I noticed that you talk a lot about how you feel pressured to get a lot of content done because of getting older, having a finite amount of time, etc but you don't seem very old, I'm guessing in your 20s still, with a lot of time to accomplish a lot of things. What caused you to have that fear of not having enough time? (I hope you aren't like ailing or anything)
you may not realize the amount of content i am talking about