or if i should figure out a way to teach myself because i'm having a very hard time understanding the piano and sheet music and what keys are what and what chords are what and what things fricking mean and i'm FBDSHBDFSBSD i just want to make cool music but it's all so complicated and hard for me.
i think if you get yourself a keyboard that can tell the diff between a hard and a soft note that will put you way ahead of the game. for example, even if you never learn what note is what you can still make great rhythmic things happen on 1 note. but if your keyboard doesn't have loud/soft then you're gonna have a bad time