you're always on top of your game, yet no matter how hard i try, i can't do the same. either you are an extraterrestrial being who possesses supernatural abilities or i am not a human and have, instead, failed to evolve into a human with skills and qualities that would be considered developed for the dumbest human being in the whole fucking quasiverse (that may or may not have exist/existed). which possibility seems the most realistic? remember that there are no wrong or right answers, and you can pick two or zero answers.
you'd be amazed at how often the people you assume are 'on top of their game' say that exact same stuff, worrying they're not, thinking someone else is, etc..... this is generally very moody subject. one thing that's clear is how much you care. and that's pretty much what it takes to go all the way, but it will also keep you worrying, no matter how high you get