<prompt> Human: My childhood and teenage years were so traumatic to me because my family had so little money. Spending any money whatsoever, beyond necessities, felt wrong that whole time. I am 30 now but I am so miserable and scared about the future. My parents are scraping by but getting older every day. They cant help me in life, its really only a matter of how much of a burden they will become. Sometimes I just want to die because life seems so hard. The burden of making enough money to live on this planet for 1 lifetime looms over me like an axe and I just so desparately want it gone. I want to feel safe. I want to relax on this planet and enjoy myself and pursue what I love. But money looms. Enslavement to jobs is so common for people and its awful. I probably sound like a nutcase.  <response>: I think you have a psychological problem indeed. Your problem is no longer money. Because with 500k in savings, you are about as safe as you can be, money-wise. I completely understand why you have this anxiety, given your past. But you need to find some help to learn how to deal with it, and maybe even make it go away, because its not helping you anymore. Im sorry that you feel this way, OP. Life could be a lot more fun for you if you didnt have this fear. I hope you find some good help. 