
The Mistress's Secret by Julia James
Chapter OneAlanna Richards leafed idly along the racks of cocktail dresses. Each carried a top designer label and was swathed in protective plastic. A wry, almost self-mocking smile hovered around her mouth. Once she had a wardrobe of such dresses. Each more beautiful than the last. Her smile took on a touch of strain. But then, it had been essential that she look as good as she possibly could. Every day.
Every night.
Her smile stilled. Memories, long banished, suddenly haunted her. A face --- dark-eyed, desiring.
Abruptly she dropped her hand and started to walk forward again across soft deep carpet. It was time to find Maggie and the boys. It had been stupid of her to indulge in such weakness, however brief. Her memories were locked tightly away. Maybe, one day, when she was an old woman, she would take them out. But until that time, so far ahead of her, it was not safe. Not safe at all.
Eyes straight ahead, she started for the archway that led through to the escalator lobby of the huge, world famous London department store. It catered to the rich --- the very rich --- and once Alanna had been a regular customer.
Now it was as much as she could bear to enter its portals again. Not that it had been her idea. Maggie had enthused over the idea of making a special visit up to town with the boys to see the store's magically decorated Christmas toy department --- "Not to buy, of course," Alanna's friend and fellow single mother had laughed. "Just to look. Ben and Nicky would adore it!"
They had, too --- delighting in the lavish display of toys and the wonderful Christmas decorations, and content merely to look. Both children were used to "only looking" when it came to toys. Neither Alanna nor Maggie had money to spare for expensive playthings.
For a moment regret hovered in her mind. Had she been rash to give away Nikos's money as she had?
No --- she lifted her chin resolutely --- it had been the right thing to do. The only thing! It had been money she'd had no right to --- none at all. The little she had kept had been enough to keep her and Nicky out of state support. Next year, when Nicky started school, she would be able to work during the school day, and then her finances would ease a little.
But never again --- her eyes wandered sideways one last time to a mannequin wearing a glittering evening dress that didn't even have a price displayed --- would she ever wear anything like that....
Not like that female there, she thought, her gaze lighting on a chicly clad blonde wearing what was obviously a designer suit, pursing her lips thoughtfully over the evening dress. The woman was about her age, she thought, a few years under thirty, and she had that polished perfection about her that told Alanna immediately that she spent her days doing nothing but having her hair and nails done and making herself look fabulous.
The way I used to spend my days....
She paused momentarily to study the woman. Yes, she thought, her lips tightening, I used to be just like that. Checking out the very best in clothes. So that I could look my very best.
For Leon.
Memory leaped back, seizing her throat, making her breath catch chokingly. It was this place that had done it, reminded her of that beautiful, expensive world she'd once, so briefly, inhabited. The sight of these glamorous, expensive clothes had ripped away that fragile --- terrifyingly fragile --- barrier that she had erected day by day...year-by-year...against a single man, a single name.
Leon Andreakos.
Greek.
Rich.
Gorgeous.
Fantastically, wonderfully, irresistibly gorgeous. All six foot two of him. From the top of his silky, sable hair to his long, lithe legs. And everything in between. The most fantastic male she'd ever set eyes on. Ever would set eyes on. Ever could set eyes on.
Whom she would never see again.
His face was in front of her again, tormenting her memory --- that arrogant tilt of the head; the high, sculpted cheekbones; and those eyes, so dark, swept by eyelashes so thick and long that they were wasted on a man. But nothing, nothing at all, was wasted on Leon Andreakos. Not an inch of that toned, muscled flesh that she had once known so intimately...
Her mouth twisted.
No, she had never known Leon Andreakos. She had known his body --- and he had known hers...oh, how he had known hers! --- but she had never known the man. He had never permitted that. Always, always, even in the tempest of their physical union, even at the more intense moments of their shared sensuality, he had kept that distance between them, never letting her close that gap, always, always holding her just far enough away.
There was a hardness now in her eyes, and behind the hardness, a pain that would never leave her. After all, what man like Leon Andreakos would ever let his mistress become emotionally close to him?
Let alone fall in love with him.
She shut her eyes, feeling the pain sweep over her. Pain she had pushed aside nearly five long bitter years ago because what was the use of feeling it? She could weep and agonize over loving Leon Andreakos all she liked, but he would never love her, and so what was the point of all her pain, all her wasted love?
And it wasn't just that Leon Andreakos didn't love her.
He hated her.
She'd seen that hatred, seen it loud and clear and spearing from his eyes as if it were a knife to plunge deep into her heart. Hatred for what she had done to him, to his family...to his brother.
Another emotion flushed through her like acid eating her from the inside. She had tried to stop that emotion, too, but it was no use; it came flooding back, rocking her with the force of it.
Guilt.
Guilt over Nikos, who was dead because of her.
She forced her eyes open. Making the real world come back. Not the world that haunted her, the sickening memories of that terrible, deadly night when Leon Andreakos's brother had died.
Her eyes rested on the first thing they saw --- that chicly dressed blonde who was reaching out her hand, fingering the fabric of the evening gown while she considered whether or not it would sufficiently adorn her beauty. Then, as Alanna's gaze rested on her, half-blind still, torn still between memory and reality, the woman's head turned. A smile lit her face. Of greeting, of pleasure...of satisfaction.
A man was walking into the department, walking with lean, long strides up to the beautiful blonde, who was smiling at him...and he was smiling at her. Smiling at the beautiful woman who was gracing his arm in the clothes he had bought her, gracing his bed in return for those clothes...
Faintness washed over Alanna. The room swam, and she felt her legs weaken, her whole body weaken.
It couldn't be.... But it was.
Blood drummed in her ears like a crashing tide.
For the first time in over four long, endless years she was looking at Leon Andreakos again.
Chapter TwoAlanna could not move. Not a muscle. She could only stand, paralyzed, while in front of her, Leon Andreakos walked up to the woman who was his current mistress.
Leon Andreakos, whom she had not set eyes on for nearly five long years, whose mistress she had once been in another lifetime, another existence....
The lush surroundings of the store's eveningwear department vanished. The years vanished. She was standing, once again, behind the counter of the gift shop in the lobby of the expensive west end hotel while the most fabulous man she had ever laid eyes on walked up to her.
He had come up to the counter and smiled at her. And in that moment, that single moment, she had felt her heart swoop like a bird plunging from the topmost branch of the tree. To abase herself at his feet in worship of his male perfection, his sensual, sexual potency.
"Would you gift wrap a scarf for me?" His eyes had flickered briefly to her and then moved to the flowing cascade of silk scarves that hung from a display at the end of the counter. Long fingers moved swiftly and then selected one patterned in muted grays and soft pinks. "This one, I think."
He removed it and draped it on the counter in front of her. His eyes came back to her. An eyebrow rose.
"If you please?"
The prompt had jolted her. Jolted her out of the total daze that had overcome her as she had stared, mesmerized at this most devastating-looking man. Tall, with dark, Mediterranean looks, dressed in a charcoal business suit that hugged every line of his lean body, and eyes...oh, eyes that made her heart swoop again --- this time right up to the clouds, to the sky beyond...
"Yes --- yes, of course, sir," she managed in a voice suddenly far too tight, too faint. "Um...do you want to have it delivered to your room, or do you wish to wait?"
How she had got out that second sentence she did not know. She didn't know anything suddenly, not a thing --- only that she just wanted to stare and stare at the face of the man in front of her.
It was his eyes...no, his mouth...no, everything, just everything! Everything just made her want to gaze and gaze at him. His eyes were so dark, but they had fleck of light in them, and she wanted to drown in them. His mouth was sculpted, perfect, but there was a mobility to it that made her insides weak....
"I'll wait --- if you don't take too long."
It was his voice! That's what it was, Alanna thought, desperate to try to make her brain work again, make it reason...when all it wanted to do was to dissolve into formless goo. His voice --- deep, accented. What accent? She forced herself to think as she heard her own voice murmuring, "Of course, sir," as she reached under the counter for the silver tissue paper. She felt her hand fumbling and dragged her eyes away. She couldn't just stand here staring at this man...she had to gift wrap the scarf. It was what he was waiting for her to do.
How she managed it she did not know. The man did not move, simply stood there, immobile, his eyes resting on her bowed head as her fingers fumbled hopelessly with the task. Usually she was deft and nimble with gift wrapping; today she was hopeless. And it was because of him.
And all the while he said nothing, just waited, and she could hear his impatience mounting.
He glanced at his watch once, she could tell, saw from the corner of her eye the swift lift of his wrist, the faint flash of gold.
Finally it was done, and she gave the last ribbon one final curl with the edge of her scissors. With relief she reached for the snipped off tag and flashed it through the bar-code reader and got on with printing out the invoice. The cost of the scarves still astounded her --- she could have bought an entire outfit for the price of one of these hand-painted silken works of art. But then everything about working in this luxury gift shop in this five-star hotel still astounded her --- that people really existed who could afford what the shop stocked, who could afford to stay at the hotel in the first place.
This man certainly could. She had come to recognize money when it walked around the lobby, and this man was a walking gold mine. Everything about him shrieked it, from his superb tailored business suit to the tips of his Italian handmade shoes.
Just as everything about him shrieked that he was the most gorgeous male she'd ever seen.
And she was going to have to look at him again. She couldn't complete the transaction keeping her head bowed. With huge effort, as if she were lifting a great weight, she looked up at him.
"Would you prefer to pay here, sir, or shall I charge it to your room?"
As her gaze met his she felt her heart do that terrifying, enthralling swoop again, and a tiny gasp escaped her constricted throat.
For a second his eyes narrowed, as if focusing on her properly for the first time, and then, in the next instant, he smiled again.
That palpable aura of impatience vanished. Completely vanished. In its place his eyes washed over her.
Caressing her...
The swoop came again from a greater height, and she gave that little gasp again. Something changed in his eye --- amusement, that was it.
And it devastated her even more.
"Charge it to my room," he instructed in that deep, accented voice. "1209."
"And the name, sir?" she asked, her voice still faint. She needed a name to countercheck against the reservations computer in case of fraud. He took the payment slip she offered him and scrawled across the signature line.
"Andreakos. Leon Andreakos." He picked up the gift-wrapped scarf. "Kalispera, thespinis," he murmured in his deep, accented voice and walked out.
Greek, she thought weakly. He's Greek.
Greek.
Rich.
Gorgeous.
And now, almost five years since she had first had her life turned upside down by Leon Andreakos, she was seeing him again.
Alanna went on standing, paralyzed, every muscle frozen.
And slowly, like in some hideous slow motion, she saw him reach the woman, saw his gaze flicker past her to head beyond the blonde toward her like some dire, deadly missile...where it came to rest.
For a moment, just a brief instant, he did not recognize her. Then, as the night-dark eyes focused, they hardened. Like steel. Like the blade of a knife ripping into her exposed, defenseless flesh.
She reeled. It was a like a blow to the heart --- without mercy.
Ignoring his current mistress, he stalked across to his former mistress, his heavy tread silent over the thick, soft carpet. The blonde glared, irritated by his distraction by another woman --- and such a woman. Wearing nothing but a jersey and trousers, not in the least fashionable, bought off the rack from a budget chain store. Utterly unworthy of the perfection that was Leon Andreakos.
Alanna stood there, waiting. Waiting for Leon Andreakos, who had once been all the world to her, and to whom she was now nothing, worse than nothing.
He stopped dead. His eyes were glittering obsidian. Full of loathing.
"What the hell are you doing here?" he snarled.
Chapter ThreeHis voice was the same --- deep and accented, but filled now with a cold anger as Leon Andreakos demanded to know the reason why his cast-off mistress from five long years ago dared to be in his presence again. He had banished Alanna from his life --- from his family --- from further contaminating any Andreakos at all.
Alanna felt hysteria beading in her stricken throat. Dear God, did he think she had waylaid him here on purpose? A man she had never thought to set eyes on again for the rest of her life? As she stared at him, totally frozen, she saw him glance at an inconspicuous man standing some little ways away by the exit to the escalator lobby.
His bodyguard. Leon Andreakos always had a bodyguard in tow. He was a wealthy man. Very wealthy. Such men were a target. A target for thieves, kidnappers --- and greedy, gold-digging women.
That's what Leon had thought her, Alanna knew. One more in the long line of beautiful women who used their beauty to get their greedy little fingers inside his wallet. Get him to shower his money on them.
Self-condemnation shadowed her eyes. Leon had been right about her in that --- she'd been overwhelmed by his wealth, incredulous that he should lavish so much of it down upon her, to whom luxury had been totally unknown. After a lifetime of perpetual scrimping and saving, with barely enough for essentials, let alone anything else, she had gone wild as his mistress, she knew, lapping up the luxurious lifestyle with Leon like a kitten standing four-paw in a bowl of cream.
She had reveled in the clothes he'd bought her, the gifts he'd given her, the places he'd taken her to. Reveled in the whole wonderful, magical bliss of being the woman in Leon Andreakos's life, envied by all other women --- yet he had chosen her, just ordinary her, had plucked her out of the hotel gift shop and selected her for his bed. And she had gone willingly, eagerly, helplessly, the thought of turning down his wonderful, magical invitation never even a possibility. Because what woman could possibly turn down Leon Andreakos?
"Well?" Leon's harsh voice cut through her self-recrimination. Like some hideous mocking replay of the very first time he'd ever spoken to her in the hotel gift shop, Alanna was unable to reply, unable to force her voice to work. But she had to speak, say something, anything. Even though her limbs felt like water and her bones like soft wax.
"Nothing ---" The word mumbled from her. She swallowed and said it again, clearer this time. "Nothing."
The memory of the last time he had spoken to her assailed her. The very last words he had said to her as he had barred her from his brother Nikos's funeral.
"Whore! Murdering whore!"
She stumbled past him, but a hand shot out, closing over her arm like a steel band, fingers digging into her flesh.
"Let me go!"
For one long, devastating, soul-consuming moment she stared into his night-dark eyes.
And in that one moment the present was ripped away, back, back into the past they had once had together.
Torment and bliss. Agony and ecstasy. All at the same time.
Oh Leon, Leon --- how I loved you once! How I would have thrown myself at your feet! But you didn't want me --- you didn't want me for anything except your bed. And you thought that all I wanted from you was your money....
His eyes seared into hers, and in that flash of fire she knew, with a hollowing of her insides, that it was not just his wealth that had overwhelmed her. It had been him --- every inch of him, every pulse of his raw, potent sexuality that could melt her bones, pool her like honey in his arms with a single touch, a single kiss....
The memory of his very first kiss flared in her. He had come back to the gift shop the following evening....
He placed the scarf, loosely folded within the opened wrapping tissue, in front of her.
"Is it faulty?" she asked anxiously.
He gave a caustic smile --- but not at her.
"The wrong color, so I was informed." There was a bite beneath the accent. He was annoyed; she could tell.
"Would you like to exchange it?" she offered. She tried to slow the sudden rapid beating of her heart that had happened the moment he'd walked back into the gift shop. Tried to stop her eyes from just gazing helplessly at him. She'd thought of him all night. Tossing and turning in the narrow bed in the poky flat in the dreary part of London that was all she could afford on her meager wages. His face kept appearing in front of her closed eyes, and she could not banish it. Did not want to. Wanted to keep thinking about it, thinking about him --- dreaming about him.
Now he was here in the gift shop again, in the flesh, and her pulse was racing.
Suddenly, quite abruptly, it slewed to a halt. He picked up the scarf and reached forward. With a casual gesture he draped it around her neck, his fingers lifting her hair free.
She thought she would faint. Her eyes widened helplessly, her breath catching in a little gasp in her throat as she gazed at him.
He smiled down at her. The annoyance was gone. In its place amusement...and speculation.
"On you," he said, the husk in his voice melting her bones, "the color is perfect."
Then, still holding the ends of the scarf, he drew her forward and lowered his head....
His kiss was bliss, his mouth moving with slow appropriation over her lips. There wasn't breath left in her body.
As he let her go he went on smiling down at her.
"Come and have dinner with me," he said.
And she went. Just like that. Without thought, without question. Closing up the shop and following him out into the hotel lobby as meekly as a lamb. The only thing she managed to say, half terrified that it would make him change his mind, was, "I'm not properly dressed!"
He paused and glanced at her neat gray pencil skirt, her crisp white high-necked blouse.
His eyes washed over her, draining even more breath from her.
"You look very...demure." The expression in his eyes changed minutely, and she felt heat flushing through her. "It has its own allure." He nodded imperiously. "Come."
And so it had begun. He had seduced her that very night, wining and dining her in the finest restaurant, where every bite had tasted like ambrosia, then taking her back to the hotel, back up to his suite, removing her crisp white blouse, button by button, slipping her narrow skirt down over her slim hips and slender thighs. And when she had been naked, completely naked, he had taken her to bed --- and paradise. A paradise that had lasted for six exquisite months before the bitter, bitter end had come.
And now, nearly five long years later, a single glance from Leon Andreakos's night-dark eyes could relight the ashes of passion she had thought quenched forever.
Then the flash of fire was gone, and he thrust her from him.
On legs like jelly Alanna stumbled away from him, desperate to escape. Shock was shooting through her, making her heart seize up, her every movement jerky and uncontrolled. How she got out of there she didn't know, but as she gained the escalator lobby, felt the soft carpet give way to the clack of stone beneath her winter boots, she felt as if a tank had just rolled over her. Crushing the life from her.
As she stepped onto the up escalator, clutching the hand rail for support, her whole body still trembling, heart racing, chest heaving, she quite failed to notice a suited, inconspicuous figure following her out of the dress department.
Under clear orders from Leon Andreakos.
Chapter FourLeon Andreakos glanced at the out-of-town address printed on the memo his security agency had forwarded to him, then let the paper drop again.
No, he would not follow it up. Would never again have anything to do with the woman who had destroyed his brother Nikos.
Just Nikos?
The question mocked at him, and he crushed it aside. No, he had not let Alanna Richards destroy him! He had felt nothing for her but desire --- that was all.
She had been his mistress --- that was all.
True, she had been different --- engagingly different --- from his usual female fare. It wasn't just that her natural, unforced beauty had caught his connoisseur's eye the first time he had seen her in that hotel gift shop, or that her wide-eyed gaze had reflected her immediate response to him. It was that usually his mistresses were seductive, sophisticated and very sexually experienced. Alanna had been none of these things.
Oh, there had been some fumbling boy, so he had learned from her faltering lips, who had taken her virginity in a tipsy teenage congress, but all she had learned from the experience was how not to have sex. At his skilled hands she had learned the art of pleasure from a master --- and had proved an apt and ardent pupil. He had enjoyed teaching her --- had enjoyed taking her on that journey to the paradise of the senses, had found, indeed, that she had extended that paradise for him in ways he had never previously experienced.
He had not expected that. He had seduced her simply because her predecessor had foolishly chosen to try to manipulate him, something he never tolerated in a woman, and because Alanna had been such a refreshing contrast.
Memory flickered at him --- how she had gazed in wonder at him, her dark hair a cloud around her lovely face, blue eyes huge, pupils dilated, body trembling whenever he touched her....
Roughly he pushed the memo away from him, and stood up. It hadn't just been him she'd gazed in wonder at, but at the things he'd bought her, too! His mouth tightened. He'd been amused at first --- amused by her stunned reaction to his showering down his wealth on her. Buying her beautiful clothes, taking her to beautiful places, bestowing a luxury lifestyle on her. She had reveled in it, adored it!
A hard light glinted in his dark eyes.
She had become greedy. Wanted more. And hadn't been fussy how she'd got it. First she'd tried to trap him, and then, when he'd made it clear he wasn't about to hand her a lifetime's golden meal ticket, she'd made Nikos her target.
Screwed up, malleable, vulnerable Nikos --- and she'd got her greedy little claws into him and hadn't let go. Not until he had married her. And then she had destroyed him.
Betrayed him within weeks of their wedding --- and it had killed Nikos. Killed his brother...
He thrust the memo unread into his desk drawer and strode out of his office. Seeing Alanna again had been nothing more than chance --- ill chance.
So what if he'd felt, like the blade of a knife, desire stab through him at the sight of her, standing there, as lovely as she ever had been, her hair a cloud around her face, her eyes as wide and as brilliant for him as they had ever been? Making every other woman he'd been with since seem cloying, boring --- pointless.
He would not remember it. Would not remember her. He'd worked her out of his system, and she was gone now. History. She'd taken Nikos's money and had cleared out nearly five long years ago --- and good riddance to her! He would never think about her again.
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Alanna emptied out the washing-up bowl and rinsed round the sink. Then she turned her attention to drying the dishes. Nicky was asleep in bed, tired out from an afternoon spent with his pal Ben at the municipal swimming pool. She gave a fond smile. Money might be punishingly tight, but her son was having a good childhood, for all that. She was making sure of it.
Her smile wavered. Her son would grow up without a father, and although that was increasingly common these days --- look at her friend Maggie, promptly abandoned by her waste-of-space boyfriend the moment she'd told him she was pregnant --- it was a source of perpetual guilt for her. But what kind of father would Nikos have made, even if he'd lived?
She sighed heavily. What was the point of thinking about that? Nikos was dead. And though she would feel responsible for his death to the end of her days, she must not think about the past. It was gone, over. Nikos was dead. And Leon --- Leon might as well be.
Certainly she was dead to him.
Seeing him again like that before Christmas had been traumatic, but she'd gotten over it. She'd gotten over him the first time around. She'd had to --- she'd had no choice. And this time --- three months ago now, since that brief, awful encounter at the department store that had lasted just a couple of minutes, no more --- she'd gotten over that, too. She'd had to. Nothing had changed. Leon Andreakos still hated her.
She felt her heart squeeze the way it used to in those first nightmare months after she'd fled his bed, and went on drying up. She had Nicky. A new life with him. A blessing beyond all grace.
The buzz of the doorbell made her head lift sharply. Who on earth? Not Maggie at this time of night. Ben would be asleep as well. So who?
Cautiously, because although the small block of flats was in a quiet part of town, you could never be too careful these days, she walked down the narrow hallway to the front door. The buzz came again, impatient. Peremptory. She peered through the fish eye, but all she could make out was a man in a suit, face distorted. He seemed respectable, but for all that she opened the door slowly on the chain.
"Alanna?"
Blackness folded over her eyes.
The voice --- deep, accented.
"Alanna, open up."
Not a request. An order. A hand, large, square, long-fingered, pressed insistently against his side of the door.
Like a zombie she opened the door to him. To Leon Andreakos.
She stared at him blankly.
"What are you doing here?"
Her voice was a thread.
His eyes, so dark --- condemning --- looked down at her. No expression.
But in their depths, something she had not seen for an eternity of lonely nights.
Desire.
He stepped inside. She couldn't stop him. Felt her knees buckling. He saw her reaction and a smile slashed across his face. Cynical. Mocking.
But it was not her he was mocking. It was himself.
He looked down at her, his eyes filled with a dark fire.
She stood there, completely incapable of movement. Silently, saying not a word, he slid his hand around her neck, stroking the nape softly with the tips of his fingers, his other hand drawing her against his long, lean body, his hand hard on her spine.
Sensation, like a hot flood, drenched through her.
"I still want you ---" said Leon Andreakos as he lowered his mouth to hers.
For an instant, so brief it scarcely existed, she tried to resist. Then she gave a moan, low in her throat, and was lost.
Arousal surged through Leon. Thee mou, but he wanted her! Wanted the feel of her lissome body pressed against him, wanted the warmth of her mouth opened to him, wanted to knead and stroke those soft, rounded breasts...
He'd tried not to want her. Tried for three months to not think about her --- not to remember her. But seeing her again like that, out of the blue, had relit a flame he'd thought he'd doused five long years ago as he lowered his brother into his untimely grave.
And the flame was burning now, searing through him, firing his blood. Alanna Richards had destroyed his brother, but right now he didn't care. He would have her one more time.
Right now.
Chapter FiveAlanna was drowning, drowning in bliss, in sensation, as Leon possessed her mouth with his. Conscious thought had gone, submerged totally in this flood of hot, hungry desire that was consuming her very soul. Oh, after so long, so long, she had Leon again in her arms, wrapping him against her, pressing against his hard, muscled body, yielding her mouth to his as he plundered its sweetness, fingers spearing into her hair. Her hips strained forward, feeling with shocked excitement his instant response to her stimulus.
There were no words, none. How could there be words? she thought as her body took her over, yielding to what it so desperately longed to do --- recover what had been lost so long ago....
His hand was moving to her waist, sliding between their tight-pressed bodies, seeking the zipper on her jeans. He was moving her, moving her backward --- "Where?" It was all he said, hardly lifting his mouth from hers.
"In here." The words gasped from her, and she let him steer her into her darkened bedroom.
It was insanity, madness. She had to stop him --- she had to! She had to stop herself....
But she could not. A power greater than she could resist possessed her.
Silently, without words, only with touch, he stripped the clothes from her, tumbled her down upon the bed.
"I have to have you."
The words grated from him. And in the dark, without words, only with touch --- hot, hungry touch --- he took her.
Fire scorched through them, urging them to wild, wanton consummation. His possession was total, absolute. Her passion total, absolute. The whiteout of desire blinding them both, convulsing their bodies in one final, extreme urgency of ultimate sensation.
She cried out, smothering her cry in his shoulder, nails digging into his back without volition, only with need, absolute need. He surged within her one last time, head lifting, eyes blinded, for one long, endless moment that held eternity in it.
Then he lay, still and heavy, on her panting, exhausted body.
Her heart pounded, and slowly, very slowly, she realized what she had done. But before she even put mental thought to the emotion that now sluiced through her like a cold draft, he had thrown himself back off her, lying staring up into the dark. She could feel his bare arm against her arm, he was still that close --- but as distant as the stars.
He said something in Greek that she did not understand. Then, in English this time, he said, "I'll set you up in a flat in London. I'll have to be discrete about you this time around. Even my father must not know that I've taken you back --- let alone my mother."
His voice was harsh.
Bile rose in her throat. Horror at what she had just let happen. Disbelief that it had happened. And beneath the horror and the disbelief her body still throbbed, uncaring of anything but itself, its own needs and demands.
Hating herself, her body, she rolled jerkily to her side, swinging her legs to the ground and pushing herself upright. A hand shot out, imprisoning the hand she was using to lever herself up.
"Let me go!" Her voice was low, hissing.
He gave a grating laugh.
"I cannot! There is no question of it. Understand that. You should never have let me see you again. I have fought this for three months --- and I have lost. I will take you back, make you my mistress again!"
There was a choking sound in her throat.
"You're insane!"
He laughed again. She turned round to look at him. In the dim light the planes of his face were etched starkly. His eyes blazed with a black light.
"Yes," he acknowledged, "I am. Insane to want you like this --- insane to take you back. After everything you did to me. And yet I do, God help me. I want you --- greedy, treacherous, faithless --- but I don't care! You destroyed my brother, and I don't care! He wasn't even cold in his grave when you ran, taking all his money with you. And I don't care!"
His other hand snaked around her waist, hauling her down against him. Every muscle in his body was tensed, she could tell, and so were hers. His eyes burned into hers. "You looked so demure that first time I saw you ---I had to teach you everything. So how is it, how, that you do this to me?" His hand moved, splaying down over the smooth curve of her hip, starting to caress her.
This time she found the strength to pull away. For a moment, so brief, he resisted the attempt. Then, abruptly, he let her go. She got to her feet unsteadily, horribly conscious of her nakedness --- his.
"I want you to go," she said in a shaky husk. "Just get out. Go!"
He stood up. Totally unconcerned by his nudity, his superb body glistening in the half light. She felt her insides turn over and jolted backward with a step. His eyes glanced dismissively around the small bedroom and into the narrow hallway beyond.
"You've sunk low," said Leon, his dismissive glance coming back. "You must have blown Nikos's money in a big way to be reduced to this dump. Well, I'll bank roll you again, but ---"
"Get out!" Her voice was a shriek. She groped for her clothes, finding her baggy sweatshirt and pulling it over her head. It came down to mid-thigh, concealing the essentials.
As for Leon, he simply started to dress again as calmly as if nothing had happened.
"You always were greedy for Andreakos money," he said, his tone almost conversational, as Alanna stood there, heart pounding, limbs trembling and emotion bucketing through her like a hurricane.
How could he be doing this to her? How? She was over him, over. But he'd walked in and without a word taken her to bed....
She started to shiver, but not with cold. Disbelief was washing through her just as his words --- so cruel, so hateful --- were washing over her.
"You'll have an allowance but nothing more," he was saying as he shrugged on the shirt she had all but torn off him. "I'll be generous --- but don't even think of getting more out of me this time around! Tell me ---" he jerked his head up and looked at her across the bed, as he calmly did up his cuffs "--- just how long did it take you to spend Nikos's money? One year? Two? Or has it only just run out? Was that why you'd gone clothes shopping that day when I saw you? To tart yourself up again so you could catch another sucker at a Christmas party? Looks like you didn't get lucky...."
The sneer was open, and suddenly, quite suddenly, Alanna's shaking stopped. In its place anger, raw and vehement, burned through her. She whirled around, flicked on the bedside lamp, then yanked open a wardrobe door and tugged out a large cardboard box from the base. Thrusting her hand inside, she pulled free an envelope with a letter still inside.
She hurled it at Leon.
"Read it!" she snarled. "Go on, read it!"
With a faint frown he picked up the envelope, pulling out the letter and opening it up.
She watched his face change. His eyes snapped to hers. The letter dropped from nerveless fingers to the bed, the printed heading from the famous London's children's hospital quite visible.
"You gave it away. You gave Nikos's money away."
His voice was blank.
She stood, chest heaving still.
Then, into the absolute silence between them, another sound was heard from beyond the bedroom.
"Mummy!"
Shock etched Leon's face.
Chapter SixAs Nicky's plaintive cry came again, Alanna galvanized into action. She hurried from the room, intent only on reaching Nicky. Her yelling must have woken him. Panic started to engulf her. She had to get Leon out of the flat. Had to get rid of him totally. She'd been an idiot to throw that letter at him from the hospital thanking her for so magnificent a donation --- but something had snapped inside her as he'd rained down such vile insults on her head. But Nicky calling out was an even worse disaster.
Nicky was sitting up in bed, half distressed at being woken, still half sleepy. She sat down on the bed and cuddled him up to her, sheltering him from view.
"It's all right, darling, just lie down and go to sleep again. It was just something noisy on the telly, that's all."
But Nicky was craning his neck to try to stare over her shoulder.
She heard something in Greek behind her and froze. Then heavy tread across the shabby carpet.
"You have a child?"
She didn't let go of Nicky and kept her back to Leon.
"Yes." Her teeth were gritted, stomach hollowing with fear. "I met...someone else. My --- my son is three. Just turned three."
Her voice was strained. Would Leon believe her?
Nicky was squirming in her arms, defying her attempt to lay him back down again.
"Who's that man?" he demanded.
"Just someone visiting Mummy. Lie down, poppet." Desperately she urged him back down on the pillow, but he struggled upright.
"I'm not a poppet," he said distinctly, "I'm Nicky. And I'm not three, Mummy. I'm four!"
There was a rasp, a sharp intake of breath behind her, and then the room flooded with light. She blinked, blinded by the brightness. Footsteps, rapid, urgent, a hand on her shoulder, pulling her away from her son so that his face was visible.
His face --- with his dark, Andreakos eyes, his black hair, his Mediterranean skin tone. Only the shape of his face was hers.
"Thee mou ---"
Leon's voice shook. His brother's eyes looked up at him out of his nephew's face.
\*
Alanna stirred the coffee in her mug round and round with the teaspoon. She wanted to drink it, was desperate for the caffeine --- desperate for anything that might act upon her savaged nerves --- but it was too hot. On the far side of the kitchen table, palms square on the surface, leaning menacingly toward her, Leon loomed like an unholy presence.
Alanna hunched into her chair.
"Give me one good reason why you hid him! One!"
His voice cut at her, and the teaspoon jerked in her grip.
One good reason? She could give him a dozen!
"I'd have thought it was obvious," she said tightly. She lifted her eyes, like dead weights, to Leon's.
He was glaring down at her. There was anger in his face --- but more, much more. She could not tell what it was. She had never seen such emotions in him before. She was used to only three emotions: amusement, enjoying her naïveté as he had at the beginning of their relationship when she'd been so impressed by him and the world he lived in; alternating with desire, when his eyes had taken on an expression she learned to know well, sending tremors through her, liquefying her.
And then, at the end, anger. Nothing but anger.
Anger that had slain her.
It was slaying her again...but this time she had an answer. The only one she could give.
"Do you think," she said leadenly, "that it would have been good news? Knowing that I left Greece pregnant? Do you?"
Something flashed in his eyes. Then it was gone.
"It would have been consolation to my parents ---"
She gave a harsh, ugly laugh.
"Fine consolation! With me as their grandson's mother?"
"They'll accept you. For their grandson's sake."
Her mouth fell open as the import of what he had just said hit her.
"What do you mean --- they will accept me?"
His lips pressed together.
"We shall be flying to Greece without delay."
Alanna stared.
"Are you mad?" Her voice was hollow.
"Are you mad," he echoed harshly, "to imagine I will leave my nephew here, to be raised in this dump?"
"There's nothing wrong with this flat! It's clean and in a quiet part of town! It's all I could afford once I'd ---"
Her voice broke off.
Another emotion worked in Leon's face. He stood up.
"Why did you do it, Alanna?" There was something strange about his voice.
She shut her eyes, then opened them again. She looked at Leon but did not see him. Saw only the tormented face of his brother --- her husband. Who had married her to save her --- and himself.
And doomed them both.
"How could I keep it?" she answered brokenly, staring down into her coffee, unable to keep looking at Leon.
A sound like a rasp came from his throat.
"How? Very easily I imagine! It's what you married him for --- his money!"
Her fingers tightened on the teaspoon. She lifted her head.
"For financial security --- and I kept enough to ensure that!"
His mouth tightened, and he glanced involuntarily around the little kitchen at the old fashioned appliances, which she was not able to afford to replace, and the worn vinyl flooring.
She met his eyes. "I'd been poor before, Leon," she said quietly. "It wasn't so hard to go back to being poor. And Nicky is having a good childhood --- I don't have to work; I can be with him all the time. This is a decent suburb; he's having a normal life. I know it's not normal by your standards, but for most of the population this is perfectly adequate. When he goes to school I'll start working, and that will bring in more money as Nicky grows older."
"And when he asks for his father?"
The question was harsh --- her answer strained.
"Many children now have no fathers. There's no stigma."
His brows drew together. He looked formidable suddenly, and she felt a tremor go through her.
"Stigma? Why should there be a stigma in being the son of my brother --- and his wife?"
Her fingers clenched. "I --- I meant..." Her voice trailed off.
Leon's eyes rested on her like weights.
"The point is irrelevant. All that is relevant is that the child needs a father --- and he will have one."
Her gaze stretched, uncomprehendingly.
"He will have me," said Leon. "As his stepfather I will adopt him, and he will grow up as my son. And you ---" a sardonic note entered his voice "--- you will attain the very goal you once longed for. You will be my wife after all!"
As he spoke, every last shred of color drained from her face.
The dream she had once had so long ago had just turned into a nightmare.
Chapter Seven"You don't mean that --- you can't." Alanna's voice was faint.
Shock was starting to take over --- shock upon shock. She couldn't cope, not with what had happened in the space of less than an hour....
An hour ago her life had been normal. Now Leon Andreakos had stormed back into her life, demanding her body. And her child. She had given him the former...but could she do the latter?
Leon rested dark, implacable eyes on her as she sat at the kitchen table, her coffee cooling in front of her.
"But I do. I will raise my brother's son as my own." His expression changed. "Why this show of reluctance? I am granting you what you dreamed of --- I'm making you my wife."
"That dream ended a long time ago when I realized what a fool I'd been."
His mouth tightened. "A fool to think you could trap me into marriage. So that you could spend even more of my money." His hand slashed through the air. "But enough! As my wife, as my nephew's mother, you will be treated accordingly. And at least ---" his eyes filled with an expression she knew well, one that made the breath catch in her throat, her limbs quicken "--- I know that in bed we shall be as good as we always were...."
She got to her feet, sharply pushing her chair back.
"No, I'm not marrying you. Never!"
He leaned back in his chair --- he seemed unconcerned.
"Then you will face a custody battle that will make you wish you had never been born."
She swayed.
"No court will take him from his mother!" Her voice came out high pitched with fear.
His face hardened. "Do you think your past makes for edifying reading? You were my pampered mistress for six months! You lapped up everything I gave you --- greedy for more. You were prepared to conceive a child purely to force me to marry you. And when I called your bluff, you eloped with my twenty-two-year-old brother to try the same trick on him. You knew full well he'd already had years of psychiatric treatment, but all you cared about was persuading him to marry you and get you pregnant. And within a month --- a month --- of marrying him he found you with another man! A man so depraved he drew a knife on Nikos and used it."
"He died, too," she whispered, her voice a thread. "They died together, falling down the stairs as they struggled...."
Sickness was washing over her, wave after wave, as the nightmare vision returned and she witnessed again in her head that hideous, terrifying struggle at the top of the long flight of stone stairs in Nikos's house in Athens. Heard her voice, screaming, screaming...
"I should never have married him...." Guilt crushed her. "That's why I gave his money away.... Nikos died because of me. I had no right to his money."
She turned away.
Hands came over her shoulders, heavy, yet not hard.
"Did bearing his child make you realize what you had done? Did it finally put some shred of morality into you? Some fragment of remorse?"
There was that same strange note in Leon's voice as when she had shown him the letter from the children's hospital.
He turned her around, lifting her chin to look at him. His face was somber.
"You cannot deprive Nikos's son of his birthright because of your guilt. He has a right to the life he would have had, had Nikos lived. And Nicky --- Nicky has a right to a father, Alanna. I will be a father to him. Your guilt has made you run, hide. But it has to stop now. You must see that."
His words had drained the color from her face, the breath from her body. His dark eyed bored into hers as if he would see into the heart of her.
She felt immobile, as if too much had happened too soon. Too many emotions, too much feeling --- emotions that Leon couldn't, mustn't discover --- draining from her all present capacity for feeling more right now.
He spoke, measuring each word.
"I do not offer you forgiveness; I cannot be that generous, but you should know that I understand why you sought sex with another man."
She stilled, tensing all through her body.
"You do?" She dared not ask, but breathed the question at him.
He nodded. The self-mocking look was back in his eye, as if he almost hated himself.
"I taught you passion in my arms --- you did not find it in my brother's. He was, I know...inept...with women. After what we shared you would not have found him...satisfying."
A shadow passed in her eye, and she looked away.
"Do you deny it?" he demanded. He turned her face back toward him. "Then you lie --- to me, to yourself." Long fingers stroked her cheek, and she felt her heart give a crazy lurch. "Five years since I last possessed you," he said in a low voice, "and the flame burns as strongly as ever it did. And now ---" his mouth lowered, grazing over her lips, and she felt her spine dissolve "--- it can keep burning. Marriage," he breathed, as his mouth moved on hers again, "is the perfect answer. Nicky gets a father, you get the wealth you always craved and I ---" he opened her mouth, deepening his kiss, folding her against his body "--- I get you."
\*
"In you go!"
Nicky squealed with glee as Leon settled him in beside him in the miniature train. His uncle pulled down the safety bar and put his arm around his shoulder.
"We're off!" he exclaimed as the ride began.
Alanna stood behind the railing, watching the little train moving slowly at first, then gathering speed as it raced up the incline through the "mountain" to twist and turn and loop back round and round.
Spring sunshine bathed the theme park in fresh light, the newly budded leaves on the trees and bushes telling of winter's end and the summer to come. Warm days. An end to chill and loneliness.
She felt strange, unreal. Welling with an emotion that threatened to overspill, flood right through her life. Three days had passed since Leon had arrived at her door --- but it might have been three months or three years.
He had stayed the night, taking her back to bed, caressing away every last shred of resistance until she was melting honey in his arms. And he had slept with her afterward, holding her tight against him as if he feared she might run away in the night, taking Nicky with her....
But she had not run. Had watched, heart full, as Nicky had come into the bedroom in the morning, demanding to know why "that man" was still there. And Leon had sat up and had made Alanna sit up, too, with his arm around her shoulder and had invited Nicky --- and the teddy bear he was clutching --- to sit on the bed beside them because he had something to tell him.
And she had watched, wide-eyed, emotions keyed up so tight that she could hardly breathe, as Leon had told him he was his father's brother, and he would like to marry his mother and take them both to Greece to meet his grandparents and stay in a house with a swimming pool....
Nicky had listened, dark eyes huge.
"A swimming pool?" he had breathed, unable to believe such good fortune.
Leon had nodded.
"Are we going today?" Nicky had asked, eager to be off on such an amazing adventure.
"Today we are going to London. I am going to buy a ring for your mother, so we can be married soon, and get a passport for you, so you can come to Greece." He had turned to Alanna. "I take it he needs a passport? Alanna?"
His voice had changed. She had been sitting there against the pillows, staring at them, emotion working in her eyes.
He had touched her cheek. "It will be all right," he had murmured.
The softness in his voice had nearly undone her.
Then Nicky had recalled his attention. "Are you going to eat breakfast with us?" he had asked. "I eat toast for breakfast. Made with brown bread," he'd added virtuously.
Leon had grinned at him.
"You will grow up strong and healthy!"
Nicky had grinned back, well pleased with such a notion.
Now Alanna watched the pair of them twist and turn on the ride, Nicky shouting with laughter and Leon, too.
Something clutched at her heart.
I have to do this, she thought. I did not ask for it. It came to me, unasked. I will suffer --- but it does not matter. Only Nicky matters.
The bond between Nicky and Leon had been instant. Instinctive. There had been no shyness, no reticence. Nicky had simply enfolded Leon into his life --- and let Leon enfold him into his.
As she watched them bonding so instantly, her heart had crushed and had known a rightness, a relief that told her there could be no other way. Nicky needed Leon --- deserved him.
And she knew, with a kind of overwhelming inevitability, that there was one more secret she would have to tell him.
Whatever it cost her.
She prayed for strength. Strength to endure the love she still felt for Leon Andreakos, would feel till the end of her days --- a man who did not love her. Who never had. Who never could.
But who must love Nicky....
Chapter EightAlanna stared at the pearls in their velvet case as she sat in the wide leather seat of the executive jet winging toward Athens.
"Let me put them on you." There was a husk in Leon's voice.
"No --- no, there's no need. They're exquisite, I can see." Her voice was strained.
"What's wrong, Alanna? You used to love my giving you jewelry."
The husk had gone. There was only sharpness now. And questioning.
She lifted her head to look at him.
"Perhaps I've outgrown my greed at last," she answered.
He stilled. "And perhaps," he answered back slowly, "you were never as greedy as I thought you. Perhaps I never realized how deprived a life you'd led. Never realized ---" his expression changed "--- how unreal my wealth was to you."
"I was like a kid in a candy store," she said, and her eyes slipped away from him, looking out over the cloudscape, remembering, "being handed the most fabulous sweets in the shop by Prince Charming himself. I didn't --- I didn't mean to be greedy...but I was. I took everything you gave me and reveled in it."
She swallowed, a hard knot in her throat, and looked back at him, straight in the eye. "But I won't be greedy any more. So please...please don't give me jewels. I'm only your wife for Nicky's sake; I know that. I...won't --- won't...presume, Leon. I learned that lesson a long time ago."
She felt her emotions swell and stood up.
"I --- I just want to check on Nicky. Make sure he's all right."
She hurried off to the sleeping cabin at the rear of the plane where an exhausted Nicky slept after the excitement of his mother's wedding to his wonderful new Uncle Leon. Alanna's throat tightened.
I've got to tell Leon, she thought. I've got to tell him about Nicky. The truth...
As soon as the ordeal of meeting Leon's parents is over...
\*
Leon stared after her. He felt his heart scrape. He had married for Nicky's sake, but not just for him, he knew.
Alanna --- so soft in his arms, glowing with passion. Hungry for him. Starving...
It was like it had been at the beginning, but it was more. She felt remorse, he knew --- had given away Nikos's money, raising Nicky on a pittance.
She'd had the guts, the courage to do that....
And even now, as his bride, she only wanted him to spend his money on Nicky.
His heart squeezed. Nicky --- the child of his heart, even if not of his loins. He was drawn to him by a love that had been instant, all consuming.
And Alanna came with him, the little boy he loved already....
Alanna...
His heart squeezed again.
I will make this marriage work! Thee mou but I will do so!
\*
As tense as a board, holding Nicky's hand, Alanna stood as Leon's parents hurried toward them across the huge, ornate drawing room of the Andreakos mansion in Athens.
What if they rejected Nicky for being her son? The woman they blamed for Nikos's death.
There was a volley of excited Greek, and then Leon's father scooped up Nicky, hugging him close.
In wonder, Alanna saw tears on his cheeks. And then his wife was there, kissing Nicky, calling herself his Ya-ya who loved him already and forever.
Champagne was uncorked, fizzing lemonade for Nicky, more Greek, more exclamations, and then, suddenly, switching to English, Leon's mother turned to her.
"Oh, my dear, how you have suffered for our sakes! But now we beg your forgiveness for the wrong we did you when Nikos died."
The room went completely and utterly silent.
Then, into the silence, Leon's father spoke.
"Nicky, come and see the swimming pool."
Happily, Nicky put his hand into his grandfather's and was led away. Leon's mother paused. Her eyes were huge.
She touched Alanna's wrist. Her voice full of emotion.
"We never knew the truth about my poor Nikos...till recently. The son of a friend let it slip. And when we knew the truth, we understood. Understood why he died. That it was not your fault! But Leon, Leon does not know. You must tell him, my child, so that he may have the happiness that he, too, deserves --- as you deserve yours."
She kissed Alanna and followed her husband and her grandson from the room.
As the door clicked behind her, Leon spoke.
"Tell me what? What do I not know about Nikos?"
She moved away from him. Shock was still buckling through her.
"Tell me!" The urgency in Leon's voice demanded an answer.
She swallowed. His parents wanted her to tell him. Tell him the secret she had promised Nikos she would keep for ever --- as she had.
Until now.
She took a deep, shuddering breath.
"Nikos was gay," she said. "And terrified of it, of discovery. That's why he had so much psychiatric treatment. He married me to hide it. On --- on the night that he died, the man who came to the house was not my lover. He was Nikos's. He came in a jealous rage, demented that Nikos had married. After --- after they had both died in each other's arms, I could not add to your parents' grief, to yours, by telling what I had promised Nikos never to tell...."
"So you let us think the man was your lover and took the blame for Nikos's death." Leon's voice fell like a tolling bell.
"It was all that I could do. I felt so guilty...."
"Guilty! What cause was there for you to feel guilty?"
She shut her eyes, then opened them.
"Because I knew I should never have married him, despite his pleas. He begged me --- that morning, when he came to your apartment, and discovered..."
She broke off.
"Discovered what?" Leon's eyes burned into hers.
"Discovered I was leaving you."
He stared.
"Leaving me? You left me to marry Nikos!"
Slowly she shook her head.
"No. I was leaving you anyway." She looked him in the eye and told him her heart's secret, hidden for so long. "I --- I'd fallen in love with you, Leon. I dreamed, like an idiot, of being your wife one day. But you only wanted me to be your mistress. I...couldn't bear it. I'm sorry."
There was silence all around them. In a grating voice, Leon spoke.
"Why not tell me you loved me?"
Alanna gave a bitter, hollow laugh.
"You'd just told me not to think of getting pregnant to extract a wedding ring from you. I didn't think you'd be interested in hearing that I was in love with you."
"I thought you married Nikos for his money, but when you inherited it you gave it away. So that was not the reason, was it?"
Now. Tell him now! The final secret!
She took a breath. Then, his expression as tormented as if the devils of hell were taunting him, he spoke.
"If Nikos was gay, how did you conceive Nicky?" His eyes were bleak, but understanding began to dawn in them. "You were already pregnant --- by me. And you dared not tell me because I'd warned you not to get pregnant! So you married my brother to be the father to Nicky you thought I would not be."
His face was broken, ravaged. Pain clutched at Alanna. She ran to him, catching his hands.
"I should have told you --- trusted you to be a father to Nicky, even if you never married me, never loved me! And you had every reason to think me greedy, mercenary, wanting your money."
"You've proved to me you are not in love with money. Giving Nikos's wealth away and living in poverty," he ground out. "My distrust of you drove you away. I lost both you and my son."
His bitter self-accusation lacerated her.
She swallowed. "Seeing you with Nicky shows me how wrong I was to keep him from you. You love him dearly already! As for me ---" she took a breath "--- I will be as good a wife to you as I can, and not...bother you with my feelings."
He stared at her. "Are you telling me," he said in a slow, disbelieving voice, "that you are still in love with me...after all I did to you?"
She gave a painful smile. "Love isn't something you turn on or off. It's just...there. But I won't annoy you with it, I promise you."
Something changed in his eyes. For the first time since his mother had dropped her bombshell, Alanna saw them lighten.
More than lighten. Gleam.
His hold on her hands loosened, and he brought each hand up to his lips and kissed them. The tension in his shoulders eased.
"You may...annoy me with your love any time you want, Alanna mou. For it is a gift to me I do not deserve and can only wonder at."
Something moved in his face, an expression that suddenly made Alanna's heart skip a beat. Then, drawing her hands against his heart, he lowered his mouth to hers.
The kiss was light and sweet and healing.
As he drew back, he spoke.
"When I thought it was my money you loved, not me, I was hurt, angry. It made me lash out when you married Nikos, and when he died I turned my feelings for you into hatred --- but they were never that. Never that. And now..." He took a deep, shuddering breath. "Now you have given me a second chance and two most precious, precious gifts. My son and your heart. And I will treasure them both all my days for as long as I live, my sweet, beloved wife, my own one. My dearest love."
Tears welled in her eyes, and her heart swelled with wonder and joy. He kissed away her tears, cradling her against him for long moments. Then, setting her back, he took her hand.
"Let us find our son --- and our new life together."
She went with him, her hand, trustingly, in his, radiant with joy.
The End

