schizoaffective disorde
"It's a miracle for someone else to feel better (which I'm happy they do) but it does not work to me. I feel empty these days with lack of motivation to do anything. My hallucinations and voices don't go away that easy. I still find myself seeing shadows and hearing voices telling me words that aren't real. I'm not worried about the weight gain I just want the hallucinations and hearing voices to go away. I am diagnosed with schizoaffective which now make me doubt about it. My mood is stable (how others see on the outside) normal to everyone but it like putting myself to sleep and becomes even slow. aripiprazole was bad for me as it made me feel restless and suicidal."