do you not collaborate because you think you can't, or because you don't want to? bc if you'd want to but you don't do it bc you think you can't that would be a shame bc i'm sure you can do anything you want. also if you dont know where to start just stand somewhere and ppl will come to you and collab with you.
i felt guilty for years because everyone (like you) makes it sound like you are 'supposed' to collaborate. but it just never worked, and never made sense. i was very confused about this because everyone always pressures you to collaborate. until finally one day i realized that some people actually work best all by themselves, and that's ok. i can't describe how relieved i was when i realized that, and i became instantly focused and productive, where as before i was just sad guilty and confused. i hope that makes sense