it was like one of them moments you see in the movies when all your life flashes by you , cept since i seen it all before , it was more like the previously-seen-in-earlier-episodes part , but after that , in another flash , i saw something that i aint seen before my life as it oughta be , if all this hadnt happened , like it was gon na be before it all changed howd i be going to school , getting an education get my p-h-deegree , so i could fulfill myself and my ambitions to be a teacher , and then maybe meet a nice , middle-class man ( alright , i confess , a rich guy ) to marry and make a family with .