<prompt> Human: Im not sure of the proper sub to make this on but Ill try this one. Also, I apologize for how sloppy this post may be, but Im feeling like a wreck and I wanna try to see if I can get some sort of advice on how to recover. Sorry for the length.Just gonna put that my mother has the traditional asian mindset of things, if thatll help add to the understanding.I never really found a career path for myself to chase after high school, but I was pushed into college anyway by my mother. I should have taken time for myself to plan things out since Ive been paying out of pocket anyway without any kind of help dads out of the picture and my family isnt exactly middle class. and Ive pulled around 7000 in loans so far, but it ended up going into living expenses and car troubles.I started college after a year of working right after high school. I didnt take it seriously so I ended up flunking my first semester. Failing opened my eyes to the hole I opened for myself so I finally got my shit together and started doing much better the following 2 semesters, retaking and keeping up with all of my following classes. Things were going well until I had to shift finances over to help my familys living expenses and car maintenance. This unfortunately led to me failing more classes because of attendance. WORST FEELING EVER because it felt like it was out of my control. I had to make it to my job to work for more finances and it was either money to scrape by or education while possibly being put on the street. My GPA was shot down to 1.7 over the semesters. Classes were getting tougher, yes, but thats expected and it wasnt something I couldnt handle. I got behind because of missing classes from not being able to even drive there. And before I get flamed for not taking the bus or anything similar,-this was before uber was a thing-Ive tried that. Actually while thinking of it, Ill take the flame. I let myself fall into dark thoughts because I have a mother who lived a poor life, still not living comfortably even now and blaming me, ended up bitter and putting me down for not being better. Being told Im worthless every single night for years just took its toll on me, and I started feeling like giving up. So I stopped putting effort into finding other ways to make it to classes. The last semester I attended ended up with me just not even trying to attend class and just focusing on working. I even fell into alcoholism and drugs for a year and it was the worst time of my life. But Ive been able to move passed that recently, back in Jan of this year.I want to give college another shot with loans so I wont have to worry about actually making it to classes but Ive already had to repeal for financial aid once. I feel like Ive wasted the last 4 years, and if I start again itll be like starting from the bottom. Again. Completed pre-reqs but 2 classes Ive failed repeatedly, and I cant take upper-division courses without completing these first.Ive been getting by with tip-based jobs since they can make a lot in my city. I could move out and support myself off of a tip-based job or two and make over 30k. But I want to do better with my life. I want to be able to support a family and live comfortably. Not extravagant, but just enough so the future family Ill be supporting wont have to struggle. I dont know how to make it there anymore. I still feel lost, Im about to lose hope on even trying for something better and accepting my place at a dead end job and feeling like a loser. Despite the things Ive had to deal with, I know I still dug my own hole. I could have done a million things differently that could have put me in a much better spot right now. Im filled with regret and it fucking sucks. I have a great gf as my only support system but I want to be better so I dont weigh her down. Reddit, Ill take any advice I can get. Ive been purposely vague for obvious reasons but Ill give more info for those that need it. Sorry for the unorganized post.Edit- Grammar in 7th paragraph.  <response>: Hey man I just want to share my story quickly so that you know youre not alone. Im 25, and I also have a 2.6 GPA. Ive been struggling with classes too, but after many years of dropping classes, changing major and feeling like I have no direction in life, and having very little interest in many classes, I chose something that interests me, utilizes the skills that i have and Ive tried my hardest to stick with it even though I still lose interest. Next year I hopefully graduate. But you have to push yourself, OP, and change your mindset.You did not waste these last 4 years. Consider them another stepping stone towards what should be your new goal: to graduate. Dont compare yourself to your friends, you will only bring yourself down more. If you need to work, go ahead and take on a small amount of classes so that you progress, but also are able to work and keep your finances stable. Or if your finances are bad, you might want to get those in order before returning to college. Whatever you decide OP, It starts with removing your guilt, accepting that you made some mistakes, but youll spend the next couple of years making up for those mistakes. Its not too late OP. 