what's up with this, i can't decide how i feel

i want to have a special, atmospheric, authentic connection with the art i look at but i also want everybody to have this experience, but i feel if we all do, maybe shit becomes almpst entirely Not Special
regardless of what world or paradigm we are living in, we will find ways to express ourselves. the results will range from mundane to magnificent, and surely often be both at the same time and also subject to each viewer's unique perception. i'm not sure if that answers your question. also after 400 years we usually only remember the good shit, so that's why people always think the present is lame by comparison, but it never is