I keep finding abstract desires and ideas beyond my reach but I have no way to create them and it makes me feel lost even though I've come so far already. how can I make these ideas a reality?
that's cool but try working the other way. go straight to your tool kit, whatever that may be (pencil/paper? sandbox? legos? whatever it is that you normally use and have available) and just start going crazy and having fun With the tools you already have. this is how you will start to bridge the known world and your imagined world. if you keep working at it from both sides, it will be fun on both sides for a long time and then one day you won't even believe it but you will actually start to see them start to coincide