I keep having suicidal thoughts/actions and constantly blaming myself for the relationships I broke in the past couple of months. The loneliness and uncertainty of the future keep haunting me. Filling my time with other tasks or your songs does nothing to help. I don't know how to control those feelings anymore. What can I do?
take a long walk and see if you can remember all those things you were going to do, but didn't get around to it yet