what was the inspiration for "im crazy / it's raining"?
written in early 2012, i sort of was exhaused from all the years gone by of trying to write really crazy stuff, and then trying to write really normal stuff (2011) and just in general so much time had gone by trying to write in different ways, trying to improvise in different ways, writing in text (which goes back even further) .... just feeling like i had tried everything and yet i still hadn't made any of it public yet. crazy/raining sort of was like that peaceful yet kind of hopeless feeling of  "well, i think i've tried absolutely everything, i've tried more things, i've tried less things, i've tried not trying things, i've tried trying too many things, ..... and i still haven't really put it together. and i have no energy left. where am i now?" there is this feeling of being totally exhausted from trying everything, and yet, the steady "rain" still falls -- the steady rain of you still wanting to do all the things you want to do. the steady feeling that you STILL want to express yourself in crazy and/or meaningful ways. the fact that even if you feel totally drained and dead, the rain still falls.  that's sort of why the song sounds very plain and doesn't really have any creative melody tricks, or any strange lyrics, .... it's just like rain.  i've always debated whether to record it, because i wasn't sure if it was too boring. but it came up on a randomized selection in 2015, and i reluctantly gave it a shot