<prompt> Human: Since I graduated high school, six years ago; I have done nothing with my life. I have tried, over and over, to get a job. I have applied to some of the same places again and again. Nothing. All since 2010...Ive had jobs in the past, working for, or with, family, but those werent actual jobs. I got paid from their pockets.A couple years back; I had worked with a family member as an assistant of sorts. That was my most recent job, and I never would have gotten it if family wouldnt have hired me as their extra set of hands... The pay was nice and I felt like I had purpose. I was making my own money again and was actually doing something. Something positive. That job ended, and I havent had a job since.I have checked out a couple of the colleges. I dont have a car. So, I have no way to go. No one has the time to take me back and forth. I cant afford anything. I know Id really struggle with my ADD, which Im not medicated for, and my serious, heavy problems with math. I also have no real direction. Nothing that I can do that Im interested in. My confidence in myself, in my abilities, is basically shit. And Im far too stressed and far too depressed to even think about tackling college. I couldnt handle it.Something happened to me last year that has really turned my world upside down, and has put me into a much darker place and an extremely unsafe state of mind. It has really warped me into a horrible person. My family doesnt know about it, but they can tell something is wrong and that I have changed, as much as I have tried to hide it all.I cant afford to go see a therapist, and I know that is a necessity. I really need to; if I am to get anywhere. I know I cant put myself into a normal work setting, with the public, and expect things to go smoothly. My temper and patience have gone to shit, especially with assholes, and I know what Im capable of when Im pushed, now. I dont need that. My family doesnt need that. The public doesnt need that. I need a job where I dont have to worry about the public like that. And I have tried to apply, but I keep meeting rejection or just silence.I feel extremely useless and nonessential, to be completely honest.Im secretly doing dishonestviolent things, only to dishonest people, every now and then, for a little money. But its not even worth it. Small amounts that vary from 20 to 50. Rarely 50, and oftentimes, just short of 20. I dont do it often, so I mostly only make money like that once every other month. And no; Im not stealing or selling my body. I could never do that. But Im sure that someday soon, especially if I keep doing the things I am doing; itll all catch up to me. Someone might finally report me. I might get arrested; end up in jail or prison. Or, someone I encounter may try to kill me, because they feel sore about what Ive done. And to be completely honest; I dont care too much about either of those happening. I deserve to be incarcerated. And with the way I feel every day; death doesnt worry me, and is welcome. But I dont want to hurt my family. I dont want them to find out about my criminal activity, especially like that, even though they suspect something is up, because they know Im jobless and I keep magically pulling cash out of thin air.I have too many problems and I too damn young and jobless to be this damn stressed and depressed.I dont do drugs. I have no habits. I couldnt afford them, if I did. Ive never been in trouble with the law. No arrests. No convictions. And I know you may doubt this, because of what I said earlier, but I am actually a good person, mostly. I just dont take shit from anyone, and have a very low tolerance for assholes. Ive never done anything wrong to anyone that didnt deserve it.I could really use some advice other than: Get a job. Keep trying til you get one. Get a car. You need to do something.... All of that is obvious. I know I need to do those things, but its not that simple.I just dont know what to do or how to do it. I just need a job that I can actually do, so that I can save up money for everything that needs to be done, so I can afford therapy to become a functioning member of society, so that I can get into college, so that I can get my life up and running, so that I can actually have a purpose.  <response>: What violent things are you doing for money? 