i'm taking AP Physics right now as physics is a subject that i'm really very interested in, but i feel completely stuck because the teacher doesn't go into trying to provide conceptual understanding nearly as much as i need it. or maybe conceptual understanding is just something that i'm more comfortable exploring on my own. my problem is that i don't have enough time to explore the concepts and get a better understanding of them. in general, i find that the stress of school makes it pretty much impossible to actually enjoy learning. anyways i have no idea what to do and i feel like exploding because of how frozen i feel. did you go through something similar when you were in school? 
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