how did the sign in im best friends with my own front door get bad bad
i'll tell you exactly how it happened. i was on a brand new break-neck schedule, where i was supposed to finish a song/video every 2 weeks, which was so much tighter than i had ever previously done it (at least 4x quicker), that no one believed was possible. so this is supposedly the first song of this new scheme, which essentially seems more like a dare at this point, because it's so absurd. So i had spent an entire day songwriting and i pretty much only made it through 2 stanzas. so the next day i had to kick myself and realize that this schedule is so ridiculous that i need to finish the song in the next 4 hours or it's pretty much game over. the 'sign' bit is the first bit to be written under that assumption. so in a way you can probably assume that this is the feeling of realizing i am going to have to steamroll the entire remainder of the songwriting process for this song. And i should clarify, steamrolling sometimes leads to fantastic growth, and i am thrilled with where the song ends up going, especially toward the end. and i don't think it would have ever gone like that, had the prior steamrolling not occured. it's a lesson that continues to play out again and again in the creative process, in the context of a world with limited time and resources