<prompt> Human: Three months ago, my financial situation changed drastically. My contract was unable to be renewed at my previous job due to my supervisor discovering he had bone cancer, so I was forced to get a new one. Because I take adderall, and my new job is in a medical field, so it took some extra time to process my drug test, which resulted in me having to three weeks from the end of my old job to starting my new job. I had 500 saved up just to deal with something like this, but then my cat got sick, which devoured the 500 I had saved up, along with my car insurance 172, and groceries. So I was late for my December rent 500, plus 150 for utilities, and Wells Fargo Dealer Services made a payment plan for my December car payment 215.00 which resulted in me having to take three slightly smaller car payments in the month of January, which I didnt have the money for, but I skipped eating a couple meals, and managed to make it work, but it made my January rent late. On top of that mess, I had to close my bank account because of some fraudulent activity, on the same day my bank was robbed, so when I went to go open my new account, I discovered that my bank was closed for the week. So I went a week January 20th-27th without a bank account, and no way to cash my paycheck because no one would cash it with a fraud report on my old account. I called my land lord to explain, which resulted in him yelling at me and telling me I would be evicted if I didnt quit trying to weasel my way out of paying my fair share. Also since December, Ive become saddled two credit card bills I have to pay right now, which are a minimum of 43 a month and 57, plus a vet bill that is 45 a month.Now to get to the major issue, I only make about 1400 a month right now. Maybe a little more if my supervisors are feeling generous. Ive been looking desperately for any kind of 2nd job or any way of making money on the side but nothing has really helped. Ive been selling some of my clothes, shoveling drive ways when it snows, offering to clean houses etc, but the amount I make from that doesnt really do much. Its maybe 40 a month, at best. So, my expenses are Rent: 500Utilities: used to be 150, until landlord dropped 725 utility bill on meCar payment: 212Carrenters Insurance: 172Vet Bill: 85Credit Card: 95Car Credit Card: 77adderall: 15Therapy: 45Gas: 40Cats medication: 50And everything else goes to food and my cats food. And this isnt even getting into the endless amount of medical bills I have that I cant even imagine paying right now or my student loans, which are on an income based repayment plan where they dont charge me at the moment. So adding to all of this even more, my landlord decided to drop a 725 utility bill on me, accumulated over the 7 months Ive lived here. Up until this point they have been charging me 150 for the utilities every month, based on an estimation from the previous tenants monthly bills. In my lease it says I am responsible for half of the utilities, but at no point over the last few months was I informed a change in priced of the utilities, or that my 150 wasnt enough. I was just told about this yesterday after we had an issue with my check bouncing because Im a fucking idiot. I paid them right away over the phone once I found out the checked bounced.I cant even stand to answer my phone anymore because Im getting so many calls from bill collectors and debt collectors, and I have no way to pay them. Im afraid to even buy food. Im terrified to pay these people, because I know once I give them money something else will happen and my account with my over drawn and Ill have to pay that which I cant fucking afford. And then theres my cats special diet that costs me 37 a bag, but I cant afford that, because Im a shitty cat owner on top of being a shitty person in general who cant fucking take care of herself. Guys, literally the only thing stopping me from killing myself right now is knowing my cat would have no one to take care of him. What makes this even worse is I know there are people in way worse situations that me, so I feel fucking pathetic for feeling like this on top of feeling like a failure for not being able to support myself. I want to check myself into the hospital because Ive gone from severely depressed to suicidal, but if I do that Ill miss work for a week, and that will just fuck me up even more because Ill be missing that money that I need. Edit: I just tried to go drive back to my home town to visit my mom and my car died. It kept stalling out. I just wanted to go see my mom and have her give me a hug and tell me it would be alright, and now my fucking car is broken. I feel like everything I do is just making things worse. And I lost even more money because I spent the last of my money filling up my gas tank.  <response>: If you are considering suicide, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or a hotline in your country immediately.If you suspect a friend or family member may be considering suicide, call a hotline and read up on warning signs herersuicidewatch is currently the most prominent subreddit featuring support for other redditors suffering from suicidal thoughts if want to seek help on Reddit. 