scrutiny for graphics and music always feels bad in the moment but if you catch your own music and videos off guard like how the rest of the world perceives it, you may find they will still be able to appreciate it nearly as much as you hoped for. that is what i surmise at least.
it can go either way. i either am traumatized by how miserable the whole thing feels, or i feel on top of the world like a mad scientist who has discovered the cure for the impossible, if only the listener is in the right mood to notice. but either way i can always do better next time, or at least one of the next 5 times