i cried for the love that i 'd never obtain , i cried for the thoughts wasted on him , i cried for my mother whom he never loved , i cried for my father that he could never accept , i cried for all the times i had been envious of that perfect family , i cried for always thinking i had done something wrong to make him this way , i cried for being so stupid to believe he loved me , i cried because that bottle was worth more than i was , and i mostly cried for the best big brother i never had .