i thought about the trips we made gathering supplies , the night at stevie cs as we bar-hopped in fremont , his eyes at the lounge in des moines when i saw him watching me across the crowded bar , the street dance and the kiss we shared , the night i came to his house for dinner , the first time we made love and i finally and truly felt like a womana thousand little moments but all of them didnt add up to enough to last me my lifetime .