what is it called when you know there's 100000 things you want to do but instead of doing any of that you're sitting and sipping some tea and listening to music and thinking about how much time you've spent doing this exact kind of thing before, and how you've accomplished a decent amount but not really 100% in the ways you wanted to, and there's so much more you want to do also, and you know you can do it but you also aren't sure you actually will, given the history you have of ending up in this kind of situation where you don't actually do it, but you also know that probably, if you wait long enough, you'll get back into some project or another and do a pretty good job and be proud of yourself but not completely satisfied and the cycle will continue?  thanks
the human experience