okay so i've got a case of what i've heard called "the everything thing." i'm obsessive and perfectionistic by nature. i can't remember a time when i wasn't aware of my own mortality and felt like there was a ticking timer on my life, and i had to just DO AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. i go the extra 23094823 miles when i care about something. and there are plenty of things that i DON'T give two damns about, but there are SOOO MANY THINGS THAT I DO CARE ABOUT. and i see people who have put a shit ton of work into one of those things. like a successful musician. or a top tier pastry chef. or a talented painter. or a film editor, or blah blah blah a hundred other things I wanna be. and i'm like. shit. because i've hit that place where i'm so ready to put in the work, and i AM. like, between paying the bills and school i AM putting in the //work.// but it's so spread between all the Things that my progress in each of them is excruciatingly slow. i could pour myse
lf into 
music and leave film and art and cooking and building things and agriculture and physics and everything else by the wayside, and i would probably progress faster and get to Play With the Big Kids sooner. but.... then i wouldn't have those other things in my life. or i could pursue all of them equally and maybe never break free from only being mediocre-to-good-ish at any of them. i don't wanna be presumptuous but i feel like you gotta know what i'm talking about. how do/did you deal with those feelings??? was/is the answer (in your experience) more focus, or just faith that you actually do have enough time in your lifetime to pour into everything you care about with an end result that you can be proud of? the only thing i know is that i can't let indecision hinder me any longer.
one thing that helps is to start keeping journals. a cohesive story line starts to come together, and it gives artistic weight and integrity to the struggle and journey itself, rather than just the individual elements