From all previous indications it seems as though you spend a very significant amount of time creating, and spend very little time consuming things others have created. Do you think that has influenced the way you create things, or that allowing yourself to consume more things would influence the way you create things? And do you do this because you don't enjoy consuming things, or because you want to spend more of your limited time on creating things? (Things meaning videos, songs, images, stories, and the suchlike.)
i am on a 2 step program. step one is consume as many different types of content as possible, for many years, and get more and more enriched while also becoming more and more sad and jealous, wanting more and more desperately to create your own content, knowing and hoping in the future that some day the whole thing will flip around and you will be making mad content regularly. step 2 is when it actually does flip around and you start actually doing the content. currently on step 2