Do you know your Myers-Briggs type? Even though I don't know you personally, I feel like you are an INFP due to your shyness, emotional sensitivity, and empathy for other people. You don't seem to harbor any negative emotions toward anybody, except yourself, which is a strong sign of dominant Introverted Feeling, which is the leading cognitive function of INFPs. You are also very creative and break the rules with your videos and go off on a tangent frequently, which hints towards a high Extraverted Intuition, which is the auxiliary function of INFPs. If you have no idea what I'm talking about, you can look at your description here: https://www.16personalities.com/infp-personality  Sorry if this was a little creepy, I just love your videos :)