I just failed my regional band audition and I don't know why I always screw these things up because I practice so much and I work so hard and then I get in the room with the judge and it's like my brain short circuits and I just perform horribly and I'm so upset because this was my last year to audition and everyone, including myself, was expecting me to do well but I just totally screwed it up. What's wrong with me? And how do I suck less at auditions? You would think it'd get easier with time, but I've done tons of auditions by now, and they always turn out this way. Like I know I'm a good musician but I can never seem to do a good job of showing it
you're trying to do music in a world which is not necessarily the best thriving environment for music. it's like if the Sun were practicing really hard to enter a Sun competition and hoping to be judged well at being a sun. But that's not really what sun and sunshine are all about. sunshine is about glowing with light and giving life to the earth and other planets. no one judges that, it's just what the sun does. so, on that note, go ahead and do music. if you love it then it will be loved and so will you