not even just music but like being in a situation where "there's a thing you want to do, you know what it is you gotta do, but something peculiarly vague in your bones is holding you back"?
there are many things like that, sort of on the periphery. meanwhile there are the things that are front and center which are usually the subject of a flaming freight train. typically the biggest thing that holds me back on the most important stuff is the vastly infinite quantities of configurations, iterations, permutations, transliterative concatenations, .,.,.,,.,,.,