Thanks to earlier questioners, I saw that you'd added more pages to the notebook, and Friday, February 18, 2011 6:46:17 PM has really stuck out in my mind as someone who struggles with unrealistic self-set deadlines and creating longer pieces. Do you feel you've been able to wake up and write "well formed" music now? Basically, is there light at the end of the tunnel - or is the point that the tunnel is good and I should stop fighting it and learn to work with what I have?
i spent most of 2011 trying to learn to use more 'normal' forms. but the overwhelming opinion from the fans was 'no, don't be normal.' they all liked the 'weirder' stuff better. then during 2012-13 i went on a huge writing binge and i began finishing every unfinished thing i had ever written, and also starting many new songs as well, and really was able to combine the best of both ends of the spectrum, and just wrote a huge amount of stuff, and really rounded out my skills. at the end of 2013 i felt totally bulletproof, songwriting wise. and just when i was ready to start recording songs ferociously for the rest of my life, i thought it would be a good idea to start making videos instead