let me amend what i was worried about with the whole individuals thing. to be an individual i think is SUPER IMPORTANT AND MEANINGFUL!!!! but most of life's positions and jobs and stations are devoid of any respect for individuality. people are treated as assets, machines. i think most people just loan out their time in life as Unique people in order to have money, for living. that's AWFUL. i want to do so much, i dont want to be a machine. but am i really so different from most people? why do i deserve to escape the fate most are consigned to
this particular world has a competitive nature to it. i don't really know why it is that way, but it is. everyone is unique. but you need to fight for your uniqueness. and also try being even more unique, and fighting even harder