<prompt> Human: I am 22, male, cannot keep a fucking job out of intense stress, i think i have borderline personality disorder, I live in Utah. been to some university some college but dropped out for obvious reasons.living off family and it sucks. nobody would ever date me and im just broke and the exorbanant amount of money it costs to buy a car or have a fucking studio apartment gives me a fucking aneurysm trying to figure out how much work i have to do.ive tried working in restaurants, insanely difficult for me, moreso than the coworkers, i have no tolerance for people so i just ran out the back of Chipotle and left. pizza delivery was okay but barely made any money. now i have no car. every place i apply to that seems feasibleie stocking shelves barely pays any money and never calls me back and im just fucking suicidal meds dont help, been in and out of mental hospitals pulling my fucking hair out in a jail cell that is my room and i cant fucking do anythingautism, bipolar, suicidal, depressed.EDIT: great advice i guess i should focus on my mental health for now and then work on the job part. Even delivering for jimmy johns was too much and when my manager grabbed my cute twink dick i had to leaveim straight minus that one time I was homeless in San Francisco where i needed a shower and sexual assault aint my thing  <response>: Im sorry for what youre going through, dude.First and foremost, if you are seriously contemplating self harm, or worse suicide, seek help now. If you dont have any friends or family you feel comfortable talking to, heres the national suicide hotline number; 800-273-8255.If youre consistently feeling this way its no surprise you are having difficulty findingkeeping a job and not completing college.Jobs and college are stressful for everybody let alone being a person with a mental illness. It sounds like youve received treatment in the past for your mental illness. You really need to tell your therapist, psychiatrist or your primary care what youre feeling right now.Dealing with a mental illness that feels stronger than you ever could on your best day is so aggravating and causes one to feel so hopeless. Ive been there, dude. Im still somewhat there. I know youve sought treatment before but you really should try again. Have you ever done a partial outpatient program that helps you develop better coping skills? Have you thought about applying for disability? It may be a way for you to generate some albeit small income while you continue with therapy and psychiatry. Sounds like your trying hard to obtain the things one can only really have when stable - a job, independent living, a college education - when youre very much unstable ATM due to your mental illness. Thats not your fault. Mental illness is a life long thing but it can, and I think will, become much more manageable for you. Youre such a young person and my heart goes out to you. You have a lot on your plate.But back to my original point: first things first, you need to seek immediate help if youre thinking of self harm or suicide.Secondly, whatever treatment youre receiving for your mental illness is clearly not enough. Demand from you healthcare providers a better treatment plan.Thirdly, patience. Youre still young! Good things will come but you need to live life day to day. I got overwhelmed and anxious reading your post and Im not even you! I cant imagine how stressed you must be! Be kind to yourself! Set small, obtainable goals every day - going to bed at a reasonable hour, brushing your teeth twice a day, going for a walk, taking a shower, etc. It sounds silly but when you start to get some wins under your belt, gain some momentum, your self-confidence will rise and lifes challenges wont seem so daunting.Im rambling but my heart really goes out to you. Feel free to PM me if you ever need someone to vent to. 