oh god i really wanna drop out of school and i can do so if i want to, but i'm not sure if i should take that step yet  it's just ridiculous at this point. i keep telling myself to study but i just end up doing nothing. when i get bad grades i start bitching about it as if i don't know the reason as to why i'm such a bad student. i guess i've just lost all of my motivation to be a good student with healthy studying habits. might as well drop out since i can't stop procrastinating all the time.  i mean, why should i keep up with school anymore? i don't have any future plans or anything. plus i'm extremely lazy so i'm screwed.   should i just say "fuck it" and drop out, or should i somehow manage my way out of this stupid loop? help!!
unfortunately i don't know very much about this. i realize it is extremely uncomfortable to attempt to participate in someone else's school, and that is possibly even more true for me than for most people (i am particularly incapable of learning things any way other than absolutely my own). but there's always this rumor that that particular school is threaded into the fabric of society in such a way that if you don't participate now, you may fall halfway down the social ladder. and while i think that may be partly true, i have also seen people use some very interesting alternate methods of climbing it, which can be extremely fun but you might have to believe in yourself, and the impossible, to a somewhat wild and lofty degree