<prompt> Human: Tl;dr Recently became sober from everything. Phone is deactivated, can only find a pt job, card is cancelled, gf going through multiple dr visits, and parents cant help. I dont know what else to do other than swallow my pride and ask for help.Hey everyone. Ive been a long time reader, never have posted before. Ive seen some great things said and done by the reddit community, and Im kind of ashamed, but I need to ask for help. Im deeply depressed, but cant afford anymore therapy sessions. My meds are running low and Im weeks away from having money to pay for new ones. My phone has been deactivated for a couple months now and just recently got a letter saying it would affect my credit if I couldnt pay it off soon. Im living at my parents with my gf, I couldnt afford my place anymore. A couple of days ago I finally got a call back on a job. Started, but unfortunately its only part time. My gf is going through difficult times as well. She has been seeing multiple doctors, trying to find out whats wrong with her. No one can find anything yet, but words like ovarian cancer are going around and Im so afraid of losing her. Without her, I wouldnt have made the choice to become sober, and shes all I can hold onto in these depressing times.My card was cancelled months ago. I was dumb and blinded by the alcohol and drugs and cigarettes to see what I was doing to myself. I dont know if anyone can help me. Ive tried asking, but my parents are struggling too. I dont know if I can even consider this a valid last resort. Its just...I cant seem to find a way out. Im lost. Im afraid my situation is going to make my gf leave. Im afraid of losing everything, now that Im sober. Ive lost a lot of faith in humanity and life, and I honestly dont know how much longer I can do it. My only wish is that I want to be able to show those who I love that I am better than what I was all these past years. I dont know how to ask. I dont know if anyones listening. I dont care how much backlash I get. Nothing will be worse than what my own head says about me. I just need help. Advice, a way out, a great job offer, I dont know...anything to help me and my gf out. I wanna be able to pay my family back, find new friends. I wanna be able to bring my gf the care she deserves. Ive always been told that trying is the first step. Ive tried. So much it hurts. I know nothing happens in a day, but Ive been trying for two months now, hoping for a miracle. Please, someone, anyone, help me see the good thats out there, because its so hard for me to see it from where I stand.  <response>: You need a dose of reality man. Kick yourself in the ass and get up and get going. The choices you make dictate the life you lead. - some famous dude.No one is going to make anything easy for you, there are people out there working 18 hours a day slaving away to make ends meet. Get going.Once you learn the value of a hard days work, things will fall into place. 