I've seen reference here on the Questions page to you preferring not to listen to your own music for "superstitious" reasons. Could you elaborate for someone who may have missed a previous explanation? 
normally if you listen to music, if you hear anything's wrong you can be like "oh well, at least it wasn't me" .... but if i hear my own thing, and anything seems wrong, terribly wrong, desperately wrong, all all wrong, or any combination of those, it's my fault and also i can't change it and everyone has already heard it