MOTHERFUCKING SHITBITCHCUNTBLASTER HOW THE FUCK DO I FUCKING DECIDE WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK TO FUCKING DO WHEN I COULD DO ANYTHING AND THE IDEAS JUST KEEP COMING TO THE POINT WHERE I JUST DON'T WANT TO CATCH THEM ANYMORE HOW DO I MAKE CLEAR WHAT I REALLY NEED TO DO naps don't help CONSUMING DOESN'T HELP lists don't help STUMBLING AND FUMBLING AND NOODLING AROUND DOESN'T HELP being broke don't help MY SELF-DISGUST DOESN'T HELP helpHELPhelpHELPhelpHELPhelp HELPheheleprerehreeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhhuuuughrrurghruughhhhhhhhh
sounds like you're on the right track