<prompt> Human: Hello Reddit,Im a 22 year old young man from Germany and I work as International Marketing Manager for a 300 person company. Right now I earn 2000 per month ... and yeah, I really should be happy about it. I can buy what I want and make holidays two times a year flying to Thailand, Spain or wherever I want. I bet thousands of guys would be happy to swap places with me ... My problem is: I cant identify myself with the work I do! I do not feel any motivation! I hate to get up in the morning to go to work - Id love to get up to do what Im interested in but thats nothing I do at work. I have this problem for quite half a year now.About my jobYou know, its not like my job is lame. I make decisions, I dont do just what other tell me. I can decide myself what I think is good to do and my decisions affect my colleagues and the company. I do a very very good job and my chefcoworkers tell me that quite often. But I do not enjoy it. I have a great team, with nice and intelligent people, even my chef is treating me like a friend I even was invited to his wedding! as he is also quite young with 35 years. The atmosphere in the company is very lovely, I think millions of people would love to work at this place - humanity at its highest compared to other companies, I think. Plus, for me the work is not hard - I learn fast and Im very free. Now whats the problem for me? Its the medical engineering!About Me:Well, how does a 22 year old guy come to a job with a responsibility that high in the medical engineering?I was always very good at school, but I did not learn that much, I hate to learn by rote. So I went to A-Level school and it was the horror for me, I wanted to kill myself. Everything was just about how good you are compared to others, how good you can learn and say what people or books tell you ... the teachers gave a shit on you and how you were feeling or doing school. But I made 5 years in this school and Im thankful! I could not write English like that without those years : stopping school due to depression. I went to a private business school then secondary school degree. There it was different, well maybe because my parents payed for it, the teachers where assisting the pupils and it was way more relaxed and human. I enjoyed the school very much and got the 3rd best degree of the whole school, still I did not learn much. I started 3 days before the exams. After the school I did not really know what to do, but I was the last year of those people who had to go to the army or do outreach service. So I did outreach service and was training Skiing race kids for 1 year as I was also racing when I was younger. Additionaly to that I got insight in the ongoings of the club. After this I wanted to continue something with people. So I went on a professional academy for psychology and social pedagogy. There I had school and praxis mixed. Praxis I was teaching English, Mathematics and Sports to 10-16 year olds. School we just had to learn learn and learn -- I hated it again! I had such a different way of thinking how you educate kids than those old books where teaching. The plan of becoming a educator takes 5 years in Germany. Close to the end of year 1 I noticed I dont want to continue that -- so I made an exam very good Praxis - okay learningstuff and passed. With that I got the professional qualification as paediatric nurse in just one year. After that I was quite dumped down by myself. I had no idea what I wanted to do. So I went traveling through Australia for 9 months to find out what I want to do in life. I loved this time, it was wonderful and I learned so much about myself and life itself I made it all around Oz! : but as I came back I still had no idea what I want to do. My parents always told me to make my A-degree and study then ... but as I thought about going to school again learn learn learn I felt I could start puking. So I went jobbing at the company I was jobbing back in my school time. One day an employee of the International Business Team came over to me and said that they would lack on manpower this month and if I could help out as I speak English fluently. Thats why I went up there for one month helping them out. After the month the team-chef came to me and I asked if I wouldnt be interested to stay because he was really stunned by my work. So I had a one month probation because most of the company already knew me well and got the job Im hating now. I do not have the degree to do this job but my chef tells me Im more talented than a lot who are studying. I learn very fast. I do my stuff faster than others. I quickly understand medical coherences and Im very good with words ...The Thing is:Im not interested in this stuff, zero! I hate it when the high doctors are coming around and everyone is doing Smalltalk smalltalk smalltalk and the job expects this by you too, but I hate it! I hate talking petty shit to people Im not interested in. And you cant imagine how arrogant and mad some of those guys are, those opinion leaders think they are kings - they are higher, you are lower .. Sure there are some really nice guys but I have not yet found one who is interested in stuff like me.What I LOVE:I love History! I love Mystery! I love Music! I love Movies! I LOVE the connection of all of them, the goosebumps you get when the moment is the moment! For me thats life! I love video games! I love stories! I love fantasy! I love games of power, might, love-hate, armies, intrigues - I love the games! I love when you are together with a communityfriends... and have FUN! I love it to make people laughlove. I love talking about dreams and wishes. I love the FUCK YEAH in Stories, Books, Movies, Songs...As a kid I always wanted to play. One game of mine was grapping a Animal Lexicon, open it on a random side and then close my eyes and say a number. I open my eyes and count threw the animals until I hit the number. This animal was me then and I ran to Mum and Dad asking whats that animal and what does it do. So they read for me and I played afterwards. My parents still tell me that I even knew the Latin Names of my favourite ones. I went on with Pokemon, Digimon, Dragon Ball Z and other Animes with Monsters and Fantasy. I loved it! I started playing computer with 7 years! My big brother was playing Settlers II and I was so hooked. I can not tell you why! I continued with Age of Wonders, Anno and on and on. I learned playing and the mechanis of computers all by myself just to create stories and wonderfulepic moments. My parents did really not understand that but still they quite let me be as I was. I told you before about the bad time I had in the A-School. To compensate that I played so much PC games, watched Animes and movies, I really got addicted. It was a running away from reality, because I hated reality. So I got into Multiplayer Gaming - with a Community clan. The funny side is, those guys helped me to grow up. They were all older than me. They taught me to step up and starting to love myself, sometimes not the nice way. But it was great, I came out of my black hole! I had so much fun sharing my thoughts and love for gamesmoviesstories ... and I still do now. I have the love for those things for 15-16 years now and it does not decrease. Im clearly not addicted anymore, but it was good to know how it is to be addicted to something. I even have a wonderful girlfriend who is sharing my love and is loving me for the way I am - I love sports and doing stuff with my friends, and I got many - but Im still unhappy because I spend most of my days at work, work for something I cant identify myself with. Im living together with my girlfriend and we got a small flat, but we want to move in a bigger one at the end of the year - still I cant do that if I stop my work.I do not need 2000 per month. Im fine with 1000 just to pay for my living. I just want to do something Im interested in, I can identify myself with, I love to do, I love to put my energy in, but I still havent found what Im looking for.Recently I started something. I opened a Youtube Twitter and the most important Facebook-Site about my love for videogames, stories and everything behind it. The funny thing is. I LOVE this! Im happy to get up at 6 am to do something for my Man of the West I even thought about doing a One-Year school PhotoshopPremiere Video skills to learn how to make my stuff better and better. Im so happy when doing this and ideas are just jumping out of my head. And with the new flat I can even start to stream because I can get better internet!!!And still ...All this costs money and Im really sick of those minimum 8 hours per day Im sitting in a place where I feel I do not belong to work.Right now Im wondering about myself. Why am I writing this on reddit? There are people in the world who dont even have a job, and Im so depressed and dont like my life with the good one I have.And sorry for this wall of text. I thought about how to make a tl;tr but I cant really pack this one in a small sentence.Thank you for anything  <response>: You are not really asking for financial advice, as is evident by the fact youve just posted your life story. None of that is really material.Hopefully youve improved your English skills some in the process of writing that monstrosity.In any event: having to sometimes do things you dont like is part of growing up. Do not expect to ever find a job where you get to do what you want 100 of the time. That is not why people pay you money.If you really want to be able to do whatever you want, you should look into financial independence - basically, retiring early rfinancialindependence. As I said, there is simply no job where you will enjoy all of it all of the time, so youd best not be employed if thats what you want. The road to getting there will not be super fun, but if youre willing to live on half your salary as you claim, it will go much faster.The most glaring detail here - to me - is the fact that you refer to 2000 mo as a lot of money. Its not, especially if you ever want to retire or have a family - and certainly neither of those things are possible on 1000 mo.If you really loathe your job, you can find a new one. But you should reflect on whether its the job you hate, or the fact you cant always do whatever you want. Because thats a reality everyone has to come to terms with at some point. 