I only ever feel motivated to get things done when doing things for other people but I'm never motivated or encouraged enough to do or start the things I want to do for myself. How can I fix this, internet man who I am assuming is an all knowing deity?
at this point you seem mildly confused at yourself. i think for the solutions you need, it will have to escalate to anger. the good news is, this will happen naturally as you continue to endure this confusion