I've especially grown an interest in guitar-based music (and find myself listening to it more than jazz), and maybe learning to play the guitar. But at the same time, I feel like I just need to push through, because like I said I've wanted to do this for a long time, I really look up to jazz musicians, and I need to finish what I've started cause I can't keep doubting my goals and not working to accomplish something... Any 
 advice? 
 I'm 19 btw
doing something that you don't really want to do ..... usually doesn't work out that well. if you are doing things you really really want to do, you tend to get superpowers