i feel like i could be just as awesome as you or maybe ever more, but i lack your psychological stability and motivation, how did you got pass through it, what do you recommend for me? i feel like im trapped inside a little box and i can actually "think" outside the box but whenever i think outside the box they get outta the box and i can't get out of the box, sometimes maybe i can get them in but not any close to the rate i actually want and i envy and idolize you so fucking much because i can see that you are both in an out of the box which makes you to schedule yourself perfectly, how can i reach such mental motivation, how can i beat my depression?
i think if you want it badly enough, it's going to work out