if not, then was the past year of reinventing videomaking just a waste of a whole year that could've been spent making and posting videos?
no. the change was required, regardless of what kind of change it is. The previous graphics department is gone, there was no escaping that. so something will have to replace it, and in my usual style i said "HOW ABOUT MAKING IT 1,00000,000000 TIMES MORE BETTER" and then spending many many very dedicated and dilligent months trying to evolve that properly into existence, and then, again, in my typical style, suddenly a wall of panic comes over me and i scramble into action, in any way possible. i've made some absolutely massive developments in that time, particularly in terms of the general process by which i use the computer. and the graphics department is literally in a whole new world. so it's the beginning of a brand new game, for sure. if i had to predict, i would say that it's probably going to look simultaneously like i am both lightyears behind and lightyears ahead, of where i was before