I can relate to what you are saying... But I can compromise. People will not be the way you want them too, all the time, along with your dreams and vision. It can be very revealing to be close with people that you share (apparently) little things with, in my experience, and my feelings and constant wanting for people to come aboard and sail on my artistic boat (or boat fleet) slowly started to become not so meaningful. I'm a full time musician and one of my best and closest friends is a physics doctor; my girlfriend is an actress. It is all so wonderful. Please don't miss out and don't be afraid. (I'm not the one you responded to in 10.6.17  4:59 am , btw).
i think you misunderstood what i was talking about. i was never afraid. i was very eager. but unfortunately people saw through me. they saw some kind of disinterest which i apparently didn't even know was there. at least this is how i think the story goes, from piecing together the rumors. by the way, we're talking about my childhood. ever since 2009 i've lived very professionally under a rock, building the 'bill wurtz' career that you and i have come to be familiar with