<prompt> Human: Hey Personal Finance,I am a cook by trade, currently working in the catering department of a grocery store. Its a subdivision of the deli. I hate working with food but have done it for 9 years ages 15-24. I went to community college and got an associates degree direct transfer, but never went to university. I guess its because I was into smoking weed and making music. I never found anything that looked interesting enough to study for. I didnt excel at any specific subjects. All I want to do is make music, I practice a lot I produce electronic music and hope one day I can perform as a hobby or find a job in the music world. Currently I struggle to get by, living paycheck to paycheck and borrowing money from my dad when shit hits the fan like when my car battery failed on Monday after I had paid rent and spent the rest on food. I make only 11.45 an hour at my current job, a far fall from the 18.00 I made at a very busy restuarant which I walked out of after a year because of stress. I really dont know what to do. Im drinking so heavily because I feel so depressed and anxious every day. I have no friends because Im so exhausted all the time just from mental stress and remorse for my adulthood failures. Im scared I will never know what its like to have anything in savings, or even feel happy about my life. I feel so lost and alone. Does anyone have any feedback or advice to get my life together?  <response>: If youre having trouble meeting the bills, cut out the drugs and alcohol. Do yourself a favor, seriously. This is going to sound stupid, but find a marijuana anonymous or an Alcoholics Anonymous. Growing up is tough as shit as is. Dont limit yourself. Getting cash from your dad is enabling you. You spent a year as a cook making good money. You got the skills. Get back in there. Do what you have to do. As far as the mental stuff: go for walks, be outside, hit the gym. See a therapist, theres nothing weak in that. Whats weak is waking up every day expecting things to change without putting in the effort. Good luck! 