<prompt> Human: Yesterday I just lost my only income source. I never in my life earned much but now the little I did is gone. I am 30, live with my parents, have no savings, no health insurance, no pension and a very dark vision of my future. Up until now I used to help my parents with some of the bills, getting my own food and buying little things around the house like toilet paper, dish washing detergent, etc. I hate asking my parents for things or money, I think I havent done that in more then 9 years. I dont have any friends, I lost them all not being able to keep up with them financially. A while back I had become extremely depressed and had panic attacks day and night, this is pretty much the time when the relationship with my parents and family took a turn for the worst. Gave up alcohol, never smoked and drugs where never my thing. I started working out and taking vitamins and minerals and now the panic attacks are almost all gone but seeing as I cant afford supplements anymore... this will soon become my reality again. Up until now whenever I had thoughts of suicide I just brushed them off and said to myself we all die eventually, there is no need to rush it, might as well make the best of my time and with my luck Ill just die sooner of a heart attack, cancer or maybe even the black plague would become fashionable again. Honestly, the only reasons I dont take action on suicide is because I am a coward and because I couldnt do that to my parents and family. I know a lot of you will simply say get a job, any job, whatever the pay. But I am past that, where I live the minimum wage is so disgustingly small that I would rather eat rat poison. Not to mention that unless you work for the government the 40-60 hours a week work week is a myth and the working conditions are horrible. Soon I wont be able to buy basic stuff like toothpaste, mouthwash, hygiene products and I have always bought the cheap market brands not the premium ones or replace my worn out shoes and clothes. And by soon I mean about 30 to 60 days. To those of you who think Im just lazy, I honestly dont care what you think about me anymore, in my 20s I often averaged over 250 work hours a month for years, worked day and night and through any holidays with no extra pay under the rule that if you dont like it, find somewhere else to work. I promised myself I will never do that again. I am simply sick of being taken advantage of. I am tired of living in misery and lying to myself to be happy that it could have been worse.  <response>: I had the worst year of my life last year, at 31. I was broke, hopeless and miserable. I was living away from my family in another state. My car completely broke. No job. Walked everywhere. I ate potatoes chips for lunch and slept on wood pallets in a closet size apartment. I say all this to tell you, it gets better. Much better. You have to shift yourself out of your current mindset. You gotta wake up and tell yourself that you will do no matter what it takes to find money, make money and survive. You are the champion of your own destiny. Own it. I went from being basically homeless to living in a beautiful home an amazing girlfriend and a great life in a year and a half by changing how I think about myself and my money. Every penny makes a dollar. You got this. Get after it every day and fight like crazy to do what you gotta do. My best. 