I feel like there is a very thin line between existential crisis that causes a huge increase in motivation and productivity, and existential crisis that just sends you straight down the I-don't-give-a-fuck-about-anything-hole where you are no longer interested in society and die afraid and alone in a swamp. How do I stay on the motivational side without being eaten alive by the sense that I am inherently making myself ignorant to the fact that nothing actually matters anyway.
you need to actually figure out whether things matter