I understand you're an autodidact, but have you ever received formal education (even if you didn't *receive* it)? As in, were you physically in a situation where a lisenced official was trying to teach you something, and you'd get evaluated on the basis of how well the official believes you have learned the thing the official was trying to teach you?
that makes no sense. why would they evaluate me, i should be evaluating them. they're the ones doing the teaching. that's like putting out a movie and then evaluating how well the audience watched it