Hiiii okay I did something today that was pretty great. I sat there... and I was just thinking about being super scared to do all my art stuff like music and drawing. I just HATE BEING UNSATISFIED WITH MY ART AHHH I HATE THAT FEELING. And I was like YOU KNOW WHAT I DONT GIVE A FUCK IM GOING TO DO IT EVEN IF ITS SCARY TO ME. SO I DREW AND PUT LED TO PAPER LIKE A MAN!!! AND I IMPROVISED MY SHITTY YET PRETTY GOOD LITTLE TUNES ON THE KEYBOARD LIKE A MAN!!! AND IM A GODDD NOW! I DIDNT LET MY JUDGEMENT STOP ME OR FAZE ME I JUST KEPT GOING AND I KNOW IT FEELS BAD BUT I CANT JUST STOP AHHHH I still wonder why it's so scary to me to do all this stuff. Like it's super scary man.  I still want to pinpoint the exact reasons. I'm just that kind of guy that wants to know exactly why I'm feeling scared. SO IM GOING TO CONTINUE ON AND HONE MY BEAUTIFUL SKILLS EVEN THOUGH IM KIND OF SHIT AND ILL TRY TO FIGURE OUT WHAT THE ROOT OF ALL THIS MENTAL SPAZ IS AND TRY TO BE AT PEACE WITH IT AND RESOLVE IT BUT IM STILL GOING TO DO MY ART AND NOTHING WILL STOP ME AHHHHHHHHHH hahahahaha. Ahah AHAHAHAHA  I gotta film a video of me saying this shit out loud that would be fun. Anyways my day has been A MIXED BAG but I have DONE SOMETHING THAT SCARED ME AND IM GOING TO CONTINUE DELVING INTO MY FEAR ANANSBSSBSBSBDBHDDHFHFB AHAHAHAHAHA AHHAHAHAAHAHHA FUCK THIS IS SCARY WHAT AM I DOING IM ACTUALLY REALLY SCARED TO TRY AGAIN BUT IM STILL GOING TO DO IT.  ANYWAYS I LIKE YOUR SONG MAN ITS REAL NICE. ITS A DIFFERENT CHANGE OF PACE I SUPPOSE. AND I LIKE IT. I LIKE ALL YOUR WORKS SO THATS GOOD. I DONT KNOW WHY MY HEAD IS STILL SPAZZING SND WHY IM STILL TYPING. BUT IM GOING TO SLEEP. IM GOING TO TRY. I THINK. UMMMM GOODNIGHT
sounds like you've got everything under control