<prompt> Human: Im 19 years old, female, about to start my fourth semester of community college. Last semester, I failed 2 out of 3 of my classes and had financial aid suspended for this semester. I failed because I just gave up. Im unsure of my major nursing and felt incredibly alone and underachieving with no motivation and a bleak outlook of my future. The only time I felt somewhat seen or appreciated was when I was participating in casual sex with men from tinder, Craigslist etc. Id just let them do whatever they wanted to me and took it. I didnt feel good, but I didnt feel numb. It was something.With the upcoming new semester and lack of aid, I have begun using online sites to sell my body. I didnt even think twice of doing it, but now its eating at me. A part of me thinks I deserve it and another part hates myself for allowing it to get this bad.Im seriously contemplating dropping my classes in order to work on my self image, self worth, see a therapist and maybe volunteer and get a job to get my finances in order.My worries are:I really do not want to tell any one of my sexual behavior mother, counselor, friends but feel that its vital in getting better. Im ashamed of it and dont want judgement.My family has become dependent on my aid and work study mother doesnt know I wont receive it this semester yet so I know Ill let them down either way.I dont want to take a break, and then just sit around the house feeling sorry for myself.Ive committed myself to a lot of extra curricular stuff such as Student government, VP of clubs etc. to try to distract my sadness and will feel I let the people around me down.Dont I havent talked to anyone about any of this and just wanted to get a different view point aside from my own of my predicament. Thanks.  <response>: Talked to a trained professional psychiatristpsychologisttherapist. You are the definition of depressed and you will benefit greatly finding a professional that you can talk to and heshe will help you. If you dont feel you can open up to your current therapist, find someone new. But you definitely need professional help a lot of us do. 