1) https://billwurtz.com/journal201108312213.html 4) https://billwurtz.com/reality/201205120046.mp4 I think I figured out where I went wrong. I thought one of the main story arcs in your personal narrative is gathering the courage to murder this cowardly version of yourself so that you can finally be free to explore and explode the universe the way you're meant to.
so far i'm doing great, although everyone feels afraid from time to time