Ive been on a nostalgia trip listening to music I was making 2-4 years ago when I was trying really hard to release my own stuff and then froze and didn't release/finish anything. The thing is, I hear them now with some distance from those crippling perfectionism days where I perhaps didn't have the skillset to close the gap of my taste vs my skill, and I actually enjoy the attempts, but looking back on the process I wish I could do the same things without my mind getting in the way so I can become even better and not have it be such a passionate swirl of good and bad emotions. Ive been trying to figure out what short form of what I was trying to do back then would sound like because I thought I wanted to try something new on my revisiting of music, but hearing those old tracks make me want to try harder this time, and starting small. Im just thankful that I still have those tracks around to experience my journey even though back then I didn't feel 
 like the
 y were good enough for me to share because of the expectations I thought people had of me being the guy returning home after going to a great music school. Any experience with similar feelings and how you overcame them?
it's kind of like those competitions on reality shows where they make everyone get into a wheel barrow, and then they say "ok, whoever stays in this wheelbarrow the longest gets to keep the wheel barrow." ..... How badly do you want it? how badly does the next person want it? ..... only time will tell