i want people to feel better for having interacted with me. i'm not good at that. i'm trying to learn how to do that.      i guess that's it. i guess, outside of having fun. i'm trying to figure out how to be a human.
one of the best things about 'humans' is how damn different and unique each one of them can be. it sounds like your best bet here is to make up your own way. you seem to have exactly the drive and focus needed to do that