sometimes i feel like i'm living a reasonably bad timeline. i'm not achieving the things i should be achieving, and my life has been going downhill since the seventh grade. i'm basically being outcompeted by peers and... everyone, and i'm not catching up. where and when will the inflection point and minimum come? what will it take for me to do the things i know i'm capable of and i strongly believe are associated with my purpose in life? is it too late to accomplish or do the things i would like to accomplish or do, like learning new hobbies and master normal, proper human communication and leadership? is it possible to hop back onto a better timeline sometime in the future? can i seek redemption? i apologize for the heavy questions
don't forget to take with you the wisdom you've accrued through this period of, what we'll call "ambitions processing". although i should point out that your assessment of your peers' achievements felt dubious, biased, and unbased. but who knows maybe you actually calculated it somehow