im best friends with my own front door activates this part of my brain i can never reach. it's amazing. it's the bent key that somehow unlocks the safe to gold and crack. specifically talking about 1:40 to the end, all the lines connect together so perfectlyHOW WAS THIS MASTERPIECE MADE. i want the full backstory. maybe some lines from the timestamp i said would do..
this is exactly what happened. all my life i've struggled with the reality that it takes me much much much longer than i wish it takes, to produce anything. years go by and i'm fighting to reach a reasonable pace, and never seem to succeed. well, one day i suddenly snapped, took a desperate walk outside, got angry and screamed at the sky a little (in my mind), and just said '2 weeks or die trying'. the thing is, i'm sure i've tried saying this before, but sometimes the stars align and it works. so the first part of doing any song is song selection. i go through my list of songs, which have a writing % completion of anywhere from .1% to 100%. and i have to choose one. this is normally almost impossible for me, and to do it right, i have to spend many days on it. i went through maybe 50% of the list, and it felt like none of them were really working for me at the time, and i felt a bit pressured to do it quickly (because of the 2 week challenge i was doing), and so in a snap decision, i said 'what song do i WISH i was doing', and i was able to trick myself into imagining the first line. so that was cool, felt like i was off to a roaring start, and then suddenly a day went by and i hadn't made it out of the 'box' of that melody/chord sequence. in other words, i had maybe the first 6 lines, which, as you can hear, are all within the same exact musical figure. but what scared me most was that i had spent way too long and only come up with a few seconds. and i knew this was no way to beat the 2 week challenge. so essentially i realized that i had to finish the writing in 4 hours. so basically a ruthless burst of paranoid speed had to kick in. you can probably hear the brute force, desperation, and then attempts to deal with it, in the 'bad sign' part, and 'not gonna happen' part. basically i've hurled myself off the edge, into whatever comes next, before having earthly idea what would actually come next. so in that sense i was almost improvising (in the writing). To be clear, i'm talking about the writing, which is done entirely before the recording. so i'm not saying i improvised the song during recording. i always write the song first. but during the writing process it felt a bit like improvising because i had to write it so fast. So the next few sections sort of have their ups and downs, for better or for worse, because at this point i've convinced myself that there's no turning back, i have to just run, because there's no time. And inevitably, if you are able to truly adopt this attitude, it eventually finds its feet. and that seems to happen when it lands on the outvamp, and these last 16 bars seem to be an outpouring of the exact emotions i was dealing with, in the circumstances of the 2 week challenge and all the desperation leading up to it, and how i was dealing with it