i wish i could talk to you, and i could, but i don't. because i am ruled by fear. i wish i were smart right now but, and i could try, but i subsist on ramen and tears of virgin misery. because i am ruled by irritable fearful stupidity. and i can't stand to try to be clever. i don't want that. i just want to say what really needs to be said. which i guess is whatever comes to my malnourished head. i am afraid to be scary. i am afraid to be ominous. i'm afraid i'm a crazy person. i wish i could i could i don't i am i wish i were i could i subsist i am i can't i don't i just i guess i am i am i'm afraid i'm a  part 2 of question mark ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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 hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh should i apologize what i'm so mad this is how i calm myself down not mad i mean desperate and energetic and it's almost like having a conversation but without the rejection part but without the feelign of talking to a wall part part part part part part part hello hi sorry no not i mean i'm only sorry if it's a burden so if it is then you shall receive my condolences, apologies, and heartfelt remorse via intuition within 3-5 business days see ya in a minute
hm, i know exactly the feeling