<prompt> Human: Ever since I graduated college and looked at my student loans, Ive known I made a very stupid mistake. Regardless, I really loved studying my major and it has tremendously impacted my life but only in intangible ways. Months have past, Ive spent endless hours browsing through online ads for jobs. I cant help but feel depressed imagining myself doing any of this crap. I cant explain to my family and friends that what I really want to do is just read all day and write. I feel like I am disappointing everyone around me. They expect so many things from me, I graduated with honors and have a great resume for Law School. Its hard to explain but it seems that the life they want me to live, just isnt mine. I finally feel fed up with everything: my loans, family, and the opinions of others. Ill go out and travel in my van. Live in it, if I have to. Get a dead end job and work the bare minimum to live on. Just as long as I have a library Ill be satisfied. Ill do the Pay As You Earn PAYE payment plan and make the bare minimum payments. I dont want my loans dictating how I enjoy the rest of my life. The person I spoke with on the phone, told me that if youre unemployed you dont pay anything and after 20 years my debt gets forgiven. I have no credit card debt and about 100 put away.How much of an idiot, or not, am I being?  <response>: Most people dont enjoy living in poverty and being homeless the rest of their lives. Maybe you will though! 