And I've had this idea in the back of my mind for years, but I feel like I used to be scared of not knowing what to do and now I'm just kinda scared of knowing I don't want to do anything. Growing up, I've developed real interst in mathematics and languages, and I always thought I'd do something related to one of these areas. But now that I actually have to choose, I don't want either.
you don't have to choose. those are both cool things, and they are allowed to be in your life, as much or little as you want