I can't  feel passion inside me. I don't know what it tastes to go something ruthlessly and fervently. I can't stress myself out, nor can I intrigue any excitement or thrill in my heart. I have things I want to do. But do I really want them? I guess so, and yet I feel apathetic towards them. How to make myself ablaze with fire instead lit in a half-dying way? I wonder.
i think just a bit of physical movement would be just the ticket for you right now, although you may loathe the idea for at least the first 2 seconds