<prompt> Human: Hey, Fuck Up here. Background stuff: Feel free to skip this if you want but come back once you realize what a dumb ass I am. Was 4th year CS major, doing great, rocking a full course load with As while interning at a Fortune500 company doing something I loved with a long line of interviews lined up ahead of me. I was a NSF Fellow with 2 different professors actively grooming me to become their PhD student. Then I got dumped on my ass. I wont go into the details but I took it hard. Lost all drive. Dropped out, but not before failing everything twice in a row maybe three times in a row it was kinda a hazy blur Got fired from internship. Coasting on student loans. Got kicked me out of school. Slummed it hard and became homeless in a exploiting my friends in a couch surfy way for years. Had a windfall. Bought a cheap old house in the country, cash on the barrel. Got a job. have found a bit stable now. And now... They found me and they want their money back. The details: Income: 30K Debt: 42K Expenses: Next to none. Maybe 500 in total between food gas, phone and internet. And yeah, that could be trimmed some, for sure. Thats not really my problem as I seem to have plenty left over. Liquid assets: Maybe 5K in the bank.The Problem:One side of my brain is telling me to buy the things that you have gone without for 7 years: pants, dishes pot and pans, socks and underwear. And Im ok with that to a degree, like, getting the essentials and all that. My problem is that now my definition of essential is drifting. Whats that you say? New couch? I do kinda need one... I can see my definition of need drifting but cant seem to stop it from doing so. And its that which is freaking me out. How do I stop from wanting?Shit, maybe this should be in rbuddhism or something. Anyhow, if you have any advice, I would value hearing it.Thanks.  <response>: So you make money and have very few expenses. Sounds like you need to start writing some checks. 