bill, i have a set amount of time and a set amount of subjects to study in that time. i am freaked out because of the deadline and instead of working i'm thinking about how i could fail this thing. you have a lot of experience with deadlines and doing a lot of work. sure i'm working on it, but i have to work way harder than this to achieve succes . i know why i have to work, but i'm not productive enough . i don't have schedule. it's all over the place.
i have no idea how to get on a schedule. the only times it has happened to me, it happened like a lightning bolt. once you are on it, you can stay on it. when you're off it, it seems impossible to even find it. this is why it's so important to stay on once you are on, and the only way to get on is some kind of lightning bolt which i don't know exactly how to find. but it seems to find you at the moment when you are so desperate for it that you have literally exhausted all other options