after that morning when the fireworks went off and i was walking on air most of the day , reality set in and i started freaking out i had agreed to not only travel thousands of miles but also go up against the best singers in the u.s. little me , whos never been further from home than san francisco , which isnt even a hundred miles from the small town where i grew up , and whose total professional entertainment experience consists of singing oldies on a dirty blanket to stoners .