I can identify with that in a way. I feel like I'm always wanting to write these grand opuses out of my ideas, treating them like they have boundless potential and that I should only see them through to their maximum potential while also wanting spend time getting better at my instruments, spend time listening to other people/learning, going to work etc. and i slowly chip away at everything but nothing gets done. I may have fear of letting go of the attachment to my ideas and wanting to make them so grand. Did you have any hard time transitioning from not having a schedule to having a schedule? Did you have to set yourself time limits or alarms to remember to do certain things and move on to the next? Has having the schedule made you not just more productive in general as a result of it, but gradually increased your capacity to be more productive over time of consistently adhering to it?
ah, you must complete the 12 levels of suffering, then the 13th which is the unlucky last and final level; the reason it is unlucky is because after you finish it you will be informed that there is another level after that