Cause it seems you're pushing yourself to make all this crazy new content at a crazy rate and it's like you're putting yourself back in prison for no other reason than "i wanna do this song or that video asap"
most people still don't even think i am making any content. they always think i've 'stopped.' this is because it is impossible to make content instantly, especially if it is anything of a reasonable size. so therefore i need to hustle like crazy just to keep things coming out at a somewhat reasonable rate