Your improv recordings open two doors in my brain. One is the "loathing that I'll never be as fluent with music as this guy" door. The other is the "inspiration that with enough work I can achieve and surpass my wildest dreams" door.  I'm beginning to suspect also that there's a third door, which is the "realization that I need to record everything I do, so I can track my progress and also refer back to recorded ideas and also make a sweet documentary" door.  I figure I need to walk through all three of these doors and check out what's on the other side. Any advice?
yes, everything you just said is very advice