i might have suddenly become addicted to doing extreme workouts every day as compensation for my general fear about the world's complexity. im loving it. im looking more and more fit, i am feeling sexier than ever. and im terrified that the high from this will wear off -- that working out will go back to being boring and awful and then it will be harder to look the way i do now, which i love. bill, i feel like im ping ponging around and just trying to escape all the falling rocks. how to i fucking STAPLE DOWN things i want to stay the same? how to i use my willpower to make my life exactly what i want it to be...  if you have any other extraneous advice in response to my situation, i'd love to hear it. take care.
you already said you are addicted to what you are doing and loving it. that is the best possible recipe for doing that thing