and you can't exactly figure out the difference and oh my god how did i get on this tangent the point is i am talking to myself because i need to talk to someone but i am not capable of explaining myself in person. writing works when you uh i dunno edit it from this steaming pile of word vomit but when i write something that is intended to be edited and made presentable i am paralyzed and won't stand to type a single sentence that isn't absolutely perfect even though that's not how writing works writing is rewriting but i get so hung up on everything and i just can't get anything out certainly nothing that i really mean because i keep thinking AHH HOW IS THIS ALL GONNA FIT TOGETHER DOES THIS MAKE SENSE DOES THAT FLOW NATURALLY IS IT EVEN NECESSARY OR TOO TRITE OR TOO FLOWERY OR DOES THIS PHRASE THAT SEEMS NICE TRULY MATCH WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY OR DOES IT SEEM TO MAKE SENSE CONSIDERINF THE REST BUT IS ACTUALLY SOME SORT OF FILLER IN DISGUISE    so that's what it is i am letting the thoughts flow out but you need to REVISE MOTHERFUCKER i could totally do that but then i worry if there's any point or if i'm going to kill the spirit of the whole thing in trying to fit it into a presentable shape but it's probably fine the point is to make it understandable
hot unpresentable garbage is surprisingly understandable, and it has a magnetic and irresistible quality to it which causes people to pay more attention to it and therefore understand it