If I feel a flaming desire to write, but I don't like writing, does that flaming desire mean I actually do like writing?
exactly when and where are you getting this flaming desire? it sounds like you need some better communication as to what this desire is actually desiring. i guarantee it is desiring something, you just need to play detective to find out exactly what it is. the best way to get at this is to examine exactly where and when this desire seems to be occuring, and then you can usually figure out why and what it seems to want