Hello! I come from a very cut- throat high school that only cares about their students' GPA and their GPA contributes to whether they enter a good college or not. Coming from this environment, I felt a constant pressure because I was surrounded by hard-driven people that applauds when they see another person's rank goes down so they can move up. Well college decisions released, and unfortunately, I did not get into the college I wanted and for these past few months I felt very worthless because I kept comparing myself to those who got into my dream school. Most students in my school got in and some I question why and how and I started to fall in this wormhole of depression where I think I was not enough compared to other students because my dream school did not accept me whilst they accepted many others that I thought did not care enough about school. I just feel like the whole world is against me because now I would go to school, ashamed to share the college I'm going to and hearing EVERYONE going to my dream college. Everywhere I go, I hear them getting into my dream college and I am truly happy for them, but it just feels like the whole world is ridiculing me. How can I stop this negativity cluttering up my mind? I know this is so unhealthy for me, but when you are constantly reminded of your failure, how do you cope with that? I really wish you see this because no one around me has the answers and I just feel like I am alone in figuring these things out.
a couple of things it is important to remember. 1. college/university education is rapidly losing credibility out in the real world. in other words, as we move into the modern era, it matters less and less to anyone whether or not someone has a university degree. or 2., maybe you feel envious because you think it will socially and culturally be some kind of golden magical time. and that may be true, but as an alternative can i interest you in becoming a traveling poet