hmm. that's quite a jump. well it's not if you show the thread of thought that connected those things. which i forgot to do because i was busy thinking. or i was thinking about that before. or the parts that would make that make sense somehow fell through the filter. i don't know. i don't know i don't know asdfasdf dfjkdfjkdjfkdfj there's been no editing of this. it's beginning to end. it's not . that. bad. i.dont.know.anymore.   why?              do  i   focus. fucking focus fucking focus. what is your point? what is the point? what are you feeling? are you just stuck on the words that you're typing? is that taking over your mind in favor of what you're trying to actually get across?    and why do you have to do it here? why?            do you                    ?           do this?        i don't like that i do this. why not?         because i do it wrong a lot. &
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 sp;   what's wrong?         being fucking embarrassingly awful and terrible and maybe even gross.        okay.      you do it right sometimes? yes. i guess.      okay. what is the difference between a time you did it 'right' and a time you did it 'wrong'?         i forgot to have a point. i just talked to talked. i had feelings, sure, but being caught up in OMFG THIS HAS TO GET DONE AND IT HAS TO GET DONE RIGHT ruins it.   you know what a big part of this is? this is how they teach you to write in school, conveying information in the standard, structured way.
this is to make sure you don't get too good. otherwise you may start your own awesome school and steal all their customers