this is making me feel disgusted and it is making me feel a great sense of loss because i wanted to be a musician and i guess i still want to be but i can't feel anything positive. when i play something i can't tell if it's good or not because i can't tell if i'm creating the feeling i want or not because i can't feel the feelings. am i going to spend the rest of my life without feeling the joy of music ever again?
no