My friends are always mean to me and I really don't want to be around them but if I stop hanging out with them I am going to be all alone because nobody else wants to be friends with me. I don't know what to do. btw I'm putting this here to vent but if you do happen to see this and have any advice that would be nice.
start doing some development on what kinds of things you would be doing and pursuing if you really had your choice. the more you start to develop that life, the more things will fall into place