i didn't mean that one hour long play script is one of the small steps. it's not a huge step for me but it definitely was a critical step that would help me take bigger steps forward. and i have no idea how i managed to do it either. after i took your advice  i thought "this is what i want to do, this is what i do best, what stops me? i can't take doing nothing anymore." and i started to note every little and crazy idea for anything, being reckless about if it's perfect for other people's standards. i travelled and wrote poems in those places. i tried to play guitar for the first time in years, it seems i need to dust off my old skills but ... i wrote lyrics, i guess? i had many, many, many fiction ideas for novels and i gained experience for non-fiction.  and i did everything on a small scale. THEN i jumped in at the deep end by accepting a task, which is this play. in fact i was going to refuse but i had to accept, 'they' made m
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 ain theme they gave to me was very common, but safe and i was given enough time to write. for like a week i didn't even start, i didn't think about it and then i remembered and i said "okay, you know what, fuck this. they want me to do what everyone else does. i'll give them and the audience the theme they want, but i'll do it my way." and i started to write nonstop, contextualizing the subject in a way no one ever dared before. i didn't care, i was just writing and soon i realized it's finished in just eight hours. because of this success i was feeling confident, i sent them the script saying "listen to me, i am your only chance to put this play on the stage in time, here is my script, i know it's crazy but i also know it's good, accept it or accept it, i won't be directing anything other than this." politely. and they LOVED it, i must admit that i was surprised. the play will be staged three months later (which is also a short time like eight hours for a play but i'll handle it) and i might do voice acting. i'm sure they will cut out the best scenes 'because it's not appropriate' but doesn't matter. the important thing is i have the original script i have written and one day i will be able to revive it the way i want. after the play is performed i'll continue with small but fast steps because i still don't feel ready to run, just like i said before it's just the beginning. so here comes the questi
 on, is m
 y situation somehow similar to how you started doing your contents?
no, i was never able to make connections with other people, and in turn i learned never to have to rely on others to complete my work