do you sometimes think that you fit (or at least can survive) in everywhere but you belong to nowhere and you will never find your home? i do and i feel like i have to be nothing so i can be everything and i have to be nobody so i can be everybody. i thought it was what makes me write and how i became my characters and stories themselves. i became all of them, even the ones i didn't write yet. i split myself, one piece for one possibility but i can't start to do something because i am scared. there is a sea of possibilities between me and the future. like you said, i am drowning in infinity and i am broken into a thousand pieces, at the same point i was before. is this why i can't encourage myself to write again? do i have to be whole? and if yes, how can i become one again?
you are doing just fine. any way is the right way to write. just start trying some ways. and if you can't seem to finish things, try smaller things for a while