contd 5.29.17  3:41 pm

so what happened in 2009 that made you realize that anything is possible and kickstarted your writing process? anything meaningful or just a random thought in your brain?
i guess i had just been working my way toward writing for so long, and in so many ways, and felt so overwhelmed, there was no other route to take. it's kind of like you are circling around the outside of a house, trying to look for the best way in. you know there has to be a way in, but you just can't decide which way is the best way in. eventually you just have to stop circling and bash one of the walls in. surely you are strong enough now, from all the exercise you've gotten while circling the building for so long