. He was torn between wanting to lunge for her and jettisoning himself into space. There were arenas in his life in which he was bold and took risks---women had never been one of them. And now he'd done just that. Would he ever have the balls to make another move on her?
She scowled at the space where Gabela had been standing. "Mara didn't mention that her old friend was an ass."
"He could teach the Okenial Trick Flying Squad something about timing, as well."
She let out an exasperated breath. "We should finish here so we can pick up where we left off."
"The mission, or...?"
Her answer was an inscrutable smile. "Puzzle it out, NerdWorks. Let me know your findings---after we fix this ship."
With that enigma buzzing through him, he quickly got back to work. He repaired the climate controls, allowing his inner and outer temperatures to come down from nuclear levels, and then restored functionality to the propulsion and guidance systems. He welded a panel in place to cover the rupture in the external bulkhead. In less than fifteen solar minutes, the ship became operative.
"And five solar minutes to spare." He pulled on the top of his uniform, but did not miss the gleam of disappointment in her gaze as he did so.
"Leaving us enough time to get some intel from Gabela." He felt a similar disappointment as Celene refastened her uniform, as well. "Maybe he---"
The alarm blared.
They bolted from the systems room and stared out a porthole. Three fighter ships sped toward their position.
She cursed. "PRAXIS."
Celene ran down the passageway toward the ship's cockpit, with Nils right behind her. She grabbed Gabela by his collar and hauled him up from his seat. The smuggler's eyes were wide as she gave him a hard shake.
"Did you know they were coming?" she snarled.
"No! They...they must have caught my distress call."
She still didn't release him.
Nils stepped forward and pried her fingers from Gabela's collar. "He's blameless."
The smuggler dropped back into his seat with a gasp.
Nils gazed at the ship's control panel. The alarm continued to blare, and on the viewscreen, the PRAXIS ships drew closer. "Even if this ship wasn't operating at lower efficiency, it has rudimentary shields and weapons."
"Get to the Phantom." She turned and sped from the cockpit.
Nils followed as she ran down to the loading dock where their ship was docked. Relief poured through her to be back inside an 8th Wing ship, knowing that all their vessels were kept in top condition. If she had to, she'd have found a way to fight using the smuggler's rickety, damaged ship, but she'd much rather have the superior firepower of a Phantom. She took her seat at the controls and Nils sat beside her, his hands already flying over the weapons systems panel.
"PRAXIS will be within engagement distance in one solar minute," he said, his voice clipped. "It's a cutter and two fighters."
The smuggler's ship was dead weight that would only slow them down. Celene uncoupled the Phantom and punched the throttle.
"Don't leave me," Gabela's voice pled over the com.
"We'll draw them away from you." She entered a combat sequence into the control panel. There would be no possibility of escape, only a fight. The enemy drew closer.
"Thirty seconds to engagement," said Nils.
"Ever been in actual combat?"
"This is my first."
At least he sounded calm. Tense, but composed. She had to trust his skill and training.
"Twenty seconds," he said.
The twin sensations of excitement and utter serenity filled her, the same feelings she always had in the moments before combat. She needed to welcome the fight, to be ready for it, and she needed complete calm. Usually when she went up against the enemy, she had her fellow Black Wraith squad members as backup, and the sleek, deadly machine of a Black Wraith ship---not an untested NerdWorks engineer in a Phantom. Some pilots might worry about liabilities, but she'd earned the name Stainless Jur for a reason.
Where other pilots saw problems, she saw possibilities. A greater challenge that she had to meet.
The other option was death.
"Ten seconds," Nils said.
Celene pushed the Phantom away from the smuggler's ship, heading toward the freedom of deeper space. She gave Nils a tight smile as he continued his countdown. "Strap yourself down and let 'em come."
All three PRAXIS ships opened fire.
She immediately took the Phantom into evasive maneuvers, canting the ship back and forth and side to side in order to dodge the blasts. The Phantom shuddered from the concussion, but took no hits. She banked hard and returned fire, clipping the wing of the cutter. It shook but held tight in its pursuit.
"If this was my Wraith," she said, "that lunc would be molecules." But she didn't believe in excuses, only trying harder, so she brought her ship around again for another strafing run.
She hit the fighters and saw the satisfying blue glow that indicated their shields were weakening.
Suddenly the Phantom unleashed an additional round of plasma fire on the PRAXIS ships. She frowned down at the controls. She hadn't taken those shots. But how...?
She glanced over at Nils. He looked a little smug as his hands hovered over the control panel.
"Before we left base, I made a few additional modifications. Including a secondary weapons system."
She shook her head, smiling. "Always thinking ahead, NerdWorks."
"There's virtue in being prepared," he answered, but he didn't return the smile. Instead, his gaze remained tight on the viewscreen, tracking the movements of the PRAXIS ships.
It was easy to forget that he wasn't a combat veteran. Whenever Celene and her squad members were in a fight, they often cracked jokes in the heat of battle as a way to deal with the tension. None of them ever forgot the stakes, but flying countless engagements with the enemy tended to take the cutting edge off of fear. It was either that, or crack up from the stress. Which had happened to more than a few combat pilots.
She couldn't think about her fallen or washed-out comrades. There were three blood-hungry PRAXIS ships to deal with.
"I'm going to take us past them again," she said. "Concentrate your fire on the panels just behind the fighters' weapons."
"Take out the power."
"Exactly." She swung the Phantom around and headed straight toward the oncoming ships. Evading their shots, she flew in the narrow space between the fighters. As she did, Nils unleashed a barrage from the secondary guns.
He let out a shout when he hit one of the enemy's weapons power source.
"Better than Nifalian chess," she said, enjoying his exuberance.
He did smile then, a rakish grin that did interesting things to her heart rate and body temperature. "Can see why you Black Wraith hotshots like this. It's stimulating as hells."
Yet both he and Celene lost their smiles when the two other PRAXIS ships fired back. She pushed the throttle hard, but not quite fast enough to avoid taking a hit to the Phantom's tertiary thruster. Shudders racked the small ship.
Nils muttered a curse, and she realized that the experience of being on a ship taking fire was new to him. But aside from his brief foray into foul language, he kept a level head, firing back steadily.
She kept the Phantom in constant motion, darting and weaving around the PRAXIS ships.
"Feels strange to pilot something other than my Wraith in combat." It didn't have the streamlined elegance she loved so much, the smooth integration of pilot and ship that made flying as seamless as thought. She threaded between the two enemy ships as they tried to flank her.
"You're handling the transition well," he answered.
"I've earned every one of my commendations. I can fly damn near everything."
"Including a modified Phantom. With NerdWorks manning the guns."
She grinned, then swore when the larger PRAXIS ship unleashed a torrent of plasma fire and she took quick, evasive maneuvers to avoid the hits. The dirtroach clung to her tail in pursuit.
"Screw this game of plasma tag. We've got traitors to find." She banked the Phantom, and guided it toward the smaller PRAXIS fighter. She pushed closer and closer, heading toward it dead on.
"Maybe not be the wisest strategy," Nils murmured.
"Trust me."
He didn't really have a choice, since she was the one with her hands on the controls, but he nodded, his shoulders losing some of their tension. She appreciated his confidence. Her squad mates understood they could rely on her, just as she had faith in them, but aside from her reputation in the 8th Wing, Nils really didn't know her---not in a combat situation, where the stakes couldn't be higher. His trust in her gave her an added shot of adrenaline.
"Give me a countdown. Time until impact with the fighter."
"Ten thousand meters," he answered. "Nine thousand."
The cutter in pursuit continued to shoot. Between that and the plasma barrage from the fighter ahead of them, Celene kept the Phantom continually shifting to avoid being hit. It was a tight, tough course, dodging fire from the aft and stern, minutely adjusting her ship, all the while maintaining a path that couldn't allow for the smallest miscalculation.
"Eight thousand. Seven."
A single bead of sweat crept down the back of her neck.
"Six. Five. Four thousand."
Another hit shook the Phantom. The small ship wanted to buck from her control, but she wrestled it into compliance, feeling a burn in her muscles.
"Three thousand. Two."
Celene kept her gaze focused on the PRAXIS ship throttling toward her. She felt energized, calm. Especially knowing that Nils had her back, keeping the cutter at a distance with his secondary weapons. His steadiness served as an anchor, giving her the room she needed.
"One."
She could just make out the smaller details of the fighter rocketing toward her: the ship's registration number emblazoned on its side, the metal casings of the guns along its wings. In a moment, she would know the inner workings of the fighter, if the Phantom collided with the enemy ship.
Milliseconds before impact, she pulled up hard on the controls. The Phantom flew straight up, narrowly avoiding the collision.
The cutter and fighter, however, weren't as lucky. Waves of concussion rocked the Phantom as the two PRAXIS ships rammed into each other. They exploded in a huge ball of energy, and the force of their crash sent surges of energy outward, shaking the Phantom.
She wrestled the ship under control, then brought it back around to face the remaining disabled PRAXIS fighter. It immediately turned and sped away. She started to give chase.
"Our engines took some bad hits," Nils said. "If we pursue at top speed, we'll blow 'em out too badly for me to repair them."
With a frustrated oath, she broke off the pursuit, bringing the Phantom back around toward Gabela's ship. Her heart still pounded from the rush of combat, and when she glanced over at Nils, he gave her his raffish grin, transforming the serious engineer into a scoundrel.
"I believe the proper word to describe your strategy is ballsy. The better designation might be fucking crazy."
Celene laughed. "Going to report me? I could be eligible for Sigma Seven status."
He shook his head. "I suspect every combat pilot is eligible for Sig-Seven. We'd have no one to fly Wraiths. They'd all be undergoing psych protocols."
"At least I'd have company," she answered. "You'd be right there with me."
His smile felt like a sun rising inside her chest, made even better by the genuine pleasure gleaming in his eyes.
"I would, wouldn't I?" He sounded surprised and gratified.
His gaze suddenly sharpened, becoming focused and determined. He turned toward her and unfastened the buckle of his seat restraint.
"What is it?" She frowned, wondering if something was wrong.
Suddenly, he knelt beside her seat. Then cupped her head with his broad hands---and kissed her.
Celene's hands never left the controls, but she doubted she could move even if she wanted to. Warmth pulsed through her body as his mouth found hers. His lips were warm, firm, surprisingly confident. He took small sips of her, then lightly ran his tongue along the seam of her lips. She found herself opening to him without thought, as if it was the most natural thing in the universe to have Lieutenant Nils Calder kiss her.
When she parted her lips to let him in, a dark, primitive sound rumbled up from within him, and the kiss deepened. His fingers tightened in her hair as his tongue delved into her, stroking her, learning her feel and taste. And she learned his. He had a rich, spiced flavor, more potent than Girlal brandy. The more she tasted him, the more she craved.
His kiss was made of promises. Promises of pleasure, of unrestrained passion. What his mouth would feel like not just on her lips, but on her body, exploring her, savoring her. His engineer's focus and thoroughness directed solely toward her.
This was a kiss a man gave a woman, not a legend.
And it shook her. It left her nowhere to hide, nothing with which to protect herself.
She pulled back, breaking the kiss. His eyes opened, and his breathing came in rough swells as he gazed at her.
There was something startlingly familiar about his kiss.
A memory sparked through her. Quick and sharp.
"The Night of Masks," she said, her voice breathless.
He said nothing, only continued to stare at her, his eyes hot and his cheeks dark and flushed.
Finally liberated, the memory came back to her in a rush. It had been five solar months ago. Celebrating holidays was always important at the 8th Wing home base, even holidays that had no true spiritual foundation, like the Night of Masks. That holiday was, in truth, more an excuse to be wild and uninhibited, identities protected by the traditional masks worn by celebrants. Fighting between PRAXIS and the 8th Wing had been particularly bad in the past year, so Command had gone all out and had real naamari cakes baked for the troops. And offered a plentiful supply of Lulani rum. Alcohol and masks made for a potent combination.
Celene loved the Night of Masks. It was one of the few times she could shed her Stainless Jur identity and simply enjoy herself like any person. Like any woman.
She remembered now that she'd been dancing with several men. The men could've been her squad mates or part of the regular personnel or medical staff. It hadn't mattered. She'd lost herself to the music, allowing herself to feel and be free. One of the men dancing with her had been gently tugging on her hand, trying to get her to go with him to a shadowed corner, but she'd been resisting, enjoying the freedom of the dance far more than she knew she would enjoy a fast, frenzied coupling. Everyone in the 8th Wing had the Xalina vaccine and the Tawaret chip, so she knew she'd be protected from any disease or pregnancy---but it felt far better to dance with abandon than have anonymous sex.
She had been just about to tell her insistent partner that he ought to find someone else for his night's fun when a pair of strong hands had settled on her shoulders and turned her around. Even though she'd had more than a few mugs of rum, she had known she could take down anyone who tried to force himself on her. But she hadn't wanted to use her hand-to-hand combat skills that night. She had just wanted freedom. Stainless Jur might toss an unwanted suitor to the ground, but on the Night of Masks, she could have been anyone, even a woman who let strangers touch her.
Facing the man who'd turned her around, she had gotten a quick impression of height and wide shoulders. The stranger's mask had covered his upper face, but she had seen his mouth and its intriguing full bottom lip. He had stared at her for a moment, and she had smirked up at him, wondering just how far she'd let him take this before she decided to dislocate his thumbs. He had seemed to be steadying himself, as if he had been on the verge of jumping into a fission tank.
And then he'd lowered his head, bringing his mouth to hers. The stranger had kissed her.
If he'd been rough or too aggressive, she would have pushed him away. Shoved her elbow into his throat. Enjoying her freedom did not mean putting up with some nebula toad's tongue and grabbing hands.
But the stranger had kissed her with...tenderness. As if she was precious to him. Yet he hadn't been too weak, either. Just the right amount of strength, a balance between his desire and her power. In his kiss, she had felt she wasn't Stainless Jur, and she wasn't an anonymous woman perfect for a Night of Masks tryst. She was her, and he wanted her.
Desire had hit her, fast and hot. Whoever the stranger had been, she needed to know what it would be like to be his lover, even for a single night.
She'd reached up to thread her fingers through his hair, pull him closer, but as soon as she did, he'd ended the kiss.
He had stared at her, his eyes unreadable behind his mask. She hadn't been able to even see their color. She had opened her mouth to speak. And then, the crowd around them had shifted. He'd vanished into it, as abruptly as waking from a dream. She had searched for him the rest of the night, but wherever her stranger had gone, he'd hidden himself well in the throng of masked celebrants.
For a few days afterward, she'd been haunted by that kiss. Thinking of what might have been. Walking down the corridors of the base, she'd stared into the faces of dozens of men, stared at their mouths, but none of them seemed right or familiar. She'd stopped looking, and chalked the whole experience as part of the Night of Masks' mystique. Maybe in another solar year, her stranger might try again. And if he did, she'd pull his mask off.
Now she had her answer.
"It was you," she said to Nils.
His voice was tight, his expression opaque, though color blazed in his cheeks. "Yes."
A million questions flooded her mind, but she could not ask any of them. She still resonated with the kiss they'd just shared. It startled her to realize how much the kiss had rattled her, far more so than the combat.
They'd reached Gabela's ship, and hopefully the smuggler had good intel about the safer routes in this quadrant.
"May the ten demon lords bless you," Gabela said over the com as Nils returned to his seat.
"How about some reciprocity," she answered. "Mara said you know this quadrant."
"Better than I know my bastard children. I can tell you the best places to fly to avoid PRAXIS."
Nils said, "I can strengthen the Phantom's sensors to alert us if PRAXIS is anywhere within a parsec. It will make us run a little slower, but we'll be safer."
She gave him a clipped nod. If anyone could make the necessary modifications, it would be Nils.
"Transmit the coordinates," she said to Gabela. "The best routes, the most dangerous ones. Everything you know."
Immediately, coordinates scrolled through the Phantom's display screen. Nils began entering them into the navigational systems, and she saw that he cross-checked them against the data records for known hotspots. Thorough, that Lieutenant Calder.
"Got it," she said.
"May the gods speed your ship," Gabela answered.
"Better find a port," Nils advised. "I bought you some time with the repairs, but I wouldn't take the scenic route."
The smuggler ship raced off as fast as its antiquated engines could carry it. She didn't wait to see the last of its hull lights before bringing the Phantom around. They still had a traitor to find and fight.
Nils continued to study the tracking device. They were getting closer to Marek, the signal growing in strength, but they were not close enough. It could be a matter of solar hours or days until he and Celene reached wherever the traitor had situated himself, and Nils burned with impatience to arrive at their destination. He wanted justice. He did not want to explain to Celene why he had kissed her at the last Night of Masks, nor why he'd waited so long to kiss her again.
His face burned at the memory---not just what had happened at the Night of Masks, but his kissing her after the fight with PRAXIS. Even more damning, his body tightened with arousal. Could he explain his actions to her when he himself couldn't puzzle them out?
Fortunately, in the hours after parting ways with Gabela, she hadn't spoken of either kiss. In fact, she hadn't spoken at all. He studied her surreptitiously. She stared straight ahead, her gaze focused on the spread of stars and nebulae that filled the sky. Even though he told himself not to look, his attention drifted down to her mouth.
Heat washed through him, a strange and primal need. To mark her, claim her. Take her mouth once more. Take more than her mouth. He didn't recognize himself in the depths of this savage hunger. His response to women had always been enthusiastic, but never this fierce, this demanding. It was as if he discovered a vital component missing from his blood, and there was only one way to make himself whole---Celene.
If he took her in his arms now, what might she do? Grip his shoulders and pull him closer? Or break his wrists?
He had to admit, there was something viscerally thrilling about not knowing. He didn't want to hurt her, nor be hurt, yet when it came to the quantifiable variables of his life and the order to which he liked to assign everything, the unknown element of Celene excited him.
Everything about her excited him.
He couldn't let himself think of that, of what he wanted.
"That was a surprise." In the confines of the small cockpit, his voice sounded too low, too gravelly. "The combat, I mean," he added when she raised a brow.
"Surprise attacks tend to be unexpected," she said drily.
Oh, hells, of course she would know that.
"We handled the situation well enough," he said. "But I'm talking about being in an actual fight. The combat was definitely alarming but also...exhilarating. A lot more than SimCom or training."
"Nothing like live plasma fire to get the heart rate up." She grinned. "You weren't scared?"
"Definitely," he answered.
She chuckled at his ready response. "Didn't show it."
He shrugged. "Why should I? Panicking wouldn't help either of us. Had to direct my concentration toward defeating the enemy and getting us out alive."
"But you liked it." A statement, not a question.
"You know, I did." He was thoughtful. "Operating in pristine harmony with someone else. Fighting side by side. Anticipating each other's needs and fending off attackers." His muscles burned just thinking about it again. "Still, I don't want to go into combat with anyone else but you."
He fought the urge to close his eyes. Gods, he had not meant to say that. Not out loud, at least.
Her silver eyes widened. "Tell me about the Night of Masks," she finally said.
"I'd rather not. We could talk about the other kiss." Much easier for him to rationalize it as the heat of the moment.
But she looked distinctly uneasy at the mention of their most recent kiss. "I'd rather not," she echoed.
What made her so uncomfortable? Was it the idea of kissing a NerdWorks engineer? Or something else? Something that made her...uncertain.
"Was it spontaneous," she pressed, her voice gaining confidence, "or did you plan it?"
Prevarication seemed unlikely. Her tone refused argument, and her eyes told him that she'd see through any dissembling.
"Planned," he answered. "I'd known of you for a long time. Actually, we met almost two solar years ago. I was making some mods to your Wraith after a sortie. We talked about piloting systems for a while, then you went to a squad debriefing."
"I remember," she said, then added, "vaguely."
He battled an automatic wince. Why would a Black Wraith Squad hotshot truly notice NerdWorks?
"I remember you vividly," he said. "You left an impression."
Her expression grew distant. "Stainless Jur."
"Best of the best. An untouchable combat record. And," he continued, deciding that he might as well be completely candid, "you were---are---so beautiful, you stopped my heart."
Her aloof expression slipped a little. She seemed genuinely surprised that anyone might notice her as a woman rather than a series of combat statistics.
"Should have said something," she noted.
He gave a rueful chuckle. "Every scenario I ran for that conversation resulted in the same outcome. None of them involved you and I sitting down for a cup of kahve, let alone me getting you back to my quarters."
Her cheeks turned pink, illuminated by the light of the control panel.
He shook his head. "I can hardly believe I'm saying these things now."
"You just survived a firefight with PRAXIS."
"So it should be easy to get through this...confession." Would her dismissal hurt more than a plasma blast to the chest?
"Without actually testing your theory, that's all it remains---theory. You'll never know unless you try."
"Let's not mislead ourselves," he said. "Honestly, if I'd suggested we watch a vid together and have dinner by simu-candlelight, you would've said yes?"
She opened her mouth to speak, then closed it. Her gaze became thoughtful.
"Your silence is my answer." Nils returned his gaze to the tracking device.
"There are different kinds of engagements." Her voice was weighted with experience. "Not just combat, but engagements between people. And I've learned from all of them. Including the fact that when a man looks at me with stars in his eyes, he's going to be disenchanted when the daylight comes and the stars fade."
"It would have been different with me."
"Maybe, but I'd seen that look too many times to want to see it again."
The weariness in her voice made him look up from the display. Her eyes gleamed with a rare vulnerability. How had no one seen her isolation? A reputation like hers had its benefits, yet it must also keep her in seclusion. How frequently she had been disappointed by her lovers? He didn't particularly want to dwell on the image of Celene in bed with another man, but however often she encountered that disappointment, it had most assuredly left a lingering mark.
She wore her reputation like armor, shielding her.
"I'm sorry," he said.
She shrugged, though the gesture was not as careless as she likely intended. "I fly forward. I'm very good at it." Turning a curious gaze toward him, she said, "So you meet me once, lose your nerve to ask me out and then...kiss me on the Night of Masks years later. A long stretch of time for you to formulate a plan."
"Not all of it was spent contemplating how to kiss you." For much of the intervening months, Nils had tried to put her from his mind. Compartmentalization came easily to him, as well as the logical means by which he could resolve dilemmas. "I went about my duties in Engineering. Trained. Studied." He couldn't resist adding, "Went on a few dates."
"Here I was, thinking you were some kind of Llinanian monk."
He gave a self-deprecating snort. "I wasn't a priest of the love goddess Oshun, either." He hesitated. "But when you'd come back from missions, I'd run extra diagnostics on your Wraith. Even if I wasn't assigned to do so. Making sure your ship wasn't harmed." It was the closest he would ever come to looking after her.
Beautiful, strong, capable. He would go over her Wraith carefully, and thoughts had filled his mind as his hands were busy running the tests. What would it be like to get close to her? To feel the lean length of her body against his? To taste her mouth? Or, gods, even simply talk with her?
He could say that the scientist in him wanted to know---the spirit of intellectual inquiry compelling him to pose a question and then answer it. That would be a lie. He was a man, and it was with a man's desire that he dreamed of her, distant and brilliant as a star.
"Even if you weren't thinking about kissing me all that time," she pointed out now, "you certainly picked a prime opportunity to do so."
"It's foolish to waste a promising prospect."
A corner of her mouth turned up. "That's either very rational, or a supreme example of justification." Her smile turned into a frown. "But everyone was wearing masks. How'd you know it was me? There are plenty of women in 8th Wing with hair the same color and length as mine, whose height and build matches mine."
"Maybe I kissed them too," he countered.
"No, you didn't."
"No." He shook his head. "I didn't." He hoped she might let the question pass, but she continued to hold him with her incisive gaze. Her reputation for tenacity was also well earned. "I just...recognized you."
"Recognized me," she said, her voice heavy with irony. Clearly, she did not believe him.
He sighed roughly. "Something about you...I could always find you in a crowded room. Even if I wasn't looking for you, even if I didn't know you'd be somewhere in particular, my gaze...went straight to you. Instinctively."
Frustrating to attempt to explain something for which he had no explanation. He, who dealt in specifics and known quantities, found himself utterly at a loss. Because the truth was that he truly didn't understand how it was he could find or recognize Celene in a crowded room full of people wearing masks. He simply saw her and knew.
She looked at him now across the cockpit, her eyebrows raised in surprise. It seemed that had not been the answer she had expected.
"I never knew."
"Why would you? A sun isn't aware of orbiting planets, especially the ones furthest away." He looked at the stars surrounding them now, distant and shimmering. "I hadn't planned on finding and kissing you on the Night of Masks. Wasn't even intending on going to the celebration."
"Everyone loves the Night of Masks."
He shook his head. "Too noisy, too chaotic. I only went that night because some of my Engineering colleagues dragged me from my quarters. They shoved a mask into my hands, insisting I come with them."
"And you had a great time."
"Had a terrible time." He sighed, recalling that night. "The evening played out pretty much as I'd anticipated. Hovering at the periphery of the festivities, feeling tense and ill at ease. It's just...not an environment I enjoy."
"Why didn't you leave?"
"I almost did. I was moments away from retreating back to the shelter of my quarters---when I saw you. Dancing." With three men.
He'd been profoundly aroused, as well as raked with jealousy. Then he didn't know himself or his actions. Only that he had been standing at the edge of the dancers one moment, and the next, he had moved through the crowd with the intent and precision of an ion knife.
He had seen his hands on his shoulders, felt the curve and warmth of her, watched himself turn her around. She, of course, hadn't recognized him. But she had stared up at him with a smirk, challenging him. He'd been unable to resist the challenge.
Five solar months had passed, yet the memory of her kiss hadn't faded. She'd been hot, spiced and sweet, guarded at first and then, at careful coaxing, lushly responsive. Her kiss had lit something within him, a long-buried charge that exploded at the feel of her. The deepest hunger had ripped through him. Within moments, he'd wanted to drag her away from the dancers, learn every part of her and explore her body with his own.
The need had been so strong, it had alarmed him. He'd been unable to recognize himself. Not Lieutenant Nils Veit-Rigel Calder, author of five digitablet monographs about high-velocity guidance systems, who spent all his hours either in Engineering or in the training chambers.
He had felt himself transforming into something basic and instinctive, something radically different from the cautious, rational man he believed himself to be.
So he'd run.
But not far enough, because here he was, sitting in a small cockpit with Celene, and instead of feeling embarrassment about his past actions, he only wanted to do them all over again. Let them spin out to their natural conclusion---he and Celene, naked, their bodies fitted close as interlocking parts. No, that wasn't right, for he couldn't think of them as predictable, controllable machines. They were made of flesh and muscle and need.
"When you came into the briefing chamber a few solar days ago," she said, staring at him, "we shook hands."
"You'd prefer if I'd I pulled you into my arms? Kissed you until our uniforms burst into flames?" He raised a brow. "Not precisely protocol, especially in front of Admiral Gamlyn."
"The Admiral has done ten combat tours. I'm sure she's seen it all."
"Not two officers making love on a briefing chamber table."
She pursed her lips. "Pretty bold assertion. That one kiss would lead to making love."
"We can test that hypothesis." Another shock from his own mouth. Only a solar week earlier, he never would've spoken so boldly, or with such naked hunger. And yet the words came from him naturally now, coaxed forth by a new confidence. "Just a few minutes ago, we kissed again. No one was wearing a mask. It was only you and me, undisguised. Let's try again, see where it leads us. What we learn about ourselves."
Heat flared in her gaze, and her cheeks turned pink as a hanaflower. But then a look he would almost describe as apprehension crossed her face. She looked away.
"I...can't."
"Because I'm NerdWorks and you're Black Wraith Squad." His sudden anger startled him, but, damn it, he wanted to believe that he and Celene had moved past the designations keeping them frozen in place.
"That's got nothing to do with it."
"Illuminate me."
"It's..." She tried to speak, but nothing came out. Her hand curled into a fist, and she knocked it against the bulkhead. Then she spoke in a rush. "I'm scared, all right?"
He stared at her, shocked.
"It's just..." She struggled, as if piecing together each word. "If this was just hero worship, it wouldn't be so...unsettling."
"It isn't hero worship," he said.
"That, I know how to deal with. But I see it in your gaze, the way you speak to me, the way you...kiss me." Her voice roughened. "I'm more than Stainless Jur to you. I'm...a woman."
He rubbed at his jaw, trying to digest this stunning revelation. "And that scares you."
She laughed without humor. "What a damned joke---Stainless Jur always wanting someone to see her as a woman, and then when someone finally does..." Her gaze was bereft. "I don't know what happens afterward. And that scares me too much to take the chance."
He felt equally mystified. How could he reassure the strongest person he knew?
A trilling sound came from the tracking device, drawing his attention. As he silenced the tracking device, he felt the moment between him and Celene crumble away like so much stellar dust. He had nothing to grasp.
"We've found our traitor," Nils said. Too much distance stood between them and Marek's location to have visual confirmation. But Nils had calibrated the tracking device to alert them the moment the signal became fractionally stronger. At the least, it gave them an even more precise direction toward which to fly.
"How far out are we?" Celene leaned close, gaze fixed to the tracking device.
"Still difficult to know." He forced his attention on the screen in front of him, yet her nearness threatened to throw him out of alignment.
"Hazard a guess."
"Flying straight, a matter of solar hours. However, between us and our target are several of the regions Gabela advised us to avoid. We'll have to fly around them."
"Assuming the turncoat's at the other end of this journey," she said, grim, "I don't care how long it takes to reach him."
On that, Nils had to agree. With their target so close but millions of miles between them, conversation in the Phantom died. Tension filled the small ship. Whenever he glanced over at Celene, he saw her mouth compressed into a line, her hands tight on the controls.
Think of something to say. Anything to bridge the chasm between them. What she'd revealed to him, about her fear, her uncertainty... It took a lot of courage to admit that. And he admired her for it.
Instinct directed him now. She needed patience, distance. But not too much distance so that they lost sight of one another. She had to know that he was there, with no plans to leave.
"They kept it quiet." He broke the silence. "Your being taken prisoner."
She frowned. "Not like 8th Wing to keep personnel uninformed."
"A few knew. Most didn't. I didn't." And he was glad too. Had he known, he wouldn't have slept or eaten until she'd been rescued. Gods, he would've volunteered to lead the extraction mission himself. Given his lack of combat experience, it was probably best that Commander Frayne and Mara Skiren had been the ones to go.
"Why wouldn't Command tell anyone?"
He entered coordinates into the navigation system, allowing them to skirt the edge of a PRAXIS-heavy zone. "My guess: it would be bad for morale. If Stainless Jur could be captured, anything might happen."
"My stock should have dropped after Kell and Mara brought me back." Her mouth twisted cynically. "The fallen idol."
"You were raised up even higher. Nothing you could've done to prevent the capture, and after Commander Frayne's report circulated, everyone heard how you fought like a siyahwolf."
"Wondered why I got an even wider berth than normal when I got back." An echo of loneliness hollowed her gaze.
If he'd known... What? What might he have done? He wasn't the same man he was three solar months ago. He wasn't the same man he was since leaving the 8th Wing base.
"I went to work as soon as you returned," he said. "All of my other duties, my assignments, I put them all aside so I could find whoever had done that to you."
"Making sure it never happened to another Black Wraith pilot."
"To ensure that you would be avenged."
She stared at him, something like yearning in her gaze. Then it shuttered. At least now he knew why she shut him out. So he let the subject go. For now.
In silence, they continued to follow the tracking device, pushing through corners of the galaxy little traveled by 8th Wing. Unknown solar systems gleamed off their wings.
"Maybe PRAXIS is out here too," he murmured to himself.
To his surprise, she answered. "Little surprise if they are. Their greed doesn't stop."
The megacorporation consumed the resources of every planetary system it could find, using them up like so much energy cells, and discarding them once they had sucked the planet dry. Leaving a wake of chaos. One could easily chart PRAXIS's progress by the path of ruined worlds, peaceful, orderly places that degenerated into anarchy after PRAXIS had taken everything of value.
"Everyone in 8th Wing knows PRAXIS's M.O.," he said. "Not just training, but from firsthand experience."
Celene nodded, likely thinking, as he did, of the pattern. PRAXIS approached a planet, offering technological advancement and plentiful employment in exchange for mining the world's resources. Almost every planet welcomed them eagerly. And for a few solar cycles, life on the world did get better. More work, more wealth. But the moment PRAXIS decided the planet had nothing more to offer, they pulled out. And a world that had grown dependent on a single industry collapsed. Poverty. Crime. War. Entire global populations wiping themselves out.
If a planet declined PRAXIS's generous offer, as many had tried to do when word spread about their tactics, they met the full brunt of PRAXIS's military might. No world could match them. The moment a planet fell into PRAXIS's crosshairs, it was doomed.
"They almost got my homeworld," Celene said quietly. "But the 8th Wing beat them back, and we were safe. That's when I decided to join. To protect other planets and solar systems who can't protect themselves."
The trouble was that PRAXIS was far bigger than the 8th Wing, and better equipped.
He stared at the glint of stars and planets shining in the distance. Even now, these places might be collapsing beneath the weight of PRAXIS's crushing demands. Nothing he could do about it, however much he wished it otherwise.
"All we can do is continue on this mission," he said. "Keep the 8th Wing strong and combat-ready."
"Ready to kick some PRAXIS ass," she said with a little smile. He smiled, too, and the tension between them loosened fractionally.
Something drew his focus. "Visual confirmation established." He pointed to the viewscreen. There, barely more than a shimmering gleam, hung a small planet.
"Marek definitely found himself a good place to hide," Celene said. "We're on the edge of nowhere."
Their position didn't match any 8th Wing starcharts, which meant that they were far outside the reach of any assistance. If he and Celene found themselves in a bad situation, the only way they could get out was on their own. No one would be coming to help them.
Moments after first visual confirmation was established, the tracking device shrilled.
"Pull back." Nils fought to keep himself from lunging at the controls. "Pull back now."
Celene didn't question him, but banked the Phantom sharply, doubling back.
"Marek has a tight sensor net all around this sector." He studied the tracking device's readings. "We get any closer, he's going to know we are coming."
"Let's try and break through the net, or disrupt it."
"This ship doesn't have the capabilities. Not enough power to generate a disruption pulse."
"What about concealment?" Her voice tightened with urgency. "I didn't come all this way just to stare at him."
Nils continued to scrutinize the screen, his mind clicking through myriad possibilities. He understood her frustration. With the traitor so close, he'd accept nothing less than total reprisal.
"There's a way," he said after a long pause. "With some adjustments to the Phantom, I can rig up a suppression field around the ship. We'll still be visible, but his sensor net won't be able to detect us."
"When we approach his planet, we can do it from the other side so he can't get eyes on us." She nodded. "Do it."
"The ship has to be completely powered down for me to make the necessary adjustments."
"We're going to need to find a place to put her down." She peered through the window at the unknown stars and planets twinkling nearby. "Can you find us a good location?"
He moved to another set of sensors. "Picking up good readings for an adjacent moon. Breathable atmosphere, climate within tolerance levels."
"Populace?"
"Minimal. Animal life, but few signs of civilization."
She grinned viciously. "The perfect spot to gear up for war. That sipkaswine won't know we're coming to drag him to the Ten Hells."
The mission was truly about to begin. And so was the danger.
As the site of a future colony, the nameless moon did not look promising. From up high, Celene saw rocks, some bodies of water, barely any flora. Anyone attempting to settle on this moon would find it a hard, unrewarding task.
"I'm putting the ship down in that valley." She guided the Phantom over the surface of the moon, her gaze constantly scanning for signs of sentient habitation. As they drew closer to the surface of the planet, she could make out more details. Dull blue rocks covered its surface, and the bodies of water she'd seen from higher up were merely gray ponds filmed with weeds. A few stands of short, scrubby trees comprised the plant life.
8th Wing hadn't made contact with any of the planets of this system, which would make her job much more difficult should she and Nils encounter actual civilizations. First contact was always handled by Diplomacy Division, not fighter pilots and engineers.
Nils grunted a response. Slanting a look at him, she saw that he'd retreated into his thoughts, his expression abstracted.
The moment the landing gear touched the surface, Nils leaped out of his seat. She barely had time to power the ship down before he began pulling open panels.
"Need a hand?" She went to stand behind him as he crouched on the floor. He did not answer.
Was he ignoring her? He had every right to, the way she had shut him down earlier. "Hey." She nudged him with her boot.
He glanced up, startled. So he wasn't giving her the silent treatment. It was clear he'd forgotten she existed---a marked change from his earlier confession. She took no offense, however. The fixed, alert sharpness of his gaze reminded her of the look other Wraith pilots wore during combat.
"Can I help?" she offered.
"My tools. In my kit." Then he bent back to his work.
She went to get his tools. Articulate he might be, except when his attention was fixed on an engineering project.
She grabbed the kit and brought it back to him. He grunted again when she set the kit down beside him, but that was the limit of his conversation. Seeing that there really was nothing for her to do inside the ship, she decided to take a look around outside. The moon might not make for a good colony, but that didn't mean there was nothing to learn from it. She knew a few people in the Research Corps who'd appreciate a few samples of new life forms.
"Going out for a survey," she said to Nils after taking a science kit.
This time, she wasn't even graced with a grunt. He merely made a vague gesture over his shoulder---the only sign she had that he'd heard her.
She double-checked that her plasma blaster held a full charge before opening the door. Stepping out, she caught the faint, acrid smell of sulfur borne on a weak breeze. Rocks crunched beneath her boots. Spindly trees reached their branches toward the yellow sky. Thin air made her work harder to breathe, so she kept her pace easy as she rambled in slow arcs away from the ship. Tiny rodents and lizards scuttled over the rocks, but there was nothing substantial with which to make a meal.
After snapping on a pair of thin deltex gloves, she bent to pluck a few blades of red grass. The grass released a sticky pink sap, and she collected both in sample tubes. She did the same with the sawtooth-edged leaves from the nearby trees. It seemed unlikely that any of these plants could prove to be a good food source for possible farming, but she wanted to be sure. PRAXIS had a bad habit of decimating planets' ecosystems, robbing the soil of valuable nutrients so that none of the inhabitants could farm. The Research Corps constantly searched for sustainable agriculture in order to help post-PRAXIS worlds recover.
A chirp made Celene look up from her collecting.
"Don't need supervision, thanks," she said to the curious little rodent watching her. Small, furred and speckled, it looked like a hybrid between a squirrel and a moth, and it tilted its head in blank-eyed bafflement when she spoke.
She laughed when it burbled a response in a language only it understood, tail dancing. It scuttled forward, inquisitive. Clearly it had no experience with humanoids, approaching her without fear. But she held back and simply watched it, keeping her hands to herself. Cute though the squirrel-moth might be, she never forgot that it was an unknown variable. It might have a mouth full of needlelike teeth or spit a toxin that carried a paralytic. Too many explorers had crossed to the heavens because they'd been misled by appearances.
"Go on, now." She made a shooing motion. "Get back to your den or hive and tell stories about the hideous beast you saw collecting plants. It'll impress the females. Or males."
As if taking her advice, the animal chattered at her before scampering away, disappearing between the cracks in a pile of rocks.
The creature had been better conversation than Nils.
Who was busy making the necessary alterations to the ship, while she played at Research Corps. Well, she had to make herself useful. Simply sitting back as someone else did the work felt foreign and uncomfortable. So she continued on with her gathering of samples, keeping her senses alert should anything happen.
Yet as she worked, filling tube after tube with collected specimens, her thoughts drifted back to what Nils had revealed earlier. She still processed the knowledge that he had been the stranger who had kissed her on the Night of Masks. It was like playing at blaster tag as a child, only to discover that the toy weapon she held contained live ammo.
No, that wasn't true. She never saw Nils as a harmless toy. He held far too much capability---and she responded to him with an intensity that surprised even her.
It was more than surprise. It was fear. And she had even admitted that fear to him.
All of her protestations, all of her wishes. She got what she wanted, finally. But she had no idea how to proceed. She could shoot down a PRAXIS fighter in the middle of a meteor shower. She had taken down three of the biggest brawlers in the 8th Wing during SimCom. But she didn't know a damn thing about actually letting a man get close to her emotionally.
Nils might be NerdWorks, but the truth was that he had far more confidence than she did.
"How's that for irony," she muttered under her breath. Her fingers were less than gentle as she plucked a spindly weed from the soil.
Her confession to Nils... She had never been so honest, so...exposed. Unguarded. Admitting a weakness countered everything she wanted to believe about herself. And it left her open to attack. Or rejection.
But Nils hadn't attacked her, hadn't turned away from her. And instinctively she had known that if there was anyone to whom she could admit her fear, it would be him.
It had been difficult, though. Even now she felt a residual tremor of fear. A fighter pilot guarded her weakest point. Lessons she had learned at the controls of her ship, and from the men who'd passed through her life. Could she undo those lessons? They were all but hardwired into her heart.
She almost dropped the specimen tube when she heard Nils shout her name. Shoving the sample into the kit, she pulled her blaster and took off at a run back toward the Phantom. Her pulse hammered as she crested a low ridge. He could be hurt or in danger. They had done a scan and found no viable threats, but scans could be wrong.
Please don't let it be wrong.
Coming up over the ridge, she collided with a long, lean body. Broad hands came up to grasp her arms as she took up a fighting stance.
Nils stood before her, his expression tight with worry.
"Hells," she said on a growl, holstering her weapon. "Thought you were being eviscerated."
"I looked up from making the modifications, and you were gone. I couldn't find you anywhere near the ship."
"Told you I was going to collect some specimens."
He shook his head, and the tension from his body lessened slightly. "If you did, I didn't hear."
"With your head buried in circuit boards, that doesn't surprise me." She eyed the sonic blade in his grasp. "Planning on doing some whittling?"
His cheeks darkened as he shoved the blade back into its sheath on his boot. "If you were in trouble, I wanted to be able to protect you."
Warmth uncurled within her. "A blaster has better range."
"The knife was the first thing I thought of. I'd use it, if I had to." She saw it then, how he was growing into the fullness of himself, gaining confidence, trusting his strength.
If only she had the same courage.
"Nothing but the finest for the 8th Wing." Celene stared down at the warmed sustenance-pak. She tore the top off the foil and squeezed its contents onto her plate.
She and Nils sat at the tiny table in the main cabin of the Phantom, a chamber that also served as the galley. Over the course of the mission, they had been steadily going through the stocked rations, and were now confronting the horror that was supposed to pass for midmeal.
"Calling this food is an exercise in wishful thinking." Using his fork, Nils prodded at what was supposed to replicate Nivalian stew. Aside from the name, and perhaps a few protein configurations, the substance on the plate had nothing in common with actual Nivalian stew, which was normally a delicious combination of long-braised rindroast and early-Solstice root vegetables.
Against her better judgment, Celene took a bite of the "stew." She shuddered at the flavor, but forced herself to swallow. "We've got to eat this stuff, though. Nutrients are nutrients, no matter how appalling they taste. We need as much energy as our bodies can produce, now more than ever."
Nils's expression darkened. "Getting to the most dangerous phase of the mission."
"Junior cadets make their mistakes right about now." She took a drink of filtered water to get the taste out of her mouth. "They think the finish line is closer than it really is, get overconfident and wind up blown to asteroid dust." Memories flickered like vids, far too clearly for her liking. She wouldn't mind a little static when it came to watching some of her comrades cross over into the heavens. It usually wasn't a pleasant and easy crossing, either. Fighter pilots met violent, messy ends. The best one could hope for was instantaneous vaporization. The worst... She'd seen the worst. And even years later, it still made her skin clammy and her throat close.
"There are times for confidence," Nils said. "Not arrogance. Not when lives are at stake."
"Your own," she noted.
"And others'." He frowned down at his plate. "So many are counting on us to complete this mission. If I fail---"
"We will succeed."
His gaze held hers. "Is it always this way with you?"
"What way?"
"As if the galaxy's already yours. All you need to do is reach out and grab it."
She snorted. "We already know my swagger only goes so far."
His hand covered hers. The feel of his skin against hers sent warmth along her arm and spreading through her. "You can overcome anything. Even your own fear."
Her breath came quickly. She felt as though she were struggling to climb one of the towering cliffs of Zevi Lo. But the fall seemed so much greater.
Then he turned her hand over, so that they were pressed palm to palm. Trailed his fingers along her wrist, and he had to feel her pulse stuttering beneath his touch.
Her gaze moved from this sight to his eyes. Intelligent eyes, revealing more than brains, but strength, courage. And a depth of emotion that nearly robbed her of all air. He held nothing back from her.
He wanted her. All of her. And she wanted him.
They were on a distant, barren moon. The most dangerous phase of the mission loomed. It was time for her to jettison fear.
Wrapping her fingers around his wrist, she pulled him near. His eyes widened briefly, but his surprise didn't last. She felt the coils of tension and power in his muscles, the fact that he had enough strength to resist her, but he didn't. At her tug, he yielded, moving close. They leaned over the table, and their mouths met.
She could've been dining on a meal prepared by the celebrated Aurelian master chefs, drinking the finest roxowine. Nothing tasted better than Nils. She sank into the kiss, his flavor filling her mouth, exploring the new territory of their shared desire and her unfettered heart. Keeping one hand pressed to his, she wove the fingers of her other hand through his hair, holding him close. Yet he wasn't pulling away. He seemed to want only one thing: to take her mouth as she took his.
His lips shaped hers, and mutual need deepened the kiss. Full and hungry, they learned taste and heat and energy, their tongues stroking against one another.
This kiss was unmasked, not shaped by the excitement after battle. It revealed need and desire, the pull of two bodies. More than bodies, for she felt a greater yearning beneath physical want. As Nils brought his free hand up to cup the underside of her jaw, as she leaned into him, she sensed their release, two constrained souls breaking free of gravity and wheeling amongst the possibility of one another.
She wanted more. Shedding the armor of Stainless Jur and her own trepidation lightened her. Her limbs felt buoyant, capable of flight. Abruptly, she stood, breaking the kiss.
His fever-bright gaze burned, and he reached for her. With an agility born from years of training, she evaded his grasp, sliding from his hands. He made a growl of protest, but the sound cut off when he saw her shove the remains of their meal off the table. Nimbly, she perched on the edge.
He was an intelligent man. He rose and positioned himself to stand between her legs. The harsh light within the Phantom carved his face into even sharper angles, and the fire that blazed in his eyes was directed not at an engineering challenge or logic problem, but her. He might be NerdWorks' finest, but he was also a man. A man who wanted her.
"Lucid dreaming," he rumbled, his large hands clasping her waist. "I uploaded texts about it to my digitablet, but no matter how hard I tried, I could never shape my dreams."
"I never dream," she answered. "Just fall into my bunk and the next thing I know, it's time to get up and go on patrol." When her squad mates discussed their dreams over morning cups of kahve, she always kept silent, wondering what it would be like to visit impossible places, do impossible things. Her life kept her firmly grounded, as if the dreaming part of her mind simply refused to emerge, lest she wish for what could never be.
His voice was rough, so different from the controlled Engineering Corps member she had encountered in the briefing room on base. "Countless times, I wished for this very dream. You and me. The taste of you on my mouth. The feel of you beneath my hands."
"I can pinch you," she offered. "So you know you're awake."
A corner of his mouth tilted. "My consciousness right now is not under debate." His hips pressed snug against hers, and the feel of the thick, hard shape of his cock sent waves of need through her.
She dug her fingers into his taut shoulders, urging him even closer. Their lips came together, hot and demanding. For a man who needed delicacy from his hands, he gripped her waist with a strength that skirted the edges of pain, as if concerned she might turn to smoke. Yet she reveled in the power of his grasp, holding him just as tightly.
As they kissed, hunger grew. Sensation gathered in her breasts, between her legs, lighting her nerves like a thousand stars. She moved her hips against his. His sharp inhalation drew breath from her mouth, and she moved again. It was only an echo of what could be, muted by the layers of fabric between them, yet even this contact sent hot shivers of pleasure through her.
Clever as he was, he followed her lead, his hips surging against hers. He rubbed his length along her, both a tease and fulfillment. The heat of him scorched. Her body responded, and she could feel lush slickness between her legs.
"This is real." He growled. "Even if I had been able to dream of this, it couldn't match the actuality."
When he lifted his hand to cup her breast, she moaned. And when he circled his thumb around her nipple, drawing it into a tight point, her moan deepened, becoming almost animal.
More. She needed more. She leaned back, until she lay atop the table. Nils stretched over her, his straining body covering hers, and she reveled in the sensation of his weight pressing her down. They both knew that, trained in combat though he was, she could have him flat on his back and helpless in microseconds. Yet her willing ceding of control ignited them both.
They moved against each other. Even with the uniforms between them, she felt the gleaming edge of release coalesce, drawing nearer. It seemed impossible. The last time she'd reached a climax from simply touching, she had been a restless teenager in the cockpit of a local boy's dustcruiser. Too much experience had happened between then and now for her to be this aroused. And yet she was.
What she wanted, what she needed, was Nils. Inside of her. Erasing the boundaries between them.
She pulled at the fastenings of his uniform. "Strip," she rasped against his mouth. "Let me feel you."
"Last I checked, we're the same rank. Can't give me orders."
"Then, as one lieutenant to another, I strongly suggest you get naked."
His grin was both boyish and wicked. "Having taken your suggestion under advisement, I concur that it's the wisest course of action."
They smiled at one another before they both attacked the fastenings on his uniform. An alarm shrilled through the ship, and their fingers froze. An instant later, she pushed upright and went for her blaster.
Nils's hand covered hers, keeping her weapon holstered. "It's all right."
"If that's PRAXIS---"
He shook his head. "After I made the mods to the ship, I set up an alarm to notify us when the ideal time to approach Marek's planet arrived."
"And that time is now."
He groaned. "Seems like we're always being interrupted."
"Missions don't care if we're about to get naked." Her words were flip, but true disappointment cut her right down the middle. She'd been so ready to let down the final boundaries between them. To create true intimacy, the kind she'd never before experienced.
She prayed to the many gods of the Starfield that she and Nils would get their chance.
As much as Nils despised Marek, he had to admit his former colleague had shown ample intelligence when selecting a hideout. The small planet appeared thick with dense vegetation, huge stretches of land covered by tangles of jungle. Not all civilizations were visible from thousands of miles up, but he ran scan after scan and found scarcely any sign of sentient habitation. Aside from Marek, the only indications of culture came in the form of isolated encampments. Further scanning proved that the encampments consisted of a few primitive huts and nothing more.
He and Celene would have to avoid these settlements, in case any of the inhabitants had a connection to Marek and alerted him to their presence.
"We're going to have to trek in to Marek's compound," he said as they approached the planet. "If we land too close, he'll be able to detect us."
"In all your training, you ever deal with bushcraft?"
"Some," he admitted. "Mostly, I've read texts. You?"
"Used to go camping on my homeworld. But," she added, "I haven't been on my homeworld in decades."
"The sightless piloting the sightless."
He stared out the front window of the Phantom as Celene carefully guided the Phantom to a good landing site. As they drew closer to the surface, he noted the massive size of the trees, tall as buildings, with wide trunks and long, twisting branches. Seeing through the canopy to the ground below proved difficult, but he occasionally caught glimpses of forest floor bisected by green rivers. They were still too far up to get a sense of animal life, though bright-colored, avian-like creatures burst from the trees and wheeled in the sky as Celene located a clearing and began to lower the ship.
Despite the narrow confines of the clearing, she brought the Phantom down effortlessly. Not a single tree branch was disturbed or broken. He could see how easily legends about her formed. She did almost everything with faultless skill. Yet he possessed tangible proof that Celene wasn't a legend, but a real woman of heart and flesh.
The increase of his heartbeat's rhythm came not just from landing on an alien planet's surface, but remembering what had transpired between him and Celene less than an hour ago. The honesty they had shared. The heat of their bodies. The brutal demand that transformed him completely. With just a few memories of her legs around his hips, his cock stirred, and his hunger returned on sharp claws. He'd been moments away from making love to her atop the galley table, and wanted to take her back there now.
He forced all of this away. Many geomiles of unexplored jungle stood between them and Marek, and when they did finally reach the traitor, they'd have to breach his security measures, destroy the plans for the Wraith disruption device, capture Marek, and find their way back.
The Phantom touched down. A gentle shake rocked the ship as it settled onto terra firma. Celene exhaled at the landing.
"Another perfect landing," he said.
She grinned. "Next time, give me a challenge."
He rubbed his hands on his thighs, drying his damp palms on the fabric of his uniform. "The challenge is already here." He nodded out the window, and she followed his gaze.
At ground level, the jungle appeared even more treacherous. A naturalist might consider the profusion of gigantic plant life to be rich with potential, begging to be studied and catalogued. Yet he saw abundant danger. Carnivorous plants were well documented. Any of these massive plants could be waiting with maws filled with digestive enzymes. Surely with this plentiful flora, animals and insects teemed, and any of them could be fatal. Swamps, rivers, falls. Hostile natives. A thousand ways to die. Most of them unpleasant.
He was very far from Engineering.
Celene stood and shouldered her pack. "Ready?"
He got to his feet and slung his own pack onto his shoulders. "Of course."
They stepped out of the Phantom and into a thick, green wilderness. Vines covered with luridly bright flowers snaked around the tree trunks, and plants with leaves as wide and broad as wasserboats drooped overhead. Outside of the ship, the sounds of the jungle came in a cacophony. Unknown animals cried out to one another, wings of large avian creatures flapped and the drones of insects came as loud as engines.
As Celene adjusted the straps of her pack, he saw a long-legged ruminant peering at them from the shelter of the underbrush. The animal had green fur, mottled like the forest floor, and a long, sinuous neck. It stared at the newcomers with six violet-black eyes. Nils knew better than to approach it, and was even more thankful for his caution when he saw the creature's young poke its head out from between its parent's legs.
The most dangerous animals were the ones with young. Even gentle beasts turned deadly if they sensed a threat to their babies.
He slanted a glance toward Celene. She was checking her weapons with a practiced eye, her motions quick and capable. No doubt in his mind that, of the two of them, she had far more experience in combat. Yet seeing her against the backdrop of the treacherous jungle, a primal need tore through him, far removed from the orderly world of the 8th Wing and his Engineering lab.
Have to protect her.
The thought almost made him laugh aloud. If anyone was going to do the protecting, it would likely be her saving his ass. But this wasn't about the responsibility of one soldier to look after another, or modding a pilot's ship to ensure he or she fought well. This was about him and Celene, together.
The thought shook him, so much so that it took her saying his name three times before he answered.
"You with me?" she asked, a frown between her brows.
He drew a breath. "Every step."
Together, they moved into the forest.
Dark green shade immediately covered them, but the air was no cooler. He felt as though he were swimming through the atmosphere, its damp heat pressing down like a hundred hands trying to shove him to the ground. Within minutes he'd soaked through his uniform.
"Marek's compound is on the coast." He checked the scanning device clipped to his pack. "Jungle on three of its sides, pounding surf on the other."
"Distance?" She climbed carefully over a root as thick as a normal tree.
"Given the conditions, calculating our rate of speed, factoring in rest periods and this planet's rate of revolution..." He ran the computation through his head. "We should reach him by midday tomorrow."
A wry smile curved her mouth. "In the meantime we have all this natural beauty to entertain us." She glanced up as a long yellow reptilian creature slid along a branch, sunlight reflecting off its jagged scales. It left a trail of glistening slime on the bough. As both Celene and Nils watched, the reptile struck out at a blue-furred mammalian animal perched on another branch. The mammal barely had time to squeak in alarm as poison-tipped fangs sank into its side. In a minute, the reptile had unhinged its jaw and was slowly digesting its prey.
Nils double-checked to be sure his blaster held a full charge and was easily accessible.
Silently, they pushed on deeper into the jungle. He felt torn between fascination with this alien place and a perpetual sense of wariness. As he and Celene trekked, they wordlessly pointed out to one another the continuously unfolding wonder of the rainforest. Incandescent flowers he could barely span with his outstretched arms. Creatures that appeared to be a cross between arachnids and feathered birds of prey. A herd of horselike animals. They watched him and Celene pass, their orange-and-pink hides twitching with caution. Clearly the beasts had had some interaction with humanoids, judging by the wide berth they gave Celene and Nils.
Celene took the lead, and his attention wavered between studying the exotic jungle and watching her smooth, economical movement. It might've been decades since she last ventured into the wilderness, but she moved with confidence, her gaze never resting, her body always primed for action. Despite the hazards of their surroundings, desire formed a steady second pulse beneath his heartbeat.
There were some cultures and planets that kept their females in perpetual servitude, helpless and dependent on males. The Devanians, for example, blinded females caught learning to read.
Fools.
There were murmurs that the Devanian women were plotting a coup to overthrow the oppressive regime. Already, 8th Wing had committed several troop units to aid in the revolution, when it finally happened.
Several solar hours after Nils and Celene had commenced their trek, they stopped to rest and take refreshment. She sat down on a root, easing off the straps of her pack with a sigh.
He rummaged through his pack for their rations, and she groaned.
"When I was held captive, they fed me some kind of gruel that I'm fairly certain had viscera in it." She eyed the sustenance-pak he held out to her with distaste. "That tasted better."
He chuckled, thinking that even Stainless Jur had her limits. "A few of these plants bear fruit."
He didn't want to draw attention to their presence by firing his weapon, so he used a long stick to knock down a fleshy yellow pod the size of an infant. It landed with a muffled, heavy thump on the forest floor. After pulling on gloves, he took his sonic blade and cut the pod in half.
"Oh, Ten Hells," Celene said, and gagged.
He reeled back, pushed away by the stench emanating from the fruit. "It's like carrion, stagnant water and feet, all mixed together."
"Maybe it tastes better than it smells." She wiped at her watering eyes.
"Its juice is sizzling. I'd rather not take that chance."
They edged away, finding a new place to rest that was not downwind. With little choice offered to them, he and Celene ate their rations, washing it all down with water treated by their solar hydroprocessor.
"Don't think I'll be collecting any samples on this planet," she murmured between bites.
"With any luck, we won't ever come here again."
Both fell silent, and he had to wonder if her thoughts mirrored his. This harsh jungle might serve as their final resting place, even if they were successful in their mission. He didn't want to entertain such thoughts. The idea of dying certainly held no appeal, but, as it did for all members of 8th Wing, the prospect of death always hovered close. PRAXIS was a formidable enemy. The roster of the fallen grew longer and longer every solar year.
Yet he couldn't stand the thought of Celene laid out in her ceremonial uniform, the honorary wreath of white pala blossoms draped around her neck. And that was for the lucky few. Most had no bodies left to be adorned and burned, effigies taking their place. Thinking of this filled him with fury and gutting sorrow.
Don't smear ash on my arms just yet. We're both still alive. We will survive this mission. He had to believe this.
He started when she nudged his shoulder with hers. "Marek is the one who should worry, not us."
"How'd you know what I was thinking?"
"If a person's expression could be flammable, this whole jungle would be blazing."
He glanced down at his boots, digging trenches in the soft forest floor. "Not sure I'm suited for a life of combat."
"I've got no complaints about your fighting capability. Hells, you're as good as any of the Wraith Squad."
Her praise created a small burst of light within him, like a star being born. Words were not enough, however. "How do you tolerate it? Seeing your squad mates fall?"
"Two choices: collapse, or keep going." She gave a fatalistic shrug. "So we fly forward. There are too many battles to fight---and I don't want to do PRAXIS's work for them. The only way I stop fighting is if they shoot me out of the sky."
Understanding was a bolt of ferrium along his spine, shoring him up. He refused to fail. For the 8th Wing, for Celene. And for himself.
She saw the resolve in his gaze, and in response, her eyes shined deeply.
After finishing their meal, they continued on. The going was tough as they clambered over massive tree roots, forded swift rivers teeming with unknown life and edged carefully up and down steep ravines. He thanked the foresight that kept him consistently training on base. The bare minimum on base would've left him a liability now. Celene would have had to leave him behind, gasping and nursing a sprain or break. But he'd pushed himself then, and reaped the benefits now. Though it was hard to feel as though he'd emerged the victor, especially as he climbed, hand over hand, along a vine that dangled over a hundred meter-deep chasm.
His limbs ached with weariness and strain, and sweat coated his body. He wanted to pull off his boots and soak his throbbing feet in a basin of cool water. In his quarters on base, he'd rigged up a perfect iced-kahve brewing system and he thought of it with longing.
But when he scaled the side of a towering cliff and then caught Celene's admiring gaze once he reached the top...energy surged through him. This dense jungle could go on for hundreds of thousands of geomiles, and it wouldn't matter. Which was fortunate. It seemed that the jungle truly did stretch on for hundreds of thousands of geomiles.
They moved on further into the rainforest. As they entered a small glade pierced by sunlight, unease tightened along the back of his neck.
She must have felt a similar disquiet, for they both held still, heads tilted as they listened.
"Hear that?" she whispered.
"Complete silence." None of the avian life squawked. The animals fell mute. Even the insects' droning quieted.
Nils and Celene's gazes met, pinned together by mutual understanding. Silence meant danger. Close by.
Her blaster found its way into her hand instantly. He also reached for his. As he did so, the underbrush exploded.
A massive animal leaped toward them. He had a fleeting impression of thickly muscled haunches, giant claws, and two snarling heads filled with black teeth. A huge canine-like beast, with a ruff of spikes surrounding each head, and more spikes on its lashing tail. It made a sound like a human scream, chilling his blood. But he couldn't be frozen into inaction. The animal charged.
He and Celene leaped aside, narrowly missing the beast's claws and double mouths. He rolled as the beast wheeled toward him to take another swipe. Ripples of air stirred as its claws struck out. He kept himself low, dodging the talons.
A plasma blast dug into the animal's side. It snarled and spun around to face Celene, who stood with her plasma blaster aimed at the beast. She fired several more times at it, but its thick, leathery hide absorbed most of the impact, leaving only charred marks rather than deep wounds. Growling, the animal crouched, then bounded toward her.
She stood, caught between two huge tree roots too high to climb. There was nowhere for her to run. Instead of crumpling into a protective ball, she braced her legs wide and made ready to grapple with the beast.
Fierce warrior she might be, but Celene did not have claws or massive fangs. And her uniform provided minimal protection. She'd be ripped apart.
He acted without thought. He took off running after the creature, gaining momentum, and then, muscles coiling and releasing, jumped onto the animal's back. He looped his arm around one of its necks, gripping his wrist with his other hand to lock himself tight.
The ruff of spikes tore through his uniform and pierced his skin. Bucking and writhing beneath him, the creature fought to shake him off. He wouldn't let go. He tightened his hold on the neck, hoping it had a standard respiratory system that would suffer from having its air supply diminished.
Above the animal's snarls, he heard Celene cursing. As he continued to press on the beast's windpipe, he caught glimpses of her struggling to take aim with her blaster. Yet she didn't fire.
"Take the shot," he shouted. "Aim for one of the heads."
"And maybe hit you? Pass!"
Yet if anyone could make a difficult shot, she would be the one. "Do it," he yelled. "I trust you."
As the beast grew weaker, its movements less powerful, Celene dropped to one knee. She braced her arm. Nils could sense her centering herself, drawing and holding a breath. And then she fired.
He didn't wince. But the beast roared as plasma fire caught it just under one of its eyes. It gave its head a mighty shake, and his hold broke. He flew off the animal and landed with a thud in a stand of bracken. Celene appeared at his side immediately.
"Did I hit you?" she asked, pulling him up.
"Didn't even damage my shave." Though he tried to speak with bravado, his heart pounded and his head spun.
He and Celene watched as the beast staggered from the blast. It appeared stunned, wounded, but alive. For a moment, both heads stared at them balefully, though the head that had taken the plasma blast drooped lower. He tensed, and felt Celene do the same. Injured animals were almost as dangerous as those guarding their young.
After a few heartbeats, the creature let out twin howls, then loped off back into the underbrush.
He and Celene stood motionless, waiting. Neither of them spoke or moved. Not until the sounds of the jungle resumed, replacing eerie silence with welcome clamor. Slowly, he lowered himself back onto the ground, his legs stretching out in front of him. He let out a long breath.
She dropped down beside him, muttering more curses. Some of them were words he'd only heard Ensign Skiren use, colorful remnants of her life as a smuggler. But now the celebrated Lieutenant Celene Jur swore like the worst Smoke Quadrant pirate, and her face was ashen.
"Thanks," he managed, then winced when she landed a hard punch to his arm.
"You fucking dwaas," she snarled. "Playing the damned hero like some lunc for brains."
Nils did not know for certain what a lunc was, but he doubted the comparison was flattering. "You'd prefer I cower in the shadows while that thing turned you into its nightmeal?"
"I could have handled it," she shot back.
He raised a brow. "At what point? When it had you cornered and your blaster fire bounced off its hide?"
She unleashed another barrage of cursing before subsiding into tense silence. At last, she said, "You worried the hells out of me."
"Same here. But we survived." In truth, he felt extremely close to tearing up several of the gigantic trees with his bare hands, having seen her face down a mortal threat. Yet he forced himself to take comfort in his own words. They both lived. Even that animal, whatever it was, survived to hunt another day.
"Next time that thing sees some humanoid prey," she said with a tiny smile, "it'll probably reconsider."
"Today's been educational for everyone." He glanced down at himself. "I've learned that the spines on that animal can go right through fabric and into flesh."
Hissing in alarm, she pulled the medi-kit from her pack. She crouched beside him and carefully peeled back his uniform, exposing his lacerated skin.
"Any numbness, any tingling, dizziness or shortness of breath?" She dabbed heal salve on the wounds, a frown of worry creasing her forehead. "The spines could have had venom on them."
He tested his hands and feet, then focused on a large, translucent flower quivering on a nearby fallen tree. "No double vision. Limbs seem to be working fine."
She pressed a metal vial into his hand. "Drink that. It contains a universal antidote."
"Only for things 8th Wing has already encountered."
Her hard stare showed that she wouldn't allow him to argue. Given that the antidote couldn't actively hurt him, he swallowed it, then allowed himself the momentary pleasure of watching her fuss over him. All 8th Wing members had to learn some field doctoring, but her movements were deft, experienced.
"You've done this before," he noted as she wrapped synth bandages around his torso. As soon as she finished securing them, the bandages formed an impenetrable seal, keeping dirt and microbes out of his wounds. They could only be removed by application of a subsonic frequency, ensuring that injuries had long-lasting, sterile environments.
"A time or two," she agreed. "Remind me to show you the scar on my thigh. Doctored that wound myself."
While he didn't relish the thought of her being hurt, his mind snagged on the image of her thigh, muscled and golden.
"I'd very much like to see that."
His husky words actually coaxed a blush in her cheeks. "Should have gone easy on the heal salve," she murmured. "That way you could have a few sexy scars to show the women on base."
"I don't want any of them to see my scars," he said quietly. "Only you."
She looked up from her work, her silver eyes wide. For a moment, he regretted his words. They revealed too much, left him open to potential ridicule or hurt. He debated whether or not to retract them, mutter something about a joke, or being light-headed from blood loss. But, hells, he had just wrestled with an enormous two-headed canine. He didn't need to retreat. Not with Celene. She'd been unflinchingly honest with him. He could do the same.
Finally, after many long moments of silence during which Nils died and returned to life several times, she gave him a soft, unhurried smile. "We can compare scars."
"Night is falling."
She glanced up at the sky, barely visible through the thick covering of leaves and branches. A moon appeared in the darkening sky, a small golden disk. It had served as their shelter as Nils had modified the Phantom---where she and Nils had come so frustratingly close to making love. Now the moon was a distant sphere that shyly peered through the canopy.
On the forest floor, dusk was already settling, richly green. As the heat began to retreat, sounds of life increased, thousands of creatures calling to one another.
"It's noisier than Lawaai City," she said above the din. Citizens of that megalopolis had to wear protective ear coverings every time they stepped outside their enormous buildings.
Nils glowered up at a particularly noisy reptile, chattering as it flew by on leathery wings. "Getting some sleep tonight will prove a challenge."
"I'm so tired, I could sleep in the middle of the plasma blaster range." Another admission of weakness, yet she knew now that if there was anyone to whom she could be fully honest, it would be Nils. He didn't expect her to be anything other than herself.
And as he turned his gaze to hers, she saw empathy and understanding. Warmth filled her.
"Time to make camp," he said. "If it'll help you sleep, I can shoot my plasma blaster every ten seconds."
"Such consideration."
He made an old-fashioned bow, the kind one might see in a history vid, and she chuckled. As they pushed deeper into the jungle, searching for a good spot for their encampment, she marveled at the transformations they'd both undergone over the course of the mission. Only a solar week ago, she would've shrugged off the suggestion that she could find a comfortable camaraderie with anyone, let alone someone from NerdWorks. Yet here she was, in the middle of an alien jungle, danger pressing in on every side, a treacherous objective ahead, and she felt...content.
Perhaps not fully content. The hunger for vengeance still pushed her onward. Marek had to pay for his treachery---preferably with his life.
And there was another, very different appetite not yet sated. As the shadows gathered on the forest floor, she took advantage of the dusk to watch Nils. He'd left off the top of his uniform in deference to the heat and the bandages, so she had tantalizing images of his muscular torso and arms. The tribal tattoo-like markings over his back seemed to dance in the twilight. Dirt streaked his arms, and a smudge marked the crest of one high cheekbone.
He stopped now in a small clearing. She stood beside him and followed his gaze to one of the soaring trees.
"Maybe we should to take shelter in one of these," he said. "Get off the forest floor and out of the way of potential predators."
She stepped closer to the tree he indicated. "Someone's beaten us to it." She waved him over, and when he did, he let out a surprised hiss.
Insects swarmed all over the tree trunk. Some of them had markings that camouflaged their presence, making them look like bark, and others were tiny, but here and there were bugs the size of Celene's palm, and their numerous legs made scratching, tapping sounds on the trunk. Each tree seemed to be an entire civilization, containing thousands, if not millions, of insects.
"We make camp in the trees," she said, "we might wake up tomorrow to find our bones picked clean."
"If our bones are picked clean, wouldn't that presume that we've died, and so couldn't possibly wake up?"
She rolled her eyes. "You aren't always so literal."
"Only when I'm trying to provoke you."
"Once again, you're an overachiever." Turning away from the tree and its bug-laden trunk, she surveyed the clearing critically. "We could build a shelter, but there are insects on the ground too." She didn't fear insects or arachnids, but the thought of serving as a bug highway proved less than restful.
Nils edged toward a clump of plants. He bent his long body, peering closely at the broad-bladed grasses. "This might serve as a solution."
Night was falling quickly, so she turned on her lys-lamp, clipped to the strap of her pack, and used its illumination to see what he indicated. As she and Nils had entered the clearing, they'd walked through the grasses, snapping some of the stems. Thick blue sap oozed out of the broken plants and onto the ground.
The insects on the ground avoided the sap.
They deliberately went out of their way to keep from contacting it, scuttling away as soon as they sensed its presence. It gave off a faint, vegetal scent, but nothing noxious or unpleasant. Whatever it was within the sap the insects did not like, it had no effect on her or Nils.
"A natural barrier." She took a sonic blade from her pack and cut more of the grasses. She smeared the sap on the earth. Immediately, all the nearby insects darted off.
In silent agreement, she and Nils cut down armfuls of the grass. Working together, they proscribed a two-meter circle on the jungle floor using the sap. They were careful to keep the sticky substance from contacting their skin, in case there was an unpleasant reaction. When they were finished, they had a decent-sized space entirely free of insects, like an island in a sea of bugs.
Building a shelter took a little more time, and called upon both Nils's text learning and her own memories of camping on her homeworld. Of course, when she'd camped, she and her family had used habitat-pods, not relying on bushcraft to provide shelter. But the principles seemed to be the same. She and Nils now cut down branches and huge leaves, and, after making sure no creatures clung to them, they built themselves a raised platform with a canopy.
"What are you doing?" she asked, planting her hands on her hips.
He held up the long, thin vines he twisted. "The vines act as a pulley, attached to this branch. I've fastened these leaves to the branch." The leaves stuck out like spokes from the branch, which he propped between the posts of the canopy. He tied the vines to one end of the branch, then tugged on them. As he pulled, the branch turned, and the attached leaves stirred currents of air. Creating a fan.
Amazed at his ingenuity, she still felt compelled to ask, "Are we going to have to pull that all night?"
"No!" He shook his head at her ridiculousness. Rummaging in his pack, he produced a handful of metal pieces. Within moments, he fashioned them into a small motor. He attached the other end of the vine pulley to the device. He flicked a switch and the motor hummed to life, pulling on the vines, which, in turn rotated the branch with the leaves.
"It's not the Pavami Emperor's palace." He surveyed his handiwork. "But it should keep the temperature down. A little, anyway."
She stalked around the raised platform toward Nils. He could only stand there, a startled look on his face, as she took hold of the back of his neck and pulled him down for a kiss. It didn't take long for him to recover, however, and he returned the kiss with avid intensity, wrapping his arms around her waist.
They were rough with each other, aggressive, as if the jungle had seeped into their blood and they became as fierce as the place itself. It was almost a contest of wills, strength to strength, mouths plundering, their tongues stroking each other, lapping up their essences.
She lost track of time, of place, and only when she pulled back, gasping, did she regain sense. Still, it was difficult to do so when his gaze burned and his hands held her tightly.
"Ought to make rudimentary devices more often," he said, his voice a hard rasp.
"Just imagine what might happen if you build something truly elaborate."
His smile unfolded in sensuous promise. "My imagination is extremely active."
"Let's finish making camp before full darkness hits. Then you can show me just how imaginative you can be."
Slowly, they broke apart, busying themselves with the final adjustments to their encampment. A cooking fire was ultimately rejected, in case the light attracted unwanted attention, and with heavy sighs they both ate more sustenance-paks, washed down hastily with more water. Several nutrient capsules formed the rest of their meal, ensuring that they received the proper nourishment after the long, demanding day.
Tomorrow would be even longer, and not simply demanding, but treacherous. The thought weighed heavy on her. It must've done the same with Nils, for they both ate their meals and swallowed their capsules in silence. Sitting on their improvised platform, her legs drawn up, arms braced on her knees, she stared out into the darkening jungle. Life teemed all around, from the rustling foliage to the avian cries to the deeper, distant growls of larger animals on the hunt. None of these creatures knew or cared what brought her and Nils to their homeworld. None recognized that tomorrow might be the last day of the humans' lives.
Oddly, this strengthened her. Everything continued on, regardless of what happened to her. Even the fight against PRAXIS would continue---though maybe not as long as she would've wanted. Nothing existed beyond thousands of solar years. Civilizations would die; new ones would emerge. Truth and fact blew away like so much cosmic dust. Permanence was impermanent.
"Where've you gone?" Nils asked softly, breaking her thoughts.
"Thinking about the ruins of Volod Rey," she murmured. "I've seen them. They're half-buried in crystalline sands. At one time, the queens of that planet thought their empire would last until the end of time. Time pushed forward. The queens and their mighty cities were no more, Volod Rey populated by archeologists, not inhabitants."
She ran her fingers back and forth over the platform. Though she and Nils had built it strong, the jungle would reclaim it within a matter of days.
"It's like there's no consequence," she continued. "I can unleash my full fury tomorrow against Marek. With no promises to keep, the fight becomes everything."
"You don't have any concern for the future?" asked Nils. It was too dark to see much now beyond the suggestion of his form, yet she felt acutely aware of his presence, the physical space he occupied and the resonance of his self.
"I want victory for the 8th Wing. I want to dance at the next Night of Masks, but, ultimately, the only meaning anything has is that which we assign it. And that meaning vanishes when we disappear."
"Significance goes on, past the lifespan of one creature. Past the stretches of measured time."
"Why are you angry?" she asked, for his voice had taken on an edge. "I thought the engineer in you would appreciate the intransience of human existence. The triumph of physics over societies. The persistence of the universe."
"You're asking me to contemplate your death, to consider that the loss of my life and yours is essentially meaningless, and then ask me why I'm angry?" Though he didn't raise his voice, it held fury, tight and cutting.
She'd witnessed him in combat several times, and seen his anger, yet this aspect of him caught her by surprise. "Nils---"
"I don't give a sipkaswine's ass what happens to the universe," he rumbled. "Physics can go fuck itself. I care about you, Celene. And I won't be unmoved about the prospect of your death. Thinking about it feels like my insides have been torn out with rusty ion forceps."
She gathered him close, and felt the tension slowly leave his body as his arms wrapped around her. "I didn't mean to upset you."
He sighed, and touched his forehead to hers. His breath fanned warmly over her.
"I can't be cavalier about death. Mine or yours."
She gave a humorless laugh. "My word on the Three Sacred Tablets, I have no desire to wear the pala wreath." Her hand came up to trace the side of his face, feeling the bristles along his jaw and tracing the contours of his mouth. "There's too much in the realm of the living."
He started to speak again, but she silenced him with her lips. Resolute, yet tender. She explored his taste, his feel, learning him anew every time. Being able to kiss him now, when so much had stood in their way or interrupted them, was a rare luxury she fully intended to take advantage of.
Even with her reputation as Stainless Jur, she hadn't hidden her sensual needs. She never saw the necessity to play coy, or pretend that she didn't have sexual desires. Yet with Nils, she felt herself utterly letting go, giving full power to the demands of her body---and heart. She leaned back, pulling him with her, until they lay on the platform. Her hands moved up the tense sinews of his arms, raking her nails along his skin, and he groaned into her mouth at the sensation.
Fevered with wanting, she gripped his shoulders, feeling the bunch and play of muscles. He moved so that his body lay atop hers, his legs between hers. She hooked her ankles over the backs of his thighs, so that they were locked tightly together, hip to hip.
She barely felt the platform beneath her. Her awareness clung only to the weight of Nils, the feel of his body, the taste of his mouth. She tilted her hips and moaned at the sensation of his fabric-covered cock sliding over her. They rocked together, a delicious, maddening tease. Her hands drifted from his shoulders to run over his slick, straining back. The bandages frustrated her---she wanted to feel every part of him---yet they reminded her of the courage he demonstrated again and again. He never retreated. Like her, he met every challenge.
And, at that moment, their clothing was the challenge. They both struggled partially upright, tugging on the fastenings of their uniforms. She sighed with relief as she peeled back the clinging fabric, pulling her arms from the sleeves and pushing the uniform top down to her waist. Then lower, taking the one-piece garment down her legs. She hesitated for a moment.
"Don't stop," he urged. "I want you naked."
"I want to be naked. But I'm not sure what to do about my boots."
"Right." He glanced at the surrounding jungle. "Hostile environment."
"Might need to be dressed and running at a moment's notice."
"And we've seen what's crawling across the jungle floor."
She growled. "Damn."
He grabbed her hand, kissed it. "It's all right. I want you however I can have you."
It wasn't going to be elegant or pretty, but she pushed her uniform down so it gathered around her calves. "If I'm going to look this ridiculous, you do too."
His eyes gleamed in the darkness. "You don't look ridiculous. You look...real."
"Then you'd better get real, Lieutenant Calder."
"Yes, ma'am." Nils also partially undressed, and in the dim radiance of the moonlight, she saw his narrow, uncovered hips, his bare legs. And his cock, upright and thick.
"Gods," she breathed, "what I wouldn't give for a full-sized lys-lamp. Even simu-candles. I want to see you."
"It's said that other senses compensate when one's diminished. Touch, for example." He reached for her, and she went willingly as they pressed together tightly.
She gasped at the feel of his bare cock rubbing against her. Some minor shred of modesty had kept her panties and tank top on, but the synth-silk fabric of her underwear was far thinner than her uniform, and it was almost like naked skin against naked skin. She felt the heat of his shaft, the smooth head, even the tiny droplet of moisture gathering at the tip.
With his clever engineer's hands, he pulled off her tank top in a swift motion. And when those same hands gathered up her breasts, both Celene and Nils groaned in pleasure. He traced her nipples, bringing them to hard beads, and lightly pinched them. On a moan, she arched up.
"My senses are replete," he rasped. "I feel you everywhere. But, gods, I've fantasized about this for so long. And now that I really have you, I can't see you. I don't even know the color of your nipples. They could be light or dark, and I've got no way of knowing." He all but growled his words.
"Dark," she managed to gasp as he plucked on them, sensation traveling straight between her legs.
"The color of flame plums, or açaberries?"
In the haze of her arousal, Celene had to laugh. "Trust you to remain fixated on quantifiables."
"Want the full range of experience." He bent his head and circled his tongue around her nipple, drawing forth another moan from her. "You taste sweet as an açaberry."
"Tawnyfruit," she breathed. "My nipples are the color of tawnyfruit."
"My favorite." He sucked the peak of her breast into his mouth, and she threaded her hands through his hair, holding him close.
"Lucky for me."
"Lucky for me. But you could've named any fruit at all. Whatever you said would be my favorite." Then he stopped talking, his attention fully focused on bringing her pleasure.
And he did. She'd been touched before, by men and by machines designed for pleasure. But nothing felt like this. With his incisive mind and skillful hands, only Nils could draw such pleasure from her body. They had been wanting this for far too long, and she felt his freed desire in every caress. She writhed beneath him as his mouth and hands moved over her in hot, lush exploration.
But she was a pilot, and not without her own sense of discovery. She touched him everywhere---wide shoulders, lean arms, the hard musculature of his back and lower. Beneath her palms, his buttocks tightened, and she gripped him hard. At some other point, she wanted very much to sink her teeth into that delicious ass, but that would have to wait for another time. Right now, she was famished, and the means of sating her hunger lay tantalizingly close.
She edged back enough to give her hand room for more journeying. Traced the ridges of his abdomen and the muscle that ran from each hip. Following that muscle led her to his cock, and he hissed in pleasure when she wrapped her fingers around it. He was marvelous in her hand, the living energy of him. She stroked him, up and down, giving a little twist at the head that made him groan and clench his teeth.
One of his hands dipped beneath the waistband of her panties. Finding her wet, he murmured words in a language she did not recognize, only judging by the tone that they were words of worshipful praise. She tipped her head back and made a breathless, pleasured sound. They touched one another like this, his long fingers caressing her, her hand stroking him. With his free hand, he continued to toy with her breasts, and she thanked the countless deities that he excelled at multitasking.
She felt her climax gathering. Yet abruptly he took his fingers from her. She growled her protest, though it died when she felt him tugging down her panties. She widened her legs as much as she could, and pulled him closer. He resisted, however.
His large hand covering her pussy, he murmured, "Taste. The most powerful sense."
"No, no." She tried to twist away. "We've been stomping through this inferno all day. I haven't..." She felt herself blush. "I need to bathe. A UV shower, at least."
Nils rolled away, and she heard him delving into one of the packs. The sound of tearing foil made her frown in curiosity.
He rolled back and held up what appeared to be a rectangular piece of fabric. "Cleanse-cloth."
"That's for cleaning weapons."
She felt his smile. "Works on people too. I've done tests."
Of course he had. And she certainly appreciated his thoroughness when he dipped the cleanse-cloth between her legs. The fabric was cool, moist, and it felt like the next incarnation of ecstasy as he slowly, sensuously stroked her with it. She thought she might feel embarrassed to have someone tend to her personal hygiene, but the way Nils touched her destroyed awkwardness and left only pleasure.
"Give me...one of those...cloths." She wanted to perform the same service for him.
He shook his head. "Another time. Right now, I'll go nova unless I taste you."
The cleanse-cloth disappeared. And was replaced by Nils's lips.
She pressed a hand over her mouth, trying to stifle her moan. But she found herself unable to stop the wild, hoarse sounds that broke from her. She couldn't hold herself in. Nils devastated her.
He didn't lick at her pussy, nor press kisses there, as other men might. No, he ate at her, using his whole mouth---his lips and his tongue---to devour her. Drinking, nibbling. Feasting on her. He took her clit between his lips and sucked. He lapped at her, greedy and delicate, as if she was the most delicious thing he had ever tasted. The tip of his tongue circled and dipped into her opening, firming to enter her. He fucked her in savage reverence with his mouth. Over her own furiously muffled cries, she heard groans of pleasure deep in his chest.
Her hips rose, and he pinned her down, commanding as he adored her. With her free hand, she clutched a slat of the platform, her grip tight enough to make her hand ache. She didn't care. She was the center of the universe, all heat and pleasure.
Release tore through her. An explosion of sensation that left her a charred husk, shuddering and breathless.
But not utterly spent. Even as the last tremors shook her, she recovered enough strength to pull him up for a deep, open kiss, tasting their flavors intermingled.
"Now it's my turn to take the controls," she growled.
He smiled against her mouth. "Ma'am, yes, ma'am."
"On your back."
He did so. It took some negotiating, with their uniforms tangled around their legs, but she had skills as a pilot, and maneuvered herself to straddle him. She felt more than saw the intensity of his gaze as he stared up at her, his hands on her hips, his whole body taut with need.
"If anything interrupts us now," she breathed, "I'm going to lose my mind."
"Nothing can stop us."
"Better not." She pressed her hands against the hot contours of his chest. "I want you. So much." She'd never known need like this, that drove away all thought. All boundaries.
"You're so beautiful," he said, hoarse.
"It's too dark to see."
"In the darkness or the light, you're beautiful."
She squeezed her eyes shut, her heart too full and aching. The demands of her body wouldn't let her retreat, however. She angled herself to precisely where she needed to be, and then sank down, taking him inside her.
The sensation... It engulfed her. She couldn't hold in her sounds of pleasure as he filled her. He made feral noises, deep, masculine growls that traveled in waves through her body. They both kept still, as if stunned into immobility by the wonder of him within her, the feeling of their bodies intimately joined. Immobility couldn't last, though. Not when an even greater pleasure arose as they moved.
He was thick and hot within her, and as she lifted up and moved down, radiating pleasure suffused her. At first, she moved with slow deliberation, savoring each slide of him. Her pace soon quickened, and he bent up, thrusting into her with deep, full strokes. She lost herself in sensation, freed from expectation, knowing she could be entirely herself with him.
She bent over him and rode him hard, just as he drove up with an unrelenting strength, and she could see enough to watch his head thrown back, the column of his neck and underside of his jaw, as his mouth opened on rough exhalations of pleasure.
Her orgasm stole thought, and seemed to obliterate the confines of her body. She felt herself everywhere, in every thing, in herself, in Nils, in the living jungle, and the sky overhead and the stars and planets scattered throughout. And as she expanded outward to encompass everything, he joined her, groaning out in release.
How much time passed, she couldn't measure. There was only before making love with Nils, and after, and she found herself at some point carefully dressed, tucked against his side. They lay together on their platform, looking up at the star-filled sky.
She had a brief, panicked desire to grab him by the hand and drag him back to the Phantom. They could find a tiny, barely inhabited world and make a home for themselves there, hiding from PRAXIS, from the 8th Wing. Alone and alive.
But she pushed that desire aside. It was a fantasy, a dream that could never happen, for even if they could somehow evade the 8th Wing and PRAXIS, neither she nor Nils could turn their backs on duty.
On an elevated ridge, Nils and Celene took up a position. Each trained silmät scopes toward a point to the east.
Marek's compound. It perched at the edge of the jungle, three of its sides surrounded by dense forest, and the fourth side facing the seething ocean.
Even from a distance of a geomile, it was evident that the waves would destroy any vessel foolish enough to brave them. Dark shapes of creatures also lurked beneath the surface of the water, large creatures who formed massive shadows under the waves. One of the sea-dwelling beasts breached, snapping up a low-flying animal, and Nils cursed to see numerous rows of jagged teeth gleaming in the beast's mouth.
"Rules out a water approach."
A thick perimeter wall enclosed the compound, with plasma wire atop the wall. No one could breach the wall, and if one attempted to scale it, the wire grid would reduce them to atoms. Should someone be lucky enough to get past the outer fortifications, he or she would find themselves amidst a series of buildings. A large main structure, surrounded by two smaller outbuildings.
At one corner of the compound was a landing pad. A medium-sized cruiser already occupied a spot there.
"Place looks deserted," Celene noted. "No guards patrolling. But his ship is there."
"Robotic sentries." As Nils spoke, three mechanized sentinels traversed the compound, their blaster-mounted turrets continuously sweeping back and forth. "Marek's paranoid. He already didn't like working closely with others in Engineering. Makes sense that he'd create a haven free of all people."
"Except himself."
He nodded grimly. With a suspicious, intelligent mind behind the design of the compound's security, it would make his and Celene's objective that much more difficult. Cracking the defense systems would take all of his skill and focus. But getting inside was merely the first step. Once he and Celene did manage to get in, they would have to contend with the sentries. And Marek, himself.
Yet with only a few geomiles separating Nils from the traitor, he knew that turning back wasn't an option. Marek had betrayed the 8th Wing, had almost cost Celene her life and freedom. For that, the traitor must be punished.
"Did you bring the holographic projector?" Celene asked.
Lowering his silmät scope, he pulled the device in question from his pack. He and Celene had discussed their plan before leaving the Phantom, with him making the necessary adjustments to their equipment. The implement would project the hologram of two Black Wraith ships, making it appear as if the ships approached the compound. Careful calibration ensured that, for a few minutes at least, the signatures of the projected ships would appear real to other sensors, presenting enough of a perceived threat to distract Marek. Nils and Celene would breach the perimeter during the distraction. Once inside, they would find the Black Wraith disruptor device and destroy it.
As he set up the projector, he fought to keep his attention solely on the task. His mind kept drifting back to last night, the all too brief pleasure they had shared. They had slept in shifts, and all he had wanted to do was lay beside her, sleep with her in his arms. But he'd had to stay awake and vigilant for his shift, and had kept himself alert with running scenarios about the mission.
If he and Celene survived, if they made it back to base, would they have more nights like the one they shared? Or had it been a one-time event, never to be repeated? Would she even want to be seen with him?
A scene played out in his mind, clear as a high-def vid: him, walking down a corridor on base, seeing Celene with her Black Wraith buddies coming toward him. Pretending he didn't exist. Her gaze never meeting his.
Could NerdWorks and an ace fighter pilot really make it? He wasn't sure, and she hadn't said anything about what might come after the mission.
Damn it, don't think about that now. Just get the gear set up. Then survive the next thirty minutes.
"Might want to delay the projector," she said. "Another distraction has arrived."
He glanced up and cursed. A PRAXIS clipper appeared on the horizon, and seemed to be heading straight toward Marek's compound.
"The hells...?" Nils turned his scope up to the PRAXIS ship. "This planet's a lot more popular than I'd thought. Or Marek serves a really nice cup of kahve."
"It's not kahve that brings PRAXIS here." Celene growled. "The bastard's going to sell the disruptor to them." Which was precisely what the 8th Wing feared.
He and Celene shared a look. "Lucky we showed up when we did. We can prevent the sale."
"Yes, but it also means the timing of this operation has accelerated. We've got to get into the compound and destroy the disruptor before PRAXIS can get its hands on it."
Immediately, he and Celene jumped to their feet. After securing their packs and checking their weapons, they jogged down the rise, and began pushing hard through the jungle, toward the compound.
"Marek will drop some of the shields to permit PRAXIS to land," he noted, shouldering aside several hanging vines. "We won't need the holographic projector."
She remained stone-faced, the look he now knew well. Her battle mask, behind which she retreated to get herself in the proper mindset for combat. It had nothing to do with him. Taking his cues from her, he forced icy calm to thread through his body and mind. He could think only of achieving success, and not dwell on what may or may not happen afterward. Doubt had no place on a mission. Particularly one with stakes this high.
They kept a brutal pace, sliding through the jungle at top speed. By the time they reached the base of the perimeter wall, he felt certain he had lost ten pounds in sweat alone. Keeping back to the shelter of the forest, they eyed the wall. It stood approximately ten meters high, and the plasma wire continued up for three additional meters, its fatal beams crackling with red energy.
"We move quickly." She nodded toward the sky, where the PRAXIS clipper hovered above the compound. Its thrusters rotated in preparation for landing. "Now."
She and Nils slipped to the base of the wall. He stuck a palm-sized device on the barricade, and punched in a numeric sequence. Tiny lights within blinked. A low hum sounded. And then a narrow section of the plasma wire directly above sputtered out.
They didn't have time to linger. The PRAXIS thrusters roared, kicking up dust, as the ship slowly lowered for landing.
She shot a grappling hook from a handheld apparatus. Her aim was good, and the hook lodged itself at the top of the wall. She tugged on the attached line, ensuring its security. Satisfied, she grabbed hold of the rope.
Fluid and lethal, she began to climb. He took a breath, rubbed his palms on his thighs to dry his hands, and then he, too, began his ascent.
Celene knew herself in battle. She'd been on enough missions, in the midst of danger. Readiness settled over her like cation armor, protecting her, allowing her to see precisely what she must, directing her thoughts. It wasn't autopilot, for she controlled herself, but she saw the flight plan laid out before her. Following that plan was the only thing required.
She pulled herself up, hand over hand, her legs doing most of the work by pushing her higher. Tugs on the rope below her revealed that Nils kept pace. She didn't slow to check on him. In order for this objective to succeed, she had to trust that he'd keep up.
Reaching the top of the wall, she quickly surveyed the interior of the compound. The PRAXIS ship was landing, but no one stood by the landing pad to greet the visitors. If Marek was as paranoid as Nils claimed, he wouldn't come out into the open and leave himself vulnerable. His PRAXIS clients would have to come to him.
In the cover of the dust kicked up by the landing ship, she slid through the narrow gap in the plasma wire atop the wall. Its heat vibrated over her body, and she slowed her breathing to ensure she didn't come in contact with the fatal energy. She heard Nils coming up the wall, close behind, but there wouldn't be room for both of them at the top, so she took another grappling hook from her pack and secured it for the descent.
"Not yet," she whispered to him as he neared the top of the wall. "Have to time it going down so we don't run into the sentries."
"Give the signal when you think it's best."
A sentry rolled just below, precisely where she'd be when she descended. She kept the rope attached to the hook in her hands, lest the robotic guard's sensors detected it and was alerted to their presence. Finally, the sentry rolled away, and she let the line fall.
"Going down now," she whispered over her shoulder. Gripping the line, she slid down, landing in an easy crouch. Her weapon was already in her hand.
Nils followed moments later. Once he was on the ground, she disengaged the grappling hook on the interior of the wall. She stowed the hook and rope in her pack. They gave each other hand signs to indicate that they were both ready to move forward.
The main building in the compound was a single-story structure, its walls appearing to be reinforced and very thick. Only a single entryway. No windows. This, too, fit the pattern of extreme paranoia. In there, somewhere, was the disruptor. And Marek.
She and Nils ducked behind a generator outbuilding to observe the PRAXIS contingent being escorted from the landing pad by one of the sentries. The brilliant white uniforms of the enemy stood out against the dull concrete gray of the compound. A senior officer and three regulars comprised the delegation, and, judging by the scowl on the officer's face, he didn't appreciate being treated with such hostile suspicion.
The PRAXIS representative and his guards followed the sentry to the lone entryway. Before she could grab her silmät scope, Nils already had done so, and had it trained on the control panel by the entrance. He watched as the sentry entered in some kind of code, and the door slid open.
He swore under his breath. "It's a continuously altering system. The code is never the same."
"But you can hack it."
"Of course I can. It'll just take a little longer than I'd like."
PRAXIS entered the main building, and the door slid shut behind them with a ringing clang. With its duty discharged, the robotic guard returned to its patrol. Thirty meters stood between where she and Nils hid and the entrance to the main structure. Thirty meters with no source of cover.
"A run and gun is going to be tight," she said. "Three armed robots against two humans. Not good odds. They'll reduce us to vapor while you hack the door."
He frowned, deep in thought. "Might be able to equalize the odds. Turn them to our favor."
"Tell me what you're thinking."
He rifled through his pack until he produced a handheld device. "This will hack into their wireless command net and override it."
"And have three robot sentries on our side." She grinned. "Excellent plan."
"Same principles of Nifalian chess. Transform the opponent's pawns into your own, surround the king, take the crown."
"Why's it always chess with you?" But she smiled as she asked this.
He shrugged. "Before this mission, it was my sole referent for excitement."
"And now...?"
His raffish grin charmed her, even in the midst of danger. "I'm going to have some good stories when we get back to base."
A thought flared---when they returned, would he brag to his Engineering pals about getting into Stainless Jur's flight suit?
She pushed that troubling thought from her mind. It would only distract her. "Let's get these robots off our backs."
He got to work on the device, swiftly manipulating its controls. "The command codes are constantly rewriting themselves," he muttered. "I'll only be able to control one of the sentries."
"Do whatever you can."
A moment later, he said, "It's done. I've sent the guard a new command stream."
One of the robot sentries stopped in its patrol. As another sentry passed, it turned its devastating weapon on one of the approaching sentries. Destroying the gun turret. The fired-upon guard was now a smoldering collection of metal.
The remaining sentry began to fire on their robot ally.
"The sensors will read this as a system malfunction." Nils pocketed the hacking device. "Not an attack."
"Then we take advantage of the distraction." She jumped to her feet and ran toward the main building. He was fast at her side.
They reached the entryway to the main building, and she kept watch as Nils worked furiously to hack the system.
Finally, the entry door opened, but only wide enough for a person to slide in sideways.
"Now where?" she muttered once they were inside. She glared at the maze of metal panel-lined hallways that stretched on all sides. The building certainly hadn't looked so large or complex from the outside.
He consulted the tracking device he'd taken from the Phantom. It continued to trace the location of the disruptor. "This way."
He jogged down one of the corridors, with her trailing after him, her eyes and weapon in constant motion as she scanned for threats.
They rounded a corner, and another, then flattened back as a hail of plasma fire erupted. Carefully peering around the corner, she saw the PRAXIS guards had taken up position outside an interior chamber. The door behind them closed quickly, its locks engaging with a loud hiss. The PRAXIS officer was nowhere to be seen.
"He's got to be inside with Marek." She returned fire.
"Then that's where we need to be," answered Nils. He also shot back at the PRAXIS troops. Quickly, he glanced down at the tracking device. "The disruptor's in there, as well."
She smiled grimly. "One-stop shopping." He frowned at her, not understanding, and she shook her head. "An ancient expression. Someone used it in a history vid."
Three PRAXIS guards to two 8th Wing soldiers. Unbalanced, but she'd been in worse spots. She shot as fast and accurately as two ordinary soldiers---resulting in a stalemate. She and Nils kept trading fire with the guards, unable to advance. There was no other way into the inner chamber, however.
"Marek could be finalizing the deal right now," Nils said through clenched teeth. Frustration tightened his words. "He might directly upload the plans for the disruptor to PRAXIS. Which means it doesn't matter what we do out here."
"A download isn't instantaneous. We'll get in."
Glancing around, she looked for something, anything, she could use to their advantage. Her gaze fell on the metal panels that lined the corridor. She'd seen plasma blasts ricochet off the panels, so they had to be reinforced, or made with a special alloy that resisted plasma fire. She hoped that a different metal was used to bolt the panels to the walls.
"Got anything to remove rivets in that pack of yours?"
"Ion cutter. Why?"
She flicked a glance toward the panels, and he gave a little smile of understanding. "You lay down cover," he shouted above the gunfire. "I'll take care of the metalwork." He snapped on a pair of goggles and got to work.
She continued to shoot at the PRAXIS guards, hoping the charge in her blaster lasted long enough. Sparks cascaded as Nils used his ion cutter to take down a large panel.
He appeared at her side with the broad sheet of metal. She thought about telling him that he still wore his goggles, then decided against it. He looked dashing in them, like a sand corsair.
"Ready to move in?" she asked.
He hefted the panel. "This stof and tand game is pissing me off."
At her signal, with him in the lead, they rounded the corner, putting them directly in the firing line. But the PRAXIS plasma blasts bounced off the makeshift shield. She followed Nils, firing at the guards as he slowly advanced down the corridor.
A guard went down. Leveling the odds.
Nils planted the shield down and fired, as well. He took out another PRAXIS guard. Leaving only one.
The remaining guard immediately threw down his weapon, then lifted his hands in surrender.
She kept her blaster on him as Nils took the PRAXIS trooper's gun, then pushed him to the ground. Nils pulled a length of touw cord from his pack and quickly tied up their captive, feet bound, hands behind back.
Stepping forward, she knocked the trooper unconscious. Nils stared at her, brow raised.
"Added security," she explained. "Don't want him wriggling free while the mission is ongoing."
He muttered something about bloodthirsty pilots as they collected the fallen guards' weapons. She had a gun for each hand. They readied themselves outside the door to the inner chamber.
He worked to hack into the final control panel. Voices sounded on the other side of the door. Marek and the PRAXIS officer shouted at one another.
It took Nils several minutes before he managed to crack the control panel---attesting to Marek's extreme paranoia. As Nils labored to break into the system, the yelling inside grew even more heated.
Finally, the last door slid open, revealing the man they had traveled millions of miles to find.
And he had a massive plasma shotgun pointed right at them.
Nils stared up the length of the gun, fury vibrating through him. He'd been thinking of this moment ever since he learned Marek was the one behind the disruptor's creation. Now, here he and Celene were, face to face with the traitor.
Marek kept his weapon pointed at them, but Nils and Celene did not lower their blasters. They stepped in a chamber crammed full of equipment, walls covered in monitors and control panels, spare components littering the ground. The room smelled of stale body and electricity. Empty ration plates stacked in the corner, food drying into crusts. Clearly Marek seldom left this chamber, despite the size of the compound.
As they entered, both Nils and Celene caught sight of the PRAXIS officer escaping through a small hatch at the back of the chamber. Nils took a step forward, intent on pursuit, but Marek's shotgun held him back.
In the middle of the chamber stood a tower of circuitry and blinking lights. Judging by its configuration, the tower had to be the disruptor. It seemed like a harmless collection of electronics, yet it was the most powerful weapon he'd had ever beheld, capable of crippling the 8th Wing.
"Delightful," Marek sneered. "Stainless Jur has come to pay a visit."
"She's come to kick your ass," Celene answered.
"Calder," Marek said, his gaze flicking over him. "Didn't expect to see you outside of your Engineering cave. But I suppose if anyone would have found a way to track me, it would be NerdWorks' golden boy." His mouth curled into an ugly approximation of a smile. "Doesn't matter. Neither of you will be leaving this planet alive, and then PRAXIS will chew up and shit out the 8th Wing."
"You piece of lunc," Celene spat.
Marek shrugged, though he looked far from relaxed. A film of sweat coated his waxen face, and he clutched the plasma shotgun tightly. "The 8th Wing pension can't buy me a single-chamber dwelling in the Makell System, let alone a spread like this."
"Except you keep yourself prisoner in this shithole," Nils snarled.
Marek barked out a laugh. "Language, Lieutenant Calder. Spending time with this Black Wraith hotshot has ruined your pristine vocabulary. Besides," he added, his eyes burning and manic, "I like this shithole. The devices I build here appreciate what I do for them. Unlike the 8th Wing."
"That is why you built the disruptor? That's why you'd throw the 8th Wing into PRAXIS's jaws? Because you felt unappreciated?" Celene scoffed. "Calling you pathetic would be a compliment."
Rage tightened Marek's features as he stepped closer, shortening the distance between them. "There are two of you. One of me. You could rush me at the same time. But I'll turn one of you into subatomic particles before the other can get a shot out. So...who will it be? Who will cross over into the Starfields of Eternal Bliss? Or," he added, almost cheerful, "you could lay down your blasters and put your hands up. Surrender."
Nils glanced back and forth between the shotgun's barrel and Celene. The weapon could blast a hole in her that no medical tech could fix. Slowly, he set his blaster on the ground and put his hands up.
"What the hells are you doing?"
"Just do it," he growled back. His eyes sent her a message. Please trust me.
She scowled at him, then, with a curse, did the same, laying down her weapon and raising her hands.
Marek's brows raised. "How unexpected. I would have thought that perhaps Calder might take the path of least resistance, but not Stainless Jur." He clicked his tongue. "Seems your reputation is hardly worth the digi-ink." Marek smirked at her. "I heard you were almost sold for ninety thousand creds. Hopefully, your value hasn't depreciated."
Instinct impelled Nils, forcing him to move with what felt like supercharged speed. He quickly twisted to the right, striking the muzzle of the Marek's weapon away from his body with his forearm. He made sure that he knocked the gun away from Celene. Stepping forward at the same time, he grabbed the upper handguard of the shotgun with one hand, and its stock with his other hand.
Stunned, Marek didn't have time to get off a single blast. His reactions came too slowly as Nils tugged on the shotgun with one hand and pulled with the other, stepping closer. Thrown off balance, Marek swayed. Nils slammed the muzzle of the weapon into the side of Marek's head, and he toppled.
In an instant, Nils had his boot pressed in the center of Marek's chest, the muzzle of the shotgun pointed directly in the traitor's face. He glanced over and saw that Celene had a blaster in each hand, both of them aimed at Marek.
"You have a value of exactly nothing," Nils snarled.
"And this device is only scrap." She turned her blasters on the disruptor. Plasma fire flared. Moments later, all that remained was a smoldering heap of twisted metal. Even the most skilled engineer would find nothing of use, and consign the lot of it to the recycling mechanism.
Dazed as he was, with blood running in a bright stream down his face, Marek managed to rattle out a laugh. "Underestimation is a dangerous game, Calder. I underestimated you, but you've fallen victim to the same peril."
"The hells are you talking about?" Nils pressed the muzzle of the shotgun into Marek's throat.
Marek choked out another laugh. "The plans have been already been uploaded to PRAXIS. Within a solar week, there won't be any more 8th Wing."
Celene cursed, but he was thoughtful. "No," he said after a moment. "I know you, Marek. You wouldn't risk broadcasting the plans, possibly giving away your position to other interested parties. That's why you had PRAXIS come here directly."
The traitor's face paled, but he continued glare defiantly.
"Which means the plans are physical. It was an actual handoff." She glanced at Nils. "We can still stop PRAXIS."
"Beautifully deduced," Marek sneered. "But it doesn't matter. You're too late. If my timing is accurate, I believe the PRAXIS officer will be taking off..." The compound shook with the sound of the clipper's thrusters. "...Now."
Both Celene and Nils cursed. She glanced down at Marek. "You hold him. I'll go after PRAXIS."
"How will you do that? Flap your arms?" Marek snorted. "My assumption is that you stowed your ship somewhere distant. And you can't fly my ship. I installed similar technology to the Black Wraith. The only one who can fly my ship is me."
Nils dug the shotgun muzzle harder into Marek's throat, causing the traitor to gag. "Then get up and start flying."
But hatred burned like a fever in Marek's eyes, even when his life was threatened. "I'm dead anyway. If I were you, I wouldn't trust me not to send the ship crashing into the planet's surface."
He suddenly remembered something. "I have the remote for the holographic projector in my pack," he said to Celene. "Use it to buy some time. But you'll have to do it from outside. These walls are likely lined with ferrium, which will disrupt the remote's signal."
She found the remote, then hurried to the door. Before she left, she sent Nils one last look, laden with meaning. Then she slipped out the doorway, and he heard the echo of her boots ringing as she ran down the corridor.
Another wet laugh tumbled from Marek, drawing Nils's attention back.
"My, Calder, you are simply brimming with surprises today. Going on an actual mission, some rather competent hand-to-hand combat and now fucking Stainless Jur? I've often wondered what it would be like to fuck a legend. Tell me, is her pussy as cold as eisium? Or is she hot as triple fission? Burn your cock right off. But it's worth it, correct?"
He was being baited, yet he couldn't shut off the primitive part of him that boiled in rage. No one should talk about Celene like that.
He hauled Marek up and slammed his fist into Marek's face. The traitor grunted, blood squirting from his nose. Marek stumbled backward against a cluttered workbench. He found a small device buried in a heap of components, and pressed a button. Shrill noise filled the chamber, digging into Nils's head, racking him with excruciating pain.
Marek seemed unaffected by the sound. With surprising agility for one so bulky, the traitor scrambled toward the hatch in the in chamber's farthest wall. Nils fired the shotgun, blasting into equipment, his aim erratic from the pain. The hatch slid open, and Marek disappeared through it.
Nils used the butt of the shotgun to crush the device Marek had triggered. The shrill sound abruptly stopped. Straightening, he took off in pursuit. He had to capture the traitor, and prayed that Celene could stop PRAXIS in time. Failure meant disaster.
Celene sped through the maze of corridors, cursing Marek's decision to structure this building like a labyrinth. But her sense of direction kept her on the right path, and she soon found herself outside. The two robot sentries appeared to have destroyed each other.
Looking up, she saw the PRAXIS clipper rising higher. Within moments it would reach enough altitude to hit full speed and flee with the disruptor plans.
Absolutely cannot happen.
She hit the remote for the holographic projector. She hoped it worked.
She gaped as what appeared to be two Black Wraith ships broke through the cloud cover. They didn't look like projections at all. Her vision was excellent. Yet even she couldn't tell the difference between the real PRAXIS ship and the unreal Wraiths. Nils had also explained that the projections carried enough energy signature to confuse most ships' sensors---for a short amount of time. But even a few minutes would be enough.
The Wraiths headed straight for the PRAXIS clipper. Thinking that it was being pursued, the clipper broke into evasive maneuvers. The Wraiths kept herding the clipper closer to the planet's surface, preventing the enemy ship from breaking toward open space.
She had to act now, while PRAXIS was distracted. She activated the homing signal for the Phantom, and set it to autopilot. Somewhere, deep in the jungle, the small ship came to life, and would be heading for her location. Hopefully, it would arrive in time.
An engine's distant thrum caught her attention. She exhaled in relief when she caught sight of the Phantom on the horizon. Flying at top speed, it could cover a whole day's trek in a matter of seconds. The ship circled the compound once, then descended onto the landing pad. She ran for the Phantom.
Once inside, she flung herself into the cockpit. Feeling the controls in her hands brought a sense of calm. Hand-to-hand combat presented little difficulty, but here was where she belonged. It wasn't her Wraith, but if it had wings, she felt at home. She took off at once.
And just in time. The PRAXIS ship fired on one of the projected Wraiths. The hit went straight through the image. Which meant that the deception had been detected. Thinking there was no real threat, the clipper spun away, heading toward deeper space.
"Aren't you going to ask me to dance?" She pushed the Phantom into pursuit, right on PRAXIS's tail. As she rocketed up, she caught sight of two small figures emerging onto the compound's perimeter wall. A chill ran through her when she realized that they must be Nils and Marek. The traitor had gotten free somehow, and now Nils tailed him. They came together, struggling. Her fear ratcheted higher to see that they were on the part of the compound that rose above the churning ocean. If the fall didn't kill them, the seething water or vicious creatures that lived within it surely would.
An awful decision. Did she bring the Phantom around to help Nils? Or continue her pursuit of PRAXIS?
Gods take her to the Ten Hells. She had a duty to perform. If PRAXIS escaped with the plans for the disruptor, then thousands, possibly millions of lives could be lost.
"I'm sorry, Nils," she whispered, keeping the Phantom in its ascent. Her eyes burned, but she ignored them, and the pain that had nothing to do with the injuries she had sustained. She had been wounded before, yet no plasma blast could ever hurt as much as leaving him behind.
Nils pursued Marek through a series of narrow metal tunnels. He had to bend over nearly double to fit in them, making speed difficult, but Marek wasn't being careful. The traitor charged through the tunnels loudly, the sound of his boots loud and easy to follow. Holding the shotgun, Nils kept up his chase.
The tunnels snaked around, until Nils found himself spat out onto the perimeter wall. The bright daylight momentarily blinded him after the darkness of the tunnels. Marek had deactivated the plasma wire, and he now sped away from Nils, though his gait remained unsteady after the beating Nils had dispensed.
Nils sped after him. He forced himself not to look to his right. The compound was situated atop a high cliff that plunged into the sea. If he were to lose his balance, he'd fall of hundreds of meters. And if he did manage to survive that tumble, jagged rocks speared up from the sea, canceling out any possibility of a water landing. Heights didn't bother him, but these heights proved to be the exception.
Stay focused on Marek. Bring that bastard down.
Sound overhead momentarily distracted him. Celene's Phantom hunted the PRAXIS clipper.
Nils had the advantage of longer legs and no head injuries, and he shot at Marek as he ran. The traitor managed to dodge the plasma fire. He bent low and pulled something from a notch in the wall. Nils ducked as blasts raced past him. Marek must have stashed weapons around the compound. This was his emergency escape route.
Nils shot once more, and Marek staggered. Taking advantage of the stumble, Nils shortened the distance between them. But as he drew nearer, Marek fired again, hitting him in the hand. Nils's grip loosened, and the shotgun fell from his hold. Without watching, he knew that the shotgun plummeted toward the water. It would look miniscule as it plunged down into the churning sea.
The scent of singed flesh rose up. He sucked in a breath, pain radiating up into his arm and through his body.
Yet he wasn't entirely without weapons. His hand might be injured, but he could still form a fist, and his brain worked perfectly.
He edged closer, then launched himself at Marek. They both went rolling across the top of the wall. Using his elbow, Nils rammed into Marek's wrist, again and again, until the blaster Marek carried fell from his hand.
Fear, anger and pain seemed to turn Marek from a stocky, pallid engineer into a maddened beast. He lashed out at Nils as they grappled, his thickset body filled with unnatural strength. Somehow, Marek dug his fingers into Nils's shoulder. Nils's arm suddenly went numb, and he couldn't move it. Marek seized his advantage, and pined Nils down, pressing his forearm into Nils's throat. Though Nils struggled, rage energized Marek, making it almost impossible to dislodge him. The world grew gray at the edges.
"Fucking NerdWorks golden boy," snarled Marek. Spittle gathered in the corners of his mouth, and his eyes bulged. "Kissing the 8th Wing's ass. Being their little tame geelcat. I'm not dancing at their command. Everything is for me. Only me."
Nils bucked, throwing his knee into Marek's back. Momentarily caught off guard, Marek's hold on Nils's neck lessened. Regaining the use of his arm, Nils shoved Marek back, then lodged his boot against the traitor's chest. Taking hold of Marek's arms, Nils threw him overhead.
Nils rolled to his feet and up in time to see Marek go sprawling on the top of the wall. Momentum carried the heavier man, and he tumbled toward the edge. His fingers scrabbled to hold on, barely managing to catch himself. But he was too heavy, and while his fingers held, his body slid off. Marek dangled above the churning sea, legs flailing, mouth contorted in a scream.
Calmly, he walked over to where Marek hung. He stared down at the traitor, watching as if from a great distance while Marek sweated and yelled, only a slip away from falling to his death.
"Help me!" Marek shouted.
"Why?" Nils asked evenly. He made sure to keep enough distance so that Marek could not grab his legs.
"Because..." Marek struggled to think as his fingers began to slip. He whimpered. "Because you're 8th Wing!"
"Precisely. And because I am 8th Wing, I'm going to enjoy watching you fall."
"No! Help!" Marek's grip loosened. And the traitor fell.
The fall wasn't a straight one, and Marek went bouncing against the side of the cliff several times with enough force to knock free debris. They went tumbling down with him, and both the traitor and the rubble smashed onto the sharp rocks at the base of the cliff. What remained of Marek then tumbled into the sea.
Sudden dizziness swirled through Nils's head. He took a step back from the edge. And then another. Drew air deep into his lungs. He had done it. Watched as Marek fell to his death.
He had done it for the 8th Wing, for himself and for Celene. She'd never find herself helpless again.
He stared down at his hands as if seeing them for the first time, realizing that he had finally become a soldier.
Hoping for a glimpse of her, he turned his gaze toward the sky.
Celene sped after the PRAXIS clipper, holding fast to its tail as they both shot out of the planet's atmosphere. The clipper's rear guns went into action, and she wove from side to side, dodging the gunfire. She fired back, but the enemy pilot was skilled and eluded her shots.
She made sure not to get on the enemy's outside, allowing him to turn. PRAXIS clippers could get a lot of speed, and the faster they went, the sharper their turns could be. She couldn't allow the clipper to turn and get behind her, making her the target rather than the hunter.
Problem was, the Phantom didn't have the speed and maneuverability of a clipper. She clenched her teeth in frustration, wanting her Wraith but knowing she wasn't going to get it.
With a sharp turn, the clipper sped around her, until it was on her tail. Exactly where she didn't want it to be.
"Son of a vihond," she spat.
It didn't matter how good she was at the controls. She was fettered by the mechanical limitations of her ship. She skittered from side to side, trying to keep the enemy from targeting directly. If the clipper locked onto her, she was finished.
But combat piloting wasn't always about the capabilities of one's ship. Half of the battle was fought in the mind. She needed to be smarter, not faster. Once, when she had been bored during a long leave, she had read a text on a digitablet about ancient fighting techniques using long metal weapons called swords. Opponents weren't always evenly matched, so it was up to the weaker opponent to outthink her adversary.
Insight came to her at once, and she smiled grimly as she set her plan into motion. "Let's see if you're as stupid as you are ugly," she muttered.
She feinted to the right, a classic twist and roll straight from any pilot's basic training. Such a maneuver would leave her completely open, an easy target to be taken down with a single countermaneuver and blast from the clipper's plasma cannons.
And, like a greedy bastard, the PRAXIS clipper took the bait. It sped after her.
Only she didn't actually perform the twist and roll. She pulled back on the throttle, going into a lateral hold.
The clipper roared past her. Directly into her targeting system.
She opened fire.
The PRAXIS ship blew apart in a cascade of debris and energy. And with it went the plans for the disruptor. Now reduced to atoms and lost to the infinite reaches of space.
Yet she didn't allow herself a moment to savor her victory. She brought the Phantom around and sped back toward the planet. Back to Nils.
If he was still alive, she hoped he could forgive her. And if he wasn't alive, she would never forgive herself.
Celene's grip tightened on the controls as she neared the planet. She entered the planetary atmosphere and approached the coast where the compound was situated. Details came into focus as she flew lower---the individual treetops, the peaks of waves pounding against the shore. And there, the compound, with its walled perimeter. Her gaze moved quickly along the top of the wall, scanning for signs of Nils. Nothing.
Her heart contracted sharply. She'd suffered losses of comrades in the past, seen some of her squad mates die right off her own wing, and mourned. The memories and absences never truly dissipated, remaining a low, constant ache. Yet it was a tolerable ache, more readily borne by the fact that this was war, and war meant death and loss.
But if Nils had fallen... She knew she would survive. As a husk, empty of everything inside.
She brought the Phantom around and lowered down to the landing pad. As the ship touched the ground, she saw a figure running toward her.
Her throat closed, and her pulse stuttered. The figure wore an 8th Wing uniform, and sped toward her with a long-legged stride. Nils.
Fumbling with the buckle of her safety belt, she struggled to rise. The moment the buckle came undone, she slammed from the cockpit and out of the ship.
Nils collided with her. She barely had time to notice how bruised and dirty he was, the fatigue sharpening his features. All she saw was his face, the long lines of his body, and then they were embracing. Her arms wrapped around him, and he held her just as tightly, cradling her head with one hand, stroking the length of her body with the other as if to confirm that she was real.
One of them shook. Or maybe they both did. She didn't know. She did know that relief poured through her so hot and furious she felt almost ill with it.
Eventually they managed to separate. Only a few inches. Grime streaked Nils's face and she gently rubbed at it, then decided to leave it be. He looked like a fighter, the furthest thing from a NerdWorks recluse who never left the safety of Engineering, and emotion tore through her.
For a moment, they simply stared at one another, until the savage tenderness in his gaze made her look away. In the heat of battle, she had turned her back on him, and it felt like an open wound.
"Marek?" she asked.
He shook his head. "There isn't going to be a court-martial."
"Was it good and painful?"
A dark pleasure lit his eyes. "Extremely."
8th Wing regulations demanded the lengthy justice process, but for once, she was happy to subvert it. If his disruptor had made it into PRAXIS's hands, Marek would have wiped out the 8th Wing in a slow, ugly death. She wanted him to suffer. That might go against principles, yet she didn't care. Let Marek hurt, then rot. He deserved it, and worse.
"PRAXIS?" Nils asked. "The disruptor plans?"
"Cosmic dust."
A grin spread across his mouth. "Never expected anything less." His gaze heated, and he lowered his head for a kiss.
Much as she wanted that kiss, she pulled away. He stared at her with a puzzled frown as she paced away to the edge of the landing pad. Strange, she'd once faced seven PRAXIS ships without a molecule of real fear, but what she had to tell Nils made her heart pound and her mouth go dry.
She stared out at the debris-strewn compound, parts from the sentries and bots lying in smoking heaps. Desolation washed over the compound, the sound of the waves a dull roar, and heavy, tropic air listlessly stirring the dust.
She drew a breath. She had to say this now. No turning away.
"I left you," she said on a rasp. "When PRAXIS was getting away, and I flew after in pursuit. I left you."
"Of course you left," he answered, clearly puzzled. "You had to go after them and destroy the plans. The only rational action."
She spun to face him. "But I saw you, as I was flying away. You and Marek, on the wall, fighting. And I kept going. I left you." The throb in her injured arm faded beneath the raw ache of her confession. "I'm sorry, Nils."
He stared at her for too long. Then, "I don't accept your apology."
She ought to have suspected this, but it didn't stop the hurt. "I understand."
To her surprise, he didn't back away. Instead, he stepped closer, threading his hands behind her neck. Securing her, giving her support.
"I don't accept your apology," he said hotly, "because there's nothing that requires it."
"But I abandoned you---"
His fingers tightened, as did the line of his mouth. "Celene, this is war. Each of us has a duty to carry out, and if we let personal feelings hinder us from performing that duty, we don't deserve to wear these uniforms. I'm not angry. Not disappointed. You fulfilled your responsibility, just as I fulfilled mine." A crease appeared between his brows. "This kind of regret doesn't seem like you."
"It's just that..." She struggled to speak. "This is new for me---caring for someone the way I care about you. Leaving you behind as you fought for your life...it tore me apart."
His gaze flared, yet he said levelly, "But you did what you had to."
She nodded, her neck stiff with the effort.
"Then there's nothing to regret. I'm proud of you, Celene."
The strength of his words felt like the notes of a Ellalian bell, chiming low and melodious, lifting her higher. "And I'm proud of you, Nils."
"Good," he rumbled, "because now I'm going to kiss you until we knock this planet out of orbit."
They came together, mouths hungry, hands gripped tight. The kiss awakened every nerve within her, transforming the fury and terror of the fight into consuming desire, creating a chain reaction of need. Her body tightened, and she soaked in the feel of him against her, hard with muscle, alive, purposeful. He met her with his own strength. It felt as though they could generate enough power to realign whole solar systems.
She reluctantly took her lips from his. "Until we reach home base, the mission remains ongoing."
"Meaning," he said with disappointment, "we don't get to see where this kiss leads."
"Need to make a sweep of all the buildings." She glanced around at the wreckage. "Marek might have stashed more copies of the disruptor plans."
"Or other weapons. But first, let's tend your wounds."
After Nils saw to her injuries, she said, "Now let's clean this place out like we're defleaing a vihond."
Weariness weighted her body, but she forced herself to go through the entire compound. She and Nils moved from building to building, sifting through debris, piles of equipment and months of accumulated detritus. Nils cursed long and creatively when he uncovered a cache of experimental weaponry---the functionality of which she could only guess at, but, knowing Marek, they would've been brutal. Fortunately, they found no more assembled disruptors, nor plans, but everything suspect they gathered into a heap in the central of the compound.
"I would almost suggest taking these weapons back to base for further study," Nils murmured, staring down at them, "but that means a slim chance that they might be put into use."
So, he concocted an accelerant from materials found in Marek's workshop, and the lot of it was turned to smoldering remains.
"The smoke reminds me of the old-fashioned purification ceremonies they still perform on my homeworld every Solstice." She stared at the column of smoke as it rose into the sky. "Wonder if Marek's greed and malice are being scattered amongst the clouds, never to be seen or experienced again."
"I wish that were true." Nils's arm came up to wrap around her shoulder, and she knew he felt the same weight she did, the fight with PRAXIS that seemed endless. What would life in peacetime be like? She'd been born into war, and it might continue long after her. But the alternative was worse---a galaxy completely enslaved to a massive corporate monster. The fight had to continue, for as long as it took.
She turned away from the smoking debris. "We ought to raze the compound, as well."
"Keep PRAXIS from finding anything when they come back."
"And they will when their emissary fails to return with the disruptor."
"Let's leave them nothing but ashes," Nils said.
Together, she and Nils set up charges all over the compound. The sun began to set by the time they returned to the Phantom, long shadows streaking the dusty ground. They buckled in, and she engaged the thrusters for liftoff. As soon as they were high enough, Nils triggered the charges. Vibrations shook the ascending Phantom as detonations tore through the compound, large fireballs decimating the heavy perimeter walls and leveling the structures.
"It's kind of pretty." She watched the riot of color below as the explosion encountered more flammable material.
He chuckled. "Trust you to find an explosion aesthetically pleasing."
They broke the atmosphere, the planet disappearing behind them. Not an ounce of regret touched her when the planet finally disappeared from their sensors.
"Time to head home," she said.
But she didn't know what awaited her at home. Would she be Stainless Jur or Celene? A fling Nils could boast about? Or did he want more?
Could she truly allow herself that kind of vulnerability? She prided herself on her courage, but in so many ways, the heart was more fragile than the body. A body could be destroyed only once, but one's heart could be torn apart again and again.
It'd be easy to fall back into her old role again. To take up the armor of Stainless Jur, surrounding herself with other Black Wraith pilots who never truly knew her, and be content with the sterile admiration from the rest of the 8th Wing. Nothing touched her. Nothing hurt her.
Or she could take the chance with Nils. And possibly have her heart cut open with all of 8th Wing watching.
Nervousness danced in Nils's stomach as the 8th Wing home base came into view. For the past solar weeks, he and Celene had been essentially alone. The flight back had been an exercise in delayed gratification---they'd kissed, and touched, but that was all. The stretches of space between Marek's former hideout and home base were too dangerous to trust to autopilot, so Nils and Celene had stolen moments here and there, yet never made love.
They hadn't talked about what would happen when they got back to base.
Anxiety and sexual frustration roiled through him. What was she going to do once they returned to their normal lives, their normal roles? She was Stainless Jur, one of the Black Wraith Squad's best, if not the best. He was the pride of NerdWorks. The two didn't intermingle, let alone become lovers.
During this mission, something had taken shape between them, an intimacy greater than sex. But would she try to deny it once she settled back into her world, and he in his? Would she push him away, or, worse, grow indifferent? He'd seen her eyes burn with passion. He couldn't stand to have her look at him with cool detachment.
Resolution straightened his shoulders. He wasn't going to cling to her boots, beg for her affection. If she wanted to move on without a backward glance, he'd let her go. Their time together had been...the best of his life. But he had more life left in him. He could move on, too.
A tense silence filled the Phantom's cockpit as they approached the dock. The easy conversation and lingering touches fell away, leaving them precisely where they had been at the beginning of the mission.
The ship finally touched down. Outside the window, he saw Admiral Gamlyn, Commander Frayne, Ensign Skiren and a dozen other members of the 8th Wing---Black Wraith pilots, members of Engineering and Major Ishan, the head of Engineering. Though the higher-ranking officers looked serious, as befitting their station, many others smiled. Especially Ensign Skiren, who alternated between clapping and hooting something through her cupped hands.
Celene did not immediately rise from her seat. Instead, she stared out the window. "I thought I'd be glad to get back."
Before he could ask her to clarify this, the door to the Phantom opened, and Admiral Gamlyn entered the small ship.
He and Celene finally got to their feet and saluted. It felt oddly uncomfortable to have the admiral on board, as if she were trespassing. Ludicrous. She was an admiral of the 8th Wing, and had every right to be on the Phantom. Yet it felt like a violation of privacy, just the same.
"Excellent work, Lieutenants," said the admiral. "The fleet let out a collective sigh of relief when we learned that the disruptor will no longer be a threat."
"Thank you, ma'am," he and Celene said in unison.
Admiral Gamlyn gestured for them to precede her out of the Phantom. With peculiarly heavy feet, he did so. When he stepped out of the ship, he felt a strange tightness over his skin, as if his old self tried to reclaim him. But he refused to sink into that former identity. When Commander Frayne strode forward to shake Nils's hand, Nils returned the shake firmly and looked the commander right in the eye. The commander's grip did not seem as crushing as it once did. Or maybe Nils had more strength than before. Frayne's brow rose, and new respect appeared in his gaze.
"Lieutenant," Major Ishan stepped forward, "you've given Engineering bragging rights for the next twenty solar cycles."
"Should be thirty," Celene said before Nils could speak.
Murmurs of agreement rose up from the gathered Engineering crew.
"Looks like the legend of Stainless Jur is only going to grow." Ensign Skiren knocked a fist into Celene's shoulder. "They're using Jur as a verb now. You know, 'If you want something done right, you have to Jur it yourself.'"
The Black Wraith pilots chuckled amongst themselves, nudging each other with their elbows.
Admiral Gamlyn cleared her throat. "Pleased as Command is by your results, we will need to conduct a thorough debriefing, as well as an inquiry into why Marek was not brought back for court-martial."
"Impossible to court-martial a dead man," Nils answered. Then added, "Ma'am."
Everyone looked stunned by his response, except Ensign Skiren, who grinned.
The admiral cleared her throat again. "We'll have the debriefing in a few minutes."
Friends of his from Engineering swarmed around him, all asking questions. "What was the composition of the disruptor?"
"Did you get a chance to use the code hacking device you were developing?"
"Did you fire an actual blaster?"
As he tried to answer their questions, he saw her across the docking bay. Black Wraith pilots gathered around her, noisy and boisterous as they demanded her account of the mission. She grinned and spoke, but he couldn't hear what she was saying. She wasn't looking at him.
Both of them in their worlds. Back to who they had been before.
He would go back to Engineering, back to his training and hearing about her daring exploits. And eventually their time together would grow more and more distant, the stuff of a faded history vid.
This had been coming. He knew it would happen. And he'd been prepared to accept it. Walk away as if what they'd shared was an interlude in their normal lives.
No. If she wanted to end things, she would have to say so. He was determined to fight for her, for them.
Major Ishan was saying something to him, but he didn't hear, didn't answer. Instead, he paced forward.
He'd have to shoulder a path through the Wraith pilots, push his way toward Celene.
His heart pounded. He could be facing his greatest humiliation, and loss. If Celene rejected him, Engineering would see it. The Black Wraith Squadron would see it, and so would Command. News would be all over the base within minutes.
So be it. He wouldn't huddle in Engineering, wondering what might have been.
But, suddenly, she moved. She stepped through the circle of pilots and walked toward him. Her face was set, determined.
And then she was in his arms, he in hers. And they were kissing. In front of everyone. No one said anything. All that mattered was Celene's mouth on his, and the very public message this kiss sent to the 8th Wing. The tension in him turned to vapor. He felt the disparate parts of himself unite, just as he felt his hunger for her return with the ferocity of a solar storm.
Ensign Skiren broke the silence. "Nice flying, NerdWorks!" she shouted before Commander Frayne pulled her out of the docking bay. The rest of the officers and crewmen followed, the pilots, the engineers, even a startled and red-faced Admiral Gamlyn, muttering something about conducting the debriefing later.
He pulled back slightly. "This'll tarnish your stainless reputation."
"To hells with my reputation." Her silver gaze met his. "It never made me laugh, or feel cherished. It never made me feel like a woman."
"Of course you're a woman," he said immediately. "You're your own woman, but you are also my woman."
"Never had a real relationship before. Never cared about someone the way I care about you. I'm still scared." She traced a finger along his collar.
"Me, too. But isn't that the definition of bravery? Being frightened by something, and doing it anyway?"
Her mouth met his for another searing kiss. Eventually he broke the kiss with a groan. "Though I want to, I can't make love to you in Docking Bay 24-Zed." He took her hand in his. "We're going to my quarters."
"We could go to mine."
He shook his head. "The Nifalian chess set is in my quarters, and I've got some very interesting variations on the game I think you'll enjoy."
"Never been so aroused by chess before." She laughed. But just before they left the docking bay, he felt her tug on his hand, forcing him to stop. He turned to face her, and saw an uncharacteristic concern in her eyes. "Nils, if we're together...it means you're going to be noticed. A lot more. And the scrutiny can be difficult. I don't want you regretting your choice."
He stepped closer, bridging the distance between them. "Love, when it comes to you, I have no regrets. Except," he added, thoughtful, "wearing a mask all those months ago."
"No masks now," she whispered.
"None," he agreed. They saw each other as they truly were, and he had never felt stronger. He grinned. "Now, let's play chess."
About the Author
Zoë Archer is a RITA Award--nominated romance author who writes romance novels chock-full of adventure, sexy men, and women who make no apologies about kicking ass. Her books include The Hellraisers paranormal historical series and the acclaimed Blades of the Rose paranormal historical adventure series. She enjoys baking, tweeting about boots and listening to music from the '80s. Zoë and her husband, fellow romance author Nico Rosso, live in Los Angeles.
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