<prompt> Human: Im 22 year old male, live with parents, never had a job, dropped out of community college, lost in touch with my friends, and I was diagnosed clinically depressed, have severe crippling social anxiety, and somewhat of a pushover. I would like some advice on helping myself get started in life.After I graduated high school and attended community college, I fell off the map. I never stayed in touch with anybody and I just turned into a hermit, isolating myself from the world. Whenever somebody tries to be friends with me, I reject them out of fear, fear that somewhere down the line theyll reject me. I surrounded myself with indulgences and escapes, having no regard for my future. Life for me just just playing video games, netflix, or anime. I was planning on majoring in civil engineering but I just lost all drive and purpose to continue. I live in the upper lower class in one of the nicer parts of America. Whenever I need money for something to buy food or books I just ask my parents and they give it to me. However, I dont use that much money. I am well aware of my privilege, so I want to use it to help myself. Yesterday, I had a mental breakdown because I was just so tired of waddling in a cesspool of misery and seeing my world crumbling. I want to do something with my life, and seeing my mom getting old and fragile was heartbreaking for me. What can I do?I believe some of my mental health issues can be attributed to my upbringing, in particular my dad. My dad was angry and abusive, one of many examples would be him calling me, Pigshit or Bitch instead of my real name, since I was as young as 2nd grade. This really affected my confidence growing up. He would never show his emotions, hardly interact with me because he would be seen as weak, would hit me if I did not listen to him, and did not encourage me to be social. In fact, he hated having any guests or friends over our house. After my dad would abuse me he would buy me something nice or apologize. My dad is not this angry redneck, wife-beater with a coors-light in his hand, he was actually a well-respected software engineer who graduated with two degrees in computer science and maths so he was very smart with himself but was socially retarded. I am not playing the victim card, I am simply stating my background.  <response>: Youre not a loser. 