depression
"I was depressed and sad with no motivation. I had suffered several losses and could not seem to recover. Developed anxiety.  I just wanted to be my carefree busy self again. My Dr gave me 100mg Welbutrin.  I took it for a few weeks and felt just weird, not better.  My Dr suggested I double the dose.  ! I took 200mg and immediately felt suicidal. My bf had to restrain me from jumping out the window or slicing my throat. The mist awful feeling of my life. But I learned that compared to that feeling, I wasn't that depressed and I went on trazadone for sleeping issues. Helped greatly. As  well as strenuous exercise an hour a day.  I'm sure some meds work, but I feel as if you are playing Russian Roulette with your life."