ive been playing classical and jazz trumpet for years and it has always been the only thing that my family and people like that recognize me as. ive gotten the same book of sheet music for every gift giving holiday the past 3 years. Im realizing now that it really doesnt make me happy, it actually makes me really really stressed. I dont want to stop playing because there are some good people in the same program as me and it is the only thing that i do. I leave school at 5 everyday and have 3 rehearsals a day. i dont think im great with rhythms, no matter how easy they are i mess up. i dread going to rehearsal everyday and i dont know what to do. i thought this is what i wanted to do with my life but now i dont want to look at sheet music ever again, i feel trapped. i cant talk to my family about this
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