i've been making music for years and years but have been showing it to less and less people, and for a long time now the number of people i show it to has been 0. don't even have the courage to post it online. it's pretty painful to be this way. it just feels too vulnerable to publicly display something i've created. feels too vulne
 rable to
  even be myself, or even admit that i like something. i'm obviously overthinking this, but i really don't know how to get out. it seems like you've struggled with something similar (?) and i was wondering if you had any advice? i'm worried the answer is "just do it" because that seems very hard and incredibly scary. anyway i didn't actually mean for this to turn into a life advice question but i guess that's how these 2:03AM questions can turn out sometimes. thanks
in your situation, it seems like the resolution to this may depend on whether or not you get even more pent up so badly that you explode into some sort of outwardly fit of creative rage. i may have just scheduled my rage for next week i think