You've mentioned in previous answers that your lyrics in songs (i.e. "I hate myself") don't necessarily reflect your actual thoughts and feelings; you're just "songwriting". Is there any aspect of any of your music that you believe does represent how you actually feel?
sure. also the "i hate myself" song is actually a representation of how i and perhaps all of us feel sometimes. the key is to listen to the tone. it is a light, brisk, bouncy tone. clearly not a deep serious sentiment. this is the way we might feel when we saw the good parking spot, didn't take it, then someone else takes it. "aah, i hate myself" (sung to a light bouncy tune). actually really
 hating oneself would presumably have a much much different tone to it