I don't know where to start, but I would love to learn.
i think the best way to go from here, is to trace back your desire. when you say you 'would love to' .... 2 questions come to mind, 1 is what exactly is the thing you would love to do, but there's no point in answering that until you answer the other question, which was do you remember how and when you encountered this desire. once you remember that, you will actually find all the other answers there