<prompt> Human: Typing from my phone...Does anyone here get so obsessed with saving money that they dont enjoy it anymore? That money is for saving, not using.I auto deposit about 60 of my pay after retirement contributions into a savings accounts.Then I frequently make impulse saves where I transfer anywhere up to a couple hundred into my savings account when Im bored.Then I look at my checking account and feel my money is gone.When money goes into savings, I feel like its no longer mine. I think about dying before I can enjoy the money and it scares me. I also tell myself that Im saving for a house, but in reality, I dont I want to be a home owner and stuck in a town forever.To put it into a dorky perspective... When I play RPGs, I stockpile hundreds of potions until the last battle, and I still hesitate to use them. I really only needed 5, and it all kind of feels like a waste.Or like people who buy toys to place on the shelf, never to be opened or even looked at.Im not trying to brag about my saving habits. I really feel like I might have a skewed view of money and may turn into a miserly old Scrooge.I understand I may want a house someday, or have to support kids Im married. but I just feel Im a slave to saving.This may be a naive outlook, but does anyone feel this way?TL;DR I focus so much on saving that its bumming me out. Feels like an endless ladder.EDIT- Wow! So many replies. This is overwhelming! Ill make sure to read over everything, its just too much to handle right now.Assistant: reduce your savings by 5 percent, place this amount into a new account named: project self. use this money to invest in yourself right here and now. buy that item you wanted. the hiking shoes that will enable you to hike more. im sure everyone has those dreams they wish to work on someday, and at this rate that day will never come. so make someday, today and splurge on things you will benefit from. like a culinary class , whatever it is. Human: Yeah, I guess I need clearer goals.Ive basically have the mentality of, A rainy day fund can never be too big, right? What if its a rainy month? Year? Decade?I had a goal to save up 200 for a guitar. Which is a pretty budgetquestionable quality guitar. Then I gave up on that goal because I convinced myself Im okay with the trashy thrift store guitar I bought many years ago.I guess I feel like nothing is worth my letting go of money.But I have no problem buying things for other people. I probably spend too much on gifts, if I really think about.Assistant: Your last sentence is the key. This is not about money at all, this is about feeling not good enough, not worth spending money on yourself. You should explore that feeling.Who in your past told you that you arent good enough, that you dont deserve to be spent on? They were wrong, btw.Human: I struggle with this, and it wasnt until a therapist made me sit and acknowledge that what I was feeling whenever someone said anything positive toabout me, or wanted to spend time or money on me, was shame.Id strongly suggest therapy, it really isnt just beneficial for crazies, anyone can benefit because we all get caught up in a logical fallacy or warped perception at some point.Assistant: I do go to a councelor. We starting hitting this topic of self-worth recently.Ive never thought about dicussing self-worth through the lens of money, but I will definitely bring it up next session.  <response>: Well you are already paying for a therapist for yourself, so that is a good start! 