<prompt> Human: Hopefully this is the right subreddit for this, if not maybe someone can recommend the right one! I will be talking about mental illness and the difficulty of choosing a job when you can barely handle existence. I mean, how DO you deal with finances when you wake up every morning and think I dont know if I can handle being alive another week?Im trying to choose between two very different temporary jobs.1. A civil engineering job in Vancouver, Canada for 6 months. My boyfriend cant come with me, so it would be a long distance relationship where Id fly home every weekend. Luckily flights home are only 100-150 round trip since I live a very short flight away Edmonton. I estimate that if I flew home 4xmonth, after rent and flights Id be left with 1900month to cover the rest of my living expenses food, etc.2. A part-time cashier job in Edmonton, where I currently live. which Ive worked at before and, after rent, leaves me with 1900month. So its a weird situation. I could choose a challenging job that would actually further my career, or I could choose an extremely easy part-time job, and Id end up with exactly the same amount of money.It seems like a really obvious choice, Im 90 sure the correct answer is 6 months of long distance is nothing, go with the career, youre investing in your future. But now Ill provide yall with details about my life that explain why Im so conflicted. Engineering job pros:-I havent had an engineering job since 2015, and I only have 4 months of engineering work experience, because I sustained a serious head injury that prevented me from focusing on things at work. I feel like Im at a make-or-break point in my career because I have a gigantic difficult-to-explain gap in my resume, and its only going to get longer if I turn down this job. What if this is my last chance to get back into this career? What if there are no more engineering job offers in the future? Holy crap, I NEED to take this job if I ever want to be an engineer, right?-I have severe seasonal depression, and I live in a city with 6 months of winter. My entire life, Ive wanted to try living somewhere without winter, to see what it feels like to not spend 6 monthsyear sleeping 15 hours per day and crying every time I have to do anything. And hey, this is my chance to finally do that! Living somewhere that never gets below -15 has been my dream for 20 years and I have the power to make it a reality!Engineering job cons:-The head injury thing is only half the story. The other half is that I HATED my engineering job and before the injury, I was planning on changing careers. But now its been so many years, I feel like Im a different person and I dont even know what I like and dislike in a job anymore. Maybe Id love it? Maybe Id hate it? Shouldnt I at least give engineering a chance before giving up on the career I spent 5 years in school for? Or am I crazy because if I hated the last job so much, theres no reason to think I wouldnt hate this one? Cashier job pros:-I LOVE this job. If I won the lottery, Id do this job for fun. Its great. I know, Im the one person on the planet who actually enjoys customer service! But it pays so little, there is absolutely no way that I would ever do it as a career.-Im only about 99 recovered from my head injury, I will still need occasional physiotherapy sessions, so staying in my hometown means not needing to find new doctors. I currently need 1 session every 3 weeks.-As I touched on earlier, Ive REALLY been struggling with my mental health. I feel flat and empty and I feel like I literally dont enjoy anything other than junk food and rewatching the same Netflix shows 300 times. Its fucking sad, honestly. So maybe having all the free time that comes with working part-time would give me a chance to, I dunno, figure out a hobby that gives my life meaning? Honestly I cant even picture myself being happy, but maybe theres something out there? Cashier job cons:-Of course, theres also the fact that my mental health gets 10x worse during the winter, so staying in Freezing Siberian Hellhole-ton to work on my health might have the exact opposite effect.-since there is absolutely no chance of the cashier job having any worth in my future career, it would pretty much just be a 6-month mini-break from adult life, and would set me 6 months further behind on my quest to find a job that pays enough for me to achieve my eventual financial goals home ownership, retirement. So yeah... my two choices are a job that I might hate, in a city that I love, thats 5050 possibly good for my career. Or a job that I definitely wont hate, in a city that I absolutely hate, and wont help my career at all. I know I rambled a lot and my post sucks but hopefully someone can figure out what Im trying to ask.  <response>: Take the six months in Vancouver. The distance sucks, but youll also find out if you can still do engineering with the head injury. You wont be second guessing what if? 