loopey helped me fill out a questionnaire by reading out questions such like was i certain i wanted to do this , and i realized this was my decision , and nobody was making me do what was bout to be done , and i was undergoing this medical pro-seizure ( thats what they called it ) after fully considering what my options was and that this was the best decision for me and my future ( they dint seem to be curious about the babys future ) .