you've given me the idea that you can prevent the frustration of trying to get the attention you want by eliminating insecurity. but i dont know how to do that, i focus too much how little attention i already have that i put even less effort into writing music, and its impossible to avoid facing the reality that no one notices  me unless i do something that feels unoriginal.
i thought it was the original stuff that gets noticed, where as the unoriginal stuff blends in and get less noticed