hello, good evening, i hope you're doing well. music question: i'd like to make music, but for a myriad reasons never do, even when i have the time and will. one of the reasons is, of course, knowing that it'll never be as good as i want it to be. the only time i can feel at ease and just let things out is late at night when i'm improvising on whatever instrument, but that never results in a fully completed piece and any kernels that show promise never get planted and nourished, they're lost to the moment. which is fine, but ultimately i want to share the fruits of these moments with others. i've tried making them intentionally bad (usually when my friends ask me to make something for them), and that is definitely fun, but that method hasn't worked for my personal projects. wat do?
get yourself a pet list. (the list being your pet, not a list of pets). You say you generate a lot of starting points from improvs, and then they are "lost to the moment" because you're not in the mood to go into the office and do a full day's work immediately right on the spot. that's fine, and there's no need to do that. it's 2 different job positions. idea generator, and songworker. All you need to do, to complete your duties as an idea generator, is memo-record them and drop them into a list. Then, sometime later, on your other job as songworker, select items from the list and work on them. part of the problem could be that you were expecting yourself to do both jobs at the same time, which might not be reasonable. it's 2 different ways of thinking