When do I know I understand the message, the message that isn't a message but can be felt as a message, because this message circles in our minds, and each time our minds answer the question of the message, which then question the answers of the other parts of our minds, causing us to get into a spiral of confusing thoughts. This makes me wish I was simple, to come to the realization I'm simple like everyone, just not simple simple.
looks like you are realizing that language is not totally sufficient to represent thoughts and feelings or even reality. try experiencing the message without requiring language to be formatted 'correctly.' you should have more fun and learn more, and plot twist when you least expect it you will find language that makes perfect sense and is simple, and doesn't even disrespect the complexity