you know when you do enough stuff you learn to notice which things work well and fit nicely together so you think "damn i'm pretty good at this" but then you just wanna throw that thing away and take a whole different point of view. then you lose your mind kazillion times and cry but still somehow the thing ends up nice. but wait then you realize the thing is actually quite similar to the things you did before. so you go "damn" again and calm your mind by doing what you know the best until you just need to break everything again.
ah, #relatable