i have surgery soon and they're putting me under sedation that will knock me out for a few hours but give me amnesia for like, most of the day. i fucking hate the idea of being conscious but not being able to form memories even if it's just for a day, it's making me feel sad and useless on an almost existential level to think about it, not to mention i'm worried i'll say something stupid. can you please suggest how i can cope with this
if i were you i would try to write something during that time. maybe set up a reminder to remind you to do it