It's one of my favourite songs that you've made and I would like to know more about it.
i wrote it way too fast, because i was actually determined to get onto a 1 song per week schedule (instead of 2 weeks, which was also failing at the time). so, in accordance with that, i wrote it extremely fast. too fast. later after i realized i would not be on pace to meet the 1-week goal, i also realized that the writing needed more work. even though i was most of the way through the production, i went back and did some re-writes. this is extremely rare. normally the writing is finalized before production begins. the riff/chorus used to be almost entirely instrumental (the "belong / message / lessons / before i'm gone" parts were added in the re-write). also the end of the bridge ("know what it's there for / here for" etc) was part of the re-write. the production was finished within a couple weeks after that, but then for some reason i decided to completely re-invent the graphics department from the ground up, so the finished audio of the song sat in limbo for many many months. which, for me, contributes to the haunting essence of the song