When you talk about making bad stuff until it starts becoming good, do you mean it in a "keep trying even though you'll make a lot of random noise" way or a "just make random noise, then find a pattern in the noise" way?
it has to do with what happens to you while you're making it. if you decide to make something bad on purpose, hopefully that should put you in a brighter mood because it might be more fun to break the rules than to follow them. so it's just sort of a trick to lighten your mood. then you'll be in a better mood and suddenly the music will get good. and as soon as you notice this, you'll immediately become self-conscious again and have to restart the trick