and were there specific feelings/events that inspired the tone of it?
i was going out for a walk, and feeling copious amounts of anxiety about everything. as i was getting ready to go out, i spontaneously came up with a confident first line, "don't wanna die!", in a similar style to the first line of "i'm scared" (which didn't exist yet). but i changed it to "i'm scared" because i figured it would be less uncomfortable. plus everyone's scared of each other nowadays