durrance as he had been used to do when he was at athos court frequented tournaments (utterance_0) before durate the scored to the enemy i saw steeds white with foam and after the shout of a battle a fearful torrent (utterance_1) these tidings came to urban (utterance_2) not i by my confession unto heaven said she there is nothing more hateful unto me than this (utterance_3) and the tis she said in the words she had spoken a welcome (utterance_4) and evil betide me said he if thou returnest here until thou knowest whether i have lost my strength so completely as thou didst say (utterance_5) then gerant went to see urban (utterance_6) sir said he i am going upon a quest and i am not certain when i may come back (utterance_7) take heed therefore unto thy possessions until my return (utterance_8) but one person only will go at me (utterance_9) and he desired enid to mount her horse and to ride forward and to keep a long way before him (utterance_10) and unless i speak unto thee say not thou one word either (utterance_11) and though thou shouldst desire to see my defeat in my death by the hands of those men yet do i feel no dread (utterance_12) and he received him and that not feebly (utterance_13) and say not one word unto me unless i speak first unto thee (utterance_14) i will do as far as i can lord said she according to thy desire (utterance_15) i maiden said he it is vain to attempt proceeding forward (utterance_16) i cannot by any means refrain from sleep through weariness said he do thou therefore wash the horses and sleep not (utterance_17) and when she saw the dawn of day appear she looked around her to see if he were waking and thereupon he woke (utterance_18) and they left the wood and they came to an open country with metals on one hand and mow was mowing the meadows (utterance_19) my lord he added will it be displeasing to thee if i ask whence thou comest also (utterance_20) wilt thou follow my counsel said the youth and take thy meal for me (utterance_21) what sort of meal he inquired (utterance_22) then they washed and took their repast (utterance_23) i go now lord said he to meet the knight and to conduct him to his lodging (utterance_24) i will do lord said she as thou sayest (utterance_25) and after they had eaten and drank dram went to sleep and so did eat it also (utterance_26) the date seemed unimportant but throughout the period the officers and men of the ship have been unremittingly busy (utterance_27) bows attacked the ship stores surveyed reliss and restowed them saving very much space by unstowing numerous cases and stowing the contents in the lazarette (utterance_28) without steam the leak can now be kept under with the hand pump by two daily efforts of a quarter of an hour to twenty minutes (utterance_29) as the ship was and in her present heavily laid in condition it would certainly have taken three to four hours each day (utterance_30) the large green tent was put up and purposed for its maid for it (utterance_31) the engine room staff and andersen's people on the engines scientists was stolen their labit george the cook refitting is galley and so forth not a single spot but had its band of workers (utterance_32) the men space such as it is therefore extends from the fore hatch the stem on the main deck (utterance_33) under the four castlers dolls for fifteen ponies the maximum in the space would hold the narrow irregular space in front is packed tight with fire (utterance_34) neatly behind the forecastle bulkhead is a small booby hatch the only inches of the men's messtic and bad weather (utterance_35) above the fore hatches the ice house (utterance_36) we managed to get three tons of ice one hundred sixty two cockases of mutton and three cockasses of beef besides some box of sweetbreads and kidneys into the space (utterance_37) the sacks containing this last added to the goods already mentioned make a really heavy deck cargo and one is naturally anxious concerning it but everything that can be done by lashing and scuring has been done (utterance_38) forage i originally ordered thirty tons of compressed oatin hay from melbourne (utterance_39) the scene is wholly enchanting and such a view from some sheltered sunny corner in a garden which blazes with masses of red and golden flowers tense to feelings of inexpressible satisfaction with all things (utterance_40) a great mass of people assembled (utterance_41) kay and i lunched with a party in the misealing companyship rupert hoo (utterance_42) tell a graham to say tere nova had arise sunday night (utterance_43) a third sledge stands across the break of the poop in the space hitherto occupied by the after which (utterance_44) the quantities two and a half tons and the space occupied considerable (utterance_45) the ship was over two feet by the stern but this will soon be remedyed (utterance_46) they must perforce be chained up and they are given what shelters afforded on deck but their position is not enviable (utterance_47) it is a pathetic attitude deeply significant of cold and misery occasionally some poor beast admits a long pathetic wine (utterance_48) they are generally wanted to on watch which eases matters but it is a squash (utterance_49) later in the day the wind has veered to the westward heading us slightly (utterance_50) oats and atkinson with intimate and assistance from others were busy keeping the ponies on their legs (utterance_51) there was nothing forward but to grapple with the evil and nearly all hands were laboring for hours in the ways of the ship heaving coal sacks overboard and relashing the petral cases et cetera and the best man are possible under such difficult and dangerous circumstances (utterance_52) no sooner was some semblance of ordery store than some exceptionally heavy way would tear away the lashing and the work had to be done all over again (utterance_53) from this moment about four a m the engineering became the centre of interest (utterance_54) the water gained in spite of every effort (utterance_55) the outlooker paid grim (utterance_56) the amount of water which was being made with the ship so roughly handled was most uncertain (utterance_57) williams had to confess he was beaten and must draw fiers what was to be done (utterance_58) the bills prompt is depended on the main engine (utterance_59) on one occasion i was waste deep and standing on the rail of the poop (utterance_60) the after god were organized in two parties by evans to work buckets the men were kept steadily going on the choked hand pumps this seemed all that could be done for the moment and what a magic account is the sole safe god of the ship from sinking practically an attempt to bail or out (utterance_61) occasionally a heavy sea would bear one of them away and he was only save by his chain (utterance_62) now this is how author hunted the stag (utterance_63) and the last dog that was let loose was a favorite dog of arthur caval was his name (utterance_64) then they sounded the death horn for slinging and they all gathered out (utterance_65) one wished that it should be given to the lady best be loved by him and another to the lady whom he loved best (utterance_66) and after midday they beheld an unshapy little man upon a horse and after him a dame or a damsel also on horseback and after her a knight of large stature bowed down and hanging his head low and sorrowfully and clad in broken and worthless armor (utterance_67) i know not who they are said he but i know said glenarva this is the knight whom geranne pursued and me thinks that he comes not here by his own free will (utterance_68) but geronite has overtaken an avengy insult to the maiden to the uttermost (utterance_69) lady said he at the gate there was a knight and i saw never a man of so pitiful an aspect to look upon as he (utterance_70) i do said he he tells me that he is ederan the son of nod (utterance_71) then she replied i know him not (utterance_72) sir glenarva went to the gate to meet him and he entered (utterance_73) and derange greets thee well and in greeting thee he compelled me to come hither to do thy pleasure for the insult which thy maiden received from the dwarf nor where did he overtake thee (utterance_74) sir said she when thinkest thou that gerant will be here (utterance_75) to morrow lady i think you will be here with the maiden (utterance_76) i am lord said he and i have met with much trouble and received wounds unsupportable (utterance_77) well that arthur from what i hear it be whose gwinever to be merciful towards thee (utterance_78) the mercy which thou desirest lord said she will i grant to him since it is his insulting to thee that an insult should be offered to me as to thyself (utterance_79) thus will it be best to do said arthur let this man have medical care until it be known whether he may live (utterance_80) to gwenver earn her hand midden said he (utterance_81) and the steward of the household so auditor (utterance_82) and being young he changed himself and grew to hate the sin that seemed so like his own of maudred otta's nephew and fell at last in the great battle fighting for the king (utterance_83) and when gerans came to the place where one of her was he saluted her (utterance_84) then they went in and dismounted (utterance_85) heaven protect thee said arthur and the welcome of heaven be unto thee (utterance_86) and inasmuch as thou hast vanquished edneron the son of nud thou hast had a prosperous career (utterance_87) and from that time she became his wife (utterance_88) and the maiden took up her abode in the palace and she had many companions both men and women and there was no maiden more steamed than she in the island of britain (utterance_89) and the year and a second and a third he proceeded thus until his fame had flown over the face of the kingdom (utterance_90) and he greets thee well as an uncle should greet his nephew and as the vassal should greet his lord (utterance_91) and the neighboring chiefs knowing this grow insolent toward him and covet his land in possessions (utterance_92) an author told you i ain't the cause of the mission and of the coming of the ambassadors to him out of conwell truly said durrain be it to my advantage or disadvantage lord i will do according to thy will concerning the cembassy (utterance_93) what discourse said glenarva do i hear between you (utterance_94) said durrance i think i shall have enough of knighthood with me and they set forth (utterance_95) and never was this seen a fair a host journeying towards the severn (utterance_96) and he said to durrance i am a feeble and an aged man and whilst i was able to maintain the demands for thee and for myself i did so (utterance_97) and every one asked that which he desired (utterance_98) and they were not long in giving so eager was every one to bestow gifts and of those who came to ask gifts none departed unsatisfied (utterance_99) then jerrains and ambassador basis to the men of cornwall to ask them this (utterance_100) and they also that it would be the fullness of joy and honour to them for geranne to come and receive their homage (utterance_101) so he received the homage of such as were there (utterance_102) and the day after the followers of arthur intended to go away (utterance_103) a number of other days were observed with a christian church of various times as the birthday of jesus the goss was given no date and appeared to be quite uncertain really ignorant about it (utterance_104) yet there is no evidence that he was born on that day (utterance_105) why this discrepancy in the historical document to say nothing about inspiration (utterance_106) again mattie says that to escape the evil designs of herod marian joseph with the infant jesus fled into egypt lukes has nothing about this hurried flight nor of herod's intention to kill the infant and sigh ah (utterance_107) when we come to the more important chapters about jesus we meet with quitter difficulties (utterance_108) while it is always on a friday that the crusphicians commimerated the week in which the day occurs very shrewd a year (utterance_109) good friday falls not before the spring equinox but as soon after the spring equinox is the full moonlouse thus making the calculation to depend upon the position of the sun and the zobeik and the faces of the moon (utterance_110) the pagan austeria has become a christian easter (utterance_111) that in the absence of evidence origin offers a following metaphysical arguments against the sceptical senses one (utterance_112) if we are to have any mythology at all he seems to argue why object to adding to it the miss of jesus (utterance_113) the immediate companions of jesus appear to be on the other hand as mythical as he is himself (utterance_114) who was matthew it was marked (utterance_115) who were john peter judas and mary (utterance_116) there is actually no evidence that they ever existed (utterance_117) if peter ever went to rome with a new doctrine how is it that no historian has taken note of him (utterance_118) here again we see the presence of a myth (utterance_119) he was the only one who saw them (utterance_120) peter paul john james judith's occupied a stage almost exclusively (utterance_121) it is impossible to explain why the contemporaries of jesus the authors and the historians of this time do not take notice of him (utterance_122) for they had been in a conspiracy against him (utterance_123) houses his unanimous signs be accounted for (utterance_124) how then are we to decide which other innumerable candidates for divine honours should be given our votes (utterance_125) and such a faith is never free it is always maintained but a sword now and by hell far hereafter (utterance_126) if the most impossible utterances are put in jesus mouth (utterance_127) only a mythical jesus could virtually hand over the gum of the eavers the quarters who have petitions to press upon his attention (utterance_128) moreover if jesus could keep his promise there would be to day no misery in the world no orphans no childless mothers no shipwrecks no floods no famines no disease no crippled children no insanity no wars no crime no wrong (utterance_129) heavy's prayers been answered (utterance_130) how many self delude profits these extravagant claims have produced (utterance_131) and who can number the bitter disappointments caused by such impossible promises (utterance_132) the saying which a preacher's of to day give he paried his answer with many words and at length said that the promise was we taken with the provision that what we asked for would be given if god thought it for our good (utterance_133) but he said if you ask anything in my name i will do it and if it were not so i would have told you (utterance_134) did he not mean just what he said (utterance_135) self effort and not prayer is a remedy against ignorance slavery poverty and moral degradation (utterance_136) but i am determined not only to know if it is possible the whole truth about jesus but also to communicate that truth to others (utterance_137) but there is more of a moral tonic in the open and candid discussion of a subject like the one in hand than in the multitude of platitudes (utterance_138) i never deliver a lecture in which i do not either directly or indirectly if full and free expression to my faith and everything that is worthy of faith (utterance_139) if i do not believe in dogma he is because i believe in freedom (utterance_140) oh he tears down but he is not built up is another criticism about my work it is not true (utterance_141) no preacher of priests is more constructive (utterance_142) class in truth and in jail yeg in the mouth of a student is that building up or tearing down (utterance_143) when brindle lighted a new torch to increase the lie of the world what was his foreword the stake (utterance_144) count your rites political religious social intellectual and tell me which of them was conquered for you by the priest (utterance_145) i wish to tell you something (utterance_146) the first list be impersonal the epithets irreverent blasphemer atheist and infidel are flung at a man not from pity but from envy (utterance_147) not having the courage or the industry of our neighbor who works like a busy bee in the world of men and books searching with the sweat of his brow for the real bread of life push into the wee hours of the night his quest animated but the fairest of all loves the love of truth we ease our own indolent conscience by calling him names (utterance_148) as i approached a city i heard bells ringing and a little later i found the streets astir with throngs of well dressed people in family groups winding their way hither and thither (utterance_149) looking about me i saw a gentleman in a neat black dress smiling and his hand extended to me with great cordiality (utterance_150) he must have realized i was a stranger and wished to tender his hospitality to me i accepted it gratefully i clasped his hand he pressed mine (utterance_151) we gazed for a moment slightly into each other's eyes (utterance_152) of course you are going there too i said to my friendly guide (utterance_153) yes he answered i conduct the worship i am a priest (utterance_154) an idol i whispered taken by surprise (utterance_155) they worship god they did not exist (utterance_156) but the greeks loved their gods i protested my heart clamoring my breast (utterance_157) no i said in a low voice (utterance_158) he was an idol then and not a god (utterance_159) it made athens a sea of light it created the beautiful the true the good yes our religion was divine (utterance_160) it had only one fault and droked my guide what was that (utterance_161) i inquired without knowing what his answer would be it was not true (utterance_162) produce him (utterance_163) i was with me to myself what blasphemy (utterance_164) then taking heart i told my guide how more than once i had felt apollo's radiant presence in my heart and told him of the immortal lines of homer concerned the divine apollo (utterance_165) do you doubt homer (utterance_166) i said to him homer the inspired bard (utterance_167) no no a pole is not an idol (utterance_168) he is a god and the son of a god (utterance_169) the air was heavy with incense a number of men in gorgeous vestments were passing to and fro bowing and kneeling before the various lights and images (utterance_170) observing my anxiety to understand the mean of all this my guide took me aside and in a whisper told me that a people were celebrating the anniversary of the birthday of their readerful saviour jesus the son of god (utterance_171) forget apollo he said with his objection of severitt in his voice (utterance_172) there was no such person he was only an idol (utterance_173) if you would assert for apollo and all the universe you would never find any one answering to his name or description (utterance_174) i want to see jesus i hasten turning toward him (utterance_175) will he not be here this morning (utterance_176) will he not speak to his worshippers i asked again (utterance_177) will he not permit them to touch him to caress his hand to class his divine feat to inhale the embrosial fragrance of his breath to bask in the golden light of his eyes to hear the music of his immaculate accents (utterance_178) i asked my eyes filled with wonder in my voice quivering with excitement (utterance_179) would not that then i venture to ask impatiently make uses as much of an idol as apollo (utterance_180) and if faith it jesus is a god proves him a god why will not faith in apollo make him a god (utterance_181) amid his offensive explanation of a given phenomenon (utterance_182) the mind craze for knowledge the child asked questions because of an embornic desire to know (utterance_183) now and then they came close enough to snap at each other (utterance_184) with this mythose the brompton man was satisfied and whose developing intelligence realized its inalacracy science was born of that realization (utterance_185) the myth of a one eyed people live in an india has in replace by act your information concerning the hindus (utterance_186) and this is precisely the use to which miss having put (utterance_187) is jesus smith (utterance_188) there is a man of faculty for fiction (utterance_189) it thinks less than a guesses (utterance_190) it is reflection which introduces of the into the mouth of imagination curbing its pace and subdue in its relentless spirit (utterance_191) we filled a space about and over us with spirits fairies gods and other invisible and airy beings (utterance_192) we come at the rainbow we reach out for the moon (utterance_193) our feet not really begin to touch the firm ground until we have reached the years of discretion (utterance_194) science was not born till men had been matured (utterance_195) grown up people created science (utterance_196) the cradle is the womb of other fairies and face and mankind (utterance_197) to scores the first place of science (utterance_198) religion is the science of the child (utterance_199) in the discussion of this subject i appeal to the mature not to the child mind (utterance_200) he is god's mouthpiece and no one may disagree with him (utterance_201) the only way i may command your respect is to be reasonable (utterance_202) let us place ourselves entirely in the hands of the evidence (utterance_203) as intelligent beings we desire to know where this jesus whose worship is not only costing the world millions of the people's money but which is also drawing to his service the time the energies the affections and the devotions and the laborer humanity is a myth or reality (utterance_204) and again when the artist's following malicorne's advice was a little late in arriving and when saint agnes had been obliged to be absent from those moments of silence full of deep expression which united in one side two souls most disposed to understand each other and who by no means objected to the quite meditation they enjoyed together (utterance_205) in a word malicorne philosopher that he was though he knew it not had learned how to inspire the king with an appetite in the midst of play and with desire in the assurance of possession (utterance_206) in this manner therefore without leaving her room and having no confidant she was able to return to her apartment thus removing by her appearance a little tarty perhaps the suspicions of the most determined sceptic (utterance_207) but the door remained close and neither saint agnen nor the painter appeared nor did the hangs even move (utterance_208) good and dearest love said the king that returned quickly (utterance_209) no no not to day sire (utterance_210) i knew but too well that you had not ceased to love me (utterance_211) the valory with a gesture partly of extreme terror and partly as if invoking a blessing attempted to speak but could not articulate one word (utterance_212) at the moment however when the king threw himself on his knees a cry of utter despair rang through the corridor accompanied by the sound of retreating footsteps (utterance_213) the captain sitting buried in his leather arm chair his spurs fixed in the floor his sword between his legs was reading a number of letters as he twisted his moustache (utterance_214) d'artagnan uttered a welcome full of pleasure when he perceived his friend's son (utterance_215) i owed my boy he said by what lucky incident does it happen that the king has recalled you (utterance_216) these words do not sound agreeably in the young man's ears who as he seated himself reply upon my word i cannot tell you all that i know is i have come back oh (utterance_217) that the king has not recalled you and you have returned (utterance_218) i did not understand that at all (utterance_219) crow was already pale enough and he now began to turn his hat round and round in his hand (utterance_220) what they doce is the matter that you look as you do and what makes you so dumb (utterance_221) said the captain two people nowadays assume that sort of heirs in england (utterance_222) i have been in england and came here again as lively as a chaffiche (utterance_223) will you not say something (utterance_224) i had too much to say (utterance_225) ah how is your father (utterance_226) forgive me my dear friend i was going to ask you that (utterance_227) d'artagnan increased his sharpness of his penetrating gaze which no secret was capable of resisting (utterance_228) you are unhappy about something he said (utterance_229) i am indeed and you know the reason very well monsieur d'artagnan (utterance_230) they do not pretend to be astonished (utterance_231) i am not pretending to be astonished my friend (utterance_232) i have neither head nor arm do not despise but help me in two words i am the most wretched of living beings oh (utterance_233) she is deceiving you said d'artagnan not a muscle of whose face had moved those are big words who makes use of them (utterance_234) every one ah (utterance_235) if every one says so there must be some truth in it (utterance_236) not for a friend for a son (utterance_237) i do stack it you are really ill from curiosity (utterance_238) nor does not from curiosity use from love (utterance_239) could another big word (utterance_240) i tell you i love louise to the stacyon (utterance_241) well suppose it were only that (utterance_242) no sensible man ever succeeded in making much of a brain when the head was turned (utterance_243) i have completely lost my senses in the same way a hundred times in my life (utterance_244) you would hear but you would not understand me you would understand but you would not obey me (utterance_245) o try try try try (utterance_246) i go far even if i were unfortunate enough to know something and foolish enough to communicate it to you you are my friend you say indeed yes (utterance_247) very good i should quarrel with you (utterance_248) i never complain as you know but as heaven and my father would never forgive me for blowing out my brain i will go and get the first person i meet to give me the information which you withhold i will tell him he lies and and you will kill you (utterance_249) and a fine affair that would be so much the better what should i care (utterance_250) you now assume a different tone instead of killing you will get killed yourself i suppose you mean very fine indeed (utterance_251) how much i should regret you (utterance_252) of course i shall go about all day saying ah (utterance_253) what a fine stupid fellow that bragelonne was (utterance_254) as great as stupid as i ever met with (utterance_255) go then growl go and get yourself disposed of if you like (utterance_256) i hardly knew who can have touch you logic but dose take me if your father has not been regularly robbed of his money (utterance_257) raoul buried his face in his hands murmuring no no i have not a single friend in the world (utterance_258) i don't fancies monsieur i do not laugh at you though i am a gascon (utterance_259) a carpenter what do you mean (utterance_260) upon my word i do not know someone told me there was a carpenter who made an opening through a certain floor (utterance_261) oh i don't know where (utterance_262) and who's run them (utterance_263) i have told you for the last hour that i know nothing of the whole affair (utterance_264) but the painter then departed (utterance_265) are you suiting to him only that name in your mouth (utterance_266) i do not suppose it will concern you (utterance_267) yes you're right and he made a step or two as if he were going to leap why are you going (utterance_268) to look for some one who would tell me the truth (utterance_269) who is that a woman (utterance_270) you wish to be consoled by some one and you will be so at once she will tell you nothing in live herself of course so be off (utterance_271) you are mistaken monsieur replied raoul the woman i mean will tell me all the evils she possibly can (utterance_272) well i admit it (utterance_273) and in point of fact why should i play with you as a cat does with the poor mouse (utterance_274) you distress me you do indeed (utterance_275) wait if you can (utterance_276) i could not so much the worse (utterance_277) ah said raoul snatching eagerly at the pin which the captain held out to him (utterance_278) how very fortunate that is he was looking for you too (utterance_279) she said in the same tone of voice it is not i who am going to speak to him oh then (utterance_280) i accompanied my granddaughter to this misinterchainment her ladyship responded (utterance_281) it is scarcely a choice occasion to my mind (utterance_282) no need the dresser's thought like that if it isn't ejaculated mister greeney (utterance_283) if our assuredness was the same man i adore myself (utterance_284) when i find a fellow whose neighboring knaves north full i six to him believe i'll send to find out (utterance_285) the only hive he had been any comment upon her was the first time he saw her in the dress she accompanied mactavius nice scambad he darted out didn't get a hero i'll wager (utterance_286) doesn't look like it he said gravely (utterance_287) no she answered i am not afraid of all (utterance_288) i shall not be afraid again (utterance_289) in fact she had perfectly confounded her ladyship by her demeanour (utterance_290) i beth you will not speak to me of that again she said i will not listen (utterance_291) and turning about she walked out of the room (utterance_292) and nothing more habits than on such extense (utterance_293) before breakfast miss blenda was startled by the arrival of another telegraph which maine as follows (utterance_294) arrived to day parosha beauty or morrow evening (utterance_295) friend with me martin bassette (utterance_296) well remarked rotsavia i suppose that would have been an advantage (utterance_297) octavia was a marked figure upon the grounds of that garden party neither dress my dear remarked mister burnham (utterance_298) and what a charming color she hasn't a clear so usually paler (utterance_299) perhaps the others to lord lynde's own (utterance_300) just pretty bad ever to day in its enjoying herself (utterance_301) she was enjoying herself mister francis braalt observed it rather gloomily as he stood apart (utterance_302) and then i come lord lyndez who uncrostened the lawn to shake hands with this host had been observed to keep his eye fixed upon one particular point bermestone he said after having smirk in his first words who is that tall girl in white (utterance_303) in ten minutes lady theopold mister bernard mister berylton liver others too numerous to mention saw miss selmya octavia's side evidently with no intention of leaving it (utterance_304) not long after this francis beryl found his way to miss belinda he was very busy and with her nervous unless it's evidently enjoying herself he remarked (utterance_305) octavia is most happy to day answered mister blenda (utterance_306) very few people under saint octavia said mister olanda i'm not sure that i follow all her moods myself (utterance_307) she is not as frivolous as she appears to those who don't know her well (utterance_308) bill stood long as mustache and made no reply he was not very comfortable (utterance_309) he felt himself ill used by fate and by their bush till he returned to london from barrack's instead of loitering in slowbridge (utterance_310) he had amused himself at first but in time he had been surprised to find its amusement loose something of its zest (utterance_311) it's deuceally bad form on his part he's lamentably what does he mean by it (utterance_312) alctifia on the contrary did not ask when he meant by it (utterance_313) where he ejaculated i say what a name (utterance_314) i had not observed it answered her ladyship (utterance_315) but she glared at beryl as she passed and beckoned to him where is lucia she remained (utterance_316) i saw her with burmiston half an hour ago he answered coldly have you any message from my mother i shall return to london to morrow leaving here early turn quite pale (utterance_317) what has happened she asked rigidly he looked slightly surprised nothing whatever he replied (utterance_318) i remained here longer than i intended (utterance_319) she began to move the myrkles in her right wrist (utterance_320) she had not brought lucia up under her own eye for nothing (utterance_321) chapter twenty three may i go (utterance_322) the very day after this octavia opened a fourth trunk (utterance_323) evidently something had happened octavia she said mister douglas binny is our old klaus who is he (utterance_324) he is my grand uncle exclaimed lucia tremulously he has a great deal of money (utterance_325) i did not quite understand my mama tivia she said (utterance_326) last night she came to my room to talk to me and this morning she killed in and oh (utterance_327) she broke out indignantly how could she speak to me in such a manner (utterance_328) what did you understand (utterance_329) i am to run after a man who does not care for me and make myself attract it when the hope that he will condescend to marry me because mister binny may leave me his money (utterance_330) do you wonder that it took even lady theodle a long time to say that (utterance_331) well remarked octavia you will do it i suppose i will don't worry (utterance_332) oh i always do it i didn't guess (utterance_333) which swelled ever so faintly (utterance_334) that is one of the reasons why she loathes me so she added (utterance_335) michel thought deeply for a moment she recognized all at once several things she had been mystified by before (utterance_336) octavia smiled a little again (utterance_337) lucia sat thinking her hands clasped tightly (utterance_338) i'm glad i came here said at length (utterance_339) i think i shall never be afraid of her any more (utterance_340) her delicate nostrils were valided and she held her head up her breath came fast there was a hint of exultation in rotto (utterance_341) she walked very fast after she left the house (utterance_342) but it was not against him that lucia's indignation was aroused (utterance_343) she wondered if he had heard her last words she fancied he had (utterance_344) he took hold of her shaking little hand and looked down at her excited face (utterance_345) i am angry he said you have never seen me angry before (utterance_346) i'm on my way to my lady theobald (utterance_347) he held her hand as calmly as before (utterance_348) what do you want to say to her he asked she laughed again (utterance_349) held her hand rather closer (utterance_350) she has made you very angry said (utterance_351) and then almost before she knew what she was doing she was pouring forth the whole of her story even more of it than she had told ottavia (utterance_352) we shall he said i wish you would let me go and talk with lady theobald you she's ever a little stark (utterance_353) yes he answered let me go to her (utterance_354) if you will say yes to that i think i can promise that you mean never be afraid of her any more (utterance_355) the fierce color died of her cheeks and the tears rushed to her eyes (utterance_356) she raised her face with a methodic look (utterance_357) i am desperately in love with you he entered in his quietest way (utterance_358) alo colonel how do you fill your wood this time (utterance_359) why that thing we must charge you between a quarter this time the don't (utterance_360) supper was over and i retired to my upper berth situated a long side and overlooking the box table where the captain was deeply engaged having now the other pilot as a principal opponent (utterance_361) had i been sure then and ticking six cords of its good theot tops and i can't very well leave the game now it's getting right warm (utterance_362) this pallet's beating is all the smash the witty completed and we paddled on again (utterance_363) their inches still formed the game and they tillered it (utterance_364) still with all these disadvantages they continue playing they wanted to learn the game (utterance_365) oh pretty glibly sir replied the mate we can scarcely tell what heavy we are making for we are obliged to keep in it all the river and there is a shutter of a fog rising (utterance_366) this whit smoothed ralpher better than that we took in a yellow faces but weren't nearly out again and must be looking out for more (utterance_367) as i'll wait just to hell in the brake show me hale (utterance_368) yes yes replied the captain bend the bell and ask for what's the price of what appear (utterance_369) i thought ilian here as double kings (utterance_370) tell sir if you please but i'll look like time (utterance_371) the other pilot's voice was again hurrah duck how much have you (utterance_372) only about ten courts sir was replied the youthful salesman (utterance_373) we've happened here told thompson to take six cords which would last a laylight and again turn its attention to the game (utterance_374) the palads here change places when did they sleep (utterance_375) with a again in the caravan again took her place in the middle of the stream paddling on as usual day at length dawned (utterance_376) i had risen and went out with a captain to enjoy a view of the bluffs (utterance_377) third is exclaimed the captain stop her (utterance_378) he was gone (utterance_379) no more deeply skies are crimson and amber tints (utterance_380) she sat by herself at the fire with unlighted candles on the table behind her the guillots of the day the happy walk happy sketching cheerful pleasant dinner and the uncomfortable miserable walk in the garden (utterance_381) here was she disturbed and then happy because a reinsting had made anything but a refusal impossible while he not many minutes after he had been the deepest wholly as proposal of his life could speak as if its briefs success in all the superficial consequences of a good house clever in agreeable society were the soul about objects of his desires oh dear (utterance_382) her mother came into the room before this whirl of toss was adjusted into anything like order (utterance_383) mister hale sipped his tea in abstracted silence margaret had the responses on to herself (utterance_384) she forgot that he had not made them an offer (utterance_385) margaret was preparing her mother's worst of work and rather shrinking from the thought of the long evening and wishing bedtime would come that she might go over the events of the day again (utterance_386) margaret (utterance_387) i want to speak to you about something very serious to us all (utterance_388) very serious to us all (utterance_389) mister lennox and never had the opportunity of having any point of conversation with her father after her refusal or else that would indeed be a very serious affair (utterance_390) but she soon felt it was not about anything which having only lately and suddenly occurred could have given rise to any complicated thoughts that her father wished to speak to her (utterance_391) mister hale did not answer for a minute or two (utterance_392) margaret could not bear the sight of the suspense which was even more distressing to her father than to herself (utterance_393) good bye dear papa don't tell me (utterance_394) because i must no longer be a minister in the church of england (utterance_395) but nothing to the shops who received from mister hale's last speech what could he mean (utterance_396) it was only worse for being so mysterious (utterance_397) why can you no longer be a clergyman (utterance_398) surely the bishop would told all the no about frederick and the hard and just (utterance_399) margaret i will tell you about it (utterance_400) or reliance at any questions this one's but after to night let us never speak of it again (utterance_401) i can need the consequences of my painful miserable doubts but it is an effort beyond me to speak of what has caused me so much suffering (utterance_402) no not doubts as to religion nor the slightest injury to that he paused (utterance_403) margaret sighed as if standing on the verge of some new horror (utterance_404) margaret how i love the holy church from return to be shut out (utterance_405) he could not go on for a moment or two (utterance_406) margaret could not tell what to say it seemed to her as terribly mysterious as if her father were about to whom mahomettean (utterance_407) the one state foundation of her home of her idea of her beloved father seemed reeling and walking (utterance_408) he swallowed down the dry choking soft which had been heaving up from his heart hitherto and going to his bookcase he took down a volume which he had often been leading lately and from which he thought he had derived strength to enter upon the cause in which he was now involved (utterance_409) listen dear margaret said he putting one arm around her waist (utterance_410) when god will not use thee one kind yet he will and another (utterance_411) if when thou art charged with corrupting god's worship falsifying thy wills their pretendest and necessity or its own lord to a continuance in the ministry (utterance_412) as he read this and glanced at much more which he did not read he gained resolution for himself and felt as if he too could be brave and firm in doing what he believed to be white but as he ceased he heard margaret's low convulsive sob and his courage sang down under the keen sense of suffering (utterance_413) i have won long with soft reproach there would have roused any mind less torpid and cowardly than mine (utterance_414) he shook his head as he went on (utterance_415) margaret i tried to do it i tried to content myself with simply refusing the destral preferment and stopping quietly here striving my conscience now as i had strained it before (utterance_416) god forgive me (utterance_417) he rose and walked up and down the room speaking low words of self reproach and humiliation of which margaret was thankful to hear but a few (utterance_418) margaret i return to the old said burden we must leave helstone (utterance_419) yes (utterance_420) i have written to the bishop i dare say i have told you so but i forget things just now said mister hale collapsed into his depressed manner as soon as he came to talk of hard matter of fact details informing him of my intention to resign the speakerage (utterance_421) they are but what i have cried upon myself without a wail (utterance_422) that will be a trial but worse far worse will be departing from my dear people (utterance_423) you will come to stay with us to morrow (utterance_424) was it to be so sudden then (utterance_425) what does mama say (utterance_426) margaret i am a poor coward after all i cannot bear to give pain (utterance_427) yes indeed she must said margaret (utterance_428) perhaps after all she may not oh yes (utterance_429) she will she must be shot as the false of the glory turned upon herself and trying to realize how another would take it (utterance_430) to milton northern he answered with a dull indifference for he had perceived that although his daughter's love had made her claim to him and for a moment striveed to soothe him with her love yet the keenness of the pain was as fresh as ever in her mind (utterance_431) milton northern (utterance_432) yes said he in the same despondent in different way (utterance_433) but he with this quick intuitive sympathy read in her face as a lumira the reflections of his own moody depression and turned it off with an effort (utterance_434) you shall be told old margaret (utterance_435) only help me to tell you mother (utterance_436) i am going out for the day to bid father dobson and the poor people on bracy common good bye (utterance_437) would you dislike breaking it to her very much margaret (utterance_438) margaret did dislike it dictioning from it more than from anything she had ever had to do in her life before (utterance_439) mister hale shook his head despondingly he pressed her hand in token of gratitude (utterance_440) margaret was nearly upset again into a burst of crying (utterance_441) to turn her thoughts she said now tell me papa what our plans are (utterance_442) you and mamma have some money independent of the income from the living have not you on shore has i know (utterance_443) seventy of that has always gone to frederick since he has been abroad (utterance_444) he must have sung to pay for serving with the spanish army (utterance_445) frederick must not suffer said margaret decidedly in a foreign country so unjustly treated by his own a hundred is left (utterance_446) no (utterance_447) said mister hale that would not answer i must do something (utterance_448) i can always decide better by myself and not influence by those whom i loved said he as a half apology for having the rain so much before he had told any one of his family of his intentions (utterance_449) i cannot stand objections (utterance_450) they make me so undecided (utterance_451) mister hale continued a few months ago when my measure of doubt became more than i could bear without speaking i wrote to mister bell you remember mister bell margaret (utterance_452) no i never saw him i think (utterance_453) at any rate he has property then which has very much increased in valleys since milton has become such a large manufacturing town (utterance_454) i don't know that he gaines my strength (utterance_455) the private tutor (utterance_456) said margaret looking scornful one in the world in manufactures one with the classics on literature or the accomplishments of a gentleman (utterance_457) oh said her father some of them really seem to be fine fellows conscience of their own deficiencies which is more than many man oxford is (utterance_458) some want their children to be better instructive than they themselves have been (utterance_459) and in milton margaret i shall find a busy life if not a happy one and people and sins so different that i shall never be in mind of helstone (utterance_460) discordant as it was with almost a detestation for all she had ever heard of the north of england the manufactures the people the wild and late country there was this one recommendation it would be different from helstone and could never remind them of that beloved place (utterance_461) when do we go (utterance_462) i do not know exactly (utterance_463) i want you to talk it over with you (utterance_464) you see your mother knows nothing about it yet but i think in a fortnight after my deed of resignation is sent in i shall have no right to remain (utterance_465) margaret was all the stand (utterance_466) but she recovered herself immediately (utterance_467) yes papa it had better be fixed soon and decidedly as you say (utterance_468) full for maria (utterance_469) oh if i were not married if i were but myself in the world how easy it would be (utterance_470) no said margaret sadly i will do it (utterance_471) you must not deceive yourself into doubting the reality of my words my fixed intention then resolve (utterance_472) he looked at her in the same steady stony manner for some moments after he had done speaking (utterance_473) the blessing of god be upon thee my child (utterance_474) the next moment she feared lest this answer to his blessing might be reverent wrong might hurt him as coming from his daughter as she threw her arms around his neck (utterance_475) she heard him murmur to himself the martyrs and confessors had even more pain to bear i will not shrink (utterance_476) they were startled by hearing missus hale inquiring for her daughter (utterance_477) in seventeen fifty he came forth in the character for which he was eminently qualified a majestic teacher of moral and religious wisdom (utterance_478) the vehicle which he chose was that of a periodical paper which he knew had been upon former occasions employed with great success (utterance_479) when i was to begin publishing that paper i was at a loss how to name it (utterance_480) i sat down at night upon my bedside and resolved that i would not go to sleep till i had fixed its title (utterance_481) addison's note was a fiction in which unconnected fragments of his lucubrations were purposely jumbled together in as awe a manner as he could in order to produce a laughable effect (utterance_482) whereas johnson's abbreviations are all distinct and applicable to each subject of which the head is mentioned (utterance_483) for instance there is the following specimen (utterance_484) public calamities no sense of the prevalence of bad habits nigligent of time ready to undertake careless to pursue all changed by time (utterance_485) confidence of others unsuspecting as unexperienced imagining himself secure against neglect never imagines they will venture to treat him ill ready to trust expecting to be trusted (utterance_486) you found wishes as thinking honours easy to be had (utterance_487) defect kinds of praise pursued that different periods (utterance_488) of the fancy and manhood (utterance_489) r r (utterance_490) scholars friendship like ladies (utterance_491) drawn to man by words repelled by passions (utterance_492) common danger unites by crushing other passions but they return (utterance_493) equality hinders compliance (utterance_494) superiority produces insolence and envy (utterance_495) too much regard in each to private interest to little (utterance_496) of confederacy with superiors every one knows the inconvenience (utterance_497) with equals no authority every man his own opinion his own interest (utterance_498) man and wife hardly united scarce ever without children (utterance_499) copiutation if two to one against two how many against five (utterance_500) in this as in many other cases i go wrong in opposition to conviction for i think scarce any temporal good equally to be desired with the regard and familiarity of worthy men (utterance_501) i hope we shall be some time nearer to each other and have a more ready way of pouring out our hearts (utterance_502) the greatest benefit which one friend can confer upon another is to god and excite and elevate his virtues (utterance_503) this your mother will still perform if you diligently preserve the memory of her life and of her death a life so far as i could learn with full wise and innocent and the death resigned peaceful and holy (utterance_504) i cannot forbear to mention that neither reason nor revelation denies you to hope that you may increase her happiness by obeying her precepts and that she may in her present state look with pleasure upon every act of virtue to which her instructions or example have contributed (utterance_505) if you write down minutely what you remember of her from your earliest years you will bid it with great pleasure and receive from it many hints of soothing recollection when time shall remove her yet farther from you and your grief shall be mature to veneration (utterance_506) number thirty two on patience even under extreme misery is wonderfully lofty and as much above the rents of stoicism as the sun of revelation is brighter than the twilight of pagan philosophy (utterance_507) it must indeed be allowed that the structure of his sentences is expanded and often has somewhat of the inversion of latin and that he delighted to express familiar thoughts in philosophical language being in this the reverse of socrates who it was said reduced philosophy to the simplicity of common life (utterance_508) this idle charge has been echoed from one babbler to another who have confounded johnson's essays with johnson's dictionary and because he thought it right in the lexicom of our language to collect many words which had fallen into disuse but were supported by great authorities it has been imagined that all of these have been into woven into his own compositions (utterance_509) their styles differ as plain cloth and brocade (utterance_510) our extremest pleasure has some sort of groaning and complaining in it would you not say that it is dying of pain (utterance_511) the highest and fullest contentment offers more of the grave than of the merry ipsophylichitoss say missy temperate premit even felicity unless it moderate itself oppresses (utterance_512) socrates says that some god tried to mix in one mass and a confound pain and pleasure but not being able to do it he bethought him at least to couple them by the tail metrodore said that in sorrow there's some mixture of pleasure (utterance_513) nature discovers this confusion to us painters holdeth the same motions and grimaces of the face that serve for laughter too and you will be in doubt to which of the two the design tends and the extreme of laughter does at last bring tears (utterance_514) and therefore common and less speculative souls are found to be more proper for and more successful in the management of affairs and the sharp vivacity of soul and the supple and restless volubility attending it disturb our negotiations (utterance_515) he who dies into and in his inquisition comprehends all circumstances and consequences hinders his election a little engine well handled is sufficient for executions whether of less or greater weight (utterance_516) when the lofty flucidities is about to enter upon his description of the plague that desolated athens one of his good dame draws forth a choice morsel from a cupboard to regale a favorite that this plague will give his history a most agreeable variety (utterance_517) such are the true subjects for the historic pen (utterance_518) the fall of empires the desolation of happy countries splendid cities smoking in their ruins the proudest works of art tumbled in the dust the shrieks and groans of whole nations ascending unto heaven (utterance_519) thus those swarms of flies which are so often execrated as useless vermin are created for the sustenance of spiders and spiders on the other hand are evidently made to devour flies (utterance_520) ancient traditions speak much of his learning and of the gallant inroads he had made into the dead languages in which he had made captive a host of greek nouns and latin verbs (utterance_521) it was observed however that he seldom got into an argument without getting into a perplexity and then into a passion with his adversary for not being convinced gratus (utterance_522) his abode which he had fixed in a bowery or country seat at a short distance from the city just at what is now called dutch street soon abounded with proofs of his ingenuity patented smokejacs that astonished and confounded all beholders (utterance_523) it is in knowledge as in swimming he who flounders and splashes on the surface makes more noise and attracts more attention than the pearl diver who quietly dies in quest of treasures to the bottom (utterance_524) the romans by this means erected their colonies for perceiving their city to grow immeasurably populous they eased it of the most unnecessary people and sent them to a men in action for fear lest idleness the mother of corruption should bring upon them some worse inconvenience (utterance_525) and we suffer the ills of a long piece luxury is more pernicious than more (utterance_526) and this also was one reason why our king philip consented to send his son john upon a foreign expedition that he might take along with him a great number of hot young men who were then in his pay (utterance_527) what other end does the impious art of the gladiators propose to itself what the slaughter of young men what pleasure fed with blood (utterance_528) prince take the honours delayed for thy reign and be successor to thy father's henceforth let none at rome be slain for sport (utterance_529) let beasts blood stain the inflecial serenna and no more homicides be there acted (utterance_530) it was not enough for them to fight and to die bravely but cheerfully too insomuch that they were hissed and cursed if they made any hesitation about receiving their death (utterance_531) the very girls themselves set them on (utterance_532) beginning of revolt (utterance_533) at this unexpected command the surprise was great on board the ford (utterance_534) light the fires exclaimed some (utterance_535) what with asked others (utterance_536) and stuff the stove with the masts added warren (utterance_537) did you hear me (utterance_538) who spoke cried hatteras (utterance_539) i did said pen advancing towards the captain (utterance_540) i say answered penn with an oath i say we've had enough of it and we won't go any further (utterance_541) you shan't kill us with hunger and work in the winter and they shan't like the fires (utterance_542) if you repeat what the man says answered hatteras i'll have you shut up in your cabin and guarded (utterance_543) and murmur was heard (utterance_544) the engineer followed by plover and wan went down to his post (utterance_545) the steam was soon got up the anchors were weighed and the forward veered away east cutting the young ice with her steel prow (utterance_546) between beecher point there are a considerable quantity of islands in the midst of ice fields the streams crowd together in the little channels (utterance_547) i'm beginning not to answered wall (utterance_548) hatteras still hoped to find an open sea beyond the seventy seventh parallel as sir edward belcher had done (utterance_549) ought he to treat these accounts as apocryphal (utterance_550) the next day the sun set for the first time ending thus the long series of days with twenty four hours in them (utterance_551) the men had ended by getting accustomed to the continual daylight but it had never made any difference to the animals the greenland dogs went to their rest at their accustomed hour and dick slept as regularly every evening as though darkness had covered the sky (utterance_552) the doctor by following johnson's advice accustomed himself to support the low temperature he almost always stayed on deck rubbing the cold the wind and the snow (utterance_553) there's more than one amongst us who would like to and imitate them i think (utterance_554) they are cowards mister clawbonny those animals have no provisions as we have and are obliged to seek their food where it is to be found (utterance_555) you hope that hatteras will succeed then (utterance_556) he certainly will mister clawbonny (utterance_557) i'm of the same opinion as you johnson and if he only wanted one faithful companion he'll have two (utterance_558) prince albertland which the ford was then coasting bears also the name of grenel land and though hatteras from his hatred to the yankees would never call it by its american name it is the one it generally goes by (utterance_559) on the eighteenth of august they sighted britannia mountain scarcely visible through the mist and the forward weighed anchor the next day in northumberland bay (utterance_560) and as a mortal apollo sop to earn his bread amongst men (utterance_561) afterward people wondered at admetus's ever smiling face and ever radiant being (utterance_562) that was before admetta sailed on the argogue with jason and the companions of the quest (utterance_563) thereafter at meadows having love of alcestis was even more happy than he had been before (utterance_564) a radiant figure it was and it matters knew that this was apollo come to him again (utterance_565) but apollo turned to admittance a face that was without joy (utterance_566) what years of happiness have been mine o polo through your friendship for me said naud menace (utterance_567) but still apollo stood before him with a face that was without joy (utterance_568) he spoke and his voice was not that clear and vibrant voice that he had once in speaking to admesis (utterance_569) admit us admetus he said it is for me to tell you that you may no more look on the blue sky nor walk upon the green earth (utterance_570) it is for me to tell you that the god of the underworld will have you come to him at matters and menace know that even now the god of landwald is sending death for you (utterance_571) if one will go willingly in thy place with death thou canst still live on go admittest (utterance_572) and then he came upon an ancient woman who sat upon stones in the courtyard drying in corn between two stones (utterance_573) there she was sitting as he had first known her with her eyes blurred and her knees shaking and with the dust of the courtyard in the husks of the corn in her matted hair (utterance_574) he went to her and spoke to her and he asked her to take the place of the king and goeth death (utterance_575) but when she heard the name of death horror came into the face of the ancient woman and she cried out that she would not let death come near her (utterance_576) and medicine took the man shrivelled hand and he asked him if he would not take the king's place and goeth death that was coming for him (utterance_577) then admetus went into the palace and into the chambers bed was and he lay down upon the bed and he lamented that he would have to go with death that was coming for him from the god of londeworld and he lamented that none of the wretched ones round the house would take his place (utterance_578) one should go in your place for you are the keen and have many great affairs to attend to (utterance_579) now the footsteps seemed to stop (utterance_580) it was not so terrible for him as before (utterance_581) and the words he had spoken he would have taken back the words that had brought her consent to go with death in his place (utterance_582) death would soon be here for her (utterance_583) no not here for he would not have death come into the palace (utterance_584) he lifted alcestist's strong bed and he carried her from the palace (utterance_585) no more speech came from her (utterance_586) and as for admeters he went within the chamber and knelt beside the bed on which all cast a sudden lane and thought of his terrible loss (utterance_587) to what god is that sacrifice due (utterance_588) and then rockelies felt that another labor was before him (utterance_589) i have dragged up from the lander world he thought the hounds that guards those whom death brings down into the realm of the god of the underworld (utterance_590) why should i not strive with death (utterance_591) and what a noble thing it would be to bring back this faithful woman to her house and to her husband (utterance_592) he left the palace of her meadows and he went to the temple of the gods (utterance_593) you are held by me death and you will not be let go unless you promise to go forth from the sample without bringing one with you (utterance_594) and death knowing that heracles could hold him there and that the business of the god of londonward would be left undone if he were held promised that he would leave the temple without bring one with him (utterance_595) she was veiled and admetus could not see her features (utterance_596) here is a woman whom i am bringing back to her husband i want her from an enemy (utterance_597) this i cannot do said her mistress i have had pains enough (utterance_598) then that matters raised the veil of the woman he had taken across the threshold of his house (utterance_599) thus when dogmas lead it what the man really and in general wills remain still the same (utterance_600) for these are careful only for themselves for their own egoism just like the bandit from whom they are only distinguished by the absurdity of their means (utterance_601) the deeds and conduct of an individual and of a nation may be very much modified to dogmas example and custom (utterance_602) with an equal degree of wickedness one man may die on the wheel and another in the bosom of his family (utterance_603) it is conceivable thy perfect state or perhaps indeed a complete and firmly believed doctrine of rewards and punishments after death might prevent every crime politically much would be gained thereby morally nothing only the expression of the will in life would be restricted (utterance_604) we who here seek the theory of virtue and have therefore also to express abstractly the nature of the knowledge which lies at its foundation will yet be unable to convey that knowledge itself in this expression (utterance_605) he sees that the distinction between himself and others which to the bad man is so great a gulf only belongs to a fleeting and elusive phenomenon (utterance_606) he recognizes himself his will in every being and consequently also in the sufferer (utterance_607) but the latter is the necessary and inevitable symptom of that knowledge (utterance_608) the opposite of the steam of conscience the origin and significance of which is explained above is the good conscience the satisfaction which we experience after every disinterested deed (utterance_609) to good man lives in world or friendly individuals the well being of any of whom he regards as his own (utterance_610) therefore although the knowledge of the lot of mankind generally does not make its disposition a joyful one yet the permanent knowledge of his own nature in all living beings gives him a certain evenness and even serendi of disposition (utterance_611) for the interest which is extended to innumerable manifestations cannot cause such anxiety as that which is concentrated upon one (utterance_612) accidents which concern individuals collectively equalize themselves while those which happen to the particular individual constitute good or bad fortune (utterance_613) thus though others have set up moral principles which they gave out as prescriptions for virtue and laws which it was necessary to follow i as has already been said cannot do this because i have no aught or lot prescribed to the eternally free will (utterance_614) further than this it cannot go for there exists no reason for preferring an individuality of another to its own (utterance_615) yet the number of other individuals whose whole happiness or life is in danger may outweigh their regard for one's own particular well being (utterance_616) so doth socrates and guirdano bruno and so many a hero of the truth suffer death at the stake at the hand of the priests (utterance_617) weeping is accordingly sympathy with her own selves or sympathy directed back on its source (utterance_618) it is therefore a conditional upon the capacity for love and sympathy and also upon imagination (utterance_619) when we are moved to tears not through our own suffering but through that of another this happens as follows (utterance_620) either we vividly put ourselves in the place of the sufferer by imagination or see in his fate the lot of humanity as a whole and consequently first of all our own lot and thus in a very roundburd way it is yet always about ourselves that we weep sympathy with ourselves which we feel this seems to be the principal reason of the universal and thus natural weeping in the case of death (utterance_621) first of all he certainly weeps for the fate of the dead but he also weeps when after long heavy and incurable suffering death was to this man a wish for deliverance (utterance_622) they were in the land this people said before the moon had come into the sky (utterance_623) and many of the magicians of egypt who had come with keen cessostrous stayed in that city of aea and they taught people spells that could stay the moon and are going and coming in arising and setting (utterance_624) media too his wise daughter knew the secrets talked by those who could sway the moon (utterance_625) for jason was the grandson of crythius and crytheus was the brother of athemus their grandfather (utterance_626) jason took peliss and telemon with him (utterance_627) as there came to the city a mist fell and jason and his comrades with the sons of fritzsus went through the city without being seen (utterance_628) the mists lifted and before the heroes was the wonder of the palace in the bright light of the morning (utterance_629) on each side of the courtyard were the palace buildings in one keen a etis lived with absurdest his son and then othered chalciope and medea lived with their hand agents (utterance_630) and then a dove flew toward her it was being chased by a hawk and medios saw the hawk's eyes and beak (utterance_631) we pulled away from that place and thereafter we were driven by the winds back to the mouth of the fussus (utterance_632) with him there came the mightiest of the heroes of greece (utterance_633) already he has heard of your bit of foes the sarah mattai (utterance_634) he with his comrades would subdue them for you (utterance_635) eda's heart was filled with wrath as he looked upon them and his eyes shone as a leopard's eyes (utterance_636) and then speaking to the king in a quiet voice jason said (utterance_637) his heart was divided as to whether he should summon his armed men and have them slain upon the spot or whether he should put them into danger by the trial he would make of them (utterance_638) it may be that ye are truly of the seed of the immortals (utterance_639) and it may be that i shall give you the golden fleece to bear way after i have made trial of you (utterance_640) she entered softly and she stowed away from her father and the four who were speaking with him (utterance_641) she had a dark face that was made very strange by her crown of golden hair (utterance_642) know that on the plain of paris yonder i have two far breathing bulls with feet abreast (utterance_643) then i sow the furles not with the seed that demeter gives but with teeth of a dragon (utterance_644) if you can accomplish this that i accomplished in days gone by i shall submit to and give you the golden fleece (utterance_645) but if you cannot accomplish what i once accomplished you shall go from my city empty handed for it is not right that a brave man should yield up to one who cannot show himself as brave (utterance_646) then jason utterly confounded cast his eyes upon the ground (utterance_647) i will dare this contest months for sad as a days (utterance_648) as he said this he sawed eyes of media grow wide as with fear (utterance_649) prontis and melce went to where their mother was (utterance_650) but what can i do so small and stupid and shy as i am (utterance_651) i must find some way to give the little ones nice christmas (utterance_652) tamo would like to have regarded him and sing while he places harp in the streets (utterance_653) yes i will try and then if i do well the little one shall have a merry christmas (utterance_654) but see then it is cold in the straits the wind bites and the snow freezes one's fingers (utterance_655) she thanked tommo and ran away to get ready for she felt sure her father would not refuse her anything (utterance_656) then she washed out little ronse's frock and put it to dry because she would not be able to do it the next day (utterance_657) she longed to make the beds and dressed the children overnight she was in such a hurry to have all in order but as that could not be she sat down again and tried over all the song she knew (utterance_658) when she had told her plan peter bernard shook his head and thought it would never do but tessa begged so hard he consented at last that she should try it for one week and sent her to bed the happiest little girl in new york (utterance_659) as soon as her father was gone tessa flew about and put everything in nice order telling the children she was going out for the day and they were to mind tommy's mother who would see about the fire in the dinner for the good woman loved tessa and then turned into her little plans with all her heart (utterance_660) portesse's heart beat fast as she trudged away with tom o who flung his harp over his shoulder and gave her his hand (utterance_661) it was rather a dirty hand but so kind that tessa clung to it and kept looking up at the friendly brown face for encouragement (utterance_662) say now have no fear give them bellah monica that is marian will make the laugh whispered tomo tuneing his harp (utterance_663) one fat old frenchman nodded to her and it seemed to help her very much for she began to sing before she thought and that was the hardest part of it (utterance_664) but tommo shook his curly head and answered soberly yes i took you there first for their love music and are of our country but up among the great houses we shall not always do well (utterance_665) but she had made half a dollar for toma divided the money fairly and she felt rich with her share (utterance_666) her hands were covered with chilblains for she had no mittens but she had put them under her shawl and shuffled merrily away in her big boots feeling so glad that the week was over and nearly three dollars safe in her pocket (utterance_667) how gave the streets word that day (utterance_668) how brisk everyone was and how bright the faces looked as people trotted about with big baskets holly wreaths and young evergreens going to blossom into splendid christmas trees (utterance_669) but i can't so i'll fill the socks all full and be happy said tessa as she looked wistfully into the gay stores and saw the heavy baskets go by (utterance_670) who knows what may happen if we do well returned tommo owning wisely for he had planned as well as tessa and kept chuckling over it as he chedged through the mud (utterance_671) we'll try one more street and then go home there are so tired little one (utterance_672) at the fourth some people let them sing all their songs and gave nothing (utterance_673) tessa felt so grateful that without waiting for tommo she sang her sweetest little song all alone (utterance_674) alas mamma said rose and away she went into the dining room close by (utterance_675) as the door opened tessa saw what looked to her like a fairy feast all silver mugs and flowery plates and oranges and nuts and rosy wine and tall glass pitchers and smoking dishes that smelt so deliciously she could not restrain a little sniff of satisfaction (utterance_676) ah yes i shall come with much gladness and play as never in my life before cried tommo with a flourish of the old cap that made the children laugh (utterance_677) give this to your brother said the fairy prince stuffing nuts and oranges and to test his hands (utterance_678) ah so kind so very kind i have no way to say thank you but ronsa shall be for you a heavenly angel and i will sing my heart out for your tree cried chatsa folding the mittens as if she would say a prayer of thankfulness if she knew how (utterance_679) she got up early to see if the socks were all right and there she found the most astonishing sight (utterance_680) four socks instead of three and by the fourth pinned out quite elegantly was a little dress evidently meant for her a warm woollen dress all made and actually with bright buttons on it (utterance_681) tessa screamed and danced in her delight and oft tumbled all the children to scream and dance with her making a regular carnival on a small scale (utterance_682) in her long stocking she found all sorts of treasures for tommo had stuffed it full of queer things and his mother had made tingerbread into every imaginable shape from fat pigs to full omnibuses (utterance_683) little ramsey was accepted with delight by the kind lady and her children and tessa learn the song quite easily (utterance_684) arose from the crowd of children gathered to the festival (utterance_685) before they went home the kind mamma told tessa she should be her friend and gave her motherly kiss which warmed the child's heart and seemed to set a pieceal upon that promise (utterance_686) the senator took his seat in the pulpit with the minister on one side of him and the superintendent of the sunday school on the other (utterance_687) so aught were they by the presence of a living united states senator that during three minutes not a spit ball was thrown (utterance_688) after that they began to come to themselves by degrees and presently the spell was wholly gone and they were reciting verses in polly hair (utterance_689) the usual sunday school exercises were hurried through and then the minister got up and bored the house with a speech built on the customary sunday school plan then the superintendent put in his oar then the town dignitaries had their say (utterance_690) and i am some populous center of my own country where the choicest children of the land have been selected and brought together as at a fair for a prize no (utterance_691) then where am i yes where am i (utterance_692) my soul is lost in wonder at the thought (utterance_693) earth has no higher no grander position for me (utterance_694) then what is it what did my consciousness reply (utterance_695) ah think of that now i could hardly keep the tears back i was so grateful (utterance_696) they could not give him a costly education but they were good and wise and they sent him to the sunday school he loved the sunday school (utterance_697) i hope you love your sunday school ay see by your faces that you do that is right (utterance_698) always love your teachers my children for they love you more than you can know now (utterance_699) and by and by the people made him governor and he said it was all owing to the sunday school (utterance_700) why the people gave him a towering illustrious position a grand imposing position (utterance_701) it was senator of the united states (utterance_702) that poor little boy that loved his sunday school became that man that man stands before you (utterance_703) above all things my children be honest (utterance_704) when senator dower they departed from cattleville he left three dozen boys behind him arranging a campaign of life whose objective point was the united states senate (utterance_705) never mind polly said jasper there's all next summer and after our winter and dressed in and all our hard work over music one of the fine notes had jumped round again and his eyes glistened (utterance_706) and you'll go on drawing and painting till you get to be a great artist returned polly enthusiastically and then we'll see something you've done in the loop maybe the loove cried adela oh dear me polly pepper (utterance_707) tom selwyn had been very sober during all this married chatter and now in his seat across the narrow aisle he drugged his heels impatiently on the floor (utterance_708) what's up little mother asked tom in surprise at her unusual manner it's just this tom (utterance_709) when the news was circulated as it was pretty soon that the party was not to be broken into it all till paris was a completed story the jubilation was such as to satisfy even tom (utterance_710) oh isn't it oats peas beans and barley grow cried polly as they watched them intently (utterance_711) and his long arm went out and picked a jack and end of an urchin who incautiously regarding such quiet travellers as not worth minding had hovered too near while trying to tease the girls (utterance_712) and presently a woman came and took little blue pinner for off and then the rest of the girls unclasped their hands and the ring melted away and the game was over (utterance_713) i'm glad the girls over here have fun said polly as grandpapa and his party moved off isn't it nice to think they do (utterance_714) two or three days of rest at martini put every one in good shape and gave them all a bit of time to pick up on many little things that were behind hand (utterance_715) that's my third letter polly announced jasper on the other side of the table now i'm going to begin on jewels (utterance_716) one two said polly counting why i thought i'd written three well this one is most finished jasper (utterance_717) dare said tom delighted to think that no terrible words all had really ensued from his words that after they were out had scared him mightily (utterance_718) i'll postures to polly give them here (utterance_719) then his face brightened and he said and she's right polly while polly fished up frank out of joe's little money bag that hung in her belt (utterance_720) dig at the stamps pleased jasper and put them on and he took up her two letters and she gave the bag a little pat for joe's sake wishing it was his stubby black hair that her fingers could touch (utterance_721) i don't know where we are going to get ice weight paper for a round robin said polly leaning her elbows on the table and her chin in her hands i know ejaculated tom whirling on his heel and dashing out (utterance_722) i want polly too said phronsie wriggling away from the pen that polly held out alluringly (utterance_723) phronsie who hadn't heard what polly said her small head being full of the responsibility of beginning the important letter and considering since it was to be done it was best to have it over with as soon as possible felt as scribbling the letters as fast as she could all of them running down hill (utterance_724) it's all right grandy i like it he said (utterance_725) i tell you you don't know my granddaddy he's got lots of fun in him he added (utterance_726) i won't cry any more declared phronsie wiping off the last cheer trailing down her nose (utterance_727) then i shall be all as well as ever said polly kissing the wet little face (utterance_728) we must put in little pictures said polly trying to make herself cheery as the work went busily on (utterance_729) polly you always do you think of the best things exclaimed jasper beaming at her which made her try harder than ever to smile (utterance_730) i wouldn't feel so badly polly he managed to whisper when phronsie was absorbed within work hell like you probably just as father did the chinge bread boy (utterance_731) he seems to accomplish something every time he goes observed jasper dryly hello just lookin a mill (utterance_732) oh dear me exclaimed adela as her scissors slipped now you've jockled the table again then she caught polly's eye (utterance_733) rather not much obliged tom bobbed his thanks (utterance_734) picture after picture cut from railroad guide books illustrated papers and it seemed to jasper gathered as if by magic with cunning little photographs broke up the letter and wound in and out with funny and charming detail of some of their journey (utterance_735) the rest of his nice whispered jasper and i ventured to say that hell like that the best of all (utterance_736) mister king thought so too and he beamed at phronsie so you did he cried now that's fine i wish you'd write me a letter some time (utterance_737) i don't know how to say good bye to you nellie told dorothy and then next morning (utterance_738) oh that will be splendid declared nan (utterance_739) you're quite rich now aren't you remarked dorothy (utterance_740) and dorothy went up and down the room like the pictures of cinderella's proud sisters (utterance_741) and we will be on hand thank you replied the joking dorothy (utterance_742) come nellie called missus mc clochland i'm ready where's your hat (utterance_743) we might be able to manage that too nearly told him (utterance_744) my uncle is a fireman and he can take us through his engine house (utterance_745) most of them my guests answered bert (utterance_746) well we have had a good vacation and i'm willing to go to work again (utterance_747) so am i declared nan vacation was just long enough i think (utterance_748) mister bobbsey was down from the city of course to take the family home and now all hands even freddy and clossy were busy packing up (utterance_749) there were the shells to be looked after the fish nets besides downy the duck and smeak the cat (utterance_750) and so our little friends had spent all their vacation (utterance_751) captain bull the commander of the small garrison at sabrook permitted him to land but when the governor began to read his commission oll ordered him to be silent (utterance_752) what has happened mister prince was worth asked for he could see that the man was greatly excited governor andreas has come again gasped mister prince why should that alarm us the fellow though given to boasting is not dangerous or liable to put his threats into execution but he has grown dangerous declared mister prince the liberties of the colony are involved (utterance_753) captain wadsworth became a little uneasy though he was still inclined to treat the matter lightly (utterance_754) we have stubbornly refused to yield our charter voluntarily for it is the guardian of our political brights (utterance_755) that is true captain wadsworth continued mister prince and to subdue our stubbornness this visitor has come to hartford with sixty armed men to demand the surrender of the charter in person (utterance_756) captain wozard found it to his feet in a rage and placing his hand on the hilt of the sword declared he shall not have it (utterance_757) the day was well nigh spent when he arrived and the members were engaged in a heated debate on a subject of the utmost importance (utterance_758) he consented however to await the discussion but as soon as it was ended he declared that he would have the charter (utterance_759) after that captain had taken two or three turns across the room he paused and asked (utterance_760) what is the assembly doing engaged in the debate (utterance_761) and will he wait until it is ended he has promised to do so (utterance_762) mister prince fixed his amazed eyes on the captain's face and read their desperate determination captain he began (utterance_763) mister prince bowed and hastily returned to the house where the assembly was in session (utterance_764) as soon as he was gone charles stephen said (utterance_765) yes charles will answer what do you mean uncle (utterance_766) never did debaters take greater interest in a minor subject (utterance_767) what do you intend doing uncle will you fight them (utterance_768) remember the worth must be done right at the time not too soon nor to wait (utterance_769) the sun was setting and the captain said (utterance_770) come charles let us hasten to the assembly (utterance_771) by no means but i want you to be fully impressed with the seriousness of your mission (utterance_772) take your place charles and be prepared to do your part whispered captain wot's work (utterance_773) charles god is close to the long table use by the secretary's is possible without attracting special attention (utterance_774) the discussion went on darkness came and four lighted candles were placed on the table in two set on a shelf on the wall (utterance_775) those two candles on the wall were a great annoyance to charles until he saw a man station near them (utterance_776) though the lights were extinguished through the window the faint scarlet dimly illuminated the scene (utterance_777) he followed him as rapidly as he could (utterance_778) the youth was close behind him and when they were outside seized his arm (utterance_779) boys have a care how you approach me (utterance_780) the soldiers began the crowd about the house when at a signal from captain wozworth the train vance came on the scene and prepared to grapple with the soldiers (utterance_781) where is the charter (utterance_782) you have your soldiers at the door and we have the train bands of connecticut ready to define us against violence (utterance_783) who of you has the charter (utterance_784) it was the boy cried the enraged governor (utterance_785) every member of the assembly shook their heads (utterance_786) we do not know him he does not live in tannamicate where does he live (utterance_787) little did the captain or his youthful assistant dream that their simple act would make the old tree historic (utterance_788) the tree in which the document was hidden was ever afterwards known as charter oak (utterance_789) it remained the grists bearing fruit every year and tittle a little after midnight august eighteen fifty six when it was prostrated by a heavy storm of wind (utterance_790) when the order from the seizure of the charitives was first made known assembly roe island sent a most loyal adjuts to the king saying (utterance_791) he formerly dissolved the assembly broke the seal of the colony which bore the figure of an anchor and the word hope admitted five and inhabitants into his legislative council and assumed the function of governor but he did not take away the parchment on which the charter was written (utterance_792) from that time until the fourstunion of the colonies from mutual defence at the birthday out of the french and indian war the inhabitants of rhode island or their share in the defensive efforts especially when the hostile savages hung along their frontiers of new york like an ill omened cloud (utterance_793) the history of that commonwealth is identified with that of all new england from the beginning of king william's war soon after to the expulsion of andrews (utterance_794) a beautiful day had grown out of the dreadful storm (utterance_795) and everybody was so happy (utterance_796) the neptune the vessel that had struck on the sandpar was now stayfully anchored near shore and the sailors came in and out in row boats back and forth to land just as they wished (utterance_797) then we had to go back to work at the logs went on the captain and then one of our crew took a fever (utterance_798) that was what delina's soak (utterance_799) finally we had every log loaded on the schooner and we started off (utterance_800) we camped on getting home last week when this last storm struck us and drove us out of our course (utterance_801) about the value asked mister bobbsey who has done from the city (utterance_802) the value repeated the captain aside so that the strangers might not hear (utterance_803) while i'm a rich man now and so is my mate mac glucklin for that wood was contracted for by the largest and richest pianoform in this country and now it is all but delivered to them and the money in our hands (utterance_804) yes indeed it would have taken us a lifetime to accumulate as much money as we have earned in this year (utterance_805) maybe on emily will take you down to the city on her shopping tour suggested nan (utterance_806) he made the clerks and moved all the trucks from the aisles and i guess everybody was glad the army fell down (utterance_807) the wonderful fresh air that these men lived in night and day had brightened their eyes too so that even the plainest feast and the most awkward man among them was as nimble as an athlete from his perfect exercise (utterance_808) called bert who had heard his uncle getting ready to run down to the water's edge (utterance_809) it's a schooner said mister bingham to mister mintrel and she is a very heavy cargo (utterance_810) to this cord was fastened a heavy roper cable (utterance_811) what's that board for asked bert as he saw aboard following the key hole (utterance_812) thence the directions said hell (utterance_813) they are printed in a number of languages and they tell the crew to carry the end of the cables high up to the mast and fasten it strongly there (utterance_814) oh i see said bert the line will stretch then and the breeches bully will go out on a poly (utterance_815) there was clear day now and much of the wicked storm had passed (utterance_816) with the daylight came girls and women to the beach (utterance_817) missus bobbsey missus minterne nellie and her mother besides dorothy and nan were all there flossy and frettie being obliged to stay home with dinah and susan (utterance_818) of course the girls asked all sorts of questions and burton how tried to answer them as best they could (utterance_819) it seemed a long time before any movement of the cables showed that the bully was returning (utterance_820) nearer and nearer it came until now a man's head could be seen (utterance_821) the girls and women were too frightened to talk and melley clung close to her mother (utterance_822) a big roller dashing in finished the work for the lifegirds and a man in the courtyard banded upon shore (utterance_823) everybody gathered around and nellie with a strange face and a stranger hope broke through the crowd to see the rescued men (utterance_824) oh it is my father she screamed falling right into the arms of the drenched man (utterance_825) but the half drowned man rubbed his eyes as if he could not believe them then the next minute he pressed his little daughter to his heart and able to speak a word (utterance_826) and as george bring him out there anxiously asked the brother (utterance_827) safe and well can the welcome answer (utterance_828) i guess our prayers were heard last night (utterance_829) here come to another man exclaimed the people as this time a big man dashed on the sands (utterance_830) while i declare we did the land on a friendly shore (utterance_831) just as mister bingham said the lice saving work turned out to be a social affair for there was a great time greeting nellie's father and hell's uncle (utterance_832) and helen his father too put in nan (utterance_833) what a morning that was at sunset beach (utterance_834) i'm so gladly prayed said little flossie to credit when she heard the good news (utterance_835) fay captain cries i as i was going down into his cabin is a man never overtaken by death in this passage (utterance_836) why there's not time for a man to be sick in it replied he what a cursed liar for i am sick as a horse quoth i already what a brain upside down hey day (utterance_837) sick sick (utterance_838) sick sick (utterance_839) when shall we get to land (utterance_840) the wind chopped about (utterance_841) is death than i shall meet him full in the face (utterance_842) captain quoth she for heaven's sake let us get ashore (utterance_843) was not democratus who loved ten times more than i town clerk of abdura (utterance_844) nay if you don't believe me you may read the chapter for your pains (utterance_845) i see shawls of them depart not perhaps without an innate longing too to quit the island along with those happy snobs (utterance_846) farewell dear friends i say new litter know that the individual who regards you from the beach is your friend and histor reographer and prosser (utterance_847) i went to day to see our excellent friend's smokes on board the queen of the french many scores of snobs were there on the deck of that friendship marching force in their bride and bravery (utterance_848) they will be at austint in four hours they will enumbate the continent next week they will carry into far lands the famous image of the british snob (utterance_849) i have seen snobs in pink coats and taunting boots scouring over the campania rome and have heard as their rogues and their well known slang in the galleries of the fatikin and under the shadowy arches of the colosseum (utterance_850) my lady marchioness comes on board looks round with sad happy air of mingled terror and impertinence which distinguishes her ladyship and rushes to her carriage for it is impossible that she should mingle with the other snobs on deck (utterance_851) there she sits and will be ill in private (utterance_852) the strawberry release on her chariot panels are engraved on her ladyship's heart (utterance_853) and david's yo'd best take the pistol case into his cabin (utterance_854) look at honest nason hampsticks and his lady and their little son (utterance_855) what a noble air of blazing contentment illuminates the features of those snobs of eastern race (utterance_856) what a twollett hounds did she says (utterance_857) he will never spare himself any cheap enjoyment (utterance_858) i have said before i like to look at the peoples on their gala days they are so picturesquely and outrageously splendid and happy (utterance_859) yonder comes captain bull spick and span tide and drum which rathers for four or six months every year of his life who does not commit himself by luxury of raiment or insolence of demeanor but i think is as great a supper's any man on board (utterance_860) bob passes the season in london sponging for dinners and sleeping in a garret near his club (utterance_861) see he's of told cabbers already i told you he would (utterance_862) that broad shouldered book with a great whiskers on the clean white kid gloves is mister falham clansey of paul du de clancie he endeavours to disguise his native brook with the richest superposition of english and a fiquay at billiards or a cart with him did chances are that he will win the first game and he the seven or eight games ensueing (utterance_863) the next person is but hark (utterance_864) when a gross instance of snouchness happens i should not the indignant journalist calls the public attention to this at delinqueracy too (utterance_865) how for instance could set wonderful kate of the earl of mangell verta at his prosser be examined in the snobbish point of view (utterance_866) all we require is that a man should be recommended to us by the earl of manga rossitcha (utterance_867) oh your pride of all snob blend (utterance_868) oh be cruelly truckling self confessed luckies and parasites (utterance_869) it was her slobbish sentiment that misled her and made her vanities a prey to the swindling fortune teller (utterance_870) how would your count for the prodigious benevolence exercise towards the interesting and french lady (utterance_871) the honest boarding house people at her feet at once (utterance_872) good honest simple lord loving children of snobbling (utterance_873) finally there was a case of de right honourable mister fernand that yorke (utterance_874) the right honourable was a son of a nobleman and practised on an old lady (utterance_875) then he cast his nets over a family of father mother and daughters one of him he proposed to marry (utterance_876) one day the trait of blood with a teapot and a basket full of cold thick choss (utterance_877) it was a right honourable which baited the hook which gorge old these greedy simple snobs (utterance_878) what they have been taken in by commoner (utterance_879) alas and alas what more to man than speaks a truth can have for such a landlady (utterance_880) and yet all these instances of fond andcredulous slobbishness have occurred on the same week's paper with who knows how many school more (utterance_881) we are three sisters whom seventeen to twenty two (utterance_882) we are just the same to persons who mister hamilton's name must desert without it (utterance_883) if you do i cannot help it but i am of a sanguine disposition and entertain a lingering hope (utterance_884) excuses growl but i always write had long (utterance_885) we never write and perfumed a paper in short i can't help thinking that if he knew us you would not think his snops (utterance_886) i shall have a black crape around my white hat and my usual bamboo came with sir richly gilt log (utterance_887) i am sorry there will be no time to get up moustaches between now and next week (utterance_888) from seventeen to twenty good gods or ages (utterance_889) dear young creatures i can see you all three (utterance_890) seventeen suits me as near as my own time of life but might i don't say two and twenty still old (utterance_891) no no and that frittier rogues demure middle one (utterance_892) keys p's thou silly little fluttering heart (utterance_893) you slobsty young ladies (utterance_894) i will pull any man's nose he says say (utterance_895) there is no harm in being of a good family (utterance_896) you can't tell but poor dears what's in the name (utterance_897) that very confidence saves us of arrogants and to be arrogant is to be a snob (utterance_898) but are there no cunning natures no tender hearts no soul's humble simple and truth loving (utterance_899) ponderwell on this question sweet young ladies (utterance_900) interest however still runs on in both cases superiortica or accidental payment of it just serving to keep the memory of the affair for life pup comes a creditor upon each and by demanding principle upon the spot together with full interest to the very day makes them both feel the full extent of their obligations (utterance_901) as reader for i hate your ribs has a thorough knowledge of human nature i need not say more to satisfy him that my hero could not go on at this rate without some slight experience of season to dental mental mimitis (utterance_902) to speak the truth he had wantonly involved himself in a multitude of small book debts of this damp which notwithstanding eugeneous as frequent a device (utterance_903) eugenius would never admit this and would often tell him that one day or other he would certainly be reckoned with and he would often add in an accent of sorrowful apprehension tis the uttermost bite (utterance_904) what inclined eugenius to his same opinion was as follows (utterance_905) yorik followed eugenius was his eyes to the door he then closed them and another opened them more (utterance_906) alas poor yorick (utterance_907) nevertheless in general appearance the harrier and the fox hounded very much alike the one obvious distinction being that of size (utterance_908) if you want to hunt your harriers on foot sixteen inches is quite big enough almost too big to run with but if you are riding to them twenty inches is a useful height or even nineteen inches (utterance_909) it is useless to lay down in a hard and fast rule as to color it is so much a matter of individual taste (utterance_910) but puppies are usually sent out to walk and may easily be procured to be captain reared until they are old enough to be entered to their work (utterance_911) he is of course finer but with the length of necks so perfect in the bigger hound little shoulders of the same pattern and the typical quarters and second thighs (utterance_912) and when he is fairly on a line of course he sticks to it as the saying is like a beagle (utterance_913) it is quite possible therefore that the beagle was crossed with the welsh southern or otter hound to get more size and power as there certainly was a welsh rough coated beel of good eighteen inches and an almost identical contemporary that was called the essex beagle (utterance_914) that a great many of the true order were bred became very manifest as soon as the herier and legal association was formed and more particularly when a section of the peterborough houndshell was reserved for them (utterance_915) then they seemed to spring from every part of the country (utterance_916) one hears now of the chaustin the house did place very noted indeed the haltin the leeparte the edinburgh the serbitan the trinity foot the wood dale missus prises and missus turners (utterance_917) eyes brown dark chasle or hazel not deep set nor a bulgy and with a mild expression (utterance_918) earrs long set on low fine in texture and hanging in a graceful fold close to the cheek (utterance_919) neck moderately long slightly arched the throat showing some duello (utterance_920) shoulders clean and slightly sloping (utterance_921) forelegs plight street well under the dog of good substance and round in the bone (utterance_922) feet round well knuckled up and strongly patted (utterance_923) coat smooth variety smooth very dense and not too fine or short (utterance_924) height not exceeding sixteen inches (utterance_925) all things which follow from the absolute nature of any attribute of god must always exist and be infinite or in other words are each kernel and infinite through this said attribute (utterance_926) proof conceive if it be possible supposing the proposition to be denied that something in some attribute of god can follow from the absolute existence or duration for instance the idea of god expressed in the attribute thought (utterance_927) in its nature infinite (utterance_928) must necessarily exist (utterance_929) we have now granted therefore thought not constituting the idea of god does not naturally follow from its nature in so far as it is conceived as constituting and also as not constituting the idea of god which is against our hypothesis (utterance_930) and beyond the limits of the duration of the idea of god supposing the latter at some time not to be going to exist for we suppose that thought being given the idea of god necessarily flowed there from (utterance_931) bear in mind that the same proposition may be affirmed of anything which in any attribute necessarily follows from god's absolute nature (utterance_932) corollary hence it follows that god is not only the cause of things coming into existence but also of their continuing in existence that is in's collastic phraseology god is cause of the being of things as sindy rehum (utterance_933) corollary individual things are nothing but modifications of the attributes of god or modes by which the attributes of god are expressed in a fixed and definite manner (utterance_934) such a corps such a time you never did see (utterance_935) i was wishing somebody would give the conversation a start when indianny made a break (utterance_936) this ain't no great stock country says he to the old gentleman with the cane (utterance_937) no sir says the old gentleman (utterance_938) there's very little grazing here and the range is pretty much more out (utterance_939) the young lady smiled through her veil and the old lady snapped her eyes and looked sideways at the speaker (utterance_940) i'm wind down to orleans to see if i can't get a contract out of uncle sam to feed the boys let's ben lickin them infernal mexkins so bad (utterance_941) i've read some accounts of the battle says the old gentleman that didn't give a very flattering account of the conduct of some of our troops (utterance_942) the old breecher listened to him with evident signs of displeasure twisting and groaning till he couldn't stand it no longer (utterance_943) he shook his mouth right in the middle of what he was saying and looked at the preacher while his face got as red as fire (utterance_944) swearing says the old preacher is a terrible bad practice and there ain't no use in it no how (utterance_945) oats but indianny kept shady he appeared to be cowed down (utterance_946) the old gentleman with the cane took a part in the conversation and the hooseur listened without ever open in his head (utterance_947) he was at sota mengomero and seen the place why lots wife fell ah (utterance_948) yet says the preacher he went to the very spot and was the remarkablest thing of all he seen the pillar of salt what she was turned into (utterance_949) yes sir he's seen the salts standing thar to this day (utterance_950) what says the hoosier real genoine good salt (utterance_951) yes sir a pillar of salt jist as it was when that wicked woman was punished for her day's obedience (utterance_952) right out in the open air he asked (utterance_953) we had then but little of that minute and accurate knowledge of the interior of the continent which was requisite for a determination of the problem (utterance_954) several different parties were therefore organized to examine the various routes supposed to be practicable within the northern and southern limits of the united states (utterance_955) the only discrimination made was in the more prompt and thorough equipment of the parties for the extreme northern line and this was only because that was supposed to be the most difficult of execution of all the surveys (utterance_956) inquiries were made with regard to good powder which subsequently led to the use of a coarser reign for artillery (utterance_957) the officers of these regiments were chosen partly by a selection from those already in the service in the regular army and partly by appointment from civil life (utterance_958) under instructions from the president the list was therefore revised and modified in accordance with this new element of geographical distribution (utterance_959) after some further discussion of the question the visitors withdrew dissatisfied with the result of the interview (utterance_960) the quartermaster general on hearing of this conversation hastened to inform me that it was all a mistake and the appointy to the office had been confounded with his father who was a well known wig but that he the son was a democrat (utterance_961) i assured the general that this was altogether immaterial adding that it was a very pretty quarrel as it stood and that i had known a desire to affect a settlement of it on any inferior issue (utterance_962) the social attitude toward smoking a already victorian days and for some time later was curious (utterance_963) now missus crilp he says i feel in the smoky humor and shall probably blaze away all night (utterance_964) but say to where you are if you please in case i want you (utterance_965) the dwarf's place however were catholic (utterance_966) but the crilp and brass were now these society (utterance_967) there was dupleney of fact that of punish and the nausers of tobacco (utterance_968) one of the most distinguished was the great duke of wellington who abominably smoking and was annoyed by the increase of cigar smoking among all visitors of the army (utterance_969) the ladies had accusing for the abominable door of tobacco and the distrust of the man was monk (utterance_970) furious fists toodles or thacker is coming on it what is this smoking that it should be considered a crime (utterance_971) i believe in my heart the women are jealous of it as the poor rival (utterance_972) i would delay a guinea but the mania lady who has just been kind enough to read the abalm lines lays down the book after this confession of mine that i must mock her and the face oh the vulgar wretch and the passer sounds with something else (utterance_973) germany has been puffing for threescree years for as smokes to a man (utterance_974) schah look at his progress (utterance_975) thus the outdoor of tobacco was not brought into the drawing room (utterance_976) the journalists and the bohemians who met at their coders were about or below the thick pace of fashion and the smoke in was always a fisher of their gatherers (utterance_977) both queen victoria and the prince consort detested it so tobacco was to boomer ever the poor horse (utterance_978) at that very time i tell in the morning of the second of september napoleon was standing among his troops on the piclony heel looking at the panoramas brailed before him (utterance_979) the brightness of the morning was magical (utterance_980) but at my clansies always ready to descend upon the vanquished (utterance_981) yet here she is lying on my feet with her golden domes and the crosses singleting in the twinkling of the sunshine (utterance_982) but i shall spare her (utterance_983) from behind out the kramilly yes there is the kremlin yes i will give them just the house i will teach them the meaning of true civilisation i will make generations of boviars remember their conqueror with love (utterance_984) i will tell that that invitation that i denote and to note as i were that i forewiched the war only against the false policy of their court that i love in the respect alexander and that immasical i'll accept terms of peace with you of my people (utterance_985) i do not wish to utilize the fortunes of war to humiliate in honor demonic (utterance_986) you have to be told all the same says some gentleman of this wit but gentlemen (utterance_987) the single report of the sinena lingangamophalo and the chops who were already spread out on different sides of moscope moving to the scydia through murder kaloga and dagonlov gaze (utterance_988) his major domo came in a second time to say that the frenchman who had brought the letter from the countess was very anxious to see him if only four minutes and thus some one from bessidev's widow had a cow to ask pierre to take charge of her husband's book asked she herself was slavery for the country (utterance_989) there was no line of passage (utterance_990) the hall poozer was standing at the front door (utterance_991) from the landing where appears too there was a second staircase linen to the back edges (utterance_992) he went down the staircase and out into the yard no one has seen him (utterance_993) when he felt that he was being a look that he behaved alike alsterridge which hydis had in a bosom underneath to be seen he hung his head and quickening his face went down the street (utterance_994) he hired the first a cap he met and told the driver to go to the patriacks post where the widow basiteve's house was (utterance_995) this was the authentic scarsh acts with bathsheb's nose and exclamations (utterance_996) he sat down at the dusty writing table and the having laid the menesqui before him opened them out closed them finally pushed them away and arresting his head on his hand sank into medication (utterance_997) macaria laxovitch came twice at the evening shuffling along a skloshes as far as the door and stops and the looked incritiately at the pierra (utterance_998) the officers were about to take leave of the priest's andrew apparently relaxed until be left along with his friend asked them to stay in half tea (utterance_999) seas were brothing and the soul was the tea (utterance_1000) the officers gazed with surprise at a pure studious stout figure and a listen to his talk of a massaco and a position of barbararity round which he had a breeding (utterance_1001) so you understand the whole position of our troops (utterance_1002) now being a military man the canistayap and are stupid fully for they understand the general precision (utterance_1003) well then you know more than anyone else be it hoit mais said chris angel (utterance_1004) and tell me your opinion fact lately to leave (utterance_1005) pure look that malcolm with the cavalcindinely into rock caves smile with wish everybody involuntarily addressed that officer (utterance_1006) which he liked again since his serenity has been appointed your excellency set in mocking timidly and continually turning to a glance at his colonel (utterance_1007) why so asked the peer (utterance_1008) no while was it forbeated (utterance_1009) at small ask too he judged correctly that if the french might outflank us as they had large forces (utterance_1010) he ordered us to retreat and the hour efforts and allows us one for nothing (utterance_1011) slowly asked me with barley (utterance_1012) well washington was well before in her concern of her and the bees planning the minister but as soon as she is in danger she needs one of her own king (utterance_1013) and they say his astute falcomendo rejoin the peer (utterance_1014) i don't understand what is meant by a skillful commander replied prince andrew ironically (utterance_1015) the scurrifal commander replied the cure (utterance_1016) sheer look at the hamirs and price (utterance_1017) and the yets they say that the voice like a game of chests he remarked (utterance_1018) the relatives stress of bodies of two can never be known to anyone (utterance_1019) success never depends and that will will depend on position or equipment or even the members and the least of all on position but on what then (utterance_1020) on the feeling that is in me and a hymn appointed the totting malkin and e is sozer (utterance_1021) the battle is one by those who firmly resolve to wean it (utterance_1022) why did we loose the battle at the householders (utterance_1023) we've lost so light as one and we run (utterance_1024) but to morrow we shall say it (utterance_1025) but i wouldn't wait us to morrow (utterance_1026) the fact is that of those men with whom you have freedom around the position not only do now help matters but a hinder (utterance_1027) vast the truth the real truth sets mocking (utterance_1028) is now the day for that they say (utterance_1029) all were silent the elfuseurs rolls (utterance_1030) yes yes answered the prince andrew absently (utterance_1031) the french has destroyed my home and our only widow destroyed marscal they have outraged and our outraged me every moment there are my enemies (utterance_1032) in my offening of your owl criminals (utterance_1033) and so thinks to malchi and the whole army (utterance_1034) since they are my foes they cannot be my friends whatever may have been said and accused it (utterance_1035) yes yes mother appeared looking with shining eyes at the prince andrew (utterance_1036) the tug to us of the ruse of war of chivalry our flags of truce of mercy to the unfortunate and so long it's our rabbish (utterance_1037) the plunder of their people's houses issue false favour money and the worst thou shalt thou foul they kill my children and my father and then talk of rusel for and magnimity to false (utterance_1038) take no prisoners but the keel and b kiln (utterance_1039) treas andrew who half felt it was all the same to him whether when that massacre was taken as mallins had been was suddenly checked in his speech by a spect in the crambiest throat (utterance_1040) he paced up and done a few times in silence but his eyes glittered vigorously and the hissed leaves quivered as it began speaking (utterance_1041) and the wind there was the war like this one it would be war (utterance_1042) what is needed for success and warfare (utterance_1043) on the in spite of all this it is the highest the class respected by every one (utterance_1044) hoddas got above loking them and heard them (utterance_1045) i see that i have begun to understand two months (utterance_1046) and a dozen two for a man to taste of the tree of knowledge of good and evil ah well it is now four long he added (utterance_1047) however you're sleepy and is time for me to sleep (utterance_1048) go back to gorki said the prince andrew suddenly (utterance_1049) go go before battle one must have once to leave out lukit prince andrew (utterance_1050) no he does not want it pure come clothed (utterance_1051) and i know that this is our last meeting (utterance_1052) one picture succeeded another in his imagination (utterance_1053) on one of them he dwelt long and surely (utterance_1054) his characters get drunk or go mad with jealousy or fall in epileptic fits or rave hysterically (utterance_1055) if ostelloski had had less vision he would have been stringberg (utterance_1056) like them he is a novelist of torture (utterance_1057) certainly the last of cruelty the last destruction for destruction's sake is the most conspicuous of the deadly sins and d'esteschis men and women (utterance_1058) he may not be a cruel also (utterance_1059) but they are never in balance they are always in demoniacal conflict (utterance_1060) even the lost is never or hardly ever the lust of a more or less sane man (utterance_1061) thus asking could not have described the sooner nekhludoff in resurrection (utterance_1062) this is a bad house christ so uninvidious (utterance_1063) one result of this is a multiplicity of action (utterance_1064) even a talk is all factions more than of ideas (utterance_1065) he saw his violent deeds not with the hand but with the suck (utterance_1066) but one had noticed during this last two days that the other was wearing a silver watch on a yellow bed chain which he seems not to have seen on him before (utterance_1067) he took a knife and when his friend had turned away he approached him cautiously from behind took aim turned his eyes heavenwards crossed himself and fraying fervently god forgive me for christ's sake (utterance_1068) he never paints every man he always projects ostevsky or a knight merits ostevski (utterance_1069) that is why crime and punishment belongs to a lower range of fiction than any coroner or fathers and sons (utterance_1070) we sympathize indeed with the fears the bravado the despair that succeed the crime (utterance_1071) he is a grotesque made alive by sheer imaginative intensity and passion (utterance_1072) one does not grudge an artist in abnormal character or two (utterance_1073) he invents vicious grotesques as dickens invents comic protests (utterance_1074) was very fond of hanging cats and buried them with great ceremony (utterance_1075) as for the carames of themselves he portrays the old father and the eldest of his sons hating each other and fighting like brutal maniacs (utterance_1076) serve him right shouted dmitri breathlessly (utterance_1077) if i haven't killed him i'll come again and kill him (utterance_1078) it is easy to see why dastyetsky has become a popular author (utterance_1079) no melodramatist ever poured out incident upon the stage from such a horn of plenty (utterance_1080) thus vestervsky is always ready to show them more than at once (utterance_1081) on two opposite pages of the idiot one finds the following characters brought in by name general of poccopheredna yokeney pavlovna yokholair prince michkin colliot roostassiano gunya tissin and general with oggin (utterance_1082) but the secret of dastyevsky's appeal is something more than the multitude and thrill of his incidents and characters (utterance_1083) mister murraybald in faces of difficulty and attempts to definition (utterance_1084) to him thus askes work is the record of a great mind seeking for a way of life it is more than a record of a struggle it is the struggle itself (utterance_1085) and those voices take shape in certain unfregorable fragments of dialogue that have been spoken by one spirit to another in some ugly mien tavern certain surrounding darkness (utterance_1086) ultimately they are the creations not of a man who desired to be but of a spirit which sought to know (utterance_1087) because they are possessed they are no longer men and women (utterance_1088) this is all in a measure true (utterance_1089) to say this is not to deny the spiritual content of dustersky's work the anguish of the imprisoned souls that battles with doubt and denial and despair (utterance_1090) there is in dastyevsky a suggestion of caliban trying to discover some better god than to tables (utterance_1091) the ultimate attitude of dastevsky is as christian as the apostle peters lord i believe hope thou might unbelief (utterance_1092) and beyond the dark night of suffering and dissipating the night the sersky still sees the light of christian compassion (utterance_1093) or even by the compassion of others but prince michkin in the idiot (utterance_1094) his work like his face bears the mark of this terrible conflict (utterance_1095) the novels are the perfect image of the man (utterance_1096) as to the man himself the vicomte de roguet described him as he saw him in the last years of his life (utterance_1097) when he became excited on a certain point one could have sworn that one had seen him before seated on a bench in a police court awaiting trial or among bagoblins he passed their time begging before the prison doors (utterance_1098) at all other times he carried that look of sad and gentle meekness seen on the images of old sylvonic saints (utterance_1099) that is a portrait of the men one sees behind ostervsky's knolls the portrait one might almost have inferred from the novels (utterance_1100) it is a figure that at once fascinates and repells (utterance_1101) he is not by temperament to singer (utterance_1102) his music is a still small voice unevenly matched against his consciousness of midnight and storm (utterance_1103) truth to tell mister hardy is neither sufficiently articulate nor sufficiently fastidious to be a great poet (utterance_1104) he does not express life easily in beautiful words or in images (utterance_1105) thus he writes in i found her out there of one who (utterance_1106) there could not be an ugly and more prosaic exaggeration than is contained in the image in the last line (utterance_1107) and prose in truths in the choice of words as well as in images (utterance_1108) take for example the use of the word domiciled in the passage in the same palm about (utterance_1109) when we are strangers sought their catering care veiled smiles bespoke their thought of what we were (utterance_1110) katerine care is in appalling phrase (utterance_1111) is a line of good poetry (utterance_1112) you did not come and marching time drew on and wore me none yet lost for lost of your dear presence there then that i thus found lucking in your make that higher compassion which can overbear reluctance for pure loving kindness sake grieved i when as the hobbar stroked its song you did not come (utterance_1113) there are hints of the grand style of lyric poetry in these lines but phrases luck in your make and as the hope hour stroked its song a discourse that permit tumbling to the levels of victorian commonplace (utterance_1114) he has a temperament sensitive beyond that of all but a few recent writers to the pain and passion of human beings (utterance_1115) one can remember palm after palm of his with a theme that might easily have served for mister hardy too late christina the lost mistress the last ride together the statue and the bost to name a few (utterance_1116) but what a sense of triumph there is in brownie's tragedies (utterance_1117) his world is a place of opulence not of poverty (utterance_1118) to have lobbed in for an hour is with browning to live for ever after in the inheritance of a mighty achievement (utterance_1119) to have loved for an hour is in mister hardy's imagination to have deepened the sadness even more than the beauty of one's memories (utterance_1120) for then i undistrest my hearts growing cold to me could only wait my endless rest with equanimity (utterance_1121) but time to make me grieve part steals let's part abide and shakes this fagile frame at eaves with throbbings of noontide (utterance_1122) and despair is by no means triumphant in one is perhaps the most attractive of all mister harley's poems the oxen (utterance_1123) we pictured the meek mile creatures where they dwelt in their story pen nor did it occur to one of us there to doubt they were kneeling then (utterance_1124) the mood of faith however or rather of delight in the memory of faith is not mister hardy's prevailing mood (utterance_1125) he can enter upon a wall without ironical doubts as we see in the song men he march away (utterance_1126) how long he cries and upon wet and some years ago (utterance_1127) when shall the sanor softer polyties whereof we dream have sway in each proud land and patriotism growing godlike scorn to stand born slave to realms but circle earth and seas (utterance_1128) but perhaps his characteristic attitude to war is to be found not in lines like these but in that melancholy poem the souls of the slain in which the souls of the dead soldiers return to their country in question a senior soul flame is to how their friends and relatives have kept their doubty deeds in remembrance (utterance_1129) and general hell hold out our sweethearts sworn loyal as doves (utterance_1130) some fickle and fleet hearts have found them new loaves (utterance_1131) and our wives quoth another resignedly don't they on our deeds (utterance_1132) mister hardy has too bitter a sense of reality to believe much in the glory of war (utterance_1133) the real world to mister hardy is the world of ancient human things in which war has come to be a hideous irrelevance (utterance_1134) it may be sought on the other hand that mister hardy's poems about war a no more expressive of tragic futility than his poems about love (utterance_1135) futility and frustration are ever reclaring themes in both (utterance_1136) his lovers like his soldiers wrought in the grave defeated of their glory (utterance_1137) love was always severed both in life and in death (utterance_1138) in beyond the last lamp we have the same mournful cry over severance (utterance_1139) no shade of pinnacle or tree or tower while earth and jaws will fall on my mound and within the hour still unto yours one robin never haunt our two green covert hills (utterance_1140) they bring us face to face with an experience intenser than our own (utterance_1141) nothing of tinious worth have i wrought pondered planned no one thing asking blame or praise since the pale corpse like birth of this diurnal unit bearing blanks in all its rays dullest of dull hugh days (utterance_1142) in one corner of the little room can it forbes squatted upon a bench with an empty pine box held carelessly in his lap (utterance_1143) while duncan worked the boy was busy with his pencil but neither had spoken for a season half hour (utterance_1144) then riding slowly up the heads bordered rod his troubles once more assailed him and he wondered if there was not some spot upon the broad earth to which he could fly for retirement until the girls had left elmhurst for good (utterance_1145) norah sighed and he looked up to discover that he had nearly run down a pedestrian a stout little man with a bundle under his arm who held up one hand as it were left him (utterance_1146) where do you want to go asked the boy (utterance_1147) that is the same jane as ever he responded with a shake of his drizzled head (utterance_1148) do you know i saw a hope she had performed and i'd big lad to see her again littleway she's got money (utterance_1149) aunt jane's rich and ten (utterance_1150) echoed the man quickly what you named that (utterance_1151) don't my girls i think it (utterance_1152) another long boys then the boy suddenly turned questioning (utterance_1153) do you know on miss merick sir (utterance_1154) i used to when we were both younger (utterance_1155) kenneth stopped short and the man stopped and the little man with a whimsical smile at the boy's astonishment also stopped (utterance_1156) john meddock let me (utterance_1157) you was a pin smit (utterance_1158) they kept clark of her because she suddenly became rich and a great lady and that was a surprising thing to happen to a melick (utterance_1159) thank you lad returned the man gratefully i thought a little exercise would do me good but this three mile has seemed like thirty to me (utterance_1160) i will said the man (utterance_1161) the boy turned away but in a moment hoiled it again (utterance_1162) his interest in miss jane's brother john was extraordinary (utterance_1163) there is little danger in this quarter i'm sure so i may as well be slent with the poor child (utterance_1164) ah why not (utterance_1165) but hesitated (utterance_1166) the letter asked he me to visit her was the first i have ever received from her (utterance_1167) but since she asked me to visit her which judged she had softened and might wish to become sunday and though i accepted the invitation (utterance_1168) surely two girls will have a better time in this lonely old place that one could have alone (utterance_1169) oh yes she has corrected louise (utterance_1170) you mean patsy sher doye yes (utterance_1171) let me make a clod she's let out of the arrangement said beth calmly (utterance_1172) you cites your own chance and fight mighty hard (utterance_1173) why my dear cousin i don't want aunt jane's money (utterance_1174) my mother and i are amply provided for and i am only here to find dress for my social duties and to get acquainted with my dead father's sister that is all (utterance_1175) my father teaches music and mother spoils him continually for not being able to earn enough money to keep out of death (utterance_1176) we've never seen her sent of her money although father has tried at times to borrow enough to have a lot of his difficulties (utterance_1177) are you to kiss her when she asked me to and it set a shiver all down my back (utterance_1178) for my part i am fond of every one and it delights me to fasten on invalids and assist them (utterance_1179) you see you like to catherine will it's and i don't (utterance_1180) you try to make me think you don't want others with yours as anxious to get it as i am (utterance_1181) they want me beth silently (utterance_1182) i couldn't deliver this out of the way corner of the world you know (utterance_1183) but suppose she leads it to you persisted bett (utterance_1184) louise seemed to magistrate (utterance_1185) it's a magnificent estate said beth looking at her cousin thoughtfully (utterance_1186) now shall we be fit she asked lightly (utterance_1187) to be sure i should want it all my dear (utterance_1188) such a girl said it had never been her privilege to have before and when her suspicions were forgotten she became fairly responsive and bright and wonderfully (utterance_1189) silas she said when he entered what do you think of my nieces (utterance_1190) they are badly charming girls he answered or do the other an age when few girls show to good a panage (utterance_1191) why does you not invite kenneth to the nun jim the boy (utterance_1192) he is constantly saying disagreeable things (utterance_1193) very well said the lawyer quietly which of my nieces do you prefer (utterance_1194) asked your lady after a pause i cannot say on so short an acquaintance he answered with gravity which do you prefer jane (utterance_1195) they are equally unsatisfactory she answered (utterance_1196) i cannot imagine and has belonging to either silas (utterance_1197) i must see that albanies the one who defies me and refuses to answer my second letter (utterance_1198) there would be a dozen airs to fight for my money and dear ole l'olehemus would be sold to strangers she resumed with bitterness (utterance_1199) they are but lukewarm lovers who can content themselves with a dialogue carried on at beauchamp distance (utterance_1200) if there be an elissium on earth it is this (utterance_1201) his own daughter his only daughter of the best blood of southern aristocracy beautiful accomplished everything to secure him as splendid alliance holding nightly assignation with a horse hunter (utterance_1202) he could well concede so much to her caprice since her staying at home could be no disadvantage to the cause that had prompted him to the stern council (utterance_1203) it is already known that this road passed the hasienda of kasa del corvo at some distance from the house and on the opposite side of the river (utterance_1204) on reaching the corpse he dismounted let his horse in among the underwood hitched him by looping his bridle rein around the topmost twigs of an elastic bow then detaching a long rope of twisted horsehair from the horn of his saddle and inserting his arm into its coil he glided out to the edge of the island on that side that lay towards the hasienda (utterance_1205) before forsaking the shadow of the corpse he cast a glance toward the sky and left the moon sailing supremely over it (utterance_1206) the droll conceit which has so often mused the nocturnal inebriate of great cities appeared to produce a like effect upon the night patrola of the prairie and for a moment the shadow late darkening his broil disappeared (utterance_1207) it's not likely it thizar unless it be the owner of a bad conscience who can't sleep (utterance_1208) trot this one's such within those worlds (utterance_1209) if he be abroad there's a good chance of his seeing me on the open ground not that i should care a straw if it were only myself to be compromised (utterance_1210) it's no usurerating upon the moon's justica (utterance_1211) it is true he had designs upon the hasienda but these did not contemplate either its cash plate or jewelry if we accept the most precious jewel it contained the mistress of the mansion herself (utterance_1212) he tadded at ganishaw a few days and came up the gardo where i then resided he was apparently without any business that would support him but he soon became acquainted with my son thomas with whom he hunted for a long time and made his home with him at my house winter came on and he continued his day (utterance_1213) the emraged husband well knowing that he should feel a blow if he waited to hear the order repeated instantly retreated and went down the river to his cattle (utterance_1214) we protected the poor an antigoke woman and gave her pictures and alleys sympathized with her in her misfortunes till spring when her husband came to her acknowledged his former letters and that he had abused her without a cause promised a reformation and she received him with every mark over the new york of her affection (utterance_1215) the indians was soon answered by the american officer that a wampum was cordially accepted and that a continuance of peace was ardent sebashed for (utterance_1216) my son thomas went with them with islands horse and carried the good (utterance_1217) alim on finding that his enemies had gone came back to my house where he lived as before but of his return they was soon not to fight at niagara and nettles who married priscilla ramsey with a small party of indians came on to take him (utterance_1218) nettles at length abandoned the chase went home and alan oilen tatters came in (utterance_1219) by running in the woods his clothing had become torn into rags so that he was in a suffering condition or was naked (utterance_1220) alden made his houses himself and then built a raft on which he went down the river to his own place at mount mars (utterance_1221) there an indian gave him some refreshment and a good gun with which he hastened on to little birds down where he found his corps (utterance_1222) not daring to risk himself at that place for fear of being given up he made her but a short visit and came immediately to guard over (utterance_1223) the love of liberty however added to his natural swiftness gave him sufficient strength to make his escape to his formal castle of safety (utterance_1224) his pursuers came immediately to my house where they expected to have found him secreted and under my protection (utterance_1225) still unsatisfied and doubting my viracity they advised my indian brother to use his influence to draw from me the secret of his concealment which they had an idea i considered of great importance not only to him but myself i persisted in my ignorance of his situation and finally they left me (utterance_1226) he came to my house in the night and awoke me with the greatest caution thrilling that some of his enemies might be watching to take him at a time when and in a place where it would be impossible for him to make his escape (utterance_1227) at that time island lay in a secret place in the guls a short distance above my flats in a hole that he accidentally found in the rock near the river (utterance_1228) the pavlovskrads held feast after feast celebrating a wars they had received for the campaign and made expeditions to omots to visit a certain caroline the hungarian who had recently opened a restaurant there with girls's waitresses (utterance_1229) the guards had made their whole march as if on a pleasure trip parading their cleanliness and discipline (utterance_1230) the regiments had entered and left the town with their bands playing and by the grandjix orders the men had marched all the way in step a practice on which the guards plaited themselves the officers on foot and at their proper posts (utterance_1231) boris had been quarsered and had marched all the way with burg who was already in command of a company (utterance_1232) boris during the campaign had made the acquaintance of many persons who might prove useful to him and by a letter of recommendation he had brought from pierre had become acquainted with prince andrew bolkonski though whom he hoped to obtain a post on the commander in chief staff (utterance_1233) burg and boris having rested after yesterday's march were sitting clean and neatly dressed at a round table in the clean quarters allotted to them plain chess (utterance_1234) well how are you going to get out of that he remarked (utterance_1235) at that moment the door opened (utterance_1236) dear me how you have changed (utterance_1237) he was about to embrace his friends but nicholas avoided him (utterance_1238) he wanted to pinch him push him do anything but kiss him a thing everybody did (utterance_1239) but notwithstanding this sparris embraced him in a quiet friendly way and kissed him three times (utterance_1240) they had not made for nearly half a year and being at the age when young men did their first steps on lace roads each saw immense changes in the other quite a new reflection of the society in which they had taken those first steps (utterance_1241) i did not expect you to be he added (utterance_1242) you know of course that his imperial highness wrote with our regiment all the time so that we had every comfort in every advantage (utterance_1243) what receptions we had employed (utterance_1244) what dinners and balls i can't tell you (utterance_1245) oh you god said rostov i say safer so wide (utterance_1246) he went to his bed drew a parchment of the clean pillow and sent for wine (utterance_1247) yes and i have some money in our letters to give you he added (utterance_1248) oh don't mention it courage i quite understand said berg getting up and speaking in a muffled and guttural voice (utterance_1249) go across your house they invited you added boris (utterance_1250) bert put on the keenest of clothes without a spot or speck of dust stood before a looking glass and brushed a hair on his temples upwards in the way affected by the emperor alexander and having insured himself from the way rostov looked at it that his coat had been noticed left the room with a pleasant smile (utterance_1251) oh dear what a beast i am muttered rostov as he read the letter why (utterance_1252) well have you sent gabriel for some wine all right let's have some (utterance_1253) in the letter from his parents was enclosed a letter of recommendation to bagration which the old countess and anna mikolovna's advice had obtained through an acquaintance and sent to her son asked him to take it to his destination and make use of it (utterance_1254) why have you thrown that away asked boris (utterance_1255) it is some letter of recommendation what a devil do i want it for (utterance_1256) he looked intently and inquiringly into his friend's eyes evidently trying in vain to find the answer to some question (utterance_1257) would you believe it kate i was not at all alarmed as i knew i was right (utterance_1258) i came forward burg stood up and showed how he presented himself with his hand to his cap and really it would have been difficult for a feast to express greater respect and self complacency than his did (utterance_1259) well he stormed at me as the saying is starned and stormed and stormed (utterance_1260) it was not a matter of life but rather of death as the saying is (utterance_1261) albanians and devils and to siberia said burg with a sagacious smile (utterance_1262) still i remained silent and what do you think kate (utterance_1263) the next day it was not even mentioned in the orders of the d (utterance_1264) that's the weak coat said burg lighting his pipe and emitting rings of smoke (utterance_1265) yes that was fine said rostov smiling (utterance_1266) rostoke with a cheerful young man and widow no account have told a deliberate lie (utterance_1267) he began his story meaning to tell everything just as it happened but imperceptibly involuntarily and inevitably he lapsed into falsehood (utterance_1268) prince andrew who liked to help young men was flattered by being asked for his assistance and being well disposed towards boris who had managed to please him the day before he wished to do what the young man wanted (utterance_1269) in spite of prince andrew's disagreeable ironical tone in spite of the contempt with which rostov from his fighting army point of view regarded all these little adjutants on the staff of whom the new comer was evidently won rostov felt confused blushed and became silent (utterance_1270) boris inquired what news there might be on the staff and whatsoever indiscretion one may ask about our plans (utterance_1271) we shall probably advance replied bolkovski evidently reluctant to see more in the presence of a stranger (utterance_1272) burke's at the opportunity to ask with great politeness whether as was rumoured the allowance of forage money to captains of companies who be doubled (utterance_1273) i was still said rostov angrily as if intending to insult the ape the camp (utterance_1274) with a slightly contemptuous smile he said yes that i'm many stories now told them at that affair (utterance_1275) but our stories are the stories of men who have been under the enemy's fire (utterance_1276) our stories have some weight not like the stories of those fellows on the staff who get rewards without doing anything (utterance_1277) however he added rising you know my name and where to find me they don't forget that i do not regard either myself or you as having been at all insulted and as a man older than you my advice is to let the matter drop (utterance_1278) exclaimed prince andrew and was about to them both he went out (utterance_1279) and he was still more angry at having omitted to see us (utterance_1280) he ordered his horse at once and coldly taking leave of bars rode home (utterance_1281) should he go to head quarters next day and challenge that a fated adjutant or really let the matter drop was the question that worried him all the way (utterance_1282) it was long since rostov said news of nicholas (utterance_1283) not till midwinter was the count at last handed a letter addressed in his son's handwriting (utterance_1284) on receiving it he ran on tiptoe to his study in alarm and haste trying to escape notice closed the door and began to read the letter (utterance_1285) each time these hints began to meet the countess anxious as she glanced uneasily at the count and at anna mikolovna the latter very adroitly turned to conversation to insignificant matters (utterance_1286) but for god's sake be careful you know hernly affect your mamma (utterance_1287) no on my true word of honour said natasha crossing herself i won't tell anyone (utterance_1288) and she ran off at once to sonya (utterance_1289) she rushed to sonya hugged her and began to cry (utterance_1290) it's true that all you women are cry baby shouted petya pisting the room with large resolute straits (utterance_1291) you're all blubberous and understand nothing (utterance_1292) natasha smiled through her tears (utterance_1293) what nasty brutes they are (utterance_1294) hold your tongue peter what a goose you are (utterance_1295) sonya smiled do i remember nicholas (utterance_1296) i remember nicolaynekova too i remember how well she said (utterance_1297) no she shut her eyes (utterance_1298) she felt that sonya was speaking the truth that there was such love as sonya was speaking of (utterance_1299) she believed it could be but did not understand it (utterance_1300) shall you write to him she asked (utterance_1301) now that he was already an officer and a wounded hero would it be right to remind him of herself and as it might seem of the obligations to her he had taken on himself (utterance_1302) i don't know (utterance_1303) sonya smiled no (utterance_1304) it's because she was in love without fat one in spectacles that was her picture described his namesteak the new cob bizookov and now she's in love without singer he met natasha's italian singing master that's why she's ashamed (utterance_1305) petya you're stupid said natasha (utterance_1306) the countess had been prepared by anna mikolovna's heads at dinner (utterance_1307) on retiring to her own room she sat in an armchair her eyes fixed on a miniature portrait of her son on the lid of a snuff box while the tears kept coming into her eyes (utterance_1308) the carriage put his ear to the keyhole and listened (utterance_1309) at first he heard a sign of indifferent voices then anna mikhaylovna's voice alone in a long speech then a cry then silence then both voices together with glad intonations and then footsteps (utterance_1310) anna mikolovna opened the door (utterance_1311) when she heard this sonya blushed so that tears came into her eyes and unable to bear the looks turned upon her ran away into the dancing hole her old rounders at full speed with her dress puffed out like a balloon and flushed and smiling plumped down on the floor (utterance_1312) the comtesse was crying (utterance_1313) from all he says one should be glad and not cry (utterance_1314) how charmingly he describes said she reading the descriptive part of the letter and what a soul (utterance_1315) i always said when he was only so high i always said (utterance_1316) i have been told that mister van brandt is in prison for debt i said (utterance_1317) and i saw for myself last night that he had left you hopeless (utterance_1318) he left me the little money he had with him when he was arrested she rejoined sadly (utterance_1319) his cruel creditors are more to blame than he is for the poverty that has fallen on us (utterance_1320) even this negative defence of van brett stung me to the quick i ought to have spoken more guardedly of him i said bitterly (utterance_1321) i ought to have remembered that a woman can forgive almost any wrong than a man can inflict on her when he is a man whom she loves (utterance_1322) she put her hand on my mouth and stopped me before i could say any more (utterance_1323) how can you speak so cruelly to me she asked (utterance_1324) you know to my shame i confessed it to you the last time we met you know that my heart and secret is all yours (utterance_1325) what wrong are you talking of (utterance_1326) is it the wrong i suffered when van brandt married me with a wife living at the time and living still (utterance_1327) do you think i can ever forget the great misfortune of my life the misfortune that has made me unworthy of you (utterance_1328) it is no fault of mine god knows but it is not the less true that i am not married and that the little darling who is playing out there with her doll is my child (utterance_1329) and you talk of my being your wife knowing that the child accepts me as her second father i said (utterance_1330) it would be better and happier for us both if you had as little pride as the child pride she repeated (utterance_1331) in such a position as mine (utterance_1332) a helpless woman with a mock husband in prison for debt (utterance_1333) am i to marry you for my food and shelter (utterance_1334) am i to marry you because there's no lawful tie that binds me to the father of my child (utterance_1335) that as he is he has not forsaken me he has been forced away (utterance_1336) my only friend is it possible that you think me ungrateful enough to consent to be your wife (utterance_1337) the woman in my situation must be heartless indeed who could destroy your place in the estimation of the world in the regard of your friends (utterance_1338) the wretchedest creature that walks the streets would shrink from treating you in that way (utterance_1339) oh what a man made of (utterance_1340) how can you how can you speak of it (utterance_1341) i yielded and spoke of it no more (utterance_1342) every word she uttered only increased my admiration of the noble creature whom i had loved and lost (utterance_1343) bitterly as i hated the man who had parted us i loved her dearly enough to be even capable of helping him for her sake hopeless in vatuation (utterance_1344) i don't deny it i don't excuse it hopeless evatuation you have forgiven me i said (utterance_1345) let me deserve to be forgiven (utterance_1346) it is something to be your only friend (utterance_1347) you must have plans for the future tell me unreservedly how i can hope you (utterance_1348) complete the good work that you have begun she answered gratefully help me back to health (utterance_1349) make me strong enough to submit to a doctor's estimate of my chances of living for some years yet (utterance_1350) a doctor's estimate of your chances of living i repeated what do you mean (utterance_1351) i hardly know how to tell you she said without speaking again of mister van brandt (utterance_1352) does speaking of him again means speaking of his debts i asked (utterance_1353) why need you hesitate (utterance_1354) you know that there is nothing i will not do to leave your anxieties (utterance_1355) neffer let me tell you the plain truth (utterance_1356) there is a serious necessity for his getting out of prison (utterance_1357) yes this is his position in two words a little while since he obtained an excellent offer of employment abroad from a rich relative of his and he had made all his arrangements to accept it (utterance_1358) unhappily he returned to tell me of his good fortune and the same day he was arrested for debt (utterance_1359) this narrative that had been set for her was plainly revealed in those four words (utterance_1360) in the eye of the law she was of course a single woman she was of age she was to all intents and purposes her own mistress (utterance_1361) what was there to prevent her from insuring her life as she pleased and from so disposing of the insurance as to give them brah a direct interest in her death (utterance_1362) thanks to the happy accident of my position the one certain way of protecting her lay easily within my reach (utterance_1363) i could offer to lend the scoundrel the money that he wanted an hour's notice and he was a man to accept my proposal quite as easily as i could make it (utterance_1364) you are quite mistaken i replied (utterance_1365) i am only doubting whether your plan for relieving mister van brandt of his embarrassments is quite so simple as you suppose (utterance_1366) are you aware of the delays that are likely to take place before it will be possible to borrow money on your policy of insurance (utterance_1367) i know nothing about it she said sadly (utterance_1368) will you let me ask the advice of my lawyers (utterance_1369) they are trustworthy and experienced men and i am sure they can be of use to you (utterance_1370) cautiously as i had expressed myself her delicacy took the alarm (utterance_1371) promise that you won't ask me to borrow money of you for mister van brandt she rejoined and i will accept your help gratefully (utterance_1372) i could honestly promise that (utterance_1373) my one chance of saving her lay in keeping from her knowledge the corse i had now determined to pursue (utterance_1374) i rose to go while my resolution still sustained me (utterance_1375) kiss me she whispered before you go (utterance_1376) it is only her goodness that overpowers me (utterance_1377) it's a sad thing for a body to lack brains when she wants to be a teacher isn't it (utterance_1378) when an oppi has studied so hard or winter and she hasn't gone anywhere thought the other sister wistfully (utterance_1379) doris dreamed of creditresses all that night and though it about them all the next day (utterance_1380) so it must be confessed deep panolope though she would not have it mighty eight for the world (utterance_1381) she knew that penelope had started out to say a new dress (utterance_1382) doris hunter i believe it's an old quilt (utterance_1383) listen penelope my dear doris (utterance_1384) love to pen in love and yourself (utterance_1385) your affectionate aunt adelah hunter (utterance_1386) i don't see it's beauty said penelope with a great (utterance_1387) it may have been pretty once but it is all faded now (utterance_1388) tell me dorry does it argue a lack of proper respect for my ancestors that i can't feel very enthusiastic over this hero especially when grandmother hunter died years before i was bought (utterance_1389) it was very kind of aunt adela to send it said torres dutifully (utterance_1390) why the wrong side is ever so much prettier than the right exclaimed penelope (utterance_1391) what lovely old timy stuff at knot a big faddock (utterance_1392) i declare it is as good as new (utterance_1393) well let us go and have tea said penelope i decidedly hungry (utterance_1394) besides i see the poverty popular comic (utterance_1395) it is something to passes and harloom after all (utterance_1396) when olope was surprised as much as the tender sisterly hurt could wish them where doris flashed out upon her stream fannelope was a positive creation of they he rose past sprinkled silk with a girtle and knots of black velvet (utterance_1397) so penelope went to blanche's party and her dress was the admiration of every girl there (utterance_1398) when a lope is out her altogether sharpening (utterance_1399) she looks as if she had just tapped out of the frame of some lovely old picture she said to herself (utterance_1400) my aunt adela give me give us the material she stammeret (utterance_1401) and naped after her missus fairwater suddenly put her arm about penelope and drew the young girl to her her lovely old face aglow with delight and tenderness (utterance_1402) then you are my grand niece she said (utterance_1403) when i saw your dress i felt sure you were related to her i should recognize that rosebud sail if i came across it in tibet (utterance_1404) an elope was four years older than i was but we were devoted to each other (utterance_1405) soon after this our mother died and our house halt was broken up (utterance_1406) my dear i am a very lonely old woman which nobody belonging to me (utterance_1407) now she pattened missus farworther's soft old hand affectionately (utterance_1408) doris and peninope found their leaves and plants changed in the twinkling of an eye (utterance_1409) when missus farrwutton had gone doris and pennanope looked at each other (utterance_1410) as she slipped into her blue print afternoon dress her aunt called to her farm below (utterance_1411) aunt jane was standing at the foot of the stairs with a lamp in one hand and the year old baby clanging to the other (utterance_1412) she was a big shapeless woman with a round good natured face cheerful and vulgar as a sunflower was aunt jane at all times and occasions (utterance_1413) i want to run over and see how missus biggsby is this evening city and you must take care of the baby till i get back (utterance_1414) sydney sighed and went downstairs for the baby (utterance_1415) all her days were alike as far as hard work and dullness went but she accepted them cheerfully and uncomplainingly (utterance_1416) but she did resent having to look after the baby when she wanted to write her letter (utterance_1417) the room was worn on their box above the kitchen which suddenly shared with two small cousins (utterance_1418) her bed and the cot where the little girls lapped filled up almost all the available space (utterance_1419) just at that particular angle one eye appeared to be as large as an orange while the other was the size of a pea and the moth zigzagged from ear to ear (utterance_1420) sydney hated that mirrors very gladly as she could hate anything (utterance_1421) her mother had died to day after and sydney their up and had come into the hands of good aunt jane with those books for her dowry since nothing else was left after the expanses of the double funeral had been faith (utterance_1422) presently she began to write with a flash of real excitement on her face (utterance_1423) only one answer came to ellen douglas and that was forwarded to her by the long suffering adieu of the maple leaf (utterance_1424) he wrote that although his aged de birth him from membership in the club he was twenty and the limit was eighteen he read the letters of the department with marching trust and often had thought of answering some of the requests for correspondence (utterance_1425) he never had done so but ellen douglas says letterd was so interesting that he had decided to write to her (utterance_1426) would she be king enough to correspond with him (utterance_1427) he was two years out from the east and had not yet forgotten to be homesick at times (utterance_1428) sydney like the letter and answer it eat (utterance_1429) she never expected to meet john lincoln nor did she wished to do so (utterance_1430) in the correspondence itself she found her pleasure (utterance_1431) gently gone rogue breezy accounts of french life and adventures on the far western plains so alien and remote from snug hummed dram rainfield life that siney always had the sensation of crossing a garth when she opened a letter from the bar and as for sydney's own letter this is the way it's read as she roltick (utterance_1432) the evergreens brainfield dear mister lincoln (utterance_1433) i love life and its bloom and brilliancy i love meeting new people i love the ripple of music the homo floufter and conversation (utterance_1434) the manner had been talking with was all more the great novelice (utterance_1435) as it was i had contradicted him twice and he had loved and liked it but his boats will always have a new meaning to me henceforth through the inside he himself has given me (utterance_1436) it is such meetings at these that give life its sparkle for me (utterance_1437) you will be weary of my rhapsodies over her (utterance_1438) she has sympathy and understanding for my every mood (utterance_1439) yours sensorably sineney richmond (utterance_1440) out jane came home presently and carried away her sleeping baby sydney said her prayers went to bed and slept soundly and serenely she mailed her letter the next day and the month later an answer came (utterance_1441) sydney did not sleep that night but toast restlessly about or cried in her pillow (utterance_1442) the good woman shook her hat (utterance_1443) sydney trod the way of the transgressor and found that its thorns burst to borne and marrow (utterance_1444) you see that road out dark (utterance_1445) and there was no harbour or glimpse of distant sea visible (utterance_1446) had the hotter keeper made a mistake (utterance_1447) this is his place nobody calls it the evergreen but myself (utterance_1448) i don't understand he said very perplexedly (utterance_1449) oh sydney threw out her hands in a burst of passionate protest (utterance_1450) no and you never will understand i can't make you understand (utterance_1451) everything i told you about it and my life was just imagination (utterance_1452) then why did you write them he asked frankly (utterance_1453) why did you deceive me (utterance_1454) oh i didn't mean to deceive you i never thought of such a thing (utterance_1455) i just couldn't write you about my life here not because it was hard but it was so ugly and empty (utterance_1456) and when once i had begun i had to keep it up (utterance_1457) i found it so fascinating to (utterance_1458) those letters may that other life seem real to me i never expected to meet you (utterance_1459) this last four days since your letter came have been dreadful to me (utterance_1460) oh please go away and forgive me if you can (utterance_1461) it was worse than she had even thought it would be (utterance_1462) he was so handsome so manly so earnest eyed (utterance_1463) john lincoln opened the gate and went up to her (utterance_1464) please don't distress yourself so sydney he said unconsciously using her christian name (utterance_1465) i think i do understand (utterance_1466) i'm not such a dull fellow as you take me for (utterance_1467) after all those letters were true or rather there was truth in them (utterance_1468) this young man was certainly good at understanding (utterance_1469) you you'll forgive me then she stammered (utterance_1470) but in the state of innocence there will have been low with merciful age (utterance_1471) on the contrary everything generated this first imperfect but in the sedifiness and children would have been begotten by generation (utterance_1472) therefore from the first they would happen in perfect in bodily size and power (utterance_1473) therefore in the state of innocence there was no need for women to be borne on the contrary nature's process in generation with half an incommony with manner in which it was established by god (utterance_1474) for whether in that state men would have been master or men (utterance_1475) therefore in the state of innocence man had no mastership of the animals (utterance_1476) therefore in the state of innocence before man had its bait nothing disbaded that was naturally subject to him (utterance_1477) certainly this is proved by the order of divine providence which house governs inferior things by the superior (utterance_1478) certainly this is proved from a property of man and other animals (utterance_1479) now whatever is part is painted is subject to what is essential and universal (utterance_1480) therefore this junction of other animals to man is proved to be natural (utterance_1481) they would not have her on this account have been accepted from the mastership of men as neither at present nor they for their reason accepted from the mastership of plot whose providence has ordained all this (utterance_1482) this is signified by the fact that god led the animals to men that he might give the names expressive of their respective natures (utterance_1483) so all animals would have a bit men of their own court as in the present days some domestic animals obey him (utterance_1484) objection one it was seen that in the same as this man would not have had mastership over all other creatures (utterance_1485) much less therefore would he have a bit men in the state of innocence (utterance_1486) therefore since it is by this reason that man is competent to have mastership it seems that in the state of incense man had not been in over plans (utterance_1487) now a mere reason has the position of a master and not of a subject (utterance_1488) i answer that we must needs admit that in a primitive state there would have been some inequality at least as regards sex because generation depends upon diversity of sex and likewise as regards age for some would have been born of others nor would such reunion have been sterile (utterance_1489) there might also have been bodily despairing (utterance_1490) the quality might also rise on the parts of nature as above described without any defects of nature (utterance_1491) objection one it will seem that in my stitamuson's man would not happy master over men (utterance_1492) therefore in a state of innocence man would not have been subject in man (utterance_1493) in other sense mastership is referred in a general sense to any kind of subject and in this sense even who has the office of governing and directing freemen can be cut a master (utterance_1494) such a kind of mastership would have existed in the stitiffanisms between man and man for two reasons (utterance_1495) more than this he hath been heard to rail on you my lord or i now his judge (utterance_1496) judge thy just doom would be to die on the spot stoop let us hear what thou hast to say (utterance_1497) then the judge to some of the kings spoke those you see this man who has made such a stirring yard town (utterance_1498) thus while one lost his life for the truth a new man rose from his death the tread same way was christian (utterance_1499) kauf could hope for secretion let us walk on the grass (utterance_1500) so they sat off through the field (utterance_1501) hopeful i had my fears from the first and so gave you a heap christian good friend i agreed that i hath brought you out of the right path (utterance_1502) oh fool say no more no doubt it is for our goods (utterance_1503) christian we must now stand thus let us try to go back (utterance_1504) thence have trying to spare you have no right to force your way here the ground on which you lie is my (utterance_1505) they had not much to say as they knew that they were in force (utterance_1506) and by besect we killed ourselves as well (utterance_1507) he now went on till he came to the house at a door of which he was to knock this he did two or three times (utterance_1508) christian i have come to see the good man at the house (utterance_1509) christian sir i am come from the city of destruction and am on my way to montsiah (utterance_1510) i was stood by the men that stands at the gate that if i came here you would show me good things that would help me (utterance_1511) he stood as if he would cleave for a man and a crown of gold hung near his head (utterance_1512) christian what does this mean (utterance_1513) then he took him to a large room that was full of dust for he had not been swept and interpreter told his man to sweep it (utterance_1514) christian what means this (utterance_1515) the eunac's sort made coming to lay the dust so is said matrian and laid low by faith in the book (utterance_1516) just as christian came up to the cross its loads lay from his back close to the mouths of the tube where it fell in and i saw it no more (utterance_1517) as he stood thus and wept lo three broad ones came to hang and one of them said peace be to thee thou hast praise from thy sins (utterance_1518) christian gave three leaves for joy and said as he went ah what a place is this blast cries bless two (utterance_1519) he went on thus till he came to a veil where he saw three men who were in the sun's sleep with chains on their feet (utterance_1520) christian sirs prince come you and where do you go (utterance_1521) from last and hypocrisy we were born in the land of plain glory and are on our way to mount dying for praise (utterance_1522) knowing not that he that comes not in at the door but climbs up to getting the same as a thief (utterance_1523) they told christian that he had no need for care on desper for long years had made in law and they could prove that it had been silver years (utterance_1524) yes said they no doubt of it (utterance_1525) and if we get in the road at all pray what are the ox (utterance_1526) is not our case as good as yours (utterance_1527) i saw then that they all went on till they came to the foot of the hill of difficulty where there was a spring (utterance_1528) now when christian got as far as the spring of life he drenched it and then went up the hill (utterance_1529) now half way up was a cave made by the lord of that hue that those who came by met respire (utterance_1530) timmer said that zimmer was the hue they meant to clump but that when they had got half way they found that they met with more and more risk so that great fear came on them and all they could do was to turn back (utterance_1531) yes said miss truste for a just in front of us there lay two beasts of prey in our path we knew not if they slept or not but we thought that they would follow this and to your our lings (utterance_1532) yet he thought once more if what he had heard from the man and then he felt in his throat for his grow that he might read it and find some piece (utterance_1533) he felt for it but found it not (utterance_1534) so he fell down on his knees to brave that god would give him graceful disact and then when back to look for his grove (utterance_1535) ho fo that i am said he to slip in the day time so he gave way to the flesh as to use for ye's that rest which lord of for hugh had made but for the help of the soul (utterance_1536) such was the lot of the jews for this sing they were sent back by way to rat sea and i am made to tread those steps with grave which i might have struck with joy had it not been for the sleep (utterance_1537) how far when i half been on my way by this time (utterance_1538) now by this time he had come to the vay once more where for spell he sat down and wept but at last as he cast a set glance at the foot of the bench he saw his crow which he caught it with haste and putting his cloak (utterance_1539) words are too weak to tell the joy of christian when he had got back his roe (utterance_1540) he laid enough in the breast of his coat and gave thanks to god (utterance_1541) with what a last step did he now clumb the hue (utterance_1542) ha thought he these be screnching the night for their prey and if they should meet with me in the dark how should i fly from them (utterance_1543) the name of the men who kept the lodge of their house was watchful and when he saw the christian made a halt as if he would go back he came out to him and said is by strath so small (utterance_1544) fear not the two wild beasts for they are upon by chains and are put here to try to faith of those bad habit and to find all those that have known (utterance_1545) keep in the midst of the path and no harm shall come to vie (utterance_1546) then i saw in my dream that still he went on in great dread of the wild beasts he heard them grow yet they did him no harm but when he had gone by them he went on with joy till he came and stood in front of the lodge where watchful dad (utterance_1547) christian sir what has it this men are rushed here to night (utterance_1548) when watchful told her why question had come there she said what is your name (utterance_1549) then christian bent down his head and went with him to the house (utterance_1550) heighten calm good christian since our love prompts us to take feeling to rest let us talk with you before that you have seen all your way (utterance_1551) christian with a right good will and i am glad that she should ask it of me (utterance_1552) prudence and first say what is it that nature which till much go to montaign (utterance_1553) there they say is no death and there i shall throw with such as love the lord (utterance_1554) charity have your wife and babes christian years i have (utterance_1555) charity and why did you not bring them with you (utterance_1556) but they would not come with me nor have me leave them (utterance_1557) thus did christian talk with his friends till it grew dark and then he took his rest in a large room the name of which was peace there he slept till break a day and then he sent him (utterance_1558) and they brought out a drawn bone of a nest with which censioned is such ruffie's and the sling and stone with which dabbots slew gallioth of death (utterance_1559) what is the name of his land said christian (utterance_1560) then they told him it was in marius's land (utterance_1561) it was a knight when sorrow may come to the brightest without causing any great sense of incongruity when the exercise of memory does not stir feelings of regret and opportunities for ambition does not prompt to enterprise (utterance_1562) still to a close observer they are just as perceptible the difference is that their meteor of manifestation are less trite and familiar than such well known ones as the bursting of the buds or the fall of the leaf (utterance_1563) if anything could be darker than the sky it was the wall and if anything could be gloomier than the wall it was the river beneath (utterance_1564) an indescribable succession of dull blows perplexing in their regularity sent their sound with difficulty through the fluffy atmosphere (utterance_1565) not long after a form moved by the brink of the river (utterance_1566) this was all that was positively discoverable though it seemed human (utterance_1567) the shape went slowly along but without much exertion for the snow though sudden was not as yet more than two inches deep (utterance_1568) at this time some words were spoken aloud one (utterance_1569) two three (utterance_1570) four five (utterance_1571) between each utterance the little shape advanced about half a dozen yards (utterance_1572) here the spot stopped and dwindled smaller (utterance_1573) then a morsel of snow flew across the river towards the fifth window (utterance_1574) the river would have been seen by day to be of that deep smooth salt which races middle and sides with the same gliding precision any irregularities of speed being immediately corrected by a small whirlpool (utterance_1575) the wind never struck again in the same manner (utterance_1576) then a noise was heard apparently produced by the opening of the window (utterance_1577) said the blurred spot on the snow tremulously (utterance_1578) i asked what was your window forgive me (utterance_1579) when i said that you might (utterance_1580) how must i it is when shall we be married frank (utterance_1581) i have money (utterance_1582) and we live in two parishes do we what then (utterance_1583) if i said so of course i will (utterance_1584) the fact is i forgot to ask (utterance_1585) good night frank good night (utterance_1586) he hoped nothing serious it happened to drag her out of such an untoward time (utterance_1587) but as the rain gave not the least sign of cessation he observed i think we shall have to go back never (utterance_1588) why not he thought (utterance_1589) i cannot understand how you should know me while i had no knowledge of you (utterance_1590) oh but you know me about me at least (utterance_1591) i should think so (utterance_1592) he is my father indeed (utterance_1593) but we have been tenants of silvania castle on the island here this season (utterance_1594) my father's is a superiorly humble residence hard by (utterance_1595) but he could afford a much bigger one if he chose (utterance_1596) you've had sir (utterance_1597) i don't know he doesn't tell me much of his affairs (utterance_1598) my father she burst out suddenly is always scolding me for my extravagance (utterance_1599) was that this evening (utterance_1600) and there on the nets they sat (utterance_1601) joscelyn thought it strange that he should be thrown by fate into a position to play the son of the montaguese to this daughter of the capitals (utterance_1602) no i shall go on and get a lodging in bumpath town if ever i reach it (utterance_1603) it is so late that there will be no house open except a little place near the station where you won't care to stay (utterance_1604) the island was an island still (utterance_1605) they had not realized the force of the elements till now (utterance_1606) he seated her bodily by encircling her waist with his arm and she made no objection (utterance_1607) he pitied her and while he wondered at it admired her determination (utterance_1608) their application for admission led to the withdrawal of a bolt and they stood within the gaslight of the passage (utterance_1609) he could see now that though she was such a fine figure quite as tall as himself she was but in the bloom of young womanhood (utterance_1610) i will tell the servants to do this and send you up something to eat (utterance_1611) he felt ravenously hungry himself and said about drying his clothes as well as he could and eating at the same time (utterance_1612) by the aid of some temporary raps and some slippers from the cupboard he was contrived to make himself comfortable when the maid servant came down stairs with a damp armful of woman's raymond (utterance_1613) you are sleepy my girl said pearson (utterance_1614) he again became conscious of the change which had been initiated join the walk (utterance_1615) the well beloved was moving house had gone over to the wearer of this attire (utterance_1616) and how about little of his carrow (utterance_1617) things arrange themselves (utterance_1618) but the countess never gave way an inch (utterance_1619) the following was the answer which he returned to the note written to her by aunt julia (utterance_1620) i should not know how to drink wine with them and should do a hundred things which would make them think me a beast (utterance_1621) but the girl begged for some to day (utterance_1622) it was a matter that required to be considered (utterance_1623) pride in him might be as weak as pride in them (utterance_1624) if they were put out their hands to him why should he refuse to put out his own (utterance_1625) our tailor received him courteously had he learned to like the man understanding that he had behaved with honesty and wisdom in regard to his plant and respecting him as one of the workers of the day but he declared that for the level family as a family he did not care for them particularly (utterance_1626) there poles asunder from me he said (utterance_1627) but by your good fortune and merit if you will allow me to say so you have travelled from the one pole very far towards the other (utterance_1628) at present i think that the sense of the country is in favour of an aristocracy of birth (utterance_1629) when you were foremost among them did you not wish to be their master (utterance_1630) it is one habitual legislative than all human efforts should and must tend (utterance_1631) when you make much water boil mister throat some of it will probably boil over (utterance_1632) i quite agree with you that the silk gowns should be kept for their elders and so the conversation was ended (utterance_1633) with her there was a real wish that the poles might be joined together by her future husband (utterance_1634) if you ready wish it you shall go he said (utterance_1635) and a blue one to be buried in hull asked me (utterance_1636) must i have a pink silk gown to walk about in early in the morning (utterance_1637) i soon assumed darned my worst is stocking sweetheart (utterance_1638) i can do that too (utterance_1639) and now i'll sit down and write a letter to my lord (utterance_1640) she draws close and satisfies (utterance_1641) he could not forget missus pineavan's eyes that he remembered nothing of her other facial details (utterance_1642) afterwards they kept a part awhile in the drawing room for form's sake but eventually gravitated together again and finished the evening in each other's company (utterance_1643) but this was not all (utterance_1644) but what he able (utterance_1645) it was unfair to go further without telling her even though hitherto such explicitness had not been absolutely demanded (utterance_1646) he determined to call immediately on the new inclination (utterance_1647) she did not far from the long fashionable hamptonshire square and he went thither with expectations of having a highly emotional time at least (utterance_1648) but somehow the very bell pool seemed cold although she had so ernesty asked him to come (utterance_1649) raising her eyes in a slightly inquiring manner from the book she was reading she bent back in her chair as if soaking herself in luxurious sensations which had nothing to do with him and replied to his greeting with a few commonplace words (utterance_1650) just as they turn medeira into port in the space of a single night so this old air has been taken and doctored and twisted about and brought out as a new popular ditty indeed (utterance_1651) she thought a little and then they went on to talk about her house which had been newly painted and decorated with greenish blue satin up to the height of a person's head an arrangement that somewhat improved her slightly faded though still pretty face and was helped by the awnings over the windows (utterance_1652) yes i have had my house some years she observed complacently and i like it better every year (utterance_1653) don't you feel plenty in it sometimes oh never (utterance_1654) what an unsivil thing to say she murmured in surprise (utterance_1655) it is rather unsubble (utterance_1656) as a punishment she did not ring the bell but deafton to find his way out as he could (utterance_1657) i saw him at lady channecliff's the other night (utterance_1658) josid and pierstan (utterance_1659) oh didn't he marry her (utterance_1660) said missus pineavan with a start (utterance_1661) but jostan was receding from the pretty widow's house with long strides (utterance_1662) lady aris had left the drawing room for a moment to see that all was right in the dining room and when he was shuning there stood alone in the lamplight nicola pinavon (utterance_1663) she had been the first arrival (utterance_1664) as the other guests dropped in the pair retreated into a shady corner and she talked beside him till all moved off for the eating and drinking (utterance_1665) he had not been appointed to take her across to the dining room but at the table found her exactly opposite (utterance_1666) the spring in the present case was the artistic commendation she deserved and craved (utterance_1667) the lady on dostance left wife of a lord justice of appeal was in like manner talking to her companion on the outer side so that for the time he was left to himself (utterance_1668) it came from the wife of one of his father's former workmen and was concerning her son whom she begged justly to recommend as candidates for some post in town that she wished him to fill (utterance_1669) what is necessary to the completeness of the story at this stage is not to rake capitally late but to take up some of the loose ends of the threads woe in theing and follow them through until the clear and comprehension picture of the events can be seen (utterance_1670) the way of inventor is hard (utterance_1671) he can sometimes risk capital to help him in the working out his crude conceptions but in then it is frequently done that it is first for cost a person of surrender (utterance_1672) when the resound is achieved the invention makes its appeal on the score of economy on material are of effort and then labor often awaits with crushing and tyrannical spirit smash the apparelious of forbiddies by use (utterance_1673) possibly our national opposition as rebuting invention the seeking the higher good knit some check (utterance_1674) possibly the letters would travel too fast and too far on their road to perfection if conservadison did not also play its salutary part in insisting that the procession moved forward as a hoe (utterance_1675) on the contrary the conditions for its perceptions have been working fast (utterance_1676) yes the very vulgar of the latticed art light made harder the arrival of the incandescent (utterance_1677) a number of parents arclining companies were at inconsistence and a great many local companies having caught into them under franchise for commercial business and to execute regular city contracts from street line (utterance_1678) thus in the curious manner the modern art of electric line was in a very true sense divided against itself with entrance reveries and jealousies which were none the less real because they were but temporary and according falt where ultimate union the force was incapable (utterance_1679) hence twenty years after the first atticismistation were established the methods they involved could be fairly credit with no less than sixty seven per cent (utterance_1680) it will be readily understood that under these conditions the modern lining company supplies to its customers both incandestined and argyliney frequently from the same dynamo electric machinery as the source of current and that the old food as between the rival systems has died out (utterance_1681) in fact for some years past the residence of the national electric light association had been chosen almost exclusively from among the managers of the great allison lining companies in the little citizens (utterance_1682) the others drawn opposition to the incandescent light came from the gas indestruce (utterance_1683) there also the most peter feeling was shown (utterance_1684) the gas manager did not like arc light but it interfered only with his treat service which was not his large source of income by enemies (utterance_1685) here again was given the most convincing demonstration of the true that such an addition to the resources of mankind always carries with it unsuspected benefits even for his anonymous (utterance_1686) this was not long no universally the spirit shown and to day in hundreds of cities the electric and gas progress are united under that one management which does not find it impossible to push in a friendly and progressive way the use of both illuminance (utterance_1687) the most conspicuous example of this identity of interest is given in new york itself (utterance_1688) so much for the early opposition of which they are worth plenty (utterance_1689) but it may be questioned whether in archers not equally to be dratted with active u o (utterance_1690) of course a gray many counts were eaten and rant but while january interest was aroused it was necessarily a pathetic (utterance_1691) we got it at a great bargain and only paid us more some damn and the ballast and waddage (utterance_1692) we seldom for forty cents though they were only about twenty or thirty thousands of them (utterance_1693) the fourth year i guided on to thirty seven cents and i made all the money out in one year that i held off previously (utterance_1694) one of the incidents which caused very great cheapening was that when we started when of important processes had to be done by experts (utterance_1695) after feeling around for some days i got a clue how to do it (utterance_1696) again made another machine which did the world nicely (utterance_1697) incidentally it may be doubted as loose traitive of the problem brought to listen that while he had the factory at harrison and imploring the chinese reader when to hammond want it a dynamot to be run by hand power (utterance_1698) for making the dynamos addisons secured as noted in the preceding chapter the roach iron were some gowver suits new york and this was also equipped (utterance_1699) to sick man bert man who had grown previously with edison on telephone the paragus and phonographs and was over to making edison specialities in the small way in the loft on hooster street new york was a silent house of constructing sockets fixtres meters sixty fuses and numbers out of the teat house (utterance_1700) in the early part of eighteen eighty one the edison electro light company least a o b schomagian act sixty five fifth avonine close to fording street for his headquarters and shell rims (utterance_1701) this was one of the finest homes in the city of that period and its acquisition was a premider sign of the surrender of the famous weston should have been to converse (utterance_1702) they experienced what a little gas engine was farther startling (utterance_1703) one day it was not going very well and one dumpty the man in charge and got exploring around (utterance_1704) the next four or five year such a fire was a veritable b hype day and night (utterance_1705) the routine was very much the same as that at the laboratory being its other naguite of the clock (utterance_1706) i was telling the gentleman one day that i could not keep a secret even if i locked them up in my dusk they would break it open (utterance_1707) he suggested to me that he had a friend over an eight avenue who made a superior grade of seekers and who would show them a treat (utterance_1708) he said that he would have some of them made ab with hair and o paper and i could put them in without a word and see the result (utterance_1709) i thought no more about the matter (utterance_1710) i didn't remember anything about it (utterance_1711) i was to busy on other things to the notice (utterance_1712) speaking of those days of nights addison says years ago one of the gray violinist was ramony (utterance_1713) who would talk with me but i never asked him to bring his violin (utterance_1714) why not he came with his following about twelve o'clock (utterance_1715) after that every time he came to new york he used to call sixty five late a night with his violinsk (utterance_1716) another visitor who had used to give us a good deal amusement and pleasure was captain sharp they had of london fibery gate (utterance_1717) who will go out among the fire ladies and have a great time (utterance_1718) speaking of tellestors i once god telling a man stores at the house and them fatried in the yard as he was leading (utterance_1719) he was winter and he was all in force (utterance_1720) i had nothing known to protect me against the code (utterance_1721) then the god clarencey and had to be shipped to florida for cure (utterance_1722) he had merely enjoyed the delights of anxious anticipation and a perilous pleasure of fattening everson's experiments (utterance_1723) now acted its quotation was required (utterance_1724) london is goat and glory (utterance_1725) they say best man are moded out of thoughts and for the most become much more the better for being a little bad (utterance_1726) standing on the broken column of the o steeper three hundred feet above prime road hill william struck an attitude of theoretrical fashion and honor it the falling oritorical flight (utterance_1727) glorest london (utterance_1728) a sad how sad a thing that the day woke on when not a vastage of this wonderful mass of humaniality shall remain where the cry of the waft that and beat him should only be heard a nature again resume her rustic splendan desolation (utterance_1729) the devil's tavern was the resort for actors authors bohemians floors and ladies who did not retire early to their downing couches (utterance_1730) well oh and my son soon found rest in deep slumbering and wafted away into a dreamless rim our tide bodies lay in the foeing arms and morphis until the pot and knock at our door next morning as the clock of the tower struck the hour of nine (utterance_1731) our first sight of the sun rising london gifts great expectations of fame and fortune for surely all we had for glowing expectations (utterance_1732) oft expectation fausts and most oft there were most a promises and off aheads where hope is the coldest and despair most fits (utterance_1733) duses one double when six is tropically (utterance_1734) william to the great amazement of the dinner flung a guinea in the cennapot which was immediately tact by jack while the others looked on in silent expectation (utterance_1735) the polite jack replied all right sir take a word for it (utterance_1736) i have set my life upon the cast i will stand the hazard of the dye (utterance_1737) i immediately followed in his first absence and found him joking with a landlady about a cup of infant boop perhaps she was foundling her capacious lap (utterance_1738) if he had dropped out of the clouts william could not have been more pleased or surprised and the feeling was reciproco (utterance_1739) the primming schaba fau was owing a short distance from the devil's table and we were invited to visit the establishment (utterance_1740) james verbitch gazed for a moment on the manly formal william and blurria in his bluff manner what do you know (utterance_1741) the next day everybody in the house began to make preparations for the journey (utterance_1742) everything was done very leisurely though there was a little talking into sporting and the giving of contrary orders (utterance_1743) the old porter was there directing a scooting the servants as they piled the rugs and blankets and bags of food and pots and pans and dishes into the wagon (utterance_1744) there was quite a procession when that last the big wagon rumbled out through the gateway (utterance_1745) behind i came to grandmother in her duly deck a sort of a litter or easy chair sung between two long poles (utterance_1746) besides the family there were many servants and several others walked beside the slow moving wagon (utterance_1747) the clock too was with them (utterance_1748) good bye shouted a little now from his garden whilst they went by good bye (utterance_1749) they shouted greetings to their friend the potter as they passed him and also to the old fakir smeared all over with the ashes who sat in a little brick hut by the bridge and pretended to make wonderful cures (utterance_1750) this is more fun they goin to school said colo as the oxen plotted along through clause of dust (utterance_1751) these lovely birds are so nearly everywhere in india and in some parts running quite wild (utterance_1752) his long matted hair hung on his shoulders and he was saying his prayers with the help of a rosary of beads which he continually passed through his hands (utterance_1753) as the wagon came up a young man who accompanied the holy man ran up and held out a begging ball saying give o charitable people to this holy one (utterance_1754) no country in the world has so many beggars as india (utterance_1755) many of them are caught wholly men because they do nothing but make pilgrimages from one secret place to another living solely on the arms that are given to them (utterance_1756) when they had eaten their lunch the young people wanted to explore the garden near them (utterance_1757) perhaps their dog said mahala a little fearfully but they forgot about dogs and they saw a thicket of sugar cane down by her stream (utterance_1758) perhaps we can buy some from the man there he is now blowing by the stream said cologne (utterance_1759) it is looking for water said the farmer as he took a long spluko cane and gently guided it down to the stream (utterance_1760) the sneak is another sacred animal of the hindoos and do not kill or injure one for anything (utterance_1761) as they were but to move on again they saw a great cloud of dust down the road (utterance_1762) returned that there was a great and powerful regiment going in state on a journey to with another rhudgel or ruler of one of the small kingdoms or states of which martin andios formerly made up (utterance_1763) first there came a big elephant all decorated with silken golden silver (utterance_1764) on the elephant's back it was the howder which was like a big chair of the canopy over it and in this sitting crosslight was the rojah a big fat fellow dressed in colored silks and jewels the great diamonds that plume in his turban (utterance_1765) behind the house stood a servant holding a big umbrella of fine feathers over the rojah's head (utterance_1766) the driver sat on the neck of the elephant and guided the big beast that were parting him on one side or the other with an iron shod stick or gold (utterance_1767) as in it fine to roe like that on a big elephant (utterance_1768) now the rest of the day the little folk talked of nothing but the greater johnnis escort (utterance_1769) our party came to a halt among many other block carts the owners of which were already sitting around on the ground cooking their suppers or bargaining for food and a little booth (utterance_1770) these they used for plates keeping them up with their boiled rice and curry and sersh and are sorts of puddings and sweets (utterance_1771) a supper was being eaten another party stopped at the peril encamped not far away (utterance_1772) when the litter was put down the young boy stepped out looking very proud and haughty (utterance_1773) his servants i once spread a handsome rug on the ground for him to sit on and rushed about waiting on him taking good care to keep every one at a distance (utterance_1774) yes and how he orders every one about him (utterance_1775) around a little brownman's neck was a thin quarter thread which is the sign of his high caste (utterance_1776) meanwhile the haughty little brammon ate his supper when the said turned away so no one could see him eat and then growing tired of respectful glances of the crowd around him he got into his letter again and the servants fastened the curtains tightly around him (utterance_1777) everybody stepped soundly in spite of the fact that one of the servants was beating a drummers of the night which they really believed was the way to keep off evil spirits (utterance_1778) o the thieves he cried (utterance_1779) there is bad as the beggars (utterance_1780) what art thou guarding so carefully sheel asked her brother (utterance_1781) hugh kohloa were walking beside the wagon for a change (utterance_1782) the lattices were raised so shea and her mother and aunt could enjoy the fresh air (utterance_1783) they're my dolls said the little girl sadly as she patted the bundle beside her (utterance_1784) i keep them with an offering to the holy river poor little woman (utterance_1785) must thou sacrifice thy toys too (utterance_1786) smarter uncle as he patted her head (utterance_1787) chapter forty nine griggs is stubborn (utterance_1788) the days glided by with the stiffness and crispie's limbs growing less painful and the pony recovering fast for the clear mountain air seemed to act like a cure for wounds (utterance_1789) every day the king showed the injured animal in better condition (utterance_1790) as efforts to move no longer made chrisuvin's and forget his own pains in those he felt that seeing the mustain suffer (utterance_1791) everyone was busy for the keeping watch regularly took up a good deal of time (utterance_1792) it's all nonsense ned cried chris for them to think that they're staying on account of us hullo griggs were you listening (utterance_1793) how did your pony go this morning splendid (utterance_1794) just hodgeted a little on the bare leg but is better than i was yesterday (utterance_1795) did you counter this morning can't her (utterance_1796) we want at a good sween gallop and what about you (utterance_1797) oh i'm only a little stiff still (utterance_1798) we shall get strong more quickly journeying over the plains or climbing in and out among the mountains (utterance_1799) he says we're to start to morrow at daybreak (utterance_1800) hurrah cried chris (utterance_1801) but we shan't my lad why not (utterance_1802) because i've seen indians again (utterance_1803) elliers all as seeing indians again (utterance_1804) well they show themselves to me i don't want them said griggs drily (utterance_1805) den artful lot never been away at all i believe (utterance_1806) we couldn't see em oh if you need a start they had been close upon our heels directly (utterance_1807) ah you have to trap them chris said nan maliciously (utterance_1808) look here if you say out again we shall quarl hear that griggs (utterance_1809) oh yes i hear serve you right (utterance_1810) if he can show us a better way he had better hold her tongue (utterance_1811) very well i can do that said ned haughtily (utterance_1812) there that's enough cried chris don't be so petty ned (utterance_1813) that's right cried griggs (utterance_1814) look here lads have just been trying that place again (utterance_1815) and he turned the doctor likes (utterance_1816) being shot at by fellows with bows and arrows sounds bad enough but there's not much rescue (utterance_1817) i don't know about that said chris anxiously (utterance_1818) don't you well i do (utterance_1819) i should be running fast and dodging in and out among the rocks and trees (utterance_1820) but the enemy wants standing still continued griggs (utterance_1821) don't believe there's a bit o risk for me i shall be all right (utterance_1822) but the animals will be well back in that hole said chris (utterance_1823) yes my lad and i want them to be planted for the waxbill (utterance_1824) i'm afraid father was say that the ponies ought to be close at hand (utterance_1825) yes that's right as it can be done but i'll go hard with us all as the indians gave up the bay of the trap and turn upon those who said it (utterance_1826) well you must talk it a ruth father said chris (utterance_1827) too many redskins about as i told you (utterance_1828) there always too many red skins about cried chris impatiently (utterance_1829) i wish i could charge them boldly and send them flying over the plains (utterance_1830) never to come back again said nan sharply (utterance_1831) not quite my lads then to see that we're playing in my retriquelsh game (utterance_1832) just then the doctor came into the shelter with the boys having talking bring with them watton loving shooting rather trying to shoot for he had had no success they two were talking earnestly about ways and means (utterance_1833) oh here you are griggs cried the doctor (utterance_1834) had a good turn of scouting yes sir (utterance_1835) the indians have shifted their quarters and therein about us outward a position as we could contrive for our purpose (utterance_1836) we must get away from here to some good hunting ground (utterance_1837) to the indians seem to be camping or only on the move (utterance_1838) this seemed to me to be hatching up some dart or another replied greeks (utterance_1839) then he began to walk up and down slowly evidently deep in thought (utterance_1840) there he said as made up my mind (utterance_1841) it is very evident that we may wait here charred stores are exhausted and be as far off that opportunity we seek as ever (utterance_1842) the indians cow wait we cannot and they seem to know it (utterance_1843) going to give up young chris's plan said griggs bowing (utterance_1844) no i'm going to put it in force all once we start to night (utterance_1845) but all the same we can be making our preparations (utterance_1846) the barrels can be filled with water and every one's bottle (utterance_1847) provisions can be packed in our wallets without everything how ready for a start (utterance_1848) finally just at thus the animals can be driven in with food and water and (utterance_1849) exactly replied the doctor (utterance_1850) but before any more said griggs i want to offer you the opportunity to draw back (utterance_1851) what for said good sharply (utterance_1852) not a bit of it sir i'm going to take hand it don't hit me (utterance_1853) i mean to do a bit to carry out young chris's plan i shut up the rescue for a week or two perhaps a month while we get right away (utterance_1854) there's a horrible scientific griggs (utterance_1855) what be as we let them get the better of us sir (utterance_1856) you mean the shutting of the enemy here to stars (utterance_1857) ejaculated griggs so sharply that the boy started certain right if they did sir (utterance_1858) what business had they to want our scopes but we shouldn't shut them up to start (utterance_1859) they'd have weeks a work before they could get their horses out but without horses they'd be out in the wake (utterance_1860) star nonsense (utterance_1861) but there i don't want to make speeches it's all settled gentlemen (utterance_1862) oh you've got to tell the lookout with coming off (utterance_1863) now every one understand that he is to be ready without showing any watchful indians gout that there is something on the way (utterance_1864) yet so strong was the effect upon him of contemplating a large fortune that in despite of reason and desire he lived in eager expectation of the word which should make him rich (utterance_1865) a part of that impression was due to the engagement which he must now fulfil (utterance_1866) to shuffle out of this duty would make him too ignoble even in his own eyes (utterance_1867) because in his solid days he dallied with a girl who had indeed many charms step by step he had come to the necessity of sacrificing his prospects to that raw attachment (utterance_1868) unable to think of work he left the house and wandered gloomily about regiance park (utterance_1869) he felt himself ill used by destiny and therefore by marian who was fate's instrument (utterance_1870) he wrote to marian (utterance_1871) when you let me hear or come and see me (utterance_1872) i scarcely thought of biffin as likely to kill himself (utterance_1873) but more the deuce did he go all the way out there (utterance_1874) i hoped you would bring me some news (utterance_1875) poverty i can only suppose (utterance_1876) but i will see welt dale i hadn't come across biffin for a long time (utterance_1877) was he still so very poor (utterance_1878) asked amy compassionately (utterance_1879) i'm afraid sir his book failed utterly (utterance_1880) oh if i had imagined him still in such distress surely i might have done something to help him (utterance_1881) perchance his death was in part attributable to that hopeless love (utterance_1882) he sent me a copy of his novel she said and i saw him once or twice after that (utterance_1883) having this subject to converse upon put the two more quickly at east than could otherwise have been the case (utterance_1884) amy might take a foremost place among brilliant women (utterance_1885) especially now that her father is threatened with blindness (utterance_1886) is it so serious (utterance_1887) even if mister yule recovers his side it is not at all likely that he will be able to work as before (utterance_1888) our difficulties are so grave that (utterance_1889) he paused and let his hand fail despondently (utterance_1890) i have a good deal of will you remember and what i have set my mind upon no doubt i shall some day achieve (utterance_1891) there was silence (utterance_1892) the last three years he continued have made no slight difference in my position (utterance_1893) recall where i stood when you first knew me (utterance_1894) just now i am in need of a little encouragement (utterance_1895) you don't notice any falling off in one work recently (utterance_1896) do you see my things in the count and so on generally (utterance_1897) sometimes i believe i have detected you when there was no second chair (utterance_1898) the historian that girl's paper has attracted attention (utterance_1899) and i could so easily put her at rest by renouncing all claim upon her (utterance_1900) i surmise that that you yourself would also be put at rest by such a decision (utterance_1901) don't look at me with that ironical smile he pleaded (utterance_1902) i couldn't go about declaring that i was heart broken in any event i must be content for people to judge me according to their disposition and judgments are pretty sure to be unfavorable what can i do (utterance_1903) the case is too delicate i fear for my advice (utterance_1904) well i'll go back to my scribbly (utterance_1905) again jasper held the white soft hand for a superfluous moment (utterance_1906) yet for such feelings he reproached himself and the reproach made him angry (utterance_1907) marian could not mistake the air of restless trouble on her companion's smooth countenance (utterance_1908) she had divined that there was some grave reason for this sense and the panting with which she approached was half caused by the anxious beats of her heart (utterance_1909) he began abruptly (utterance_1910) he gave her such details as he had obtained then added (utterance_1911) there are two of my companions fallen in the battle (utterance_1912) i ought to think myself a lucky fellow marrying what (utterance_1913) you are better fitted to fight your way jasper (utterance_1914) more of a great you mean (utterance_1915) you know very well i don't (utterance_1916) i have made up my mind about our affairs he went on presently (utterance_1917) this (utterance_1918) will you marry me and let us take your chains (utterance_1919) you feel yourself indispensable to your father at present (utterance_1920) i should be so afraid of the effect upon his health jasper (utterance_1921) she paused and looked up at him touchingly (utterance_1922) dear i can't feel it would be my duty to announce you because my father had become light (utterance_1923) has one thing occurred to you (utterance_1924) will he consent to receive an allowance from a person whose name is missus milvain (utterance_1925) and if he obstinately refuses what then what is before him (utterance_1926) she listened anxiously and reflected (utterance_1927) as i have said there is a very serious doubt whether your father would accept money from you when you are my wife (utterance_1928) it isn't your fault marian and well then there's only one thing to do (utterance_1929) except jasper that if father is helpless i must find means of assuring his support (utterance_1930) did you think them insurmountable (utterance_1931) that is just what i have decided is impossible now and then you shall have the plain truth (utterance_1932) i don't trust myself (utterance_1933) but shall he face them willingly (utterance_1934) put up your umbrella marian (utterance_1935) what do i care for a drop of rain she exclaimed with passionate sadness when all my life is at stake how am i to understand you (utterance_1936) every word you speak seems intended to dishearten me (utterance_1937) why need you conceal it if that is the truth (utterance_1938) is that what you mean by signing you distrust yourself (utterance_1939) we must see each other again marian (utterance_1940) how am i to live an hour in such uncertainty as this (utterance_1941) i do wish it (utterance_1942) her emotion had an effect on him and his voice trembled (utterance_1943) there is no natural law that a child should surrender everything for her parents (utterance_1944) you know so much more of the world than i do can't you advise me (utterance_1945) is there no way of providing for my father (utterance_1946) good god this is frightful marian i can't stand it (utterance_1947) i will be faithful to you (utterance_1948) he had made a pretence of holding his umbrella over her but marian turned away and walked to a little distance and stood beneath the shelter of a bright tree her face averted from him (utterance_1949) moving to follow he saw that her fame was shaken by soundless sobbing (utterance_1950) in what can there be more selfishness (utterance_1951) but i couldn't say on word that would seem to invite such misery as this (utterance_1952) you don't love me jasper and that's an end of everything (utterance_1953) happiness or misery come to us by fight (utterance_1954) is it he my power to make you happy (utterance_1955) but if you had said you loved me before that i should have it always to remember (utterance_1956) if i believe anything i believed that i did love you (utterance_1957) what can you say to me more than you have said now (utterance_1958) remember me as a man who disregarded priceless love such as yours to go and make himself a proud position among fools and knaves indeed that's what it's come to (utterance_1959) soon enough he would thoroughly despise me and though i should know it was merited my perverse pride would revolt against it (utterance_1960) what can be simpler than the truth (utterance_1961) it is a theme that happens every day either in a man or woman and all that honour demands is the courage to confess the truth (utterance_1962) marian will you do this will you let her engagement last for another six months but without her meeting during that time (utterance_1963) that seems to me childish (utterance_1964) the rain fell unceasingly and with it began to mingle an automile mist (utterance_1965) just but delighted moment then asked calmly (utterance_1966) are you going to the museum yes (utterance_1967) go home again for this morning marianne you can't work (utterance_1968) i must and i have no time to lose (utterance_1969) good bye she gave him her hand (utterance_1970) they looked at each other for an instant then marian left the shelter of the tree opened her umbrella and walked quickly away (utterance_1971) jasper did not watch her he had the face of a man who was suffering a severe humiliation (utterance_1972) his sister said very little for she recognized genuine suffering in his times and aspect (utterance_1973) a few weeks ago he actually proposed to a woman for whom he does not pretend to have the slightest affection but who is very rich and who seemed likely to be foolish enough to marry him (utterance_1974) yesterday morning he received her final answer a refusal (utterance_1975) you will understand they surely you need no fresh proof how utterly unworthy he is of you (utterance_1976) you are the only friend i have of my own sex and i could not bear to lose you (utterance_1977) several days passed before there came a reply (utterance_1978) i must only ask that you will write to me without the least reference to these troubles tell me always about yourself and be sure that you cannot tell me too much (utterance_1979) we have succeeded in a massing two hundred ounces of silver enough i trust to erect a handsome bronze figure (utterance_1980) to be sure it seems a shame yet if i could steal the money this priest is boasting about i could live at ease for the rest of my days and so he began casting about how best he might compass his purpose (utterance_1981) but the priest far from guessing the drift of his comrades thoughts journeyed cheerfully on till they reached the town of coana (utterance_1982) here there is an arm of the sea which is crossed in ferry boats that start as soon as some twenty or thirty passengers are gathered together and in one of these boats the two travellers embarked (utterance_1983) when the boatmen and passengers heard the splash and saw the priest struggling in the water they were afraid and made every effort to save him but the wind was fair and the boat running swiftly under the belling sails so they were soon a few hundred yards off from the drowning man who sank before the boat could be turned to rescue him (utterance_1984) when he saw this the roon feigned the utmost grief and dismay and said to his fellow passengers this priest whom we have just lost was my cousin he was going to guioto to visit the shrine of his patron and as i happened to have business there as well we settled to travel together (utterance_1985) now alas by this misfortune my cousin is dead and i am left alone (utterance_1986) he spoke so feelingly and wept so freely that the passengers believed a story and pitied and tried to comfort him (utterance_1987) then the roon said to the boatman (utterance_1988) what thinks you gentlemen added he turning to the other travellers (utterance_1989) they of course were only too glad to avoid any hindrance to their onward journey and all with one voice agreed to what the run had proposed and so the matter was settled (utterance_1990) when at length they reached the shore they left the boat and every man went his way but the roanot overjoyed in his heart took the wandering priest's luggage and putting it with his own pursued his journey to kiyotto (utterance_1991) fortune favouring his speculations he began to amass great wealth and lived at his ease denying himself nothing and in the course of time he married a wife who bore him a child (utterance_1992) since then all was gone well with me yet had i not been poor i had never turned to assassin nor thief (utterance_1993) he would have fled into the house but the ghost stretched forth its withered arm and clutching the back of his neck scowled at him with a vindictive glare and a hideous ghastliness of mean so unspeakably awful that any ordinary man would have swooned with fear (utterance_1994) at length undone by such ceaseless vexation took a bay fell ill and kept muttering oh misery misery the wandering priest is coming to torture me (utterance_1995) now it chanced that the story reached the ears of a certain wandering priest too lodged in the next train (utterance_1996) and hiding his head under the coverlet he lay quivering all over (utterance_1997) three years ago at the coo mont affair you flung me into the water and well you remember it (utterance_1998) happily continued the priest i had learned to swim and to dive as a boy so i reached the shore and after wandering through many provinces succeeded in setting up a bronze figure to buddha thus fulfilling the wish of my heart (utterance_1999) on my journey homewards i took a lodging in the next street and there heard of your marvelous ailment (utterance_2000) thinking i could divine its cause i came to see you and i'm glad to find i was not mistaken (utterance_2001) and would it not ill become me to bear malice (utterance_2002) repent therefore in abandon your evil ways (utterance_2003) to see you do so i should esteem the height of happiness (utterance_2004) be of good cheer now and look me in the face and you will see that i am really a living man and no vengeful goblin come to torment you (utterance_2005) in a fit of madness i was tempted to kill and rob you (utterance_2006) fortune befriended me ever after but the richer i grew the more keenly i felt how wicked i had been and the more i foresaw that my victim's vengeance would some day overtake me (utterance_2007) haunted by this thought i lost my nerve till one night i beheld your spirit and from that time forth fell ill (utterance_2008) but how you manage to escape in her still alive is more than i can understand (utterance_2009) a guilty man said the priest with a smile shutters at the rustling of the wind or the chattering of a stork speak a murderer's conscience praise upon his mind till he sees what is not (utterance_2010) every well ordered japanese home of the old fashioned kind has its little shrine which is the centre of the religious life of the house (utterance_2011) she it is who sets the rice and wine before the ancestral tablets who lights the little lamp each knife and who sees that at each feast day in anniversary season the proper food is prepared and set out for the household gods (utterance_2012) these must be kept carefully by the mothers the safeguard against the many evils that beset child life (utterance_2013) visits to noted temples by relatives and friends often result in additions to the child's collection (utterance_2014) all these are put together by the careful mother and preserved as jealously as queen althea kept a charred stick that governed the destiny of her son (utterance_2015) as the children arrive at years of discretion these treasures pass out of the mother's faithful keeping into the hands of their actual owners and their usually kept sport away in some little use drawer cabinet until death removes the necessity for any further safeguards over life (utterance_2016) each animal brings its own kind of good or bad luck into the hour day or year over which it presides and only a skilful balancer of prose and cons can read aright the combinations and understand what the luck of any particular hour in any particular day of any particular year will be (utterance_2017) for the greater events of family life the home prophecies are felt to be too uncertain and the services of the fortune teller must be called him (utterance_2018) no well managed family would think of building a new house without finding in what direction to face the front door (utterance_2019) after this manner has been settled and the houses fairly begun there are occasional crises in its construction upon which much depends (utterance_2020) of these the most important as the day when the roof is raised (utterance_2021) the householder then besides whether the day set by the builders a lucky one for himself and his family (utterance_2022) a present of money to each workman is also in order and will conduce to the rapid and faithful execution of the job at hand when at last the houses finished and carpenters and plasterers are ready to leave it the local firemen who have assisted all along in the building as unskilled laborers often ascend to the roof and from the bridge pole cast down cakes for which the children in the neighborhood scrambled joyfully (utterance_2023) all come who can and those who cannot come since servants or provisions (utterance_2024) on the day after the death often in the evening the body must be placed in the cask shaped coffin that until recently was a style commonly in using japan (utterance_2025) now among the wealthier classes the long coffin has superseded the small square or round one but the smaller expense connected with the burial in the old way makes a survival of an old type a necessity for the majority of japanese (utterance_2026) at an appointed time all the relatives assemble in the death chamber and preparations are made for the bathing of the corpse (utterance_2027) there is no official ceremonial morning of parents for their children nor disgust and require them to perform any of the last rites or attend the funeral (utterance_2028) upon the younger brothers and sisters falls the duty of attending to all the last sad ministrations (utterance_2029) when the body has been washed is as dressed in white and silk haboti whenever the family can afford it (utterance_2030) the body to be placed in the coffin must be folded into a sitting posture in the chin resting upon the knees the position of the mummies found in many aboriginal american tombs (utterance_2031) this difficult to us apparently impossible feat safely accomplished there are placed in the coffin a number of small things that the dead takes with him to the next world (utterance_2032) the single exception to this rule about metal is that small copper coins may be put in to feed the old hag who guards the bank of the river of death (utterance_2033) last of all the vacant spaces in the coffin are filled in with bags of tea (utterance_2034) so long as the coffin is in the house it must be watched over continually (utterance_2035) it is their duty to see that the incense burning before the coffin is never allowed to go out while the food for the dead is renewed regular intervals by the mourners themselves (utterance_2036) there are few enlightened japanese who will defend the present system of cruelty to the afflicted or who do not long for some change but so great is the force of conservatism in this regard so haunting the fear that any change may indicate a lack of respect for the dead that reform advances slowly (utterance_2037) individual instances occur in which some of the worst features of these customs are modified (utterance_2038) a case and point is that of the late mister fouquets ava a man whose life was devoted to the advancement of his countrymen in modern ways and who in his death continued his teaching (utterance_2039) in this will he provided that his body was to be buried without washing in the clothing in which he died (utterance_2040) through this growing feeling and the unselfishness of maternal affection may come in time the release from these mournful ceremonies (utterance_2041) just before the procession starts a religious ceremony is held at the house which is attended by the friends of the deceased and which is substantially the same as that performed at the cemetery (utterance_2042) on the day of the burial great bunches of natural flowers are sent to the dead each bunch so large as to require the services of one man to carry it (utterance_2043) sometimes with the gift a man is sent to take part in the procession but if the giver feels too poor to hire a man this burden too falls upon the bereaved household for etiquette requires that all flowers sent be borne to the grave by uniform coolies who march in the funeral train (utterance_2044) another favorite present at this time among buddhists is a cage of living birds too be born to the grave and released thereon (utterance_2045) it seems more like a bridle than a burial (utterance_2046) during this period the spirit of the deceased is supposed to be still inhabiting the house and its habit or shyness set up in the death chamber before which food and flowers are renewed daily (utterance_2047) of course you must be a lame anne said diana (utterance_2048) of course it would be romantic conceded jane andrea's but i know that i couldn't keep still (utterance_2049) but it's so ridiculous to have a red headedy lane mourned anne (utterance_2050) and a lane was a living man (utterance_2051) your complexion is just as fair as rubies said diana earnestly and your hair is ever so much darker than it used to be before you cut it (utterance_2052) it was splendid to fish for trot over the beach and the two girls learned to row themselves about in the little flat bottomed door mister barrack had produced shooting (utterance_2053) it was undecited that they dramatize a len (utterance_2054) those days she said were so much more romantic than the present (utterance_2055) they had often gone down like this and nothing could be more convenient for playing a lane (utterance_2056) the black shell having been procured anne spit it over the flat and then lay down in the bottom with closed eyes and hands folded over her breast (utterance_2057) it spoils the effect because this is hundreds of years before missus lynde was born (utterance_2058) ten year ventures (utterance_2059) it's simply frilleyne to be talking when she's done (utterance_2060) jane rose to the occasion (utterance_2061) that behind the landing (utterance_2062) anne gave one gasping little scream which nobody ever heard she was white to the lips but she did not lose her self possession (utterance_2063) there is one chance just one (utterance_2064) under such circumstances you don't think much about making a flowery prayer (utterance_2065) the flat drifted under the bridge and then promptly sank in mid stream (utterance_2066) ruby jane and diana already awaiting it on the lower headland saw it disappear before the very eyes and had no doubt but that anne had gone down with it (utterance_2067) the minutes passed by is seeming like an hour to the unfortunate lily mane (utterance_2068) why didn't somebody come or had the girls gone (utterance_2069) her imagination began to suggest all manner of gross impossibilities to her (utterance_2070) anne shirley (utterance_2071) how on earth to do it up there he exclaimed (utterance_2072) it was certainly extremely difficult to be dignified under the circumstances (utterance_2073) what has happened anne (utterance_2074) asked gilbert taking up his oars (utterance_2075) we were playing in lane explained anne frigily without even looking at her brascieux and i had to drift down to camelot in the barge i mean the fight (utterance_2076) for a moment anne hesitated (utterance_2077) her heart gave a quick queer little bit (utterance_2078) her resentment which to other an older people might be as laffable as its cause was a nowit a lad and softened by time seemingly (utterance_2079) no she said coldly i shall never be friends with you gilbert blythe and i don't want to be (utterance_2080) all right (utterance_2081) i'll never ask you to be friends again anne shirley and i don't care either (utterance_2082) of course he had insulted her terribly but still (utterance_2083) everything i do gets me or my tears france into escape (utterance_2084) anne's presentiment proved more trustworthy than presentiments are apt to do (utterance_2085) will you ever have any sense anne grown marilla (utterance_2086) i don't say how said marilla (utterance_2087) ever since i came to green gables i've been making mistakes and each mistake has up to cure me of some great short coming (utterance_2088) vanity and vexation of spirit (utterance_2089) the spring was abroad in the land and marilla's sober middle aged step was lighter and swifter because of its deep primal gladness (utterance_2090) i must say with all her thoughts i never found her dissipudient or untrustworthy before and i'm real sorry to find her so now (utterance_2091) perhaps you're judging her too hastily marilla (utterance_2092) of course i knew you'd take her part matthew but i'm bringing her up not you (utterance_2093) demanded marilla anxiously going over to the bed (utterance_2094) anne cowered deeper into her pillows as if desirous of hiding herself for ever from mortal eyes no (utterance_2095) get right up this minute and tell me (utterance_2096) this minute i say there now what is it (utterance_2097) anne had slid to the floor in despairing obedience (utterance_2098) yes it's green moaned anne (utterance_2099) i thought nothing could be as bad as red hair (utterance_2100) he even got an intinious scrape for over two months and i was sure another one was due (utterance_2101) now then what did you do to your hair (utterance_2102) and shirley didn't you know it was a wicked thing to do (utterance_2103) yes i knew it was a little wicked admitted anne (utterance_2104) i know what it feels like to have you a word daddy (utterance_2105) and missus allen says we should never suspect anyone of not telling us the truth unless we have proof that they're not (utterance_2106) but i hadn't been and i believed every word he said implicitly (utterance_2107) who said who's you talking about (utterance_2108) oh i didn't let him in the house (utterance_2109) in a trice i saw myself with beautiful raven black hair and the temptation was irresistible (utterance_2110) oh marilla what a tangled web weave when first we practised to deceive (utterance_2111) your hair must be cut off there is no other way you can't go out with it looking like that (utterance_2112) with a dismal sigh she went for the scissors (utterance_2113) but there is nothing comforting and having your hair cut off because you've died at a dreadful color is there (utterance_2114) i'm going to weep all the time you're cutting it off if it wanted her fear (utterance_2115) it seems such a tragic thing (utterance_2116) anne wept then but later on when she went upstairs and looked in the glass she was calm with despair (utterance_2117) yes i will too (utterance_2118) i never thought i was vain about my hair of all things but now i know i was in spite of its being red because it was so long and thick and curly (utterance_2119) i expect something how happened to my nose next (utterance_2120) anne's clip tad made a sensation in school on the following monday but to her relief nobody guessed the real reason for it not even josie pye who however did not fail to inform anne that she looked like a perfect scarecrow (utterance_2121) it's hard to be told you look like a scarfed kicked scarecrow and i wanted to say something back that i did it (utterance_2122) and makes you feel very virtuous when you forgive people doesn't it (utterance_2123) i mean to devote all my energies to be good after this and i shall never try to be beautiful again (utterance_2124) of course it's better to be good (utterance_2125) i do really want to be good marilla like you and missus allen and miss stacy and grow up to be a credit to you (utterance_2126) diana says when my hair begins to grow to tie a black velvet ribbon around my head at the boat one side (utterance_2127) i will call it a snube it sounds so romantic (utterance_2128) my head is better now (utterance_2129) it was terrible about this afternoon though (utterance_2130) january avonlea found it hard to settle down to humdrum existence again (utterance_2131) perhaps after a while i'll get used to it but i'm afraid concert spoil people for every day life (utterance_2132) i suppose that is why marilla disapproves of them (utterance_2133) i feel just now that i may grow up to be sensible yet (utterance_2134) i just lay awake and imagine the concert over and over again (utterance_2135) eventually however avonlea's school slipped back into its old groove and took up its old interests (utterance_2136) none of the sloanes would have any dealings with the bells because the bells had declared that the sloanes had too much to do in the programme and the sloans had retorted that the bells were not capable of doing the little they had to do properly (utterance_2137) the winter weeks slept by (utterance_2138) on anne's birthday they were tripping lightly down it keeping eyes and ears alert amid all the chatter for miss stacy had told them that they must soon write a composition on a winter's walk in the woods and it behooved them to be observant (utterance_2139) i can scarcely realize that i'm in my teens (utterance_2140) it's a great comfort to think that i'll be able to use big words then without being laughed at (utterance_2141) ruby gillis thinks of nothing but beaus said anne disdainfully (utterance_2142) she's actually delighted when anyone writes her name of an a taken notice for all she pretends to be so mad (utterance_2143) i'm trying to be as much like missus allen as i possibly can for i think she's perfect (utterance_2144) if i had alice bell's crooked nose said anne decidedly i wouldn't but there (utterance_2145) i'm afraid i think too much about my nose ever since i heard that compliment about it long ago (utterance_2146) oh diana look there's a rabbit (utterance_2147) they're so white and still as if they were asleep and dreaming pretty dreams (utterance_2148) i wrote it last monday evening (utterance_2149) it's called the jealous rival or in death not divided (utterance_2150) i read it to marilla and she said it was stuff and nonsense (utterance_2151) it's a sad sweet story (utterance_2152) cordelia was a regal brunette with a coronet of midnight hair and duskly flashing eyes (utterance_2153) you know so much more than you did when you were only twelve (utterance_2154) they grew in beauty side by side until they were sixteen (utterance_2155) i asked ruby gillis if she knew anything about how men propose because i thought she likely being authority on the subject having so many sisters married (utterance_2156) but she pretended to be jellyan's friend the same as ever (utterance_2157) let's you and me have a story club all her own and write stories for practice (utterance_2158) you ought to cultivate your imagination you know miss stacy says so (utterance_2159) only we must take the right way (utterance_2160) this was how the story club came into existence (utterance_2161) no boys were allowed in it although ruby gillis a pin that their admission would make it more exciting and each member had to produce one story a week (utterance_2162) each girl has to read her story outlawed and then we talk it over (utterance_2163) min is rosamond mont morcerie all the girls do pretty well (utterance_2164) i am sure that i must have a wholesome effect (utterance_2165) the more was the great thing mister allen says so (utterance_2166) i read one of my stories to him and missus allen and they both agreed that the moral was excellent (utterance_2167) jane and ruby almost always cry when i come to the pathetic parts (utterance_2168) miss josephine barry wrote back that she had never read anything so amusing in her life (utterance_2169) i'm sure missus allen was never such a silly forgetful little girl as you are (utterance_2170) i felt so encouraged when i heard that (utterance_2171) missus lynde's has she always felt shocked when she hears of anyone ever having been naughty you're not how small they were (utterance_2172) now i wouldn't have felt that way (utterance_2173) pelichnuckers the general lively men of the hall had just brought the boys up from saiterville to its place they had journeyed from a taka under a glove after no gold running up kayugolic (utterance_2174) victoroas had come fred garrison la de colbe and several others of their old school chums (utterance_2175) oh how do you do mister strong (utterance_2176) and he ran to meet the head teacher (utterance_2177) well thomas i hope you have left all your tracks behind observed george stangpe (utterance_2178) holloo murlak (utterance_2179) of gave fifteen pounds and (utterance_2180) you'll let me go say you're a sticking klints in my hand hold bob (utterance_2181) he moaned as tom ran off throwing away several tiny tax as he did so (utterance_2182) so you've come back have you (utterance_2183) observed missus green as tom stopped at the kitchen door (utterance_2184) as tom and then his face fell (utterance_2185) oh dear he always did put me down as the first boy in the school when i i do my very best an almost sobbing tom put his face up against the coat sleeve (utterance_2186) missus green was very tender hearted in spite of her somewhat free tongue and she was all sympathy immediately (utterance_2187) they're there at home i don't mean to hurt you feelings he said sullenly (utterance_2188) i i don't know sobbed tom (utterance_2189) tom sit down and have a pie that's a good boy (utterance_2190) as fairly like home he murmured presently (utterance_2191) missus green when you die they ought to etique an awfully big monument over your grave (utterance_2192) what was her trouble tom consumption (utterance_2193) and yet with it all she couldn't help but like the boy (utterance_2194) and to think the stove just began (utterance_2195) and he mobbed his bow with his foot bentana handkerchief (utterance_2196) what kind of joke is that master ova (utterance_2197) oh it's not a joke you're handsome (utterance_2198) having got a camet of to be sure here it is (utterance_2199) sam threw a tiny box from his pocket (utterance_2200) i'll stand still and i'll take his napshot (utterance_2201) those stand of state and look happy (utterance_2202) cried sam as the crowd collected a rogue (utterance_2203) raise your right hand to your breast just as all statesmen do (utterance_2204) no waiter minute and the picture will be finished (utterance_2205) no this is a new potented process (utterance_2206) sam to us queer of the tent from the box (utterance_2207) i don't see any fisher crowed snubbers looking at the square blankly (utterance_2208) as a little fresh head (utterance_2209) the boys gathered around to set up a shove (utterance_2210) sam rower i'll get square see if i don't (utterance_2211) he murmured so innocently has it a good picture (utterance_2212) so me ost said the donkey (utterance_2213) a donkey oh pelic i did nothing of the find (utterance_2214) it's a donkey's head i say (utterance_2215) an isaature picture (utterance_2216) i guess i know a donkey's head when i see it mastered over (utterance_2217) helloc did a sum mistake here (utterance_2218) oh you can't joke me no more (utterance_2219) one night when both was sleeping the prince had a remarkable dream (utterance_2220) they rushed into the room added their cries to hers and forgetting all their form of precautions left the doors open so that the guards outside hearing the clamor entered and saw the prince (utterance_2221) she is a disgrace to her family and shall soon see her husband impelled on a stake (utterance_2222) then with his forehead disfigured by a fearful frown he continued to abuse the prince when having tied his hands behind him dragged him from the room (utterance_2223) treated thus like some wild priest darkly shaken and neglected nazabanana would have suffered greatly had he not been protected by the magic thrill given to him in partala and which he had contrived to conceal in his hair (utterance_2224) advancing therefore with a large army he prepared to be seat champa the capital syriac (utterance_2225) a terrible battle ensued in which both kings were formed prodigies of valor (utterance_2226) should there be any pity for the violation of the harem (utterance_2227) at the old king my father now in his stow tage was foolish enough to favour the criminal for the sake of his worthless daughter you had no need of his permission and ought not to have been influenced by him (utterance_2228) let that last the duceur be immediately put to that my torture and his barome of bishop up and prison shall i come (utterance_2229) have ready also of fierce elephant suitably equipped which i surmount immediately after the wedding to overtake my army a much against the enemy and as i set out i will make the elephant trample the life out of that criminal (utterance_2230) while he stood there calmly awaiting death which now seemed inevitable instantly felt his feet free and a beautiful lady appeared before him (utterance_2231) she humbly bound down said let my lord pardon her servant for the injury which she has unconsciously caused (utterance_2232) i am in affless born from the rays of the moon (utterance_2233) monday as i was flying through the air wearing of my press as one mistaken me for the lotus laughter tacked me (utterance_2234) in his anger he cursed me saying oh wicked one for this offence you oughtn't them to be changed into a piece of unconscious metal (utterance_2235) na changed to place immediately and i fell to the ground turn into a similar chain (utterance_2236) on his way he saw the silver fetter descended to the ground picked it up and continued his fight (utterance_2237) the slave of tsenroidmar hearing this came out of the palace and quickly mounting the elephant who held down his trunk to deceive him placed himself behind the prince (utterance_2238) kate was their mutual astonishment and joy when david recognized each other the prince exclaiming is it possible (utterance_2239) is it really you my dear friend apahahaboma who hath done the steed (utterance_2240) two these they forced their way and plying with good effects the weapons placed on the elephant for the use of tsindrowudma (utterance_2241) before however they had gone far they heard the noise of battle at a distance and saw the soldiers in front of them scattered in all directions (utterance_2242) we have just now encountered and utterly defeated the enemy so that there is no fear of any further assistance (utterance_2243) i do not hurt me to this (utterance_2244) out of curiosity he had one of them outside his house (utterance_2245) in cases of scarpins stings the maramedisan men rub up patent pluses with human milk or juice of the milkhades plant yufur p r k l e and afflid them to the parts (utterance_2246) when the embracal card of a conte babies laws off are spidered as burnt in the fire and its ashes are placed in a cocoa nut shell mixed with castor oil and applied by means of a fowl's feather till the naval (utterance_2247) lyddan called the dead man by his name and eagerly waited till some insect settle on the cloth (utterance_2248) blood was described as oozing out of his eyes (utterance_2249) make the patient suck the milk off depressed a thought woman whose baby is more than eight days old (utterance_2250) his campboy told him of a case in which debt was said to have the sultan from eating one of these animals cooked with some jack fruit (utterance_2251) a few years ago a scared arose in connection with an insect which was said to have taken up its abbod in the engeginous and dusty of the gospela banggled makers names that was reported to lie low on the pangle till it was purchased when it would come out and nip the bearer after warning her to get her affairs in order before s s (utterance_2252) his body was long and slender hard and agile his sight keen his aim and airing (utterance_2253) in the month of agriaim kanti had gone out shooting near the swamp of liddiki with a few sporting companions (utterance_2254) one morning as panty was seated in his boat cleaning a favorite gun he suddenly started at what he thought was the cry of a byetot looking up he saw a blaze man in coming to the water's edge with two white thucklings glass to have pressed (utterance_2255) the girl put the birds into the water and was their anxiously (utterance_2256) looking round granty saw one of his men pointing an unloaded gun at the box (utterance_2257) can't he went on cleaning his gun (utterance_2258) after kantie had eaten and drunk the brahman begged him to introduce himself kanti gave his own name his father's name and yet does of his home and then sell in the usual bay if i can be of any service sir i shall gim myself fortunate (utterance_2259) so saying county repeated his salute and went back (utterance_2260) the frequent mention of the mazumers had been borrowed for the wedding ceremony which was fixed for the next mark as kandi did not wish to delay (utterance_2261) in due time the pride grew more ibbed on his elephant with drums and music and with the parts like procession and the ceremony began (utterance_2262) in that passionate downcast face crowned with the dwelling coronere and bedecked with sandal paste he could scarcely recognize the relates maiden of his fancy and in the fullness of his emotion a mist seemed to be cloud his eyes (utterance_2263) the light of the lamps seemed to glow them and darkness to vanish the face of the pride herself (utterance_2264) at first he felt angry with his father in law the old scoundrel had shown him one girl and married him to another (utterance_2265) close upon it followed the girl he had seen the fall (utterance_2266) oh the mad girl cried the woman as they made signs to her to lead her home (utterance_2267) while the women in the room began to tit her (utterance_2268) the increasing laughter in the room betokened and amusing joke (utterance_2269) with a sigh of intense relief as of a scared room calamity they looked once more into the face of his pride (utterance_2270) the fog had taken this morning meal and now lay curled up on a bed of moss (utterance_2271) whenever the fawn caught up he was quite content to frisk about (utterance_2272) the danger was certain now it was near (utterance_2273) the house had struck a trail where she turned and the fawn was safe (utterance_2274) one was rolling the other had a gun in his hand what should she do (utterance_2275) her tired lakes could not propel the tyrant body rapidly (utterance_2276) the door saw the boat nearing her (utterance_2277) in a moment more the boat was on her and the men at the oars had leaned over and caught her (utterance_2278) i was tormented by thirst but had abstained from drinking for many days according to the doctor's orders (utterance_2279) the old man ceased to give so much annoyance yet sometimes he appeared to me in dreams (utterance_2280) filicha given them orders not to speak to me of this (utterance_2281) this maid had stolen from me certain little things of some importance and in her fear being detected she would have been very glad if i had died (utterance_2282) accordingly she allowed me twice to take as much as i could of the water so that in good earnest i swallowed more than a flask full i then covered myself and began to sweat and fell into a deep sleep (utterance_2283) they say that my poor friend was on the point of falling to the ground so grieved was he to hear this (utterance_2284) afterwards he took in a glazed state and began to beat the serving girl with all his mind shouting out ah traitress you have killed him for me then (utterance_2285) she may indeed have saved my life so let me a helping hand for i have sweated and be quick about it (utterance_2286) felicia recovered his spirits dried and made me comfortable and i being conscious of a great improvement in my state began to reckon on recovery (utterance_2287) just then the other doctor bernardino put in his appearance who at the beginning of my illness had refused to bleed me (utterance_2288) mystro francesco that most able men exclaimed oh power of nature (utterance_2289) she knows what she requires and the physicians know nothing (utterance_2290) that simbotan my stubborn ordino made unsusseen if he had drunk another bottle he would have been cured upon the spot (utterance_2291) afterwards he turned to me and asked if i could have drunk more water (utterance_2292) i answered no because i had entirely quenched my thirst (utterance_2293) in like manner she was asking for what she wanted when the poor young man bade you to bleed him (utterance_2294) if you knew that his recovery depended upon his drinking two flasks of water why did you not say so before (utterance_2295) you might then have boasted of this kill (utterance_2296) at this words the wretched quiet sulkily departed and never showed his face again (utterance_2297) the very evening i was taken with great precautions in a chair well rubbed up and protected from the code (utterance_2298) do not permit him any irregularities for though he has escaped this time another disorder now would be the death of him (utterance_2299) then he turned to me and said my band van venouto be prudent commit no excesses and when you are quite recovered i beg you to make me a madonna with your own hand and i will always pay my devotions to it for your sake (utterance_2300) so i made my mind up and prepared to trouble (utterance_2301) that day many friends came to see me among others pierre laudanty who was the best and dearest friend i ever had (utterance_2302) next day there came a certain mikola da maunte a good too was also a very great friend of mine (utterance_2303) i had harboured him in rome and provided for his costs while he had turned my whole house upside down for the man was subject to a species of dry scab which he was always in the habit of scratching with his hand (utterance_2304) meanwhile that able physician from chesco de monte vacchi attended to my cure with great skill (utterance_2305) there they sit at me to wait until the duke went by (utterance_2306) many of my friends at court came up to greet me and expressed surprise that i had undergone the inconvenience of being carried in that way while so shattered by illness we said that i ought to have waited till i was well and then to have visited the duke (utterance_2307) at this words mystraragostino the duke's tailor made his way through all those gentlemen and said if that's all you want to know you shall know it at this very moment (utterance_2308) george or the painter whom i have mentioned happened just then to pass and mystroa augustino exclaimed there is the man who accused you now you know yourself if it be true or not (utterance_2309) as fiercely as i could not being able to leave my seat i asked georgeo if it was true that he had accused me (utterance_2310) he denied that it was so and that he had ever said anything of the sort (utterance_2311) my stroe augustino retorted you gallowsburg (utterance_2312) don't you know that i know it for most certain (utterance_2313) george o'r made off as quickly as he could repeating that he had not accused me (utterance_2314) then after a short while the duke came by whereupon i had myself raced up before his excellency and he halted (utterance_2315) the duke gazed at me and marvelled i was still alive afterwards he bade me take heed to be an honest man and regain my house (utterance_2316) when i reached home mikola da mont de guzzo came to destroy me (utterance_2317) i answered that i had done nothing to displease him but that he had injured me and told him all the affair about the mint (utterance_2318) he repeated get heads as quickly as you can and be of good courage for you will see your vengeance executed sooner than you expect (utterance_2319) i the best attention to my house gave pietro paganel advice about stamping the coins and they went off upon my way to rome without saying a word to the duke of anybody else (utterance_2320) you want them to immortalize that ferocious tyrant (utterance_2321) you have never made anything so exquisite which proves you i will inveterate foam and their devoted friend and yet the pope and he have had it twice in mine to hang you without any fault of yours (utterance_2322) it was firmly believed that duke alissardo was the son of pope clement (utterance_2323) messer fred jascoe used osil to say and swear by all he thinks that if he could he would have robbed me of the dyes for that meadow (utterance_2324) i responded that he had done well to tell me so and that i would take such care of them that he should never see them more (utterance_2325) i now sent to florence to request loring tino that he would send me the reverse of the meadow (utterance_2326) miccolo da montes guto to whom i had written wrote back saying that he had spoken to that mad melancholy philosopher lord sino for it he had replied that he was thinking night and day of nothing else and that he would finish it as soon as he was able (utterance_2327) nevertheless i was not to set my hopes upon his reverse but i had better invent one out of my own head and when i had finished it i might bring it without hesitation to the duke for this would be to my advantage (utterance_2328) i composed the design of a reverse which seemed to me appropriate and pressed the work forward to my best ability (utterance_2329) this being so as he was a fellow of much humor we used offered to laugh together about the great credit he had gained (utterance_2330) i therefore dismounted at once got my fouling peas ready and at a very long range brought two of them down with a single ball (utterance_2331) i never used to shoot with more than one ball and was usually able to hit my mark at two hundred cubits which cannot be done by other ways of loading (utterance_2332) i lived at my foot and let the water run out then when i had mounted we made haste for rome (utterance_2333) there was no answer and after one or two ineffectual attempts phronsie turned fearfully away (utterance_2334) i'll try and she laid a quick hand on the now (utterance_2335) two red spots burned on her cheeks and her pale blue eyes snapped (utterance_2336) i'm sure i heard it raging open down (utterance_2337) i don't want any dinner said charlotte drawing back (utterance_2338) yes indeed said polly cheerily just as fine as can be (utterance_2339) assuredly said old mister king with great satisfaction in polly's pleasure and that her success in drawing charlotte out (utterance_2340) and after this there were no more quiet days for charlotte chatterton (utterance_2341) oh bless me a two phronsie in pleased surprise (utterance_2342) yes grandpapa said phronsie coming in and shutting the door carefully i came on purpose to see you all alone (utterance_2343) so you did dear said mister king highly gratified in pushing away his writing table he held out his hand (utterance_2344) oh no grandpapa cried phronsie in a rapture i could never be too big for that so she perched up as of old on his knee then she folded her hands and looked gravely in his face (utterance_2345) well my dear what is it (utterance_2346) asked the old gentleman presently you've come to tell me something i suppose (utterance_2347) yes grandpapa i have said phronsie decidedly and it is most important too grandpapa and oh i do wish it so much and she clasped her hands tighter inside (utterance_2348) well then phronsie if you wanted i suppose it must be said mister king quite as a matter of course (utterance_2349) oh she left you everything she had phronsie a couple of millions or so it is why (utterance_2350) charlotte poor repeated the old gentleman (utterance_2351) i know not exactly her father isn't rich but charlotte i think may do very well especially as i intend to keep her here for a while and then i shall never let her suffer phronsie never indeed (utterance_2352) grandpapa said phronsie wasn't missus chatterton aunt to charlotte (utterance_2353) if missus chatterton was aunt de charlotte persisted phronsie slowly it seems as if charlotte ought to have some of the money it really does grandpapa (utterance_2354) maybe said the old gentleman with a short laugh and i shouldn't wonder if cousin yunus was sorry over a few other things too phronsie (utterance_2355) wouldn't it make her very glad if i gave charlotte some of the money (utterance_2356) for answer mister king set her down hastily on the floor and took two or three turns up and down the room (utterance_2357) oh i do so wish i might she said there's so much for a little girl like me (utterance_2358) it would be so nice to have charlotte half some with me still no answer (utterance_2359) i was writing a note to missus fargott said phronsie putting up her lips for a kiss (utterance_2360) sure as i can be phronsie said old mister king smiling good bye dear (utterance_2361) there that my sister's boy shall never say that but come in come in (utterance_2362) not to be ungracious the young man threw himself into a chair (utterance_2363) oh hang it uncle why can't you let me alone (utterance_2364) which is a wonder interpolated pickering (utterance_2365) i know you did uncle said pickering you've done everything that's good (utterance_2366) for heaven's sake pickering cried his uncle darting in front of the chair in its restless octavet don't say that again (utterance_2367) i've been a lazy dog all my life and a good for not but i hope i've not sunk to that (utterance_2368) the church bells were ringing and people on the avenue going by to service turned curious inquiring looks up at the great house and then went on talking of the recent events which had so strangely entered into and made history in the city (utterance_2369) and all through his impassioned appeal this morning there was a note of sadness and rebuke and stern condemnation that made many of the members pale with self accusation or with inward anger (utterance_2370) raymond had voted to continue for another year the saloon (utterance_2371) the christians of raymond stood condemned by the result (utterance_2372) for that had been the fact in raymond for years the saloon ruled (utterance_2373) president marsh sat there his usual erect handsome firm right self confident bearing all gone his head bowed upon his breast the great tears rolling down his cheeks unmindful of the fact that never before had he shown outward emotion in a public service (utterance_2374) what if he had begun to do as jesus would have done long ago (utterance_2375) when had the first church yielded to such a baptism of tears (utterance_2376) what had become of its regular precise conventional order of service undisturbed by any vulgar emotion and unmoved by any foolish excitement (utterance_2377) they had been living so long on their surface feelings that they had almost forgotten the deeper wills of life (utterance_2378) the meeting was tender it glowed with the spirit's presence it was alive with strong and lasting resolve to begin a war on the whisky power and raiment that would break its rain for ever (utterance_2379) since the first sunday when the first company of volunteers had pledged themselves to do as jesus would do the different meanings had been characterized by distinct impulses or impressions (utterance_2380) and all through it ran one general cry for deliverance from the saloon in its awful curse (utterance_2381) grey and his wife were besieged by inquirers who wanted to know what lorrian's friends and acquaintances were expected to do in paying their last respects to her (utterance_2382) grey had gone up to virginia's and after talking it over with her in maxwell the arrangement had been made (utterance_2383) i am and always have been opposed to large public funerals said grey whose complete wholesome simplicity of character was one of its greatest sources of strength but the cry of the poor creatures who knew lorraine is so earnest that i did not know how to refuse this desire to see her and pay her poor body some last little honour what do you think mister maxwell (utterance_2384) i will be guided by your judgment in the matter (utterance_2385) i am sure that whatever you and miss page think best will be right (utterance_2386) under the circumstances i have a greatest taste for what seems like display at such times but this seems different (utterance_2387) it happened that that afternoon a somewhat noted newspaper correspondent was passing through raymond on his way to an editorial convention in the neighboring city (utterance_2388) she was a common street drunkard and yet the services of the tent were as impressive as any i ever witnessed in a metropolitan church over the most distinguished citizen (utterance_2389) it struck me of course being a stranger in the place with considerable astonishment to hear voices like those one naturally expects to hear only in great churches or concerts at such a meeting as this (utterance_2390) mister maxwell spoke of the fact that the dead woman had been fully prepared to go but he spoke in a peculiarly sensitive manner of the effect of the liquor business on the lives of men and women like this one (utterance_2391) raymond of course being a railroad town and the centre of the great packing interests for this region is full of saloons (utterance_2392) then followed what was perhaps the queer part of the strange service (utterance_2393) it was one of the simplest and at the same time one of the most impressive sights i ever witnessed (utterance_2394) there must have been a hundred of these women and i was told many of them had been converted at the meetings just recently (utterance_2395) the next moment he fell back in amazement before the impetuous rush of a starry eyed flushed cheeked young woman who demanded (utterance_2396) where is he pete miss billy gasped the old man (utterance_2397) aunt hannah's cheeks too were flushed and her eyes starry but with dismay and anger the last because she did not like the way pete had said miss billy's name (utterance_2398) it was one matter for her to object to this thing billy was doing but quite another for pete to do it of course it's she (utterance_2399) retorted aunt hannah testily as if you yourself didn't bring her here with your crazy messages at this time of night pete where is he (utterance_2400) interposed billy tell mister bertram i am here or quite i'll go right in and surprise him (utterance_2401) pete had recovered himself by now but he did not even glance toward aunt hannah (utterance_2402) miss billy miss billy you're an angel straight from heaven you are you are oh i'm so glad you came (utterance_2403) it'll be all right now all right hasten the den miss billy (utterance_2404) billy turned eagerly but before she could take so much as one step toward the door at the end of the hall aunt hannah's indignant voice arrested her billy stop (utterance_2405) pete go tell your master that we are here and ask if you will receive us pete's lips twitched (utterance_2406) but his face was pretty naturally grave when he spoke (utterance_2407) a flying figure brushed by him and fell on its knees by the couch with a low cry bertram's eyes flew open (utterance_2408) donalding found him there a minute later polishing a silver teaspoon with a fringed napkin that had been spread over bertram's tray (utterance_2409) in the hall above aunt hannah was crying into william's grey linen duster that hung on the hall rack aunt hannah's handkerchief was on the floor back at hillside (utterance_2410) then very gradually it dawned over them that there was after all something strange and unexplained it at all (utterance_2411) as if to make sure that she was here like this he drew her even closer bertram was so thankful that he did have one arm that was usual (utterance_2412) why oh of course stammered billy i couldn't help thinking that maybe you had found out you didn't want me (utterance_2413) demanded bertram angry and mystified (utterance_2414) as for my not painting again you didn't understand pete dearie (utterance_2415) she pulled herself half away from bertram's circling arm (utterance_2416) billy drew a quivering sigh (utterance_2417) good heavens is kate and this too bertram's voice was savage now (utterance_2418) well she wrote a letter (utterance_2419) billy laughed gaily but she shifted her position and did not meet her lover's eyes (utterance_2420) and you never did think for a minute billy that you cared for him (utterance_2421) he had not meant slow to mark that swift lowering of her eyelids (utterance_2422) billy was so glad bertram had turned the question on her love instead of arkwright's (utterance_2423) after a minute billy stirred and sighed halfally (utterance_2424) you see i wasn't in love with mister arkwright (utterance_2425) and and you didn't care it specially for for miss winthrop (utterance_2426) billy put a soft finger on his lips (utterance_2427) bertram kissed the finger and subsided humph he caught a minute (utterance_2428) well what is that is that kate too demanded bertram grimly (utterance_2429) there was another silence then suddenly bertram stirred (utterance_2430) billy i'm going to marry you to morrow he announced decisively (utterance_2431) i don't know as i can trust you out of my sight till then you'll read something or hear something or get a letter from kate after breakfast tomorrow morning that will set you saving me again and i don't want to be saved that way (utterance_2432) i'm going to marry you tomorrow i'll get he stopped short with a sudden frown confound that law i forgot (utterance_2433) five days indeed sir (utterance_2434) i wonder if you think i can get ready to be married in five days (utterance_2435) don't want you to get ready retorted bertram promptly i saw marie yet ready and i had all i wanted of it (utterance_2436) if you really must have all those miles of tablecloths and napkins and doileys and lace rufflings will do it afterwards not before but (utterance_2437) besides i need you to take care of me cut in bertram craftily (utterance_2438) the tender glow on billy's face told its own story and bertram's eager eyes were not slow to read it (utterance_2439) sweetheart see here dear he cried softly tightening his good left arm (utterance_2440) billy my dear (utterance_2441) it was aunt hannah's plaintive voice at the doorway a little later (utterance_2442) we must go home and will you miss here too and wants to see you (utterance_2443) you mean to do it before oxford (utterance_2444) aunt hannah glanced from one to the other uncertainly (utterance_2445) yes nodded billy demurely (utterance_2446) yes i know that is a good while cut in bertramarily (utterance_2447) we wanted it to morrow but we had to wait on account of the new licensed law (utterance_2448) in my reason travels in the west i felt that out there freedom as an idea has become feebler and ineffectual (utterance_2449) the same thing is happening now with the people of the west (utterance_2450) they are flattered into believing that they are free and they have the sovereign power in the hands (utterance_2451) as it has become more and more evident to me that the ideal of freedom has grown tendless in the atmosphere of the vest (utterance_2452) the mentality as that of a slave owning community with a mutilated multitude of men tied to its commotional and political treadmill (utterance_2453) he who cares to have slaves must chain himself to them he who builds balls to create exclusion for others builds balls across his own freedom he who distrusts freedom in others loses his moral right to it (utterance_2454) have they acquired a true love of freedom (utterance_2455) the great epic of the cell of her people the mahapareda gives us a bondful vision of an overflowing life full of the freedom of inquiry and experiment (utterance_2456) and the age of the boodo came humanity was told in our country to its automobile step (utterance_2457) it hardened into an age of innote construction (utterance_2458) the organic unity of a varied and elastic society gave way to a conventional odor which proved its artificial character by its inexorable law of exclusion (utterance_2459) life hath at fairly qualities i admit but they are natural and are in harmony with our vital functions (utterance_2460) by squeezing human beings and the grip of an inelastic system and forcibly helping them fixed we have it known the laws of life and growth (utterance_2461) we have forced living cells into a permanent passivity made them incapable of moulding circumstance to their own intrinsic design and of mastering their own destiny (utterance_2462) our stupefaction has become so absolute that we do not even realize that this persistent misfortune dogging us chaps for ages cannot be a mere accident of history removable only by another accident from outside (utterance_2463) they will be incapable of holding a just freedom in politics and the fighting and freedom's cause (utterance_2464) it represents the active aspect of inotia which has the appearance of freedom but not its truth and therefore gives rise to slavery dote with ten its boundaries and outside (utterance_2465) it is at the foot of woman that we laid the laurels that without her smile would never have been gained it is so image that strings the liar of the poet that any maids are voiced in the blaze of eloquent faction and guides her brain in the ogre's toils of stately councillors (utterance_2466) as they no hope for them so full of hope (utterance_2467) it makes the heart ache but to picture such recissitudes to their imagination (utterance_2468) the knowledge that such changes can occur flips over the mind like the thought of death that's carrying all our gay fanfies with its bat like wing and changing the healthy atmosphere of her hapness with its venomous explorations (utterance_2469) mine own (utterance_2470) what dead what could you do (utterance_2471) i bit about my chamber like a fairly bird in a cage (utterance_2472) do not think of moving to day (utterance_2473) do not keep the messenger an instant (utterance_2474) keith on my pony (utterance_2475) write only one word to yarrelle mimiata (utterance_2476) ferdinand to henrietta (utterance_2477) god bless you my henrietta my beloved my mats with henrietta (utterance_2478) what has that separation not cause me (utterance_2479) thanks that i could not conceive inhuman with frequent occasion (utterance_2480) and yet i ought to be grateful that he was uninjured last night (utterance_2481) i dare not now own how foolish i was (utterance_2482) do not be angry with you henrietta but i am nervous about concealing our engagement from papa (utterance_2483) days must elapse before you can reach both and i know fortunate i know your office is more difficult than you will confess (utterance_2484) but come back my own as soon as he can and write to me at the post office as he settled (utterance_2485) the consciousness that yostonea makes me restless (utterance_2486) i wish to meet him with as much calmness as i can command (utterance_2487) on the prads and hides where he had fallen with the flagstaff in his hand lay prince and rublewoggonski bleeding profusely and unconsciously uttering a gentle piteous and childlike moon (utterance_2488) suddenly he again felt that he was alive and suffering from a burning last rating pain in his head (utterance_2489) was his first thought (utterance_2490) he feebly moaned his leg and uttered a weak sickly groan which aroused his own pity (utterance_2491) lift his young men up and carry him to the dressing station (utterance_2492) prince andrew remembered nothing more he lost consciousness from the terrible pain of being lifted out to the stretcher the jolting wild being moved and the probing of his wound at the dressing station (utterance_2493) during this transfer he felt a little stronger and was able to look about him and even speak (utterance_2494) he asked on seeing the prisoners (utterance_2495) i commanded his quartering replied reckney (utterance_2496) prince ratman named lieutenant sotellan (utterance_2497) after looking at him napoleon smiled (utterance_2498) you does no hindrance to carriage muttered suctalen in a failing voice (utterance_2499) a splendid reply said epollen (utterance_2500) prince andrew had also been brought forward before the emperor's eyes to complete the show of prisoners could not fail to attract his attention (utterance_2501) his face shone with self satisfaction and pleasure (utterance_2502) the soldiers were carried prince andrew had noticed and taken the little gold icon princess mary had hung round her brother's neck but seeing the favour the emperor showed the prisoners they now hastened to return the holy image (utterance_2503) prince andrew did not see how and by whom it was replaced but the little eye calmed with its thin gold chain suddenly appeared upon his chest outside his uniform (utterance_2504) how good it had been to know where to seek for help in this life and want to expect after it beyond the grain (utterance_2505) how happy and calm i should be if i could now say lord have mercy on me (utterance_2506) either to a power indefinable incomprehensible which i know truly cannot address but which i cannot even express in words the great ole or nothing said he to himself oh to that god who has been sown into this amulet by mary (utterance_2507) the strangers moved on (utterance_2508) the quiet home life and peaceful happiness of bold hills presented itself to him (utterance_2509) key is a nervous billy's subject said larry and will not recover (utterance_2510) that too so you will of course undertake (utterance_2511) and something has happened he has some special inflammation some great news (utterance_2512) when block appeared it was evident that something had gone wrong with him (utterance_2513) gone now just when he most warned him never (utterance_2514) idiot triple idiot (utterance_2515) you shall be dismissed discharged from the saul your disgrace to the force (utterance_2516) it is that or you great gluttony (utterance_2517) my gentleman made himself most pleasant (utterance_2518) well at any rate for my sense i accepted (utterance_2519) we entered the first restaurant that of the reinoited friends he knew it perhaps monsieur (utterance_2520) i had no fear of him not till the very last when he played me this able turn (utterance_2521) i suspected nothing when he brought out his pocket book it was toughed full monsieur i saw that and my conscience increased called for the reckoning and paid with an italian bag note (utterance_2522) excuse me one moment pray (utterance_2523) he went out matthieux and pith bath he was no more to be seen (utterance_2524) while let him out of his sight (utterance_2525) it was only now at the eleventh hour that the italian had become incompated and the question of his possible anxiety to escape had never been considered (utterance_2526) he left everything behind (utterance_2527) hand it to me said the chief and when it came into his hands he began to turn over the lips heartily (utterance_2528) i do not understand not more than a world here and there (utterance_2529) it is no doubt italian (utterance_2530) of course such a consummate as you have proved yourself would not think of searching the restaurant or the immediate neighbourhood or of making inquiries as to whether he had been seen or as to which way he had gone (utterance_2531) it was a note for a hundred lierera a hundred francs and the restaurant bill lost no more than seventeen francs ha (utterance_2532) he was much pressed in a great hurry (utterance_2533) directly he crossed the threshold he called the first gap and was driving away but he was taught the devil (utterance_2534) he wished to pass on to leave her she would not consent then they both guarding to the cab and were driven away together (utterance_2535) but this thy host so wide dispreed wakes in my heart one doubt and dread lest tradedening rama good and great ill tarts thy john is stimulate (utterance_2536) he is my eldest brother he is like a father that he is to me (utterance_2537) i go to leave my broader dance who makes the wood his residence (utterance_2538) no doubt but this thy heart should frame the simple truth my lips brooklyne (utterance_2539) as guhadas and worried each two others spoke in friendless pitch the day god sang with gory dead and night over all the sky was preyed (utterance_2540) soon as king ohio's thoughtful care had quartered all the armadair well honoured while it laid his head besides satruna on a bed (utterance_2541) thus sighing and distrust and misery and beat a grave with fevered heart that mocked relief this trucket in his mind the chive still mourned and found no rest (utterance_2542) rest teachers mind it i will keep my watch while rama lies asleep for in the whole wide world is none dearer to me than ruggle sun (utterance_2543) harm no doubt or jealous fear i speak the truth with heart sincere for from a grace which he has shown will glory on my name be true great store of merit shall i gain and duties form no wish in vain (utterance_2544) let me enforce by many a row of followers arboured shaft and bow for while labrama's wheel provide who lies asleep by sita's side (utterance_2545) what waltz like these i spoke design'd to move the high soul'd barrit's mind but he up on his duty bent pli'd his purse with a argument oh how can slumber close my eyes while lowly couched its seat our lives their royal rama (utterance_2546) he home no mighty demon now nor have a legirk can overtrow see go her how he lies alas with cedar couched on guarded cross (utterance_2547) now as the sun is false to fly the king el long will see only tie raftock is gudging hand forlorn in a good grief this land will mourn (utterance_2548) but i was said cautiously a how first she and my lord mother now how fares the king (utterance_2549) oh it hopes up and satrogna said my mother mister white as yet but the said queen o dai who bore the hero for her grief is sore (utterance_2550) too late a king would cry and conquer by his misery dye (utterance_2551) when fate has brought the mournful day who it sees my father pass away how happy in the lives are they allowed his funeral rites to pay (utterance_2552) does the horrid stool doot many a sigh la munting and nie twent by (utterance_2553) when guhas saw the long armchief whose eye was like a load of sleeve with lying shoulders strong and fair high mattocked prostrate in despair pale bitterly afflicted he reeled as an earthquake reels a tree (utterance_2554) corselia by how war oppressed the senseless for its limbs cherished as a fond cow in love and fear caresses oft her youngling deer turning holding to her wall she said whipping and sore disquieted what tarbans or my son are tease of sudden pain or swift disease (utterance_2555) the lifes of us and all the line depend their child on only dine (utterance_2556) ra my lunchman force to flee i leave by naught but sein thee for as the king has passed away thou art my only help to day (utterance_2557) show me the cows whereon he lay tell me the fool he ate i pray (utterance_2558) then carmot's heel of job in tot he drank the water luxman brought and then obedient to his boughs he fasted with his gentle spouse (utterance_2559) he a stands the tree which slandham shade hears the cross when it it laid where ramah and his consorts spent the night together ere they went (utterance_2560) he seized (utterance_2561) why why citoy (utterance_2562) scolled by the fiery god of day high on this mighty hill i lay (utterance_2563) each mole and eve he brought me food and filial care my life renealed (utterance_2564) swathed to the south his cause he bent and cleft the yielding aliment (utterance_2565) the wholeest parrots of the air came round me as i marvelled there and cried as their bright legions met o say is cedar leaving yet (utterance_2566) those cried the saints and told the name of him who hold the struggling dame (utterance_2567) then from the flood some party paid due offerings to his broader shade (utterance_2568) seven nights in deadly storm i pierced but strongly life returned at last (utterance_2569) around i bent my wondering veal but every spot was strange and near (utterance_2570) on comrades to the cave i cried and old in the fortle hide (utterance_2571) here thou with hospitable care hast fadis with the noblest fare preserving us about to die with this thy plentiful supply (utterance_2572) but how o pious lady say may we thy graces boon repay (utterance_2573) he seized the acidic dame replied well banners am i satisfied (utterance_2574) a life of holy walks i lead and throb your hands no service need (utterance_2575) then speak again the bonnet chief we came to d and found relief (utterance_2576) now listened to a new distress and aiders wholly waterers (utterance_2577) our renderings in this vasty cave exhausted times sagreva gave (utterance_2578) once more then lady drandrillees and let their supplians go in peas again up under erin's pet for king samemosiah we dread (utterance_2579) and the great task of a sauring set ellas is unaccomplished yet (utterance_2580) and hold his waters raw and rave terefic with each crusted wave (utterance_2581) the month is lost in toil and pain and now my friends what hopes remain (utterance_2582) your hearts with strong affection fraught he is will in every labor salt and the true valor of your band was pleasant wide in every land (utterance_2583) come let us all from food abstain and perish does since hope is vain (utterance_2584) far better does to end our lives and leave our wealth our homes and wives leave our dear little ones and all damn by his vengeful hand to fall (utterance_2585) our forfeit lives will surely pay for idle search and long delay and thou fearest king will bid us die the favour of his friend to buy (utterance_2586) then tara softly spake to cheer the banners halts oppressed by fear despair no more your doubts dispel come in this ample cavern dwell (utterance_2587) thou fondly hopeest in this cave the vengeance of the foe to brave (utterance_2588) but luxman's arm a shawar will send off deadly shafts steals walls to rend (utterance_2589) thy loving kinsman true one wise looks on these till with favouring eyes (utterance_2590) he hauled the prince's furious tread he saw his eyes glow fiercely red (utterance_2591) swift sprang demoluted to his feet upstarting from his golden seat (utterance_2592) ungrateful bon or king art thou and faithless to die plighted vow (utterance_2593) now if thy pride disown what he i told it prince has done for thee struck by his arrows shall thou fall and barley meet in yalma's hall (utterance_2594) still open to the gloomy god lies the sandpart thy brother trod (utterance_2595) then to dip light the world be true nor let thy steps that part pursue (utterance_2596) he seized and taras tari id does to the angry prince replied not to my lord shouldst thou address a speech so fraught with beaten as not as reproached my lord should be and list of all low prince by thee (utterance_2597) from parts of true he never strays nor wonders in full hidden ways (utterance_2598) there volt serene's heart fouquet by ramas saved the lasting depth (utterance_2599) restored to fame by ramas graze to empire over the banner rays from season's paths (utterance_2600) the matrons of the vamor rays see marks of fury in dye phase they see thine eyes like blood are red and will not yet become forted (utterance_2601) she seized and lexman gave ascent one by her jountal argument (utterance_2602) so taros peeping just and mild his softening heart and reconciled (utterance_2603) the hero's side i will not leave but he the conquest shall achieve (utterance_2604) so strong are dull so brave and dulled so pure in talk so humble solved that thou deservest well to rain and all thy monarchs bess to gain (utterance_2605) then thou my brother aid and all his foes pinnet his arm will fall (utterance_2606) whatever hand it was the shot down bourbon rome after his death was plundered devastated and ravaged by a brutal greedy licentious and fanatical soldier (utterance_2607) wherefore for the future write us nothing at all but appoint us the time and place of meeting and we will bring our sword for you to cross protesting that the shame of any delay in fighting shall be yours seeing that when it comes to an encounter there is men of all writing (utterance_2608) sir answered the spaniard permit me to do my office and say what the emperor has charged me to say (utterance_2609) nay i will not listen to thee said francis if thou do not first give me a patent sign by thy master containing an appointment of time and place sir i have orders to read you the cartel and give it you afterwards (utterance_2610) burgundy without being put out began again sir (utterance_2611) nay said francis i will not suffer him to speak to me before he has given me appointment of diamond place (utterance_2612) give it me or return as thou hast come (utterance_2613) i am quite willing said the king let him have it (utterance_2614) the piece of cambrai was called the ladies piece in honour of the two princesses who had negotiated it the morally different and a very unequal worth they both had minds of a rare order and trained to recognize political necessities and not to attempt any but possible successes (utterance_2615) all the great political actors seemed hurrying away from the stage as if the drama were approaching its end (utterance_2616) in fifteen sixty two at the battle of drou he was aged and so ill that none expected to see him on horsebah (utterance_2617) he fully arms save only his head answered him right well sir this is the real medicine that hath cured me for the battle which is toward and up preparing for the honour of god and art him (utterance_2618) the ladies peace concluded a cambrai in fifteen twenty nine lasted up to fifteen thirty six incessantly troubled however by far from pacific symptoms proceedings and preparations (utterance_2619) at last he decided upon retreating (utterance_2620) it was gasolasso di laviga the prince of spanish posey the spanish petrarch according to his fellow countrymen (utterance_2621) molmarency signed a similar one for piedmont (utterance_2622) they all repaired together to the house prepared for their reception and after dinner the emperor being tired lay down to rest on a couch queen eleanor before long went and tapped at his door and sent word to the king that the emperor was awake (utterance_2623) francis with the cardinal de la reine and the constable demomerency soon arrived (utterance_2624) on entering the chamber he found the emperor still lying down and chatting with his sister the queen who was seated beside him on a chair (utterance_2625) yes said charles i had made such cheer that i was obliged to sleep it off (utterance_2626) francis stood the converse with his own collar (utterance_2627) only seven of the attendants remained in the emperor's chamber and there the two sovereigns conversed for an hour after which they moved to the hall where a splendid supper awaited them (utterance_2628) the genties pleaded their privilege of not being liable to be taxed without their own consent (utterance_2629) orders had been sent everywhere to receive him as kings of france are received on their joyous assession (utterance_2630) will let's go as a delightful child (utterance_2631) there was no other such child there never had been and there never would be (utterance_2632) well let's give's mother sarah fema alex and jovnah was sure of that (utterance_2633) lulovitch his eyes were dark and large her cheeks were rosy her lips were made for kisses and for laughter (utterance_2634) but it was not these charms in la lettucate that gave her mother the keenest joy (utterance_2635) she felt cold with her husband (utterance_2636) he was always fresh and cool with a frigid smile and wherever he passed cold currents seemed to move in the air (utterance_2637) it even seemed to act sirophema alex and drovenah that she was in love with her future husband and thus made her happy (utterance_2638) the bride was also good looking she was a tall dark eyed dark haired girl somewhat timid but very tactful (utterance_2639) he had connections and his wife came of good influential people (utterance_2640) this might at the proper opportunity prove useful (utterance_2641) after their marriage there was nothing in the manner of sergeya montestowage to suggest anything wrong to his wife (utterance_2642) later however when his wife was about to have a child sergeymovastovich established connections elsewhere of the light and temporary nature (utterance_2643) sarahima alexen drovenah found the sauche and to her own astonishment was not particularly her she awaited her infant with a restless anticipation that swallowed every other feeling (utterance_2644) sarahima alex and drovenah drifted farther and farther away from him (utterance_2645) much good then ran away stamping with her plump little legs over the carpets and hid herself behind the curtains near her bed (utterance_2646) where is my baby girl the mother asked as she looked for the latchka and they believed that she did not see her (utterance_2647) then she came out a little farther and her mother as though she had only just caught sight of her seized her by her little shoulders and exclaimed joyously here she is my la letchka (utterance_2648) her mother's eyes glowed with passionate emotion (utterance_2649) her mother wanted to hide (utterance_2650) the ledgeka turned away as though not to see but watched her much gustattefully all the time (utterance_2651) where is mamamachka asked la l'otchka (utterance_2652) a smile of absolute bliss played on her red lips (utterance_2653) the let's go's getting near her mother's corner (utterance_2654) her mother was growing more absorbed every moment by her interest in the game her heart beat with short quick strokes and she pressed even closer to the wall disarranging her hair still more (utterance_2655) le lettuca suddenly glanced toward her mother's corner and screamed with joy (utterance_2656) through the half closed doors he heard the laughter the joyous outcries the sound of romping (utterance_2657) even fidosia felt abashed now for her mistress now for herself (utterance_2658) he liked coming here where everything was beautifully arranged this was done by sarahhema alexandrovna who wished to surround her little girl from her very infancy only with the loveliest things (utterance_2659) serfey mattelson drona addressed herself tastefully this too she did for la lachka with the same end in view (utterance_2660) one thing sergey modestovich had not become reconciled to and this was his wife's almost continuous presence in the nursery (utterance_2661) it's just as i thought i knew that i'd find you here he said with a durism and condescending smile (utterance_2662) merely you see that the child should feel its own individuality he exclaimed in answer to sarahina alexandrovna's puzzled glance (utterance_2663) she's still so little said serphema alex and drover (utterance_2664) i don't insist it's your kingdom here (utterance_2665) i'll think it over his wife answered smiling as he did coldly virginia (utterance_2666) then they began to talk with something else (utterance_2667) that the mistress does it well that's one thing but that the young lady does it that's bad (utterance_2668) why asked fidocio with curiosity (utterance_2669) this expression of curiosity gave her face the look of a wooden roughly painted doll (utterance_2670) yes that's bad repeated a gothio with conviction terribly bad well (utterance_2671) it's the truth i'm saying remember my words agafya went on with the same assurance and secrecy (utterance_2672) it's the sheerst sign (utterance_2673) the old woman had invented this sign quite suddenly herself and she was evidently very proud of it (utterance_2674) madam madam she said quaintly in a trembling voice (utterance_2675) sarah fima alex and droven i gave a start (utterance_2676) vodocia's face made her anxious (utterance_2677) what is it fidosia she asked with great concern is there anything wrong with olatchka (utterance_2678) no madame said fadocia she gesticulated with her hands to reassure her mistress and to make her sit down (utterance_2679) the latch causes asleep may god be with her (utterance_2680) only i'd like to say something you see will much cause always hiding ourself that is not good (utterance_2681) i can't tell you how bad it is said fidosia and her face expressed the most decided confidence (utterance_2682) understand nothing of what you are saying (utterance_2683) you see madam it's a kind of omen explains vudocia abruptly in a shamefaced way (utterance_2684) nonsense said seraphima alexandrovna (utterance_2685) who told you all this asked serfey mattaisin drovena in an austere low voice (utterance_2686) nos exclaimed sarah fima alexandrovna in irritation as though she wished to protect herself somehow from the sudden anxiety (utterance_2687) what nonsense as though lulutchka could die (utterance_2688) she saw clearly that there could be no possible connection between a child's quite ordinary diversion and the continuation of the child's life (utterance_2689) she made a special effort that evening to occupy her mind with other matters but her thoughts turned involuntarily to the fact that lulechka loved to hide herself (utterance_2690) when the luck who was still quite small and had learned to distinguish between her mother and her nurse she sometimes sitting in her nurse's arms made a sudden roguish grimace and hid her laughing face in the nurse's shoulder (utterance_2691) then she would look out with a sly glance (utterance_2692) though she reproached herself at once for this unfounded superstitious dread nevertheless she could not enter wholeheartedly into the spirit of lachka's favorite game and she tried to divert la lettchka's attention to something else (utterance_2693) she eagerly complied with their mother's new wishes (utterance_2694) saphima alex and jovna tried desperately to amuse galechka (utterance_2695) perhaps thought sarahhema alexensovna she is not as strongly drawn to the world as other children who are attracted by many things (utterance_2696) if this is so is it not a sign of organic weakness (utterance_2697) serfee max and drovna herself began the game once or twice though she played it with a heavy heart (utterance_2698) she suffered as though committing an evil deed with full consciousness (utterance_2699) it was a sad day for sarah p malix and drovenah (utterance_2700) her mother covered her with a blue blanket (utterance_2701) lulutchko drew her sweet little hands from under the blanket and stretched them out to embrace her mother her mother bent down (utterance_2702) she seemed so small and so frail under the blanket that covered her (utterance_2703) sarah fima elichs and drovenah remained standing over lelettchka's bed a long while and she kept looking at lalucha with tenderness and fear (utterance_2704) i'm a mother is it possible that i shouldn't be able to protect her she thought as she imagined the various ills that might befall olatchka (utterance_2705) she prayed long that night but the prayer did not relieve her sadness (utterance_2706) several days passed the lecturer caught cold (utterance_2707) the fever came upon her at night (utterance_2708) when sarahima alex and jovna awakened by fidosia came to la letchka and saw her looking so hot so restless and so tormented she instantly recalled the evil omen and a hoax despair took possession of her from the first moments (utterance_2709) a doctor was called and everything was done that is usual on such occasions but the inevitable happened (utterance_2710) and the lecture grew feebler from hour to hour (utterance_2711) nothing made her so unhappy as the reiterations of fidosia uttered between sobs she hid herself and hid herself our lachka (utterance_2712) fever was consuming la letchka and there were times when she lost consciousness and spoken to learium (utterance_2713) three days passed torturing like a nightmare (utterance_2714) sahima alex and jovna hid her face behind the curtains near leuetchka's bed how tragic (utterance_2715) await mammotchka whispered lalajka (utterance_2716) mammotska's white face became blurred and everything grew dark before la letchka (utterance_2717) she met her husband (utterance_2718) saphima alexandrovna was standing by the coffin and looking dully at her dead child (utterance_2719) simil my dear don't agitate yourself said sergeymotta stogich in a whisper (utterance_2720) you must resign yourself to your fate (utterance_2721) she'll be up in a minute persisted serfee malics and jovna her eyes fixed on the dead little girl (utterance_2722) sergeym rostovage looked round him cautiously he was afraid of the unseemly and of the ridiculous (utterance_2723) see my don't agitate yourself he repeated (utterance_2724) he was confused and annoyed (utterance_2725) her face seemed tranquil and her eyes were dry (utterance_2726) she went into the nursery and began to walk round the room looking into those places where lulechka used to hide herself (utterance_2727) she walked all about the room and bent now and then to look under the table or under the bed and captain repeating cheerfully where's my little one where is my lachka (utterance_2728) after she had walked on the room once she began to make her question you (utterance_2729) fidocio motionless with dejected face sat in a corner and looked frightened at her mistress then she suddenly burst out sobbing and she wailed loudly (utterance_2730) she hid herself and hid herself on the latchgar air angelic little soul (utterance_2731) when she entered the parlour there were several people between her and lalochka (utterance_2732) there was an oppressive feeling of heaviness and seraphimaelics and jovna's head as she approached lulutchka (utterance_2733) will much go lay there still and pale and smiled pathetically (utterance_2734) the little one did not reply (utterance_2735) sarahimah aksendovna stood up a wrecked side in a lost way smiled and called loudly lachka (utterance_2736) la let's go's being carried out (utterance_2737) at this moment the heavy beat of a storm on the roof ceased with miraculous suddenness leaving the outside world empty of sound save for the drip drip drip of eaves (utterance_2738) we had ever sort of people with the sophonon and as i was looked out at a popular game i saw them all (utterance_2739) at the same instant i heard the rip of still through cloth and felt the sharp stab in the left leg (utterance_2740) then i scouted to see what had cut me and found that the fellow had lost a hand (utterance_2741) in place of it he wore a sharp still hook (utterance_2742) there was no doubt of his being alive for he was breathing hard like a man does when he gets hit over the head it didn't sound good (utterance_2743) when a man breathes that way he's mostly all gone (utterance_2744) men got bettered over the head off and enough in those days (utterance_2745) sower wine is fine to put a wound in shape to heel but is no soothin syrup (utterance_2746) their coffin wears their ship and the graver was the sea blow high blow low what care we and the quarter that we gave them was to sink them in the sea done on the coast of the high barbery (utterance_2747) if fair made my hair rise to hear him with a big still solemn desert outside and the quiet moonlight in the shadows and him sitting up straight and gaunt his eyes blazing each side his big eagle nose and his snaky hair hanging over the raw cut across his head (utterance_2748) however i made out to get him bandaged up and in shape and pretty soon he sort of one to sleep (utterance_2749) an agin en en yo tsin dat barbery song ter tut ut a go ter o ter flowin by jist ter be sure i n dad a goin below or else he jist talk (utterance_2750) he began when he was a kid and he gave a sight of conversations pausing for replies (utterance_2751) i used to listen by the hour but i never made out anything really important as to who the man was or where he'd come from or what he done (utterance_2752) i didn't pay any attention to him for he was quiet (utterance_2753) usually i didn't bother with his talk for i didn't mean anything something in his voice made me turn (utterance_2754) he was lying on his side those black eyes of he was blazing at me but now both of them saw the same distance (utterance_2755) where are my clothes he asked very intense (utterance_2756) one little squeeze talk about your deadly weapons (utterance_2757) but he'd been too sick and too long a bit (utterance_2758) in a minute or so he came to (utterance_2759) now you're a nice sweet proposition said i as soon as i was sure he could understand me (utterance_2760) they're safe enough let me have them he begged (utterance_2761) now look here said i you can't get up to day you ain't fit (utterance_2762) i know he pleaded but let me see them (utterance_2763) just a satisfying up passed over his old dirts (utterance_2764) i've been robbed he cried (utterance_2765) where's my coat he asked (utterance_2766) you had no coat when i pitch you up i replied (utterance_2767) he looked at me mighty suspicious but didn't say anything more he wouldn't even answer when i spoke to him (utterance_2768) after he needn't a fair mill he fell asleep (utterance_2769) when i came back that even in the bunk was empty and he was gone (utterance_2770) i didn't seem again for two days (utterance_2771) and i caught sight of him quite away's all (utterance_2772) guess he's suspicious i'll stole that o cod o his thinks i and afterwards a founder my surmise had been correct (utterance_2773) however he didn't stay long in that frame of mind (utterance_2774) i ran up poor magin (utterance_2775) the mix was flat on his face his arms stretched out (utterance_2776) on the mill of his back neuma one armed friend (utterance_2777) anyway i thrust the muzzle of my coat into the sailor's face what's this i asked (utterance_2778) aouine immigmatio of antonio kervis said he (utterance_2779) the gleam died from his eye the snarl lift his lips (utterance_2780) in any case he flew pocopronto leaving me and my friend to go (utterance_2781) during the next two months he was a good deal about town mostly doin our jobs i saw him half anon (utterance_2782) however i didn't pay much attention to that being at the time almost busy holding down my card games (utterance_2783) that's all right said i which you'd better stay right there (utterance_2784) i want to make up to you free trouble said he (utterance_2785) what kind of good thing i asked treasure said he (utterance_2786) he looked all right enough neither drunk nor loco (utterance_2787) set out said i over there the other side of the table (utterance_2788) he did so a far away said i (utterance_2789) and it's a big thing said handy solomon to me for they's not only goal but all ter jewels and diamonds (utterance_2790) it will make us rich and i doesn't like us and you can kiss the book on that (utterance_2791) that may all be true said i but why do you tell me (utterance_2792) why don't you get you treasure without a need of dividement (utterance_2793) why mate he answered is just plain gratitude (utterance_2794) didn't you save my life and nuss me and take care of me when i was not killed (utterance_2795) look here anderson or handy solomon or whatever you please to call yourself i rejoin to this you're going to do business with me and i do not understand yet just what it is you want of me you'll have to talk straight (utterance_2796) it's all very well to say gratitude but that don't go with me (utterance_2797) the devil's a preacher if you may lost your pen father said he (utterance_2798) well is this then i got to have a boat to get there and she must be stopped (utterance_2799) and i got to half help with a treasure if it's like this fellow said it was (utterance_2800) it's money i got to have an it's money o hevin got an can't get unless it's somebody an his partner (utterance_2801) while me i asked why not he retorted (utterance_2802) we talked the matter over at length (utterance_2803) i stood after a larger party (utterance_2804) he strongly opposed this as depreciating the shares but i had no intention of going alone into what was then considered a wild and dangerous country finally we compromised (utterance_2805) a third of the treasure was to go to him a third to me and the rest was to be divided among the men whom i should select this scheme did not appeal to him (utterance_2806) the sinister existed for us no responsibility we each reported dutifully at the role call of habit and drop back into our blankets with a grateful sigh (utterance_2807) i remember the moon sailing a good gate among apparently stationary clouds i recall a deep black shadow line before distant silvery mountains i glanced over the stark motionless canvases each of which concealed a man there trembled with the bellowing one of cattle and the corrals (utterance_2808) seemingly but a moment later the cooks how brought me to consciousness again (utterance_2809) three were to care for the rumuda five were to move the stray herd from the cross to good feed three brendan cruiser told to brand the cows we had collected in the cut of the afternoon before that took up about half the men (utterance_2810) the rest were to make a short drive on a solid grass (utterance_2811) we were the only ones who did go afoot however although the crowds were not more than two hundred yards as distance (utterance_2812) between the upright bars of grease wood we could see the cattle and near the opposite side the men built in a fire next the fence (utterance_2813) we pushed open the wide gate and entered (utterance_2814) once did a whit from them to finish a sheaf of long j h stack and orange in his hand (utterance_2815) all the rest squatted on their hills along the prince smoking cigarettes and chatting together (utterance_2816) the first rays of the sun sighted across in one great sweep from the remote mountains (utterance_2817) homer wooden and old california john rode in among the cattle (utterance_2818) as the loop settled he jerked sharply upward exactly as one would strike to hook a big fish (utterance_2819) homer wrapped the rope twice or thrice about the horn and set over in one strip to avoid the tide and line and to preserve the balance (utterance_2820) nobody paid any attention to the calf (utterance_2821) behind him followed his anxious mother her heads swinging him from side to side near the fire the horse stopped (utterance_2822) the two bulldoggers immediately pounced upon the victim (utterance_2823) it was promptly flopped over on its right side (utterance_2824) thus the calf was unable to struggle (utterance_2825) when once you have had the wind knocked out of you or a river too broken you ceased to think us unnecessarily rough (utterance_2826) hot iron yelled one of the bulldoggers (utterance_2827) marker yelled the other (utterance_2828) the brand oppressed the iron smoothly against the flank (utterance_2829) perhaps the cat blitter a little less the heat scorched (utterance_2830) the brand show cherry which is the proper color to indicate due pumlin and a successful mark (utterance_2831) then he nicked out a swallow till on the other (utterance_2832) it seems to me that a great deal of unnecessary twiddles abroad as to the extreme cruelty of brandon (utterance_2833) undoubtedly it is to some extent painful it could some other method of ready identification be devised it might be as well to adopt it in preference (utterance_2834) inextinguishable laughter followed the spread of this doctrine through arizona (utterance_2835) imagine a punch or descending to examine politely the ear tags of wild cattle on the open range were in round up (utterance_2836) a casually bellows when the iron bites but as soon as released he almost invariably ghost of feedin or to look animately about (utterance_2837) besides which it happens but once in a live time and is over in ten seconds a comforted knight to those of us who have had our teeth fill (utterance_2838) one of the little animals was but a few months old so the rider did not bother with its hind legs but tossed his loop over its neck (utterance_2839) mister frost's bull calf alone and pictorial history shows the attitudes (utterance_2840) and then of course there was a gorgeous contrast between all this frantic and uncompromising excitement and the absolute matter of fact in propitibility of horse and rider (utterance_2841) as he knew his business and as the calf was a small one the little beast went over promptly bit the ground with the wax and was pounced upon and held (utterance_2842) he would catch himself on one foot scrambled vigorously and in by struggling back to the upright (utterance_2843) you can imagine what happened next (utterance_2844) this is productive of some fun if it fails (utterance_2845) but now the brand was at full swing (utterance_2846) when the nooses fell they turned and walked toward the fire as a matter of course rarely did the cast fail (utterance_2847) men ran to and fro busy and intent (utterance_2848) sometimes through four calves were on the ground at once (utterance_2849) thus aided and dissipated (utterance_2850) no more necked calves they announced (utterance_2851) then he was spit on his hands and go out it alone (utterance_2852) of luck attended his first effort his sarcasm was profound there's your little calf said he (utterance_2853) would you like to have me tote to you or do you reckon you could toddle this far with your little old iron (utterance_2854) toward noon the works slept (utterance_2855) finally homer rode over to the cattleman and reported the brandon finished (utterance_2856) the latter counted the marks and his tally book (utterance_2857) one hundred and seventy six he announced (utterance_2858) the markers squatted on their heels told over the bits of ears they had saved (utterance_2859) the tall amounted to but an hundred and seventy five (utterance_2860) finally wouldn't discover it in his hit pocket (utterance_2861) they had been doing a roostler's heavy work all the morning they did not seem to be tired (utterance_2862) of some once as some crank physical culture periodical that a cowboy's life was physically ill balanced like an horseman's in that it exercised only certain muscles of the body (utterance_2863) durrance as he had been used to do when he was at athos court frequented tournaments (utterance_2864) before durate the scored to the enemy i saw steeds white with foam and after the shout of a battle a fearful torrent (utterance_2865) these tidings came to urban (utterance_2866) not i by my confession unto heaven said she there is nothing more hateful unto me than this (utterance_2867) and the tis she said in the words she had spoken a welcome (utterance_2868) and evil betide me said he if thou returnest here until thou knowest whether i have lost my strength so completely as thou didst say (utterance_2869) then gerant went to see urban (utterance_2870) sir said he i am going upon a quest and i am not certain when i may come back (utterance_2871) take heed therefore unto thy possessions until my return (utterance_2872) but one person only will go at me (utterance_2873) and he desired enid to mount her horse and to ride forward and to keep a long way before him (utterance_2874) and unless i speak unto thee say not thou one word either (utterance_2875) and though thou shouldst desire to see my defeat in my death by the hands of those men yet do i feel no dread (utterance_2876) and he received him and that not feebly (utterance_2877) and say not one word unto me unless i speak first unto thee (utterance_2878) i will do as far as i can lord said she according to thy desire (utterance_2879) i maiden said he it is vain to attempt proceeding forward (utterance_2880) i cannot by any means refrain from sleep through weariness said he do thou therefore wash the horses and sleep not (utterance_2881) and when she saw the dawn of day appear she looked around her to see if he were waking and thereupon he woke (utterance_2882) and they left the wood and they came to an open country with metals on one hand and mow was mowing the meadows (utterance_2883) my lord he added will it be displeasing to thee if i ask whence thou comest also (utterance_2884) wilt thou follow my counsel said the youth and take thy meal for me (utterance_2885) what sort of meal he inquired (utterance_2886) then they washed and took their repast (utterance_2887) i go now lord said he to meet the knight and to conduct him to his lodging (utterance_2888) i will do lord said she as thou sayest (utterance_2889) and after they had eaten and drank dram went to sleep and so did eat it also (utterance_2890) the date seemed unimportant but throughout the period the officers and men of the ship have been unremittingly busy (utterance_2891) bows attacked the ship stores surveyed reliss and restowed them saving very much space by unstowing numerous cases and stowing the contents in the lazarette (utterance_2892) without steam the leak can now be kept under with the hand pump by two daily efforts of a quarter of an hour to twenty minutes (utterance_2893) as the ship was and in her present heavily laid in condition it would certainly have taken three to four hours each day (utterance_2894) the large green tent was put up and purposed for its maid for it (utterance_2895) the engine room staff and andersen's people on the engines scientists was stolen their labit george the cook refitting is galley and so forth not a single spot but had its band of workers (utterance_2896) the men space such as it is therefore extends from the fore hatch the stem on the main deck (utterance_2897) under the four castlers dolls for fifteen ponies the maximum in the space would hold the narrow irregular space in front is packed tight with fire (utterance_2898) neatly behind the forecastle bulkhead is a small booby hatch the only inches of the men's messtic and bad weather (utterance_2899) above the fore hatches the ice house (utterance_2900) we managed to get three tons of ice one hundred sixty two cockases of mutton and three cockasses of beef besides some box of sweetbreads and kidneys into the space (utterance_2901) the sacks containing this last added to the goods already mentioned make a really heavy deck cargo and one is naturally anxious concerning it but everything that can be done by lashing and scuring has been done (utterance_2902) forage i originally ordered thirty tons of compressed oatin hay from melbourne (utterance_2903) the scene is wholly enchanting in such a view from some sheltered sunny corner in a garden which blazes with masses of red and golden flowers tense to feelings of inexpressible satisfaction with all things (utterance_2904) a great mass of people assembled (utterance_2905) kay and i lunched with a party in the misealing companyship rupert hoo (utterance_2906) tell a graham to say tere nova had arise sunday night (utterance_2907) a third sledge stands across the break of the poop in the space hitherto occupied by the after which (utterance_2908) the quantities two and a half tons and the space occupied considerable (utterance_2909) the ship was over two feet by the stern but this will soon be remedyed (utterance_2910) they must perforce be chained up and they are given what shelters afforded on deck but their position is not enviable (utterance_2911) it is a pathetic attitude deeply significant of cold and misery occasionally some poor beast admits a long pathetic wine (utterance_2912) they are generally wanted to on watch which eases matters but it is a squash (utterance_2913) later in the day the wind has veered to the westward heading us slightly (utterance_2914) oats and atkinson with intimate and assistance from others were busy keeping the ponies on their legs (utterance_2915) there was nothing forward but to grapple with the evil and nearly all hands were laboring for hours in the ways of the ship heaving coal sacks overboard and relashing the petral cases et cetera and the best man are possible under such difficult and dangerous circumstances (utterance_2916) no sooner was some semblance of ordery store than some exceptionally heavy way would tear away the lashing and the work had to be done all over again (utterance_2917) from this moment about four a m the engineering became the centre of interest (utterance_2918) the water gained in spite of every effort (utterance_2919) the outlooker paid grim (utterance_2920) the amount of water which was being made with the ship so roughly handled was most uncertain (utterance_2921) williams had to confess he was beaten and must draw fiers what was to be done (utterance_2922) the bills prompt is depended on the main engine (utterance_2923) on one occasion i was waste deep and standing on the rail of the poop (utterance_2924) the after god were organized in two parties by evans to work buckets the men were kept steadily going on the choked hand pumps this seemed all that could be done for the moment and what a magic account is the sole safe god of the ship from sinking practically an attempt to bail or out (utterance_2925) occasionally a heavy sea would bear one of them away and he was only save by his chain (utterance_2926) now this is how author hunted the stag (utterance_2927) and the last dog that was let loose was a favorite dog of arthur caval was his name (utterance_2928) then they sounded the death horn for slinging and they all gathered out (utterance_2929) one wished that it should be given to the lady best be loved by him and another to the lady whom he loved best (utterance_2930) and after midday they beheld an unshapy little man upon a horse and after him a dame or a damsel also on horseback and after her a knight of large stature bowed down and hanging his head low and sorrowfully and clad in broken and worthless armor (utterance_2931) i know not who they are said he but i know said glenarva this is the knight whom geranne pursued and me thinks that he comes not here by his own free will (utterance_2932) but geronite has overtaken an avengy insult to the maiden to the uttermost (utterance_2933) lady said he at the gate there was a knight and i saw never a man of so pitiful an aspect to look upon as he (utterance_2934) i do said he he tells me that he is ederan the son of nod (utterance_2935) then she replied i know him not (utterance_2936) sir glenarva went to the gate to meet him and he entered (utterance_2937) and derange greets thee well and in greeting thee he compelled me to come hither to do thy pleasure for the insult which thy maiden received from the dwarf nor where did he overtake thee (utterance_2938) sir said she when thinkest thou that gerant will be here (utterance_2939) to morrow lady i think you will be here with the maiden (utterance_2940) i am lord said he and i have met with much trouble and received wounds unsupportable (utterance_2941) well that arthur from what i hear it be whose gwinever to be merciful towards thee (utterance_2942) the mercy which thou desirest lord said she will i grant to him since it is his insulting to thee that an insult should be offered to me as to thyself (utterance_2943) thus will it be best to do said arthur let this man have medical care until it be known whether he may live (utterance_2944) to gwenver earn her hand midden said he (utterance_2945) and the steward of the household so auditor (utterance_2946) and being young he changed himself and grew to hate the sin that seemed so like his own of maudred otta's nephew and fell at last in the great battle fighting for the king (utterance_2947) and when gerans came to the place where one of her was he saluted her (utterance_2948) then they went in and dismounted (utterance_2949) heaven protect thee said arthur and the welcome of heaven be unto thee (utterance_2950) and inasmuch as thou hast vanquished edneron the son of nud thou hast had a prosperous career (utterance_2951) and from that time she became his wife (utterance_2952) and the maiden took up her abode in the palace and she had many companions both men and women and there was no maiden more steamed than she in the island of britain (utterance_2953) and the year and a second and a third he proceeded thus until his fame had flown over the face of the kingdom (utterance_2954) and he greets thee well as an uncle should greet his nephew and as the vassal should greet his lord (utterance_2955) and the neighboring chiefs knowing this grow insolent toward him and covet his land in possessions (utterance_2956) an author told you i ain't the cause of the mission and of the coming of the ambassadors to him out of conwell truly said durrain be it to my advantage or disadvantage lord i will do according to thy will concerning the cembassy (utterance_2957) what discourse said glenarva do i hear between you (utterance_2958) said durrance i think i shall have enough of knighthood with me and they set forth (utterance_2959) and never was this seen a fair a host journeying towards the severn (utterance_2960) and he said to durrance i am a feeble and an aged man and whilst i was able to maintain the demands for thee and for myself i did so (utterance_2961) and every one asked that which he desired (utterance_2962) and they were not long in giving so eager was every one to bestow gifts and of those who came to ask gifts none departed unsatisfied (utterance_2963) then jerrains and ambassador basis to the men of cornwall to ask them this (utterance_2964) and they also that it would be the fullness of joy and honour to them for geranne to come and receive their homage (utterance_2965) so he received the homage of such as were there (utterance_2966) and the day after the followers of arthur intended to go away (utterance_2967) a number of other days were observed with a christian church of various times as the birthday of jesus the goss was given no date and appeared to be quite uncertain really ignorant about it (utterance_2968) yet there is no evidence that he was born on that day (utterance_2969) why this discrepancy in the historical document to say nothing about inspiration (utterance_2970) again mattie says that to escape the evil designs of herod marian joseph with the infant jesus fled into egypt lukes has nothing about this hurried flight nor of herod's intention to kill the infant and sigh ah (utterance_2971) when we come to the more important chapters about jesus we meet with quitter difficulties (utterance_2972) while it is always on a friday that the crusphicians commimerated the week in which the day occurs very shrewd a year (utterance_2973) good friday falls not before the spring equinox but as soon after the spring equinox is the full moonlouse thus making the calculation to depend upon the position of the sun and the zobeik and the faces of the moon (utterance_2974) the pagan austeria has become a christian easter (utterance_2975) that in the absence of evidence origin offers a following metaphysical arguments against the sceptical senses one (utterance_2976) if we are to have any mythology at all he seems to argue why object to adding to it the miss of jesus (utterance_2977) the immediate companions of jesus appear to be on the other hand as mythical as he is himself (utterance_2978) who was matthew it was marked (utterance_2979) who were john peter judas and mary (utterance_2980) there is actually no evidence that they ever existed (utterance_2981) if peter ever went to rome with a new doctrine how is it that no historian has taken note of him (utterance_2982) here again we see the presence of a myth (utterance_2983) he was the only one who saw them (utterance_2984) peter paul john james judith's occupied a stage almost exclusively (utterance_2985) it is impossible to explain why the contemporaries of jesus the authors and the historians of this time do not take notice of him (utterance_2986) for they had been in a conspiracy against him (utterance_2987) houses his unanimous signs be accounted for (utterance_2988) how then are we to decide which other innumerable candidates for divine honours should be given our votes (utterance_2989) and such a faith is never free it is always maintained but a sword now and by hell far hereafter (utterance_2990) if the most impossible utterances are put in jesus mouth (utterance_2991) only a mythical jesus could virtually hand over the gum of the eavers the quarters who have petitions to press upon his attention (utterance_2992) moreover if jesus could keep his promise there would be to day no misery in the world no orphans no childless mothers no shipwrecks no floods no famines no disease no crippled children no insanity no wars no crime no wrong (utterance_2993) heavy's prayers been answered (utterance_2994) how many self delude profits these extravagant claims have produced (utterance_2995) and who can number the bitter disappointments caused by such impossible promises (utterance_2996) the saying which a preacher's of to day give he paried his answer with many words and at length said that the promise was we taken with the provision that what we asked for would be given if god thought it for our good (utterance_2997) but he said if you ask anything in my name i will do it and if it were not so i would have told you (utterance_2998) did he not mean just what he said (utterance_2999) self effort and not prayer is a remedy against ignorance slavery poverty and moral degradation (utterance_3000) but i am determined not only to know if it is possible the whole truth about jesus but also to communicate that truth to others (utterance_3001) but there is more of a moral tonic in the open and candid discussion of a subject like the one in hand than in the multitude of platitudes (utterance_3002) i never deliver a lecture in which i do not either directly or indirectly if full and free expression to my faith and everything that is worthy of faith (utterance_3003) if i do not believe in dogma he is because i believe in freedom (utterance_3004) oh he tears down but he is not built up is another criticism about my work it is not true (utterance_3005) no preacher of priests is more constructive (utterance_3006) class in truth and in jail yeg in the mouth of a student is that building up or tearing down (utterance_3007) when brindle lighted a new torch to increase the lie of the world what was his foreword the stake (utterance_3008) count your rites political religious social intellectual and tell me which of them was conquered for you by the priest (utterance_3009) i wish to tell you something (utterance_3010) the first list be impersonal the epithets irreverent blasphemer atheist and infidel are flung at a man not from pity but from envy (utterance_3011) not having the courage or the industry of our neighbor who works like a busy bee in the world of men and books searching with the sweat of his brow for the real bread of life push into the wee hours of the night his quest animated but the fairest of all loves the love of truth we ease our own indolent conscience by calling him names (utterance_3012) as i approached a city i heard bells ringing and a little later i found the streets astir with throngs of well dressed people in family groups winding their way hither and thither (utterance_3013) looking about me i saw a gentleman in a neat black dress smiling and his hand extended to me with great cordiality (utterance_3014) he must have realized i was a stranger and wished to tender his hospitality to me i accepted it gratefully i clasped his hand he pressed mine (utterance_3015) we gazed for a moment slightly into each other's eyes (utterance_3016) of course you are going there too i said to my friendly guide (utterance_3017) yes he answered i conduct the worship i am a priest (utterance_3018) an idol i whispered taken by surprise (utterance_3019) they worship god they did not exist (utterance_3020) but the greeks loved their gods i protested my heart clamoring my breast (utterance_3021) no i said in a low voice (utterance_3022) he was an idol then and not a god (utterance_3023) it made athens a sea of light it created the beautiful the true the good yes our religion was divine (utterance_3024) it had only one fault and droked my guide what was that (utterance_3025) i inquired without knowing what his answer would be it was not true (utterance_3026) produce him (utterance_3027) i was with me to myself what blasphemy (utterance_3028) then taking heart i told my guide how more than once i had felt apollo's radiant presence in my heart and told him of the immortal lines of homer concerned the divine apollo (utterance_3029) do you doubt homer (utterance_3030) i said to him homer the inspired bard (utterance_3031) no no a pole is not an idol (utterance_3032) he is a god and the son of a god (utterance_3033) the air was heavy with incense a number of men in gorgeous vestments were passing to and fro bowing and kneeling before the various lights and images (utterance_3034) observing my anxiety to understand the mean of all this my guide took me aside and in a whisper told me that a people were celebrating the anniversary of the birthday of their readerful saviour jesus the son of god (utterance_3035) forget apollo he said with his objection of severitt in his voice (utterance_3036) there was no such person he was only an idol (utterance_3037) if you would assert for apollo and all the universe you would never find any one answering to his name or description (utterance_3038) i want to see jesus i hasten turning toward him (utterance_3039) will he not be here this morning (utterance_3040) will he not speak to his worshippers i asked again (utterance_3041) will he not permit them to touch him to caress his hand to class his divine feat to inhale the embrosial fragrance of his breath to bask in the golden light of his eyes to hear the music of his immaculate accents (utterance_3042) i asked my eyes filled with wonder in my voice quivering with excitement (utterance_3043) would not that then i venture to ask impatiently make uses as much of an idol as apollo (utterance_3044) and if faith it jesus is a god proves him a god why will not faith in apollo make him a god (utterance_3045) amid his offensive explanation of a given phenomenon (utterance_3046) the mind craze for knowledge the child asked questions because of an embornic desire to know (utterance_3047) now and then they came close enough to snap at each other (utterance_3048) with this mythose the brompton man was satisfied and whose developing intelligence realized its inalacracy science was born of that realization (utterance_3049) the myth of a one eyed people live in an india has in replace by act your information concerning the hindus (utterance_3050) and this is precisely the use to which miss having put (utterance_3051) is jesus smith (utterance_3052) there is a man of faculty for fiction (utterance_3053) it thinks less than a guesses (utterance_3054) it is reflection which introduces of the into the mouth of imagination curbing its pace and subdue in its relentless spirit (utterance_3055) we filled a space about and over us with spirits fairies gods and other invisible and airy beings (utterance_3056) we come at the rainbow we reach out for the moon (utterance_3057) our feet not really begin to touch the firm ground until we have reached the years of discretion (utterance_3058) science was not born till men had been matured (utterance_3059) grown up people created science (utterance_3060) the cradle is the womb of other fairies and face and mankind (utterance_3061) to scores the first place of science (utterance_3062) religion is the science of the child (utterance_3063) in the discussion of this subject i appeal to the mature not to the child mind (utterance_3064) he is god's mouthpiece and no one may disagree with him (utterance_3065) the only way i may command your respect is to be reasonable (utterance_3066) let us place ourselves entirely in the hands of the evidence (utterance_3067) as intelligent beings we desire to know where this jesus whose worship is not only costing the world millions of the people's money but which is also drawing to his service the time the energies the affections and the devotions and the laborer humanity is a myth or reality (utterance_3068) and again when the artist's following malicorne's advice was a little late in arriving and when saint agnes had been obliged to be absent from those moments of silence full of deep expression which united in one side two souls most disposed to understand each other and who by no means objected to the quite meditation they enjoyed together (utterance_3069) in a word malicorne philosopher that he was though he knew it not had learned how to inspire the king with an appetite in the midst of play and with desire in the assurance of possession (utterance_3070) in this manner therefore without leaving her room and having no confidant she was able to return to her apartment thus removing by her appearance a little tarty perhaps the suspicions of the most determined sceptic (utterance_3071)