You never listen to your songs in case they are bad, but your music is so flawlessly written and produced that you really have nothing to worry about! You wouldn't have this many fans if the songs were bad! Also, YouTube comments have come a long way since you first joined YouTube and almost every comment on your videos says how exceptionally brilliant you are... would you ever consider going on a nostalgia binge and listening to your stuff?
very rarely, but there is demons in there somewhere .........