Why does it seem like my mind controls what I do and I can't choose what my mind wants to do? I can't do the things that people want me to do and everyone always tells me I have so much potential that I'm using on dumb stuff. How do we overcome what society wants from us and just focus on being ourselves and embracing our uniqueness?
it seems there is a dispute going on amongst your mind, your self, and society ..... but from your description it doesn't seem clear which you would prefer to follow