im stuck on endless cycle and i seriously dont know what i want to do, for example i want to do everything i want to be the best at everything its unrealistic tho and thats the best thing about it, part of my brain saying "your personality isnt good enough for you to do that" or no one will like your personality, while its true i have to accept that no one is perfect, but if i HAVE HAVE SO MANY VIDEO IDEAS ASO MANY TO THE POINT IM DYING INSIDE IF I DIDNT DO THEM, but the moment that i do, its worthless cus "is these videos gonna be my identify?' thats the question i asked everyday, not only i want to do videos but i also want to make games, but then my brain says "if you spent 3 or 2 years making a game well no onewill play it anyway or it wont be popular enough" i dont care about it butdeeply i do??? mpart of me REALLY wants to combine them both. releasing the videos as for training myself how to model and making music for the videos to train myself, and then if IF i have a community then maybe maybe they gonna like my video game? thats the best i could do, but again my brain says "identify" no one is gonna like yourself, am i perfect? do i have to do alot to push myself and be someone whom im not? as they fake it until you make it. sorry bill this is long rant but its attacking me.
ah yes, you have one of the self-melting brains. if only you knew how many people actually wish they had one of those. they think it would 1000x their prodoctivity. which it probably can, if you could only find a way to just keep it cool enough to survive