<prompt> Human: Hey Everyone. Ive read this subreddit everyday for the past 5 years and have always learned so much and valued the perspectives shared on here greatly. Ive been dealing with a crossroad Ive arrived at financially several months ago that Im having trouble conquering.I landed a major promotion back in August that put me at 135,000 base salary with annual bonus potential capped at 20 of my base 27,000. I began my career back in mid-2013 at 60,000 per year and 37,000 in student debt. I was working in as a tech consultant and learned that 60,000 wasnt much when the student loan payments started 6 months after graduating on top of monthly living expenses. It was at that time I began reading this subreddit and I made my goal to pay down my student debt ASAP to free up my cashflow and begin living a financial tactical lifestyle that secured my financial stability throughout the rest of my life.For background, my parents are both high school drop outs and I grew up in a 35,000 dollar household in Philly. Seeing the financial struggles of my family and burden it placed on my family while growing up has made me extremely oriented on money and I often daydream and come up with hypothetical financial scenarios because it has consumed my ambition so much.While making 60,000 I did what I could with the money left over and steadily chipped away at my student debt, while saving money on the side to buy a house in Philly. I got a raise to 65,000 a year and half into my career and purchased a home in a gentrifying neighborhood using a 3 down, no PMI mortgage program in mid-2015 with my monthly payments being less than what the average rent was in my city. In 2016 I was bumped up to 75,000 with a management role and negotiated a bonus structure paid quarterly since I was delivering lots of revenue for my company - this resulted in a salary range of 85,000 - 96,000 depending on bonus payout.While my salary grew, I felt happier and happier because I had so much more money to toss at my student debt and my dreams of being debt free grew nearer each month.Throughout 2017 my name began to come up in industry discussions and a competitor attempted to poach me with a generous offer which I used to leverage and negotiate with my company and successfully landed the salary Im at currently along with equity in the company and a promotion to VP.I get paid bi-weekly and its more than I thought I would ever earn. I have everything budgeted out on an Excel and am set to be completely debt free in a matter of months. I have a fiance who has 70,000 of student debt which I am also able to clear out in less than a year along with a 0 interest auto loan. My fiance makes 51,000 and combined with my salary were pulling in more than more people make in their entire life, yet I still feel like its not enough.When I was only making 60,000-75,000 everything was slow and steady and I kept telling myself I was moving responsibly and because all my dreams were so far away it was easy to fill ambitious and live within the values of personal fiance that lead to success... but now that Ive arrived at a point where I can achieve my dreams in at a ridiculous pace I cant help but feel like it isnt enough.I want more and I feel like I need more, yet I dont even know what I need the money for. I still feel insecure financially despite every piece of evidence indicating that Im way ahead of anyone my age and what most people ever achieve.This feeling is causing me to lose sleep and obsess over money. I feel like I should be able to just follow the ideas of personal fiance fundamentals, yet I keep trying to come up with new ways to make even more money - Im already maxing out my 401k and maxing roth contributions. Im now moving into cyrpto-currency. Im about to dedicate 3 of my salary into private business ventures eCommerce mainly and I have picked up several clients that I do consulting for on the side. I just turned my property into a rental property and secured tenants who are covering my mortgage payments and Im making a slight profit of it with every sign of the Philly real estate market pointing increased demand and rental prices as time goes on.I dont enjoy this obsession with money. I wish I could be content, yet I cant shake the feeling of fulfillment and insecurity towards stability. I am trying to change my perspective on money, but its not been 3 months and Im still struggling. So many people get on fine and dandy with less, so why cant I? Did my childhood experiences traumatize me?I wanted to see if readers here could share their perspectives on money, my situation, and tips on how I can get into a better mind state to overcome these feelings Im experiencing.Anyone have any thoughts based on what I described above?Assistant: To some degree I wonder if reading this board and others like it every day for 5 years could contribute to your problem...Im not saying its a bad thing to do so but maybe for someone in your position where you seem to have solid planfoundation and have things set up for success, take a step back for a few days and see if that helps?Human: I think that has a part of it. I feel like in the past Ive been radicalized by the internet at times to grow extremely over concerned about things to do spending too much time on internet forums. Im a introverted-extrovert if that makes sense and I spend days at time completely isolated and do nothing other than visit forums and Reddit. Often times other internet users will overhype things and I can get caught up in that hype which leads to too much anxiety and concern about things that really dont matter or effect me at all... I went on a bad binge of rtumblrinaction and was exhibiting a lot of alt-right tendencies, but then realized I was literally feeding into my hatred by visiting that site. The type of posts on there are the kind of stuff I hate and they portray it as if the types of people in the tumblr posts are all over when in reality theyre actually a super small fraction of society and have no impact on my life and community.  <response>: Hey congratulations on having the maturity and thoughtfulness to question your internet sources and the value behind them. I just want to advise you as you continue down this path that theres a tendency amongst folks who deride some extreme sides of Tumblr activism and speech... to dismiss the underlying issues. The extremes you see there did not come out of a vaccuum. They come out of one of the first global tools effectively giving voices to many oppressed and marginalized communities. Theres been a lot of messiness as people figure out how to express their challenges, claim their power, and work to influence societies towards paths of greater justice and equity. Try to look for the underlying good intentions of people seeking to build a more just world for all. Thank you for choosing not to feed your hatred, and please keep growing your love. With your civic interests and your desire to have a better relationship with money, you have the opportunity to do amazing things. Wealthy people who want to hurt and cause harm buy political influence to advance the interests of a small few at the expense of the many. Wealthy people who dont have much of an orientation either way buy football teams and yachts. Wealthy people who want to leave a positive impact on the world can single-handedly fund non-profit and community organizations that provide local jobs, feed kids, give people opportunities. As long as youre working through a money obsession right now, see what happens when you feed your obsession with dreams of philanthrophy. Once youre super set, how much could you give back to the world? How do you and your fiancee want to be remembered? Im excited for you. Best wishes. 