but it's a little awkward right now because i have to admit to myself that with all this complexity, i was almost trying to prove my love for music by obsessing over it, but in doing that, i was killing the music. i think that i need to find a healthier balance between technical and emotional content in music. i still want to be able to play my instrument to the best of my ability, but i have to remember that some of the most beautiful music can be played by people who are absolute beginners on their instruments. have you ever felt this way?
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