I can't wait till I'm an adult to just leave. I can't. But if I decide to just get away from everything, then I'll get punished. I'm so scared and angry that I can't even do a simple thing that you reccomened to me- to just take a walk. Fuck! Last time I decided to take a walk.... let's just say it was a terrible between my parents  and I. I can't be myself. And that upsets me and makes me miserable. I'm sorry I'm just so upset and it seems like there's nothing I can do to help myself. I don't want to be here anymore. I wish I didn't exist so that I didn't suffer through so much bullshit.
if your parents won't let you go for a walk i'm pretty sure you can call the police over that