i just don't understand. i don't know anymore.     this is supposed to be fun. it's been fun    but lately i've forgotten about having fun. for the most part i did a long time ago.     this is as close as i get to that.       and    i just don't want to let go of it.        because then i'll have nothing.        and i did have nothing for a while.       why. why why why why why why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. bother. why. bother. why do you have to bother people.
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