<prompt> Human: I dropped out of collegestopped going to classes on 3 separate occasions. I quit two jobs that had promoted me with 0 notice. I moved across my state for half a year and lived with a random guy from craigslist all the while ignoring my family and friends. I could make up excuses for all of this but theyd just be excuses. I fucked up my life continually for no good reason. The first time I quit college I had a full ride scholarship for vocal peeformance.Despite all of this my parents went above and beyond to give me a fresh start and make my life better. They spent 6,000 on a car and 55,000 on a manufactured home for me to stay in. My sister helped get me a starting position where she works at 13.00 an hour. It has benefits and room for growth without a degree. My budget currently is tight but not impossible and I have room to save. My biggest problem right now is getting over the fact that I dont deserve any of this because I dont. Im scared that if I fuck any of this up I wont be able to live with myself, yet alone face my parents.I cant let them or myself down anymore. I wont. I absolutely refuse. Im not sure why I made this, I think I want to be yelled at honestly or be told how important this is for my life. Im just beyond grateful for such an opportunity and I hope someday I can learn to really love and respect myself again.  <response>: The post above is absolutely true. I went through a very similar thing. I still am. Ive been seeing a therapist and have been diagnosed and at least now were attacking my issues and im actually seeing results. I still lapse into days or weeks of unproductiveness but its better than it was 