<prompt> Human: Hey. So, I am a great worker. I once worked nearly 50 hours per week doing manual labor in the hot sun.However, my study habits and self-esteem are terrible. If you would like to read more about it, check it out here: I have everything laid out for me: good work ethic, very intelligent, privileged upper-middle class from California, and about 75,000 in a college fund. But I simply cannot do deskoffice work for the life of me. I am a mechanicalaerospace engineering major, so I spend a lot of time using a computer indoors. I feel SO guilty that I cant take full advantage of this. If I study for even four hours per day, I consider that to be a major accomplishment. I have failed some classes nearly every semester that I have been at school.I even feel predisposed to failure and have been my entire life. I feel like its too good to be true. I cant fathom how people envision success at all. Its such an alien concept to me. I even self-sabotage. For example, I was supposed to fill out a form for my community college today, for a class that I need to take over the summer so that I can graduate on time. I deliberately chose not to, thinking, oh, its going to fail anyway. It will take them 3-5 days or process the form, and not counting weekends, it will take at least a week. The class will have filled up by then. I need to take 9 units over the summer. Im going to fail anyway.I have no fucking idea how to envision success, at least as it relates to school. I am thinking of a manual labor-type job, that is completely outdoors I get cabin fever easily.I think my lack of ability to envision success is because:My low self-esteem because of the way my familyfriends treated me as a kid - I wont go into detail, which made me feel like I dont deserve success, or that its too good to be true.My sisters: One is a 34F who graduated from UCLA with a degree in English and is just getting by. The other, 33F, was a university drop out, and was a loserdependent on my parents for 10 years, but is doing better now because of a business she started. I am afraid of following in their footsteps.A college degree is becoming more and more WORTHLESS. The only people who benefit from them now are lawyers, doctors, therapists, and people who work in STEM fields. In engineering, it is no longer sufficient to have a bachelors degree. You now need to have experience a few internships as well. It also is extremely helpful to have a masters degree. Plus, I believe that my job will be automated in 20-30 years from now.  <response>: Firefighters, oil rig workers, truck drivers. 