but i know no other ways of training that would serve as the transition from artificial exercises in eartraining programmes to real songs. or are there really other better training ways? i feel like stuck in this. now i can read the staff and sort of manage to play along with it, and sort of know some theory on paper, but all this seems very far away from real songs or from using my ear ...
it sounds to me like you are too far ahead on paper. your ear needs to catch up. that's what it seems like to me