<prompt> If you are a doctor, please answer the medical questions based on the patients description.all of my past tragedies are catching up with me finally. I was raped when I was 12, my family was already in the midst of my brother being institutionalized at a State Mental Hospital after slicing a man;s throat and being diagnosed with schizophrenia . I have three siblings he is the oldest almost 10 years older. My parents were always visiting him so nobody was around to talk to. Also I was afraid to tell anyone for fear of how much more turmoil it would cause. When I was 19 my father was killed in a skydiving accident. I became involved in an physically abusive relationship and than became pregnant. I have severe asthma and was hospitalized for two weeks when I was seven and a half months pregnant and had an abruption and went into DIC. We lost Nicole and I couldn t even go to her funeral. I became more entrenched with drugs and drinking and left my husband. Even though emotionally I didn t detach. Finally I helped my sister get out of KC the town we grew up in when her husband had been diagnosed with AIDS from using dirty needles and was caught robbing a store.My mother a friend and I brought her and her 2 children who were 3 and one and a half to michigan were my mom was living . Eventually she went back to her husband and I decided to stay. I met a man and had two children and married him. When my son was five and my daughter Liz was 3 we were in a car accident while I was driving and my mother was killed. I always rationalized in my own mind that there are so many people who have been through so much worse. My father taught me that you have to be strong. Don t show your weaknesses. You can get through anything, but you know what I can t anymore. I don t sleep. I hurt all the time both physically and emotionally. My asthma hasn t been under control for years. I m always angry not just mad like on the edge. I ve tried to commit suicide twice, obviously not successfully, but it is always in the back of my mind. My family thinks that if you need to see a counselor you re crazy. In fact they actually say that when they are trying to hurt me. My husband has a problem with drinking but won t do anything about it. I ve been on SSI for five years and only make 398 a month because I ve never been able to stay a a job for very long because I become ill. So according to them I really don t do anything to help the family, even though I do all of the housework, cooking etc... My asthma has gotten so bad that I have had to have a port put in because my veins are shot from all of the steroids. I don t know how many times I have heard things are so much better when you re not here. Please help. I don t know how much longer I can hold on!  <response>: Hello... Thanks for your query. I understand the multiple stressors you have faced and the devastating effect it has had on you. I would suggest that you seek professional help from a psychiatrist clinical psychologist to assess for depressionanxiety disorders adjustment other stress related disorders as well as assess your range of coping skills. This can be followed by appropriate antidepressant anxiolytic medication and psychotherapy as appropriate. Hope you find my suggestions useful. Regards Chat Doctor. 