now , im a big girl reubens neck , abes called it onct -- and not much of a dancer , so the sight of me prancin roun must not have been a pretty sight , but he sat there with his legs crossed and with a kind of half-smile on his face and watched me in his booda pose the whole time , jest letting me be me , lettin me do what i wanted to do , what was in me to do , not telling me what was right or wrong or what jesus would do but jes lettin me be me .